The Second Sister

by Marie Bostwick

Genres: Women's Fiction

Synopsis

From New York Times bestselling author Marie Bostwick comes an emotionally rich, inspiring new novel about family, second chances, and the connections that bring women together in hope and healing.

Years of long workdays and little sleep as a political campaigner are about to pay off now that Lucy Toomey’s boss is entering the White House. But when her estranged older sister, Alice, unexpectedly dies, Lucy is drawn back to Nilson’s Bay, her small, close-knit Wisconsin hometown.

An accident in her teens left Alice mentally impaired, and she was content to stay in Nilson’s Bay. Lucy, meanwhile, got out and never looked back. But now, to meet the terms of Alice’s eccentric will, Lucy has taken up temporary residence in her sister’s cottage—and begins to see the town, and Alice’s life, anew. Alice’s diverse group of friends appears to have little in common besides an interest in quilting. Yet deep affection for Alice united them, and soon Lucy, too, is brought into the fold as they share problems and stories. And as she finds warmth and support in this new circle, Lucy begins to understand this will be her sister’s enduring gift: a chance to move beyond her difficult past and find what she has long been missing.

Release date: April 1, 2015

Publisher: Kensington Books

Print pages: 368

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November 1, 2016

Wherever I am, in California, Pennsylvania, Ohio, New York, or Texas, as well as those rare occasions when I actually sleep at my spartanly furnished apartment in Denver, the last thing I do before turning out the light is make sure my cell phone is fully charged and within easy reach on the nightstand.

So when the phone rang at 1:48 A.M., I already knew who was calling and why.

“Can’t sleep again?”

“I woke up,” my sister replied. “Freckles jumped off the bed and I had to get up and feed her.”

I shouldn’t sigh when she says things like that, but it’s hard not to.

“Alice. Why don’t you close the door to your room at night? I sent you that nice cat bed. Why can’t the cats sleep out in the living room?”

“But how would I know when Freckles is hungry? Lucy? I was thinking. Why don’t you come home for Christmas this year?” Alice’s voice brightened, as though this brilliant idea, which she had voiced every time we’d talked in the last three weeks, had only just come to her.

I swallowed to banish the dryness in my throat, a side effect of my usual sleep aid, three fingers of single-malt scotch over ice administered shortly before retiring, and then crooked my right arm across my eyes to block out the glow of the streetlamps from the boulevard below.

I keep promising myself that I’m going to buy some drapes to draw over my standard-issue apartment blinds, but I keep forgetting. At this point, it probably isn’t worth the expense. In another week or two, I might be moving. Or not. And if not, everything I’ve done in the last three years has been a complete waste of time.

But I won’t think about that, not now. If I do, I’ll never be able to get back to sleep.

“Alice, we’ve been over this before, remember? We’re going to go someplace warm for Christmas. Maybe Disney World.”

Alice loves Disney World. I took her there for Christmas two years ago and booked us into a room overlooking a man-made savannah populated with African wildlife; giraffes grazed not ten feet from our balcony. Alice was so entranced that I had to coax her to leave the hotel and visit the parks.

“Or maybe,” I said, clearing my throat and then drawing out the phrase, trying to add a tantalizing note to my tone, “depending on how things turn out Tuesday, we could spend Christmas in Washington. The decorations at the White House are gorgeous. The tree in the Blue Room is eighteen feet tall.”

“Is Washington warm?” Alice asked, suspicion creeping into her voice.

“Not in December,” I admitted. “But the National Zoo has pandas. And I could book us into a very fancy hotel with a Jacuzzi. And a spa. We could get pedicures and massages.”

Alice was quiet for a moment. I could tell she was tempted. Alice loves Jacuzzis. And pedicures. And how many times had she told me that, someday, she wanted to see a panda?

A near-drowning accident at the age of eighteen had permanently altered my sister’s intellect, abilities, and personality. But at the core of her being she’s still a Toomey, shackled by the weight of responsibility and the Protestant work ethic. It’s pretty ironic, considering we’re Catholic. Well, Alice is. At this point, I consider myself religiously abstentious. Nothing against it if that’s what works for you, but I choose not to participate.

Of course, Mom was born Lutheran. She converted when she married our father, solemnly promising to raise her children according to the tradition and teachings of the Church of Rome, faithfully following through on her vows. So maybe the whole Protestant work ethic thing came from her side of the family? That made sense and explained why the inexorable pull of duty proved greater to Alice than the promise of pleasure. I wasn’t really surprised.

“I can’t leave Freckles and Dave home again at Christmas,” Alice said. “They get too lonely. You come here, Lucy. We could go to the ice sculpture contest,” she said, adopting the same wheedling tone I’d been using a moment before. “And we could decorate our own tree, a really big one. I still have Mom’s ornaments. You could meet my friends and we could go to midnight mass, with all the candles. It’s so pretty. Lucy, you should go to mass more often.”

As wheedling edged toward scolding, Alice sounded so much like Mom that for a moment it was as if Sally Toomey had risen from her grave and pulled the phone from the hand of her older daughter to give the younger a good talking to.

“I know. But I’ve been very busy,” I said, giving the same excuse I’d always used on Mom. “We’ll go to mass at Christmas, I promise. We can go to the National Cathedral. It’s about twenty times as big as St. Agnes’s and has all kinds of stained glass in the windows.”

The National Cathedral is an Episcopalian congregation, but services there are so formal and the liturgy so similar to the Catholic rite that Alice wouldn’t know the difference. And I love the architecture of the building. It feels more like visiting a museum than going to church, which, as far as I’m concerned, is infinitely preferable.

“No,” Alice said firmly. “I want to have Christmas in Nilson’s Bay. You haven’t been home since the funeral, Lucy. That’s eight years.”

Eight years? Had it really been that long since our parents died?

I did a little calculation in my head, counting back to 2008, a terrible year. The year when both our parents were killed in a freak, single-car accident, also when my boss lost his job and I lost mine in turn and we both returned to Colorado, the year everybody expected him to fade into the background and never be heard from again. Except he hadn’t. I made sure of it.

Sixty-, seventy-, and even eighty-hour workweeks, so many frequent flyer miles logged that I could take Alice on a trip around the world for Christmas, first class, if I wanted, and close to three hundred nights spent in hotel rooms in the previous year alone. No wonder I’ve lost track of the time.

“Lucy? Did you get the card?”

Though I was sometimes annoyed by my sister’s habit of abruptly dropping one topic and taking up another without any kind of transition or lead-in, I was only too happy to suspend discussion of Christmas plans, though I knew we’d revisit the subject during Alice’s next wee-hours wake-up call. It’s the same every year. Alice always wants me to come home for Christmas and I always resist and, in the end, get my way. I know how bad that sounds, but it really is better this way, for both of us. Think of all the things Alice would have missed otherwise. Without my influence, my sister might never have traveled farther than Milwaukee.

And as far as me missing Nilson’s Bay? I don’t. I spent the first stifling eighteen years of my life in Door County, tucked up in the remote reaches of Wisconsin, and don’t need to make a return trip, not ever. Nilson’s Bay never changes. But I have, thank God.

I yawned, my eyes still shut. “What card?”

“The card,” Alice replied, sounding a little testy that I wasn’t following her line of logic. “There’s a picture of a red panda on the front, also known as a lesser panda, which doesn’t seem like a very nice name. I don’t know why they call it a panda at all. It looks more like a fox, a teddy-bear fox. It was hard to draw. I mailed it on Wednesday so it would get there in time for your birthday. Did it?”

“Oh, the card! Yes. Thank you, Allie-Oop,” I said, using our dad’s old nickname for her. “It’s beautiful. I’m going to put it up on the bulletin board at my office with the others.”

Truthfully, I hadn’t opened or even seen Alice’s birthday card or, until this moment, remembered that today is my birthday. When I came home from my final East Coast swing, not quite three hours before, I poured myself a scotch and sat staring at nothing while I consumed it, trying to empty my head and calm down enough to sleep, then got undressed, plugged in my phone, and collapsed into bed without bothering to open the mail or even my suitcase. I’d look for it tomorrow and, just as I promised, pin it to a bulletin board alongside her other drawings.

The fact that Alice’s ability to draw was not impaired and has even improved since the accident is one of the oddities of my sister’s condition. In many ways, she’s just like anyone else. People meeting her for the first time, people who don’t know what she was like before, often have no clue that anything is amiss with Alice. They just think she’s a little slow. That’s one of the reasons, aside from the obvious career complications it would cause, that I’ve never urged Alice to move in with me. Alice loves Nilson’s Bay; they suit each other. Both are a little slow.

“Will they give you a party at work?” Alice asked.

“No. Maybe a cake,” I said, once again stretching the truth for my sister’s benefit.

At thirty-seven, Alice is seventeen months older than I am, but in regard to certain subjects, including the celebration of birthdays, her mentality is still that of the teenager she’d been at the time of the accident.

“Just a cake?”

“Jenna is taking me out to lunch,” I lied.

“What about the governor? Will he come to lunch too?”

“No.” Much as I know Alice would relish the picture of me enjoying a birthday lunch with the possible next president of the United States, I’m willing to stretch the truth only so far. “He’s too busy. The election is next week, remember?”

“I know. I put a red circle around the date on my calendar so I wouldn’t forget.”

I smiled. “Good. Who are you voting for?”

“Governor Thomas W. Ryland for president of the United States, Lindsay R. Bell for governor of Wisconsin, Charles Skoglund for mayor, and Peter J. Swenson and Arlene Bloom for Village Council.”

“Be sure to tell your friends to vote too.”

“I will.”

I rolled onto my side and opened one eye. The red numbers on my digital clock were blurry without my glasses, but I could still see that it was 2:06 A.M. In two hours and twenty-four minutes the alarm would sound, rousing me for another sixteen-hour workday.

“Alice, I’ve got to go back to sleep now. You should do the same.”

There was a pause on the Wisconsin end of the line, followed by a deep, drawn-out sigh, the kind of worrisome exhalation that I hadn’t heard from her in a long time.

I opened both eyes, wide-awake now. “What’s wrong?”

“Nothing. But . . . Lucy? Are you happy?”

“Sure. Of course I am.” I propped myself up on the pillow. “Are you?”

“I miss you.”

“We’ll see each other soon. Christmas will be here before you know it.”

“I just wish you’d come home for Christmas. I really, really do,” Alice said, a teary rasp in her voice.

I closed my eyes again and rubbed my forehead. I couldn’t deal with this right now. I didn’t have the energy.

“We’ll talk about it later. But not tonight, okay? Let’s wait until after the election.”

Alice went on as if she hadn’t heard me. “Come home. There are things I want to show you, things I want to talk to you about. . . .”

I sighed again, tired of disjointed conversations that lead nowhere and night after night of interrupted sleep.

“What things?”

“Things,” she repeated. “Nilson’s Bay things. It’s not all bad here, Lucy. You’re remembering wrong.”

Remembering wrong? I very much doubted that, but it wasn’t a debate I wanted to have at two in the morning.

“Alice,” I said, “I just got home. I’ve been up for twenty hours straight. I have got to get some rest.”

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay,” I said more gently, regretting my impatience. It wasn’t Alice’s fault. She didn’t want to be like this. “Just go to sleep now, all right?”

“All right. Lucy? Just one more thing. . . .”

I felt my jaw clench. “What now?”

Alice took in a breath and, after a moment, began to sing “Happy Birthday” in a clear, soft soprano. When she was finished, I smiled.

“Thanks. Good night, Allie-Oop.”

“Good night, Lucy.”

After I hung up with Alice, I went right back to sleep, but I didn’t get much rest. I had the dream again.

It begins like it always does. Walking across the edgeless white plain.

No trees. No buildings. No houses. No means to measure the distance I have traveled or the miles yet to come. No way to judge my relative weight or volume within this space. Just hard white earth beneath my feet, hard blue sky turning to starless black above my head. And the shadow that follows me.

No. Not a shadow. More the sense of one, because though I turn around repeatedly, I see nothing. But I know it’s there.

What I’ve left behind is the same as what lies ahead. I have no thought of destination. I keep walking because that’s what I’ve always done and because if I stop to think, the shadow will overtake me.

I take another step, no longer or shorter or harder or softer than the others, and without warning, the white plain beneath my feet cracks like a broken mirror and swallows me whole, plunges me into frigid waters that rob me of breath.

Torpor turns to panic. I thrash and twist, fighting to find my way back to the white-flat world above, breaking briefly through the surface, gasping for air, clawing for purchase at the jagged white teeth of the edge, my hands blue and bloodless, fingernails snapping off as, again, and again, and again, I clutch desperately at the diamond-hard ice until exhaustion overtakes me and I slip beneath the surface.

Terror gives way to surrender, and I begin the descent, unable to breathe or think. I begin to lose feeling in my frozen limbs and my connection with the world above.

The shadow is below me now, shrouding my feet, my legs, my breast, pulling me close, drawing me down. I open my mouth to speed the inevitable, welcome cold, black water into my lungs with my face turned upward in farewell, catching a last look at the fast diminishing circle of light.

And then a hand appears in the center of the circle, frantic fingers opening and closing on empty water, searching. It reaches lower, becomes an arm, brushes against trailing tendrils of my hair and snaps shut, a reflex, and yanks hard, pulling at the roots. I jerk away, a reflex. Pain jolts me from my stupor and I reach up, grab hold, and feel the hand clamp closed over mine.

Just before breaking through, my lidded eyes open wide and through the ripples of troubled water I look up and see Alice.

She has saved me again.

But tonight is different. Tonight the dream doesn’t end there. Though my hair and clothes are still wet, suddenly I’m the one on the surface and Alice is in the water.

I lie prostrate on the ice, arm submerged almost to my shoulder, my frozen fingers pulling frantically on Alice’s arm, straining with all I have to bring her up from the depths. She slips from my grasp. I scream, reach down into the black again, even deeper than before, but I can’t feel anything. I’ve lost her.

I plunge forward, submerging my head and shoulders into icy waters, and see Alice’s face turned toward mine, her eyes placid and blue as she slowly sinks into the shadows, beyond my reach.

And then it is done and I am on the surface again, lying on my back this time, shivering. Everything is like it was before. The world is cold, white, and boundless. The sky is hard blue. The crack in the ice is sealed over and smooth, as though it never existed. Alice is gone.

But the shadow is still with me. And it speaks.

“Where have you been?”

I open my mouth, but can’t answer. A bell rings. The dream splinters.

I sat up, confused and breathless, panting. The bell sounded again, rude and demanding. I reached for the phone, but there was no one there. Finally, I realized the noise was coming from the alarm clock. I leaned across to the far side of the bed, smacked the black button to silence the bell, and then collapsed back against the pillows, taking big breaths and exhaling slowly.

I stared into the middle distance of the darkness, collecting myself, and pressed my hand on my chest to measure the gradual slowing of my pounding heart, thinking about Alice.

I couldn’t go home for Christmas this year, I reasoned. If we won, I’d have to go to Washington to help with the transition. And if we lost—a possibility I never liked to admit, not even to myself—if we lost, I’d need to start looking for a job.

But Alice’s voice was so pleading, so plaintive. And so persistent. She’d never let it go. Alice never let anything go.

Even so, I couldn’t go home for Christmas, not this year. I just couldn’t. I had to make her understand. But . . . maybe next year? Yes. With some advance planning, and as long as it was just for a couple of days, I could do that. I didn’t want to, but I could. I would. For Alice’s sake.

I sat up on the edge of the bed, yawned, and looked at the clock. It was quarter to five, too early to call Alice. I’d tell her later, the next time she called.

Which, I calculated, would be in about twenty hours.

Groaning, I flopped backward onto the mattress and closed my eyes. Just five more minutes.

After five smacks of the snooze button, I finally hauled myself out of bed.

Getting out the ironing board would have required rising after only two snooze cycles, so I pulled the least creased of my standard-issue blue suits from my still unpacked suitcase and hung it on the back of the bathroom door. Hopefully, the steam from the shower would take care of the wrinkles—the big ones. At this point, washing and drying my hair wasn’t an option either, so I took a curling iron to the top layer, fluffed it out with my fingers so it wouldn’t look quite so flat, then did a quick backcomb and spray job to cover up a recently sprouted crop of dark roots, promising myself that I’d go to the salon the minute the election was over and go back to brunette. Pretending to be blond was just too much work.

With wardrobe and hair more or less under control, I turned to makeup and accessories. Humming “A Hard Day’s Night,” my usual predawn anthem, I slathered on a coat of tinted moisturizer, a little blush, and some mascara. I didn’t bother with lipstick. It’d be gone before I finished my first cup of coffee. I put on some earrings and a scarf, slipped my feet into a pair of blue pumps, grabbed my car keys, phone, purse, briefcase, and two cookies to tide me over until I got to the restaurant, and headed out the door.

It was 5:42 in the morning. I was already running late.

Whenever Joe Feeney comes to Denver on business, we meet at Syrup, the best breakfast spot in Cherry Creek, to eat eggs and catch up.

Even with his face shielded behind newspapers, I knew the guy at the corner table was Joe. People in Denver don’t drink Bloody Marys at six A.M. on a Tuesday, and nobody else would be so engrossed in the pages of the Washington Post, with copies of the Wall Street Journal, the New York Times, and Roll Call sitting at the ready. Joe, who began as a staffer for the late, legendary senator Daniel Patrick Moynihan of New York in the mid-seventies, eventually leaving to open his own lobbying firm in the mid-nineties, is old school and still reads the papers in print.

Hearing my greeting, he lowered his paper.

“Lucy. It’s bad enough that you buy blue suits five at a time off the clearance rack. Couldn’t you at least hang them up at night? Did you sleep in that thing?”

I plopped into a chair and nudged a second one out from the table with my foot so I could dump my purse, briefcase, and coat onto the seat.

“I just got back from New York. Haven’t had a chance to do laundry.”

I reached for the carafe, filled a coffee cup, and gave my order to the waiter without reading the menu. I always get the Kitchen Sink: scrambled eggs and maple-peppered bacon on an open-face biscuit, layered on hash browns, and covered in sausage gravy. Joe ordered a spinach egg-white omelet with wheat toast, dry.

Joe folded up his paper, then unfolded his napkin and laid it over the knife-edge crease of his perfectly pressed pants. I took a muffin from the bakery basket.

“There’s this new thing out there, Lucy—dry cleaners. Heard of them?”

“I have,” I replied, buttering a muffin. “I also heard they charge fifteen bucks to press an outfit you can iron yourself for free.”

“Except you never do.”

Joe stirred his Bloody Mary before taking a bite from the celery stick.

“Not everybody can afford to send their custom-made suits to the cleaners,” I said. “Some of us have to work for a living.”

Washington is full of well-dressed men—lawyers, lobbyists, lawmakers—but even in DC, Joe stands out. His suits come from London and his shoes from Italy. The links in his French cuffs always match his tie, and the snowy-white handkerchief peeking from his pocket matches the thick, perfectly coiffed shock of snowy-white hair on his head. He is as dapper as I am disheveled and twenty-five years my senior. Our only common interests are politics and baseball. And yet, we are friends. In fact, Joe Feeney may be the best friend I have.

I’ve always found it easier to relate to men than to women. Even when I was growing up, the only girl I was really close to was Alice. She always watched out for me. Now I watch out for her, which I’m glad to do. After all, I owe her. But that’s not the same thing as friendship, is it?

Joe is a better listener, and gives better advice on everything from career and romance to nutrition and fashion, than any woman I know. Plus, he doesn’t get his feelings hurt when I choose to ignore that advice. Nor does he gossip. He can hold his liquor and his tongue and looks good escorting me to weddings and New Year’s Eve parties when I’m between boyfriends—what more could I want?

“What’s in the news?” I asked, nodding toward his discarded newspaper. “I didn’t have time to turn on the computer before I left the apartment.”

Joe flipped over a section of the paper and cleared his throat. “It says here that Women for a Better Tomorrow is endorsing Tom Ryland for president. Sounds like somebody had a successful trip to New York.”

I shrugged off his praise. “Getting them to endorse a month ago would have been a success. At this point, it’s just averting disaster.”

“Averting disaster is success,” Joe said. “But you went to New York and calmed everybody down. Disaster averted and Tom Ryland is still in the fight.”

“In it,” I said, shifting back in my seat as the waiter set a plate in front of me, “but trailing by three points.”

Joe gave me a look over the rim of his coffee cup. “Quinnipiac says it’s five.”

“Quinnipiac is wrong. They’re not giving enough weight to the new voter registration. Or to voters under thirty.”

“Voters under thirty don’t show up to the polls.”

“Which is why I’m back in Denver,” I said, cutting into my breakfast, carefully composing a perfect bite, with equal parts egg, bacon, biscuit, and hash brown, before putting my fork in my mouth, “to oversee the final get-out-the-vote push—”

“Should have happened weeks ago,” Joe said, as he took a bite of his overly pale omelet. “But it didn’t because Miles and the rest of those ivory-tower idiots from the party don’t know a thing about retail politics. They spent two point six million on a consultant who told them they needed to buy more yard signs! Do you know how many actual yard signs they could have bought for two point six million?”

“Half a million,” I said, dragging another perfectly composed bite through a pool of gravy, making sure it was evenly coated. “And we do need more.”

“See? You don’t need a consultant to tell you that. If they’d have left you in charge of the ground game instead of sending you off to placate pissed-off women’s groups.... Why waste your talent with that? You don’t even like women.”

“That’s not true. I like women.” I frowned. “I don’t dislike them. Anyway, let’s not play armchair quarterback right now, okay? I’m trying to eat.”

Joe took another sip of his Bloody Mary and stayed silent—for two seconds.

“I’m just saying, if Miles wasn’t such an insecure, egocentric jerk, if he’d been smart enough to keep you in a position where you could play to your strengths—”

“It was my idea to bring Miles on board, remember? Well, maybe not him specifically, but somebody with experience running national campaigns.”

“You’ve worked on tons of campaigns,” Joe said, gnawing on dry toast.

“Six,” I said. “Always for the same candidate. And the first one doesn’t count. I was just a junior staffer answering phones and handing out bumper stickers.”

“And next time you were running the show. What does that say about you?”

“That Ryland couldn’t afford anybody better—that’s what. Listen, it was a small district in Colorado. It’s not rocket science. Shake enough hands and you win. If the sitting governor hadn’t slept with his babysitter, Tom wouldn’t have won.”

“But he did,” Joe countered. “You were successful in four out of six races. If you were playing baseball, you’d be an all-star.”

“In the minor leagues. Triple A. Maybe double.”

Joe drained the bloody dregs of his glass and munched morosely on his celery stump, but kept eyeing the muffins. I thought about taking the last one, just to torture him, but decided it would be too cruel.

“Does Ryland understand what he has in you?” he asked. “You’re the one who got him in the race to begin with. You’re the one who came up with the strategy that brought him in second in the Iowa caucuses!”

“Strategy?” I laughed. “Please. You mean the five-point plan I scribbled on the back of a cocktail napkin from that dive bar in Georgetown? We didn’t come second in Iowa because of strategy; we just worked harder. You can do that in a caucus. Again, not rocket science. And as I recall, when I first showed you my plan, you said it would never work and called me some very unflattering names.”

“Yeah. And then I wrote a two-thousand-dollar check to the Ryland Presidential Exploratory Committee. None of this would have happened without you, Lucy. Tom Ryland might not know that, but I do.”

I held the bakery basket out to him. “Thank you. The last muffin is yours.”

“I’m serious, Luce. What is it you see in him?”

“In Tom?” I asked, confused by the question and that Joe should be the one asking it. “Well, he’s a strong leader. Always on the right side of the issues that matter, puts people ahead of party. After years of political divisiveness, Americans are ready for a new kind of leadership. He’ll bring the country together again and—”

Joe rolled his eyes. “Yeah, yeah,” he said. “I don’t need to hear you spout the latest campaign commercial. What do you see in him? Are you in love with him?”

“In love?” I let out a short, sharp laugh.

He leaned closer and lowered his voice. “Seriously, did you sleep with him? Are you sleeping with him? You can tell me.”

“Joe!” I hissed, feeling a flush of heat on my face and neck. “No! Absolutely not! How can you even ask me a thing like that?”

“Sorry.” He shrugged. “I wasn’t trying to insult you. I just don’t get it. Anybody else would have bailed after what they did to you post–New Hampshire.” He took the muffin, broke it in two, and put one half on my plate. “I thought maybe you had a crush on him or something.”

“A crush? What am I? Twelve?” I gave him a pointed look and bit into my muffin half. “You still think of me as a green kid from Wisconsin.”

“Naw.” Joe broke his muffin half into four parts and started eating them one at a time. “You’re a long way from that earnest, young legislative aide I met thirteen years ago, talking about the marvel of democracy, ordering strawberry daiquiris, and expecting people to take her seriously.” He smiled. “But in some ways, you’re still that girl. You still care. You still believe that public service is a noble calling and that it’s better to fight and lose than not to fight at all.”

“Well, it is,” I said defensively. “Don’t you think it is?”

“Not the way you do. Not anymore. That’s one of the things I like about you, Lucy. You remind me of my better self. You know what else you remind me of?” he asked, sliding the butter dish across the table and applying the last of it to his muffin. “One of those chicken things my sister’s kids always get at Easter. The ones nobody ever eats? And then, three weeks later, they end up in the trash?”

“You mean Peeps? I remind you of marshmallow Peeps?”

Joe, his mouth full of muffin, raised a finger and bobbed his head.

“Peeps!” he exclaimed after swallowing. “That’s it! You remind me of Peeps. Take them out of the protective packaging—the sheltered girlhood in rural Wisconsin—expose them to the air and elements—the harsh reality of partisan politics—and they develop this tough, thick skin. But when you break them open . . .”

“. . . they’re all sweet and squashy inside. I get it. That’s the dumbest analogy ever. Having ideals doesn’t mean you’re a marshmallow any more than staying on a campaign after they demote you means you’re sleeping with the candidate.”

“Fair enough. So you’re not in love with Tom Ryland. Who are you in love with?”

I scowled at him. I was getting really tired of this.

“I’m seeing Terry Boyle. You know that.”

“The media consulta