Good. Then she shuts her laptop.
Sometime after three A.M., Emma awakens to see a man standing in the darkened corner of her bedroom. He’s mostly obscured by the door’s angular black shadow.
She blinks, expecting the figure to vanish like a fading dream.
He’s still there.
She focuses her eyes and the room sharpens. A ray of moonlight catches a rumple of coat fabric on the apparition’s shoulder. A fold of flabby neck flesh. And the rim of a hat. Like something a gangster might wear in an old-timey film.
Staring at her.
Watching her sleep.
She doesn’t dare move. Not even a toe. If he sees that she’s awake, the fragile moment will shatter. He’ll spring forward and slice her throat or gouge out her eyes or worse. She blinks again, trying to find more detail in the darkness, trying not to open her eyes too noticeably wide.
The figure doesn’t move, either.
She realizes she’s holding her breath. Her lungs burn. She draws in a mouthful of air as quietly as she can, a gentle hiss between her teeth. She wonders if he can hear it.
How long has he been standing there, watching me?
The room teeters on a knife-edge.
Emma lives alone. This bedroom is on the second floor. Her phone is charging downstairs. There are no guns in the house. And no neighbors close enough to hear her scream. She considers hurling off the blankets now, jumping to her feet and bolting past the stranger and down the stairs. But it’s still too dark to be certain. He might still be just a hanging coat, she tells herself. An illusion.
To her left, there’s a bedside lamp with a pull chain. She slides her hand toward it, inching her fingers under the bedsheets like a serpent underwater.
Silence.
The figure hasn’t moved. And he hasn’t seen her hand move—not yet, at least. Emma shuts her eyes and focuses on the ambient sounds. The low roar of the waves. The rattle of raindrops on roof shingle. She tries to locate the stranger’s breathing or the flex of his coat, but he’s eerily quiet. She braces for the creak of a floorboard announcing his first step toward her bed. It never comes.
One, she counts. Her hand slides free of the blanket now, her fingers spider-crawling up the cold porcelain. Feeling for the chain.
Two.
She finds it. A dry click between her fingers. Did he hear that? If so, he still hasn’t attacked. No motion.
Three?
She’s afraid to break the stillness. But she swallows her fear. She’s fully awake now, her muscles tense under the sheets, and she must be ready. No excuses.
Three.
She tugs the chain. A nuclear flash. She winces in a blaze of light and throws the blankets left while heaving her body right, landing hard on bare feet. She spins—elbows up for defense—and kicks into a sprint for the bedroom door. As she hurtles toward it, she glimpses the spot where the hat-wearing stranger had been standing, now a bare wall.
He’s gone.
She’s alone in the bright bedroom.
Was he even there?
E
mma tries to fall back asleep but can’t.
She decides to clear the house room by room.
First, the upper floor—a master bedroom, a bathroom with dual vanities, and a walk-in closet. She checks every corner, every shadow, every gap where an intruder might lurk.
Upper floor: clear.
Then downstairs. The main floor is daunting—a cavernous family space plus an open kitchen and dining area exposed to the outside by three walls of floor-to-ceiling glass. Part beach house, part aquarium. Then two bedrooms, a bathroom, and a laundry room with a chute to the upstairs. Long sight lines, yet honeycombed with dangerous hiding places. She opens every door and scans every square inch. She methodically flicks on lights as she goes, creating a growing safe zone of light. It’s satisfying, like claiming territory.
First floor: clear.
One level left.
“Fuck this basement.”
A staircase leads down into a mouth of darkness. She stops in the doorway, inhaling the cave-like odor. A few steps down, the stairs take a ninety-degree turn under a low copper pipe, noticeably rust-eaten. Even at five-foot-three, Emma has to stoop. Then ten steps deeper, whiffing mildew and mouse scat, like entering the house’s stomach. At the bottom her bare feet touch cement foundation, slick with moisture.
It’s always damp down here. Basements are rare near beaches for this very reason. Even with a sump pump, as in this house, it’s impossible to keep a coastal basement dry. The only light downstairs is controlled by a plastic outlet on the concrete wall to her left—too dark to see. She’s feeling for it with outstretched fingertips when something moves behind her. A current of air touches her exposed lower back. She recognizes it immediately, the warmth of it. It’s an exhaled breath.
She recoils with surprise and her elbow bumps a shelf. Some heavy object drops to the cement, a sound as earsplitting as a gunshot.
She’s lost the light switch. Total darkness.
The next breath is just inches behind her. It’s deeper, almost snotty. A cold nose presses wetly against her bare skin.
“Laika,” Emma whispers, “you are the worst guard dog on earth.”
She finds the switch. Let there be light.
Laika is a golden retriever, but she isn’t quite golden. She’s an English cream breed with a near-white coat, because of which onlookers often mistake her for a white Lab or a Great Pyrenees. Emma crouches now to ruffle the silky fur under Laika’s ears. “You would have barked if Ted Bundy was inside the house. Right?”
Black eyes answer
her. Flat, dumb, and eager.
“Right?”
Nothing.
“Right?”
Behold the void.
Maybe not a bark, Emma decides. But friendly-to-a-fault Laika would have followed an intruder upstairs, eagerly nudging his thigh for attention. She’s feeling better now. The figure in her bedroom was just a leftover fragment of a nightmare.
Basement: clear.
Emma is perfectly alone. The way she likes it. This solitary house—ten feet above sea level, three hundred from high tide—is her safe vessel, a tiny pinprick of light on a vast shore. Sometimes she looks out the windows and imagines she’s the last survivor on earth. Only voided sky, miles of dune grass, and the dull crash of the breakers beyond.
On the main floor, she verifies that the front and back doors are locked (they are) and that every window is untouched (they are, impeccably). After that, what can you do? An intruder couldn’t have escaped without tripping the perimeter of motion-sensor lights outside. Still, she keeps the interior lights on while the Pacific sky grays with dawn. Even with every room searched and her golden retriever’s keen senses on her side, she still has to remind herself that the stranger can’t possibly be locked inside the house with her.
Back upstairs, she’d hoped the bedroom lamp would reveal her own clothes draped carelessly over a chair where the figure had stood, or a raincoat hanging scarecrow-like. But there is just a bare wall. And she knows she saw the rim of a hat.
Right?
She brews ginger tea and studies the windows, trying to focus her eyes on both the foggy coast outside and the room’s interior reflection, half expecting to notice the figure standing behind her in a violin-screeching jolt. She’s seen that movie before.
She pours Laika a bowl of food. The retriever sniffs at it indifferently.
“I know,” Emma says. “I’m not hungry, either.”
By the afternoon, she has read two more e-books from start to finish. One decent, one quite good. They’re quick hits, four hours apiece, comfortable little dioramas with flawed detectives and quirky suspects and bloodless murders. Red herrings. Tragic backstories. She already has another downloaded for the evening. It’s nice to submerge yourself in someone else’s world, to luxuriate in the handcrafted details and admire the false ceilings. In happier times Emma liked to read Tolstoy
and Dostoevsky, and she knows she’s slumming on Amazon’s bargain and free listings. She’s not reading for pleasure, exactly, or enrichment—but then again, there’s nothing wrong with reading to escape, is there?
At the end of each, Amazon prompts her to write a review.
She declines.
She’s forgotten the name of that weird author, but the experience still needles her. She rarely engages with strangers, even online. Since she arrived on this beach three months ago, she’s taken great efforts to cut all social threads and cocoon herself from human contact. Her books teleport in from cyberspace. Her groceries coalesce magically at her door. Whenever she hears a delivery van coming down the quarter-mile driveway, she hides. Time slows to a strange and turgid crawl when you’re a grown-ass adult hiding under a window.
She’s lost twelve pounds since arriving here. Not on purpose. Maybe something is wrong with her body, but eating has become a dull and unrewarding process, as joyless as sitting on the toilet. Some days she forgets entirely. Others, she wishes only to sleep and must drag herself down the halls like a zombie. The house seems to be miles wide. Boiling a kettle of ginger tea is insurmountable. Nothing is worth the immense labor it will take.
She’s not sure when she last heard a human voice. Four weeks ago?
Or five?
She’s been told introverted personalities recharge with alone time, something like managing a social battery. And while that’s accurate—because most people tend to exhaust the ever-loving shit out of Emma—she’s always pictured herself more like clay, a shapeless form that reluctantly morphs to meet the daily needs of her surroundings. Smile at the neighbor’s kids. Pay the car insurance. Make a dental appointment. And here on this desolate coast, she’s discovered a worse truth—that without a job, tasks, friends, family, Emma Carpenter will happily float apart. Every molecule of herself will take the path of least resistance. Sometimes she glimpses herself in mirrors or reflective glass, a gray and unformed face she doesn’t recognize. Eyeless, mouthless, nose flattened to soggy mush. Her own ghost.
Very little frightens her—the worst thing that can happen to any human already happened to her months ago—but she fears what she becomes when she’s alone, where her mind will go if she lets it wander.
Her steady diet of digital fast food—ninety-nine-cent distractions good, bad, and everything in between—is enough to keep her occupied.
For now.
A
storm is coming.
Emma first sees it from the laundry room while she climbs up onto the dryer, opens a tiny window, twists her spine into a scorpion-arch, and smokes a cigarette. She cranks a plastic Dollar Tree fan with each puff, making certain every ash grain flutters outside while she watches thunderheads loom over the ocean. Then she squishes her cigarette with licked fingertips and tucks it into a ziplock bag with the others.
Sure enough, raindrops tap the windows while she starts reading her third e-book on the sofa. The wind growls and she wonders if she’s really hearing a forgotten closet door click open in the next room. Or stealthy footsteps downstairs? Gloved fingers gripping a machete?
Periodically she stops reading and listens.
This house is full of sounds. Even after living here three months, she still discovers new oddities. Doors refuse to shut. Gutters drip a steady heartbeat. The guest toilet sometimes flushes itself. The first time she heard this happen from across the house was bone-chilling, but now it’s something of a charming quirk, like a ghost occasionally stopping by to take a shit. This is Emma’s first time house-sitting, and it feels so much more invasive than merely renting. Maybe it comes down to whether it’s your silverware in the kitchen drawer or theirs, but she feels like a burglar at nights, padding guiltily through a stranger’s family room.
The house’s owner? A nice lady from Portland named Jules Phelps.
At least Emma thinks it’s a lady.
They’ve never physically met.
And part of why it feels so invasive is that Emma can’t help but draw conclusions about Jules’s private life. It’s unavoidable. You can’t not do it. There’s blood pressure medication and stool softener in the bathroom closet—Jules must be middle-aged or older? There’s an antique Polaroid camera on the shelf—Jules must dabble in photography? ...