Unspeakable

by Kevin O'Brien

Genres: Thrillers; General Fiction

Synopsis

A family of four murdered in their hotel room. A single mother and her boyfriend both stabbed to death. A sordid history of violent crimes, repeated over and over-but decades apart.



Olivia Barker is a therapist with no connection to the murders. But she has heard things. Stories that keep her up at night. Details that only a killer would know. A killer who could be one of her patients . . .



Olivia has no proof for her suspicions. But as the body count rises, so do her fears. A rock is thrown through her window, her car tires are slashed, a chilling message is scrawled on her bathroom mirror. Olivia knows she's getting closer to the truth. But the truth could be the last thing she'll ever know . . .

Release date: June 1, 2013

Publisher: Pinnacle Books

Print pages: 544

Sample

“I’m sorry! Please, don’t do this . . . please. . . .”

Olivia Barker locked her office door and backed away until she bumped into her desk. She couldn’t stop shaking. She just wanted him to go—so she could breathe right again.

The young man in the waiting room pounded on the other side of her door. “For God’s sake, don’t turn me away!” he cried. The doorknob rattled as he tugged at it.

Olivia’s office was designed to have a calming effect on her clients. The color scheme was a soothing sea foam and beige. Along with her modern oak desk, there was a sofa from Dania. But during the sessions, Olivia and her clients usually sat facing each other in the two comfy, pale green chairs. The lighting remained dim, and a little waterfall trickled down a rock sculpture in one corner. It was supposed to be a tranquil, relaxing environment. But for the last fifteen minutes, Olivia had felt as if the office walls were closing in on her.

Behind her was a window—with a view of dusk looming over Lake Washington. She’d watched the room grow darker and darker while the young man had talked to her in a voice that made her skin crawl. When he’d finally emerged from his trance, she’d promptly switched on a light. She’d practically shoved him out of her office, and then shut the door on him.

He was still on the other side of it. His relentless knocking got louder and louder.

“Go away!” she called, her voice quivering. “I mean it!”

“You’re the only one who can help me!” He rattled the doorknob again. “Please, I’m sorry about what happened! You can’t turn me away. You’re the only one. . . .”

Olivia shot a look over her shoulder at the window. Would anyone outside hear her screaming for help? She turned toward the door again. “You need to leave!” she announced over all the pounding. “There are other businesses on this floor, and you’re disturbing them.”

Her office was on the top floor of a three-story building in Seattle’s Madison Valley neighborhood. Specialty shops and trendy restaurants had sprouted up in the past few years. A pricey antique store was on the ground level of Olivia’s building. Down the hall from her were offices for a chiropractor, a masseur, and two lawyers.

But what she’d just said about disturbing the other businesses had been a lie. Everyone on her floor—except for the masseur—had closed up at five. And the masseur was on vacation. No one else was there. No one else could hear the young man beating on her office door. No one could help her if he broke down that door and attacked her.

She never should have agreed to see him in the first place.

He’d told her on the phone yesterday that he’d spotted her ad online:


Olivia thought the ad was simply awful. But some so-called marketing analyst had come up with the cheesy copy. He’d also wanted her to include her photo, saying that with her pretty face and shoulder-length auburn hair, she might attract even more clients. Olivia was worried she might attract the wrong type of client. So the ad ran without a photo. But the cheesy copy must have worked, because business was pretty good. At the same time, Olivia felt like a big phony.

What was the phrase? Those who can’t do, teach. That was her. She was trying to lose weight and quit smoking—all without much success. She’d recently looked up one of those “your ideal weight” charts online—probably sponsored by some fat-burning pill or weight-loss program. She didn’t scroll down far enough to find out the name of the company determining just how fat or skinny she was. All she saw on her computer screen was that for her age, thirty-four, and her height, five-feet, five-inches, at a hundred and twenty-eight pounds, she was nine pounds over her “ideal weight” for a white woman. She had no idea what her race had to do with it. There was nothing on the form asking if she had any children or if she was single or widowed or divorced. That was more important than race, wasn’t it?

There were no children, and the divorce wasn’t final yet. She told herself that half a pack of Virginia Slims a day and nine excess pounds weren’t so terrible under her current circumstances.

She did her best to help her clients conquer what she couldn’t. She’d been eking out a living at it for a month now—sort of. It wasn’t quite a living, but she was making some money. Olivia used a combination of hypnosis and therapy in her work. But she didn’t call herself a therapist—no, not anymore.

Just three months ago, she’d been a counselor/therapist at the Portland Wellness Cooperative, working with some genuinely troubled patients. She’d thought she was doing some good. That had been before everything went to hell, and suddenly, there was nothing left for her in Portland anymore. She’d moved—retreated had been more like it—to Seattle. Olivia had made up her mind back then that she didn’t want to deal with people whose problems were any more serious than a bad habit or a curable addiction.

She had a success rate of about 75 percent with her clients—or so the marketing analyst had recently told her. Many of those clients came back because they felt better after their sessions with her—or maybe because she’d become their new addiction. The majority of them were women. She’d taken on a few alcoholics, but most of the serious problem drinkers she steered toward AA, promising to waive her fee if they joined.

The young man had said he needed her help to quit drinking. He didn’t want to go to AA. “I drink to fall asleep most of the time,” he’d told her over the phone yesterday. “It started out as kind of an insomnia cure, and I’ve been drinking pretty heavily for almost two years now. I’m a student and it’s really starting to affect my grades. I want to quit, but I can’t seem to. Anyway, I’m hoping you can help me. Maybe we can discuss it when I see you tomorrow. If it doesn’t work out, it doesn’t work out. No harm done, y’know?”

He’d said his name was Russ Leander. But according to Olivia’s caller ID, the call had come from Stampler, C.

She should have known right then something was wrong.

She’d assumed the young man on the other end of the line had been in college, and he’d borrowed his roommate’s cell phone.

But thirty-five minutes ago, she’d opened her office door to find this kid in her waiting room—and clearly he wasn’t yet college age. Sitting on the sofa in the small anteroom, he looked about fifteen years old. He was reading a magazine from the stack of periodicals on her end table. Gangly and pale, he had a mop of uncombed black hair and hauntingly beautiful blue eyes. His face seemed to be in transition from gawky adolescence to handsome young adulthood. He wore jeans, a faded red hooded sweatshirt, and black Converse All Star high-tops. Something about him was familiar. When he glanced up at her and set aside the People magazine, he appeared so vulnerable—and nervous. He quickly got to his feet.

Clutching the doorknob, Olivia stared at him. “Russ?”

He shoved his hands in his pockets, and nodded. “Yeah, hi, are you Olivia?”

“I thought you’d be older,” she said. “Listen, I’m sorry, but I don’t take on clients under the age of eighteen, not unless they’re accompanied by an adult guardian. How old are you exactly?”

“Well, I’m eighteen,” he answered. “I—I just look young.”

“You don’t happen to have your driver’s license with you, do you?”

He glanced down at the carpet and said nothing.

She started to feel sorry for him. “Are you even old enough to drive?” she asked quietly.

“Of course I am. In fact, I drove here, okay? I’m sixteen, I swear.” His face turned red, and he avoided her gaze. “I’m sorry I lied. I just really need your help. The truth is I—I actually don’t have a drinking problem. I only said that so you’d agree to see me. . . .”

Folding her arms, Olivia leaned against the doorway frame.

“I’m telling you this now, because—well, I have a good feeling about you,” he said. “I know it sounds weird, because we’ve just met. But I can kind of tell about some people, and you seem like a nice person. Maybe you can help me. . . .”

“Help you with what?” she asked, frowning.

“Well, I—I got hypnotized recently, and something really strange happened while I was under. I can’t explain it, because I don’t remember. But this—this occurrence was so bizarre. I’m scared something might be wrong with me. I need you to hypnotize me again, so I can find out why this thing happened.”

Olivia’s eyes narrowed. “Who hypnotized you?”

“A friend,” he answered, swallowing hard. “I was at her house with another friend last weekend, just goofing off, and she said she knew how to hypnotize people.”

“And you don’t remember this thing that happened while you were under? Were you guys drinking or messing around with drugs at the time?”

He shook his head. “No, I swear.”

“Well, Russ, contrary to those hypnotist routines in nightclub acts, it’s very rare that a subject can’t remember what’s occurred while under hypnosis.”

“I think my case must be very rare, too,” he replied.

“So—what exactly happened? If you can’t remember, certainly your friends must have told you what went on.”

“I—I’d rather not say.” He reached into his back pocket for his wallet. “Look, I have money. I just need you to put me under, and ask me some general questions about who I am—”

“I’m sorry, Russ.” She shook her head. “You need to find yourself another hypnotist.”

“I’ve tried other hypnotists!” he said, waving a handful of twenties under her face. “I’ve been to a bunch of different hypnotists in the last couple of days. None of them can even get me into a trance. Please, you’re my last hope.”

“What about your friend? Why don’t you go back to her?”

He let out a defeated sigh. “I can’t. I just can’t.”

Olivia studied him. He didn’t look like the violent type at all. Still, she wondered if he’d attacked this girl who had originally hypnotized him. Was that why he couldn’t go back to her? Whatever he’d done while under hypnosis, he must have done to that girl.

“Please, ma’am,” he said, still holding out his money. “I came all the way over on the ferry from Poulsbo and drove here just to see you. Don’t turn me away. All I’m asking for is a few minutes of your time. If you can’t get me into a trance, I’ll go away. You can keep the money. . . .”

“I can’t believe you just ma’amed me,” Olivia said with a roll of her eyes. She opened the door wider. “Put the wad of cash away, for God’s sake. I’m not taking money from a sixteen-year-old.”

“Thank you,” he said, heading into her office. He tucked the bills back inside his wallet. “Really, thank you. Like I said, I had a good feeling about you the moment I saw you. Practically all the other hypnotists I’ve been to—they were rip-off artists. They just wanted my money, I could tell.” He glanced around the office. “Plus I really like your place here. This is very nice, very professional, too.”

Shutting her office door, Olivia stared at him and wondered again why he seemed so familiar—his looks, the sound of his voice, everything. He came across as such a sweet kid, and she felt sorry for him. But she couldn’t get past the notion that this could turn around and bite her on the ass. It still wasn’t too late to kick him out.

“Where do you want me?” he asked, looking at the sofa—and then at the chairs facing each other. He nodded at the one where her patients usually sat. “Is it okay if I sit here? I think the light’s good here. Would you mind recording me on my cell phone?”

Olivia hesitated. “I’d rather not. I use my hands a lot when I’m putting a subject under.”

He set the phone on the edge of her desk. “Well, is it okay if I put it here?” he asked. “It won’t be in your way. It’s really important I get this recorded. I need to see what’s happening to me when I’m under. I’ve set it up. It’s in record mode now. You don’t have to do anything. . . .”

“Fine,” she muttered. She watched him check the phone to see if he had the chair in focus. His hands were a bit shaky.

Olivia usually spoke with her clients for at least a half hour and got to know them a little before putting them under. But this young man wasn’t opening up to her, and he wanted to be hypnotized right away.

“Thank you for letting me do this,” he said, heading back to the chair and sitting down. “I really appreciate it.” He shifted restlessly in the chair. “God, all of a sudden, I’m really nervous. . . .”

“Well, just relax,” Olivia said. She pulled an ottoman in front of him and sat down. She patted his arm. “Think about a place where you feel safe, Russ. Visualize it—a place where you’re happy and safe and away from it all. Think of yourself in this protected place. . . .”

“This is how my friend got me into a trance,” he said. “None of the other hypnotists used this method.”

She kept patting his arm. “It works even better if you stay quiet and just go with it, Russ.”

“Yeah, of course, I’m sorry.” He shrugged uneasily. “But I guess I should tell you my name isn’t really Russ. It’s Collin. I’m sorry. No more lies. That—that’s the last one. . . .”

Frowning, Olivia drew her hand back. He seemed so ashamed that she couldn’t chastise him. She sighed, and patted his arm again. “Okay, Collin, let’s get you back in this safe, peaceful place. It’s a place you’ve been before. . . .”

He closed his eyes and nodded. “I’m there,” he said with a dreamy smile. “It’s this little shack in the woods by Shilshole Bay—on some property my grandfather owns. I used to run away and hide there. I’d bring my sleeping bag, food, and some cans of Sterno. Even when it was cold out, I’d still be warm. . . .”

“That’s right,” Olivia said. “You’re comfortable there. You want to sleep. But I’d like you to open your eyes, and look at my hand. Focus on it.” She held her hand out, palm forward, and slowly moved it toward his face and back again. “Keep focusing, Collin. You’re safe and snug, and now your eyelids are getting heavy. . . .”

As she talked to him in her soothing tone, Olivia watched him relax. He slumped a little in the chair, and his young face appeared even more innocent and sweet as he floated deeper into a trance. He closed his eyes again.

“You’re in that safe, warm, cozy place,” Olivia continued. “Your friend brought you here last time, and something happened. Can you tell me what happened, Collin?”

He didn’t respond. He seemed so deep in sleep, she almost expected him to start snoring.

“Collin, you can hear my voice, can’t you?”

Again, no response.

In the silence, Olivia heard a door close down the hall. It was probably the chiropractor, leaving for the day. She was alone here with this boy. The room was getting dark. She glanced back at the window, and saw the streetlights were on. She turned toward Collin again.

His eyes were open. Something had happened. His face seemed to change—and not just his expression. He suddenly looked older, and his icy stare cut right through her. “Who the fuck are you?” he asked. The hard-edged voice wasn’t his.

Though she wanted to shrink back, Olivia resisted any sudden movement. Slowly, she moved from the ottoman to the other chair that was facing him. “I’m Olivia,” she said, a bit short of breath. She kept her tone quiet and even. “You came to me for help, remember?”

His eyes shifted from side to side. “So where’s the fat girl and the Mexican guy with the transistor radio?”

Olivia didn’t understand the question at first, and she squinted at him. “Are you talking about your friends from the last time you were hypnotized?”

A creepy little smile tugged at one corner of his mouth. “Those losers aren’t my friends.” Then something behind her seemed to catch his eye. “Hey, you’ve got a transistor radio, too . . .”

Olivia glanced over her shoulder at his cell phone on her desk. Why was he calling it a transistor radio? Who under the age of forty even remembered transistor radios?

When she turned toward him again, he was standing up.

She nervously shifted in her chair. “Collin, please, sit down,” she said, trying to keep her voice calm. “Collin . . .”

He brushed past her and reached for the cell phone. “Stupid bitch,” he muttered. “I’m not Collin. I’m Wade.” He frowned at the cell phone as he inspected it from every angle. “What the hell is this thing? I thought it was a radio. The Mexican guy kept waving it around at me the other night.”

Half-twisted around in the chair, Olivia warily watched him. Just three minutes before, a sweet, polite, nervous kid had programmed that phone to record this session. And now, the same kid had morphed into this cocky creep standing behind her. And he acted as if he’d never even seen a cell phone before. He looked different and sounded different. He called himself Wade. If she didn’t know better, Olivia would have sworn this was indeed someone different—maybe even someone dangerous.

“Please, Wade, sit down,” she heard herself say. “C’mon, put that back and have a seat across from me—so we can talk. I’d like to get to know you better.”

Setting the phone on the desk, he smirked at her. “Well, hey, I could really dig that.” As he ambled past her, he put a hand on her shoulder—then let it slide down until he touched the top of her breast.

Olivia felt her skin crawl and she recoiled. “That was inappropriate,” she said evenly. “If you try anything like that again, we’re done here. Do you understand?”

“Hey, I barely copped a feel. . . .”

“I’m serious,” Olivia said, glaring at him.

He plopped down in the chair, and started biting his fingernail. “Listen, lady,” he grumbled. “I’ll give you a break for now. But keep in mind, the last time someone talked to me like that, I slit the bitch’s throat. I kid you not.”

“Are you—are you telling me that you killed someone?” Olivia asked.

“I’m telling you to watch your mouth, honey,” he growled. “You’re goddamn lucky I happen to like the way you look.” He leaned back and slung his leg over the chair’s armrest. “I like the setup here, too. This is real cozy with just you and me talking. Believe you me, I was getting pretty tired of talking with that whiney fat chick and José Jiménez, Junior.”

Baffled, Olivia shook her head. “Why does that name sound familiar?”

“My name José Jiménez,” he said with a grin and a put-on Spanish accent.

Olivia remembered it was part of comedian Bill Dana’s routine from the early sixties. She’d seen old clips of him on TV—and in her soon-to-be-ex-husband’s favorite movie, The Right Stuff. It was strange to hear this teenager quote from a comedy routine that was over fifty years old.

Either he deserved an Oscar for his acting, or he had a second personality—radically different from his own. But in her four years as a therapist, Olivia had never encountered a patient with multiple personality disorder. Nor did she know any other therapists who had stumbled upon a genuine case.

Olivia stared at the young man slumped back in the chair across from her. She wondered if he’d been telling the truth about slitting a woman’s throat.

“You’re older,” he said, licking his lips. “But you’re a lot better looking than the fat chick.”

“I really wish you wouldn’t refer to her that way,” Olivia said. “Why don’t you call her by her name instead?”

“I don’t know her name—or the Mexican guy’s name.” He shrugged. “I told you, they’re Collin’s friends, not mine.”

“So—you don’t like Collin’s friends. What’s your opinion of Collin?”

“Oh, Collin, he’s pretty fucked up.”

“How well do you know him?”

“I’ve been here with him for a long, long time—years in fact. I’ve just been waiting for the right time to come out.” With a smug smile, he cocked his head to one side. “This is working out exactly as I wanted. I’m scaring the shit out of him. But I’ve barely gotten started. I’m really gonna mess with his mind—and then I’ll kill him.”

Olivia frowned. “How will you do that without killing yourself?”

He chuckled and slowly shook his head. “You don’t get it, lady,” he said. “You don’t get it at all.”

“Would you like to explain it to me, Wade?”

“No, not really.”

“I had a feeling you’d say that.” She cleared her throat. “I’d like to talk with Collin now. . . .” This was her prompt to bring him out of his hypnotic state. She waited to see the change in his manner as Collin emerged from the trance. But there was nothing, no transformation. “Collin?”

He chuckled again. “Shit, and here I thought we were getting along so well. Why do you want to talk to him? What? Do I make you nervous? Are you scared of me?”

“Not at all,” she lied. “I just want to check in with Collin for a minute or two. Collin? Collin, I’m talking to you now. You hear my voice. . . .”

“Collin? Collin?” he chanted mockingly. “Come save me from your nasty friend!”

Olivia felt a pang in her gut. Suddenly, she couldn’t breathe right. She felt as if she were stepping on the brakes of a speeding car, only to have nothing happen. She realized she had no control over her subject.

She didn’t want to think about the last time this had happened.

She just wanted that sweet, polite young man to reemerge. “I’m addressing Collin now,” she said, her voice a bit shaky. “Collin, when I snap my fingers, you will wake up. . . .”

“Wake up, Collin!” he said, snickering. “Rise and shine!”

Olivia snapped her fingers.

With the smirk still on his face, he slowly stood up.

“You need to sit down.” She snapped her fingers again. “Collin, wake up. . . .”

He wandered toward the door. “I don’t think he’s coming back, lady.” He grabbed a sturdy hardback chair and tilted it against the door, wedging the top of it beneath the doorknob.

Panic swept through her. “What are you doing?”

“I’m just making sure no one interrupts us.” He gave the chair a shake as if to make sure it was firmly in place.

Olivia got to her feet. “I’m talking to Collin now,” she said, her heart racing. She glanced over at her desk—then at a letter opener by the blotter. “When I—when I snap my fingers, you’ll wake up. . . .”

His back was to her. He was still standing over the chair. Olivia snapped her fingers, and then watched him put his hand up against the door. “Collin?” she said, backing up. She edged closer to her desk.

He had his hand to the door and his head down. It took Olivia a moment to realize he was bracing himself through a dizzy spell. “Collin?”

He turned to gaze at her. That innocent look had returned to his blue eyes. “What happened?” he asked.

Olivia didn’t answer him. She couldn’t stop shaking.

He glanced down at the chair he’d just wedged against the door, and he suddenly seemed so confused. He still had his hand on the door. “What’s going on? Did Wade come back?”

Staring at him, Olivia kept thinking this was a setup or a scam of some kind. His multiple-personality act was a good one, but she didn’t believe it. For all she knew, this Russ-Collin-Wade kid really had slit some poor woman’s throat and now he wanted to lay the groundwork for an insanity plea—should he get arrested. Maybe he knew what had happened to her in Portland four months ago, and he’d figured she would be an easy mark.

“I told you before,” she said. “Except in extremely rare occasions, hypnotized subjects always remember what happens to them while they’re under. They don’t change personalities and they can’t be made to do anything they wouldn’t do while fully conscious. I don’t know what you’re selling, but I’m not buying any.”

Tears came to his eyes. “Jesus, he came back, didn’t he? I’m sorry if he scared you—”

“I’d like you to leave now,” she said, cutting him off. She circled around to her desk drawer and fished out a piece of paper with a preprinted list on it. Then she grabbed his cell phone. Heading across the room, she gave him back his phone and presented the sheet of paper to him as if it were an official summons. Her hand was trembling. “I can’t help you,” she said steadily. “This is a list of qualified therapists and psychologists in the area. I suggest you contact one of them.”

His mouth open, he shook his head at her. He looked so scared and lost.

Olivia felt her skin crawl as she brushed past him and extricated the chair from under the doorknob. She couldn’t look at him.

“Please, if Wade came back, I need to know why he’s doing this to me,” she heard him say. “You’re the only hypnotist who even got me in a trance. No one else—”

“I don’t care!” she yelled, pushing the chair aside. “Get someone else to help you! I want you out of here. . . .” She flung open the door.

He just stood there and gazed at her. Tears ran down his face.

“Go!” she screamed. “Get out!”

He still wouldn’t move. So Olivia angrily shoved him out the door.

“Wait, no!” he cried.

Shutting the door and locking it, she’d thought she would feel better. But she didn’t. That had been ten minutes ago, and he was still out there.

The pounding had ceased, but she could hear him playing back their session on his cell phone—the session he claimed not to remember. The sound of that voice again—Wade’s voice—made her shudder.

“Would you go away?” she yelled to him. “I can’t help you. Go to someone on that list I gave you. . . .”

She heard the cell phone recording stop. “You don’t understand, it’s got to be you!” He jiggled the doorknob again. “I’m sorry for what happened in there. But that wasn’t me. Please! I’m scared. I think he—he might have come out while I was asleep or something. I think he might have killed some people. . . .”

Olivia felt sick to her stomach. She’d been afraid of something like this. She anxiously glanced at her desk phone. “I’m calling the police!” she warned. “I mean it—”

“No, don’t!” he cried. “I’m sorry. I’ll go now. I’m sorry. . . .”

Olivia grabbed the receiver, but then hesitated when she heard his footsteps retreating down the corridor. She wasn’t certain about calling the police. What could she tell them? She didn’t even know the boy’s real name. He’d claimed to be from Poulsbo, on the Kitsap Peninsula, but he’d told her a bunch of lies. The part about possibly killing someone, was that a lie, too?

Strange how as soon as she’d threatened to call the police, he’d immediately apologized and withdrawn. Had he really gone? She couldn’t hear anything out in the hallway. Yet she still didn’t want to unlock her office door.

Olivia moved over to the window. Raindrops started slashing at the glass. She had a view of the sidewalk—two stories below, in front of the building’s entrance. Biting her lip, she spotted him wandering away from the building. His shoulders were drooping, and he kept wiping his eyes. A woman passing him on the sidewalk stared. Olivia realized he was crying again.

All at once she felt horrible for throwing him out of her office. Maybe it wasn’t an act after all. Maybe the poor kid was genuinely in trouble.

She noticed someone on the other side of the street who seemed to be watching him, too. When Collin or Russ or whatever he called himself stopped to blow his nose, the man across the street stopped, too—behind a phone pole. Olivia wished she could see his face. “What the hell?” she murmured to herself.

Collin took out his cell phone and started walking again. The man on the other side of the street from him began to move, too—in the same direction. Collin stayed close to the storefronts, their awnings shielding him from the rain. Olivia looked for the man across the street, but she didn’t spot him. Was he hiding again? Her breath fogged the window as she leaned close to the glass and searched for the man. There was still no sign of him. Meanwhile, Collin turned down a side street.

Olivia heard a little click behind her, and swiveled around. The light on the base of her cordless phone was blinking. She’d shut off the ringer for their session, so all calls went directly to voice mail. She checked the caller ID:


“Good God, kid, leave me alone,” she muttered, nervously running a hand through her auburn hair. She waited until the light went off. Then she picked up her phone and pressed four digits. “You have one message,” the automated voice told her. “Press one to play messages. . . .”

Olivia almost deleted it, but decided to listen to what the kid had to say. Maybe she’d end up playing it for the police. She pressed one: “Hello, I—I’m really sorry to bother you again.” He sounded a bit throaty from crying. “I know I must have scared you in your office. But that wasn’t me. If you’re scared, please, think for a minute about how scared I must be. I don’t understand why this is happening to me. You—you deserve to know the truth. My name’s Collin, like I told you—but I’m Collin Cox. I don’t know if you’ve heard of me. I’m an actor. But—we