Captive Secrets

Book 4: Captive Series

by Fern Michaels

Genres: Small Town & Rural; Romance; Action & Adventure Romance; Historical Romance

Synopsis

A thrilling, unforgettable high seas romance from international bestselling author Fern Michaels. Sometimes a young woman must seize her own destiny. . . Fury van der Rhys is the daughter of Sirena, the beautiful Sea Siren, who rode the high seas as commander of a frigate, plundering the ships of the Dutch East India Company. Brandishing her mother's sword, Fury sets sail for the coast of Africa to challenge Amalie, the gorgeous black-hearted pretender to her mother's legacy, and to fight for the tall, dark-eyed Spaniard they both love and have sworn to have. . . Praise for Fern Michaels and Her Novels "Heartbreaking, suspenseful, and tender." — Booklist on Return to Sender "A big, rich book in every way. . ..I think Fern Michaels has struck oil with this one." —Patricia Matthews on Texas Rich 125,000 Words

Release date: March 20, 2014

Publisher: eClassics

Print pages: 335

Sample

Cadiz, Spain, 1665

Furana van der Rhys fingered the costly material of her ball gown, a gown of her mother’s choosing, with deep sadness. She would wear it this once, and then it would be packed away with all her other worldly possessions. The sadness in her indigo eyes deepened as she gazed around her bedroom. For many years she’d slept in this room, cried in this room, fought and played with her brothers in this same room . . . and always at the end of the day she prayed.

For days now she’d kept herself busy packing up her things in huge brass-bound trunks that would be carried to the attic when she left this house, this room, for the last time. There was very little left now to prove she’d inhabited it all these years, save her comb and brush and the jewelry she would wear for her birthday ball. When the clock struck midnight she’d be twenty-one years old. Parents and old friends would toast her and say good-bye. Only then would she smile.

At noon the next day she would leave for the convent, where she would lead a cloistered life until her death. It was the only thing she’d ever wanted. For years her parents had denied her entrance into the convent, saying she was too young and didn’t know her mind. Finally they’d agreed that she could follow her vocation when she was twenty-one and of age. Just a few more hours. . . .

Fury, as her parents called her, walked away from the elaborate ball gown to stare out at the bright sunshine she loved. She’d been so happy here, growing up with teasing, boisterous brothers, climbing trees, sliding down trellises, and chasing after her siblings as they played game after game.

Doubts assailed her, and immediately she started to finger her rosary. She was doing the right thing, the right thing for her. Only once had she questioned her vocation—when her four brothers were lost at sea aboard the Rana. After their deaths, she was all that was left to her parents; only she could provide grandchildren to carry on the ancient lineage. But the thought of herself with a man—and a child of that union—brought a rush of color to her cheeks. A man, a strange man who would covet her . . . want to make love to her . . . Her lips moved faster, fingers furiously working the beads in her hand.

A fluffy cloud sailed overhead and dimmed the sun for a moment. Fury blinked to ward off tears. Of course she would miss the sun and the bright blue sky. She would miss a lot of things, at first. But she would adapt to the cloistered life, learn to sleep on a straw pallet, adjust to the perpetual gloom of the convent. The vow of silence would be hardest to accept, but that was years away, not until her novitiate was over. She would be ready then.

The rosary at an end, Fury pocketed the beads. If she hurried, she could say another in the chapel before lunch, this one for her parents. It was going to be so hard for them when their only remaining child stepped aboard the ship that would take her back to Java. Will I have the strength to leave, Fury wondered, to say good-bye to those I love with all my heart? She had to trust in God that her leavetaking would be bearable for all of them.

The chapel was small, intimate, built for her mother by her father, who was not of his wife’s faith. It had been a labor of love, and any who entered to worship thought it a beautiful place, peaceful and holy. Fury herself had from her early years kept fresh flowers on the small altar—mostly jasmine, her mother’s favorite. The rosary found its way to her hand, familiar prayers tumbling from her lips. “I believe in God the Father . . .”

Sirena van der Rhys crept close to the chapel, her emerald eyes full of unshed tears. She knew Fury would be inside, but she could not bring herself to cross the threshold. Her daughter, the most precious jewel in her crown, would soon be lost to her forever.

Sirena swallowed past the lump in her throat. Fury was so beautiful. Long-limbed like herself, and with the same tawny skin, but with her father’s indigo eyes and square jaw. She had Sirena’s hair, but Fury’s was thick and curly, cascading down to the small of her back. As a child she had changed her hairstyle seven times a day, delighting in using all manner of jeweled combs and sparkling hairpins. Once she entered the convent, they’d shave her head and make a pillow of her hair.

Sirena raised her eyes heavenward. “Why?” she whispered. “Why are you doing this to me? You’ve taken everything from me—my parents, my firstborn, Miguel. Wasn’t that enough? Five sons I’ve given up to you, and now you’re taking my only daughter. You’re punishing me, aren’t you? For all those years I sailed the seas to avenge my sister and uncle. I renounced you as my God, and now you’re claiming what is yours. What kind of God are you, that you leave me with nothing? Miracles are for other people, not the likes of the Sea Siren, is that it?”

Sirena’s knees buckled and she would have slipped to the floor but for her husband, who had come up silently behind her and now caught her in his arms. “I have no God anymore, Regan,” Sirena whispered to him. “He has forsaken me. I will never say another prayer. Never!” she cried against his shoulder as he carried her away from the chapel entrance to their bedroom at the far end of the casa.

Regan felt his throat constrict as he gently lowered his wife to the bed. Memories of Fury, their beloved little girl, washed over him in wave after wave of anguish. He remembered her birth—during the eye of the worst storm ever to attack Java. It had been a difficult labor, but he had seen Sirena through it. The child had squalled furiously at the first smack to her bottom. Regan recalled his words from that long-ago time: “This one is a fury, Sirena!” he’d said proudly as the storm descended on Java. When they christened the tiny bundle a month later, it was he who said she was to be called Furana. “So you’ll never forget the Rana,” he’d murmured to his wife. Now he struggled in his mind for the right words to tell her that things would be all right. But he knew they wouldn’t be. He knew this beautiful woman so well, knew her better than he knew himself. The moment Fury left their lives, Sirena would climb into the same shell she’d closed about herself when their other children died. She would be lost to him. And when that happened, his own will to live would shrivel and die.

Sirena met her husband’s anxious gaze with shimmering, tear-filled eyes. She knew him so well, knew exactly what he was thinking, and she wanted so much to say the words he needed to hear. She loved this man with every breath in her body. He was so handsome, with his fair hair and bronze skin. Her Dutchman. They’d gone to hell and back and survived, but this . . . At last she shook her head and smiled at him.

“I’m all right now, darling,” she said, brushing away her tears. “And I promise that I won’t put you through any more misery. In the past my grief consumed me, but I won’t let it happen again. When we sail for the Americas tomorrow at sundown, this life will be behind us. You have my word. Come, now we must get ready for dinner. Fury will be waiting for us.”

Regan was almost dizzy with relief at his wife’s words. And when Sirena reached up and kissed him full on the lips—a long, lingering kiss—his pain melted away, and he forgot everything but the love he bore for this, the most beautiful woman in the world.

While the house buzzed and seethed with preparations for her birthday ball, Fury perched on the wide windowsill of the secluded breakfast nook at the back of the house. She loved this sunny spot and her feathered friends waiting outside the window. Fury’s eyes scanned the birds, looking for Gaspar, the wide-winged goshawk she’d found as a wounded nestling and raised with care. Gaspar was always the last to arrive, and he did so with silent fanfare, his wings flapping with authority. The smaller birds, Gaspar’s offspring, took wing and circled overhead until his perch was steady. Fury giggled as they flew down to take positions to the left and right of their impressive sire. She was reminded of a row of soldiers awaiting orders, she the general in command. She clapped her hands and watched in amusement as twenty pairs of eyes turned to watch her expectantly.

“Ladies first.” She smiled as she held out a handful of meat scraps flavored with congealed bacon fat. One by one the birds ate their fill, pecking daintily from the palm of her hand. When they finished she said, “Shoo,” and as one they flew to separate perches in the trees.

Gaspar waited patiently for the words that would signal it was his turn. And as always, it was her scarred arm, thonged with leather, that he perched on—the right one, scored deeply in several places from a long-ago battle to save him from the talons of a huge marauding kite. “For you, my darling,” Fury crooned. “Eat like a gentleman.” And he did, allowing her at the same time to tweak his long beak with her soft touch.

“I’m going to miss you, Gaspar, and all the others, too, but I have to go,” Fury murmured. “I’ll never forget you.” Gaspar cocked his dark head and stared at her with his shiny eyes. “I know you understand everything I say. From the day I saved you, we . . . it must be like that special feeling a mother has when her baby recovers from a sickness after she nurses it through the night. You’ll always belong to me, Gaspar. And you’ll be well taken care of when I’ve gone, that’s a promise. Now it’s time for you to get out of this hot sun. Go, and later I’ll have a special treat for your little ones. Take this to Pilar for now,” she said, holding out two small chunks of bacon fat. Gaspar took both pieces in his talons and flew high into the trees, where Pilar sat with her fresh crop of nestlings. Fury had christened the two tiny birds the moment they’d emerged from their protective shells: Sato and Lago. She had no way of knowing from the vantage point at her bedroom window if the birds were male or female. And she’d never see the little ones take wing for the first time. A single tear dropped to her hand. She would miss them terribly. Another tear fell on her hand as two pairs of dark eyes watched from the branches overhead. Wings flapped and leaves rustled as the young woman wiped away her tears with a lace-edged handkerchief.

“Fury,” Sirena called from beyond the closed bedroom door, “is it safe to come in?”

Fury smiled and opened the door to her mother. “Yes, they’re gone, Mother, dinner is over. I think Gaspar knows I’m leaving. Pilar, too. It makes me very sad.”

It was on the tip of Sirena’s tongue to beg her daughter one more time to change her mind, but she resisted the impulse. Fury loved Gaspar and Pilar as much as she loved her family—in a way, they were part of her family—but she was willing to leave them behind. “The cook will take good care of them, darling.”

“I know, Mother, it’s just that Gaspar is like a child to me. I will worry about him and Pilar, I can’t help it.” She shook her head and sighed. “I’m not very hungry. Would you mind if I walked through the garden for a while?”

“Of course not, go along. But I’d like you to take a nap before the ball. Will you do that for me?”

“Of course, Mother, but only if you promise to take one, too.”

Sirena nodded, not trusting her voice, and gave her daughter a kiss as she left the room.

“She has so many good-byes,” Regan said hoarsely. “Every bird, every animal in the garden, will get a pat and a few words of loving remembrance. My God, Sirena, what did we do wrong to make our daughter want to leave us like this?”

Sirena toyed with the food on her plate and tried to speak past the lump in her throat. “Is it possible we loved her too much? . . . Oh, Regan, we can’t talk about this again, it’s killing me.” Sirena’s eyes flew to the wall above the sideboard in the dining room. Crossed rapiers, hers and Regan’s, gleamed in the filtered sunlight. “He’s punishing me, Regan, you, too. I know you don’t believe in Fury’s God, but this time you must believe me. We’re being punished.”

Regan’s clenched fist pounded the table, causing china and silver to dance in front of their eyes. “I refuse to believe that! I won’t believe some . . . spirit controls our lives, our daughter’s life. I never understood all those holy words you say over wooden beads. It’s demented. If there is a God, why did he allow your sister to be raped and killed? And our sons. What kind of God would allow our flesh and blood to be lost at sea? Why did he allow you to suffer so, and why is he taking Fury from us? How many times you called me a heathen, Sirena, because I don’t believe. Twice now you have renounced this God of yours. Is it going to help matters? Is Fury going to stay with us? The answer is no.”

Sirena lifted her head, her green eyes sparkling dangerously. How many times they’d had this same conversation, and always it ended in anger, with each of them going for their rapiers and threatening the other with death. “Damn you, Regan, not today! I refuse to fence with you.”

“And I have no time to fence with the winner,” came a soft voice from the dining room threshold.

Regan and Sirena whirled about, surprised. Then Sirena laughed, the tense moment between her husband and herself broken . . . which had been Fury’s intention. Always before when husband and wife worked out their hostilities with the rapier, it was the daughter who fenced with the winner. Every bit as artful as Sirena, she also had the stamina and hard-driving determination of Regan. She’d lost only one match, and that had been several years before. Now she was better than ever with a rapier. The cutlass was another story altogether. Her father had worked with her for hours at a time, strengthening her weakened right arm until even he had admitted they were evenly matched.

Fencing was an art, a sport, and Fury excelled at it just as she did at everything. She knew she brought tears to her mother’s eyes when she plucked the strings of her guitar and again when her nimble fingers slid over the spinet that sat in the drawing room. Her voice was trained, thanks to her mother, and she often sang for guests.

They’d given her everything, these wonderful parents, big strapping brothers to love, a fine education, their love, this beautiful casa to live in . . . everything parents gave a child, and now she was casting it all aside.

Sirena gazed warmly into Regan’s eyes. “She’s right, darling, today is not the day to vent our hostilities.” She rose to embrace her husband.

Watching them, Fury smiled. Now she knew exactly what her parents would be doing later instead of fighting.

“I think that I will check on the progress in the ballroom,” she drawled. “Guests should be arriving in a few hours. I want to make sure there are enough fresh flowers.” Sirena winked roguishly at her daughter as she and her husband glided from the room.

As Fury walked through the halls, she thought about her parents and their wonderful life. They loved passionately, quarreled just as passionately, and nothing would ever separate them. They lived and loved for each other. She thought it miraculous the way their love had survived all these years. “There are other kinds of love,” she muttered to herself as she picked a wilted leaf from a flower arrangement. Love had to be more than just physical—passion-bruised lips, sweaty bodies, touching and caressing. . . When she was fifteen her mother had tried to explain about that side of it, but she’d felt too much shame to listen. That had been a mistake. She should have tried to understand instead of harboring such wicked imaginings. Right now, this very second, her parents were probably. . . touching, feeling, kissing . . . Swallowing hard, she ran down the corridor like a wild boy past her parents’ bedroom. Face flaming, she made her way to the pond in the garden, where she dropped to her knees and splashed cool water on her burning cheeks.

The air around her churned as Gaspar and Pilar, their huge wings creating an umbrella over her, finally settled on her shoulders. Fury sighed. “You always know when something is troubling me, don’t you, Gaspar? Pilar, you get back to those babies right now, do you hear me? I’m fine. Gaspar, make her go back, the babies might tumble from the nest.”

Gaspar daintily moved on her shoulder until one large wing nudged Pilar. Pilar tucked her head down and pecked Fury’s cheek before she took wing.

“You have to be stern with her, Gaspar, she’s a mother now. You must make sure nothing happens to the little ones. It’s your responsibility to care for them until they can fly themselves. Look at me. Tomorrow I leave this nest and head for Java. It’s time for me to leave and be on my own, to find my destiny. It’s been so wonderful, but all things must come to an end. Come here, Gaspar, I need to hold you, to feel the beat of your heart, to know I’m the one who has saved you so that you could find Pilar and . . . and . . . make . . . babies like Sato and Lago. It’s natural that this should happen for you, for others, but not for me. I promised myself to God, so these worldly emotions are not for me. You can go now,” Fury cooed. “Go ahead, I’m fine now. Pilar will peck your eyes out if you don’t behave yourself.”

“Haw!” the huge bird squawked. Fury laughed as Gaspar flew toward the trees. “Haw!” his mate answered. Everyone, even the birds, had someone.

Fury flirted with her image in the mirror, twirling this way and that way to assess the effects of the costly gown on her lithe figure. Miss Antonia was to be congratulated: with this particular dress, the seamstress had achieved perfection. Her mother had chosen the design, but she had picked the color, a deep azure blue that complemented her indigo eyes and honey coloring. She loved the deep cleavage and the way the dress fell away from her tiny waist in deep swirls. Miniature seed pearls and sparkling gemstones were randomly sewn over the gown and along the length of the hem and sleeves, winking and shimmering every time she moved. Her mother would be delighted.

She’d dressed her own hair, piling it high on top of her head with ebony ringlets curling and feathering about her ears and neck. A veritable waterfall of diamonds graced her ears and slender throat. She would be the belle of this particular ball—her parting gift to her mother and father. They expected her to enjoy herself, to dance with all the eligible gentlemen and to flirt shamelessly. And she would; it wasn’t too much to ask, and she was more than willing to create one last memory for her parents.

She was ready with minutes to spare, enough time to add just a smidgin of color to her lips and cheeks. Next she eyed the sparkling diamond garter her mother had given her when she was seventeen. It was decadently wicked, but as long as she was going through all the motions, she might as well put it on.

She braced one long, tawny leg on the dressing table bench and secured the garter a few inches above her knee. It fit as perfectly as it had the day of her seventeenth birthday. Cheeks awash with color, she walked to the mirror, skirts in hand, and stared at the precious gems adorning her thigh and felt a rush of heat through her body. She turned from the mirror in time to see Gaspar land daintily on the window ledge, his talons securing his position. “Haw.”

“My sentiments exactly,” Fury said, quietly letting her skirts drop. “I don’t like the way this makes me feel, Gaspar. It . . . it makes me feel . . . so . . . sinful.

“I can’t wear this,” she muttered. “I don’t know what Mother was thinking of when she gave it to me.” In a frenzy she released the catch of the garter and threw it on the bed, where it shimmered like a snakeskin. Her color still high, she ran to the basin of water on her nightstand to wash her hands.

“Lord, forgive my sinful thoughts. I’m trying to do . . . to act . . . I’ll never think such thoughts again,” she gasped.

“Gaspar, Gaspar,” she said, an hour later tripping over to the huge bird. “You’ve never seen me looking like this, have you? At first I felt rather silly, as though I were dressing up in Mother’s clothes, but now . . . I rather like the way I look. It’s just for this one night,” she said, stroking the bird’s velvety feathers.

His perch secure, the bird dipped its head and pecked at the dangling diamonds in her ear. Fury smiled. “I saw your babies fly. You should have warned me somehow, Gaspar. They were wobbly, but Pilar was right behind them. It was wonderful. Tomorrow they will fly farther and the day after still farther. The basket was a good idea, one of my better ones,” Fury cooed to the hawk. “They all told me Pilar wouldn’t make her nest in it because I touched it, but I knew better because you carried it to the trees for her. I feel like crying, Gaspar, and I don’t know why. I’m going to miss you and this house and everyone. Part of me doesn’t want to leave, that little part of me I’m selfishly withholding from God. That small part that is me, Furana. I want to give entirely of myself, but—” One large wing fluttered and opened to spread over Fury’s dark head. For a moment she allowed herself to lean against the bird’s hard chest. “Don’t forget about me, Gaspar,” she choked. “I must go now. I’m going to be late.”

The hawk’s eyes never left the girl until the door closed behind her. “Haw, haw, haw!” he screeched. An answering sound echoed down from the basket perched high in the breadfruit tree. The bird’s talons dug deep into the chair back as his huge wings lifted outward. He swooped about the room, heading straight for Fury’s bed. His talons dug into the coverlet until his grasp on the diamond garter was secure. His surge through the open window was swift and sure as he soared upward to his mate. “Haw, haw!”

“My God, Regan, she’s a vision of beauty,” Sirena whispered as Fury entered the ballroom.

Speechless, Regan stared at his daughter. She looked exactly like her mother. He wanted to say something, to compliment this child of his, but as always at moments like this, his tongue stuck to the roof of his mouth.

Fury assumed her position in the receiving line, and the formality of her birthday ball began. She smiled charmingly, every inch her mother’s daughter as she greeted the guests who’d come to wish her well. When the last guest sailed through the flowered archway, Regan raised his hand to the musicians, their signal to start the music. Instantly a handsome young man claimed Fury and whisked her onto the dance floor.

“She’s more graceful when she fences, don’t you think?” Regan observed to Sirena as he saw his daughter stumble over her partner’s foot.

“She gets her clumsiness from you,” Sirena muttered. “We Spanish are light of foot, graceful, and demure.” Regan chuckled as his wife glided away to mingle with her guests.

“Sirena, my dear, however did you manage all this?” Dona Louisa asked as she waved her arms about the flower-decked ballroom.

Sirena smiled and squeezed her friend’s arm. “With a great deal of patience, Louisa,” she said. “The flowers were brought in this afternoon from the greenhouses. I wanted to make sure they didn’t wilt. Darling, you must try some of the rum punch we’ve laid out; it’s a family recipe—Oh, there’s Don Carlos. I must speak to him, Louisa. We’ll talk more later, I promise.” With that, Sirena hurried off into the crowd.

She had to admit that the great ballroom did look like something out of a fairy tale, with the monstrous crystal chandeliers and matching sconces that winked and twinkled with the dancers’ movements. The musicians were dressed in impeccable white with crimson cravats and cummerbunds that set off the scarlet blooms surrounding the dais where they strummed their guitars. They were playing a lovely ballad, and more couples swirled onto the dance floor in time to the music.

Sirena moved to the rear of the room to check the serving tables. Her practiced eye told her everything was in order. The Spanish lace that had been in her family for ages was pressed and draped to perfection on the long tables, and she knew the linen skirts under the fine lace held no wrinkles either. Satisfied that the dining room and buffet tables could not be improved upon, she turned and peered over the heads of a young couple ready to move onto the dance floor. Fury whirled by in the arms of a dashing young man who devoured her with the eyes of a puppy, warm and adoring.

Catching sight of her mother, Fury grimaced, either at her own clumsiness on the dance floor or at her partner’s obvious devotion. Sirena winked at her daughter to show she understood perfectly and then lost sight of her as the crush of dancing couples swallowed them up. Suddenly, Sirena found herself blinking back tears, and she hurried away.

When Fury lost sight of her mother, she returned her attention to the engaging young man in her arms. Ramon was everything a girl could wish for—charming, well brought up, and classically handsome, with olive-toned skin and ink-black eyes. He was also sweating profusely, and at last Fury took pity on him. “It’s beastly hot in here, Ramon, would you like a breath of air? I know I would.”

“Yes, yes, I would,” he replied eagerly, his heart beginning to pound as she linked her arm in his to lead him off the dance floor and through the wide double doors to the veranda. If only he could kiss her, hold her face in his hands and kiss her until . . . He stumbled, and Fury’s tinkling laugh made him bolt for the open door.

“What is it, Ramon, do you feel faint?” Fury asked as she noticed the young man’s trembling shoulders.

He hated Fury’s sisterly tone. “No, it’s just that I—I had this sudden urge to . . . kiss you in there,” he said, waving toward the ballroom. “You look so beautiful, carida. Everyone always said your mother was the most beautiful woman in Cadiz,” he blurted out, “but they’re wrong, you are.”

Fury stepped backward, aware suddenly that the air about them was no longer still. Trees rustled overhead, a familiar sound. Gaspar was close, probably perched on the veranda roof observing her. She craned her neck to peer past the lanterns that were strung along the sloping roof.

“What is it?” Ramon asked, looking about uneasily.

“Nothing, why do you ask?” she replied, her eyes searching past the lantern light for some sign of the hawk. “You said you wanted to kiss me; well, here I am.” At twenty-one, Fury had yet to be kissed. Now she decided it was time. She moved closer to her young man, holding up her head, eyes closed, and puckering her lips in a classic pose of breathless anticipation.

Ramon swallowed, his Adam’s apple bobbing in excitement as he licked at his dry lips nervously. He reached out and grasped Fury’s shoulders with both hands.

How long did it take to kiss someone? Fury wondered peevishly—and then a sudden rush of air in the warm evening startled her. She knew it was not Ramon.

Her eyes snapped open the next moment as she heard the sound of wings. Gaspar and Pilar swooped down from the veranda roof, and there was nothing playful about their descent. In the lantern light she could see the birds’ glittering eyes as the tips of their huge wings bombarded Ramon, knocking him over the veranda railing. Fury knew instantly that the birds were merely warning the young man: their talons were curled; otherwise they would have ripped Ramon to shreds. But he knew nothing of the kind.

Forgetting herself, Fury hiked up her skirts and leapt over the railing. “No!” she shouted sternly. “Gaspar, no! Pilar, no! Now look what you’ve done!” She tried to stifle her laughter at Ramon’s ungainly position in the oleander bush. “He’s fainted. No doubt from fright.”

Gaspar circled overhead, his eyes intent on the figure on the ground. “He wasn’t going to hurt me. . .