The Leaving Party

by Lesley Sanderson

Genres: Coming of Age; Family Life; Mystery; Noir; Crime Fiction; Psychological Thrillers; Suspense

Synopsis

Every year on the same day, on the anniversary, I receive a single black rose. Thirteen years of dark petals, jagged thorns, dredging up memories I’ve tried to forget…

I’ve packed up my life. All my belongings are carefully sealed in labelled boxes, my suitcases ready for my big move. I’m just days away from a new life abroad with my boyfriend, Ben.

No one knows the real reason I’m desperate to leave.

My best friend, Lena, is throwing me a leaving party. A celebration, to say goodbye. Champagne to toast my farewell. Speeches, full of fond memories.

No one knows what I’m running from.

Then another black rose appears, dragging up thirteen years of buried memories. My passport goes missing. The very people I am trying to escape from turn up to our house.

Someone knows my secret. They’re in my home, at my party, and they’re making me pay for it.

Psychological thrillers don’t get more addictive or gasp-worthy than this! Fans of K.L. Slater, The Girl on the Train and The Wife Between Us will love this unputdownable page-turner.

 

Release date: January 31, 2020

Publisher: Bookouture

Print pages: 234

Sample

A buzzing noise wakes me, insistent, a mosquito in my ear. I slap at it, but it doesn’t make it stop. The sheet is twisted around my body and I’m cold. There’s no sticky summer heat making me sweat throughout the night. Mosquitoes like heat, don’t they?

I open my eyes. No view of a beach from the window, no sun high in the sky. I sit up, let my head drop back when I realise the buzzing noise is my phone and it’s the day of the party. My party. Exhilaration ripples through me as I visualise the evening ahead and what it means – the beginning of my new life.

I reach down for the phone, a list of things I need to do today running through my head. The text is from a number I don’t recognise.

I’ve left something for you – check downstairs.

Is this a joke, a surprise?

I don’t like surprises.

A familiar chill of dread creeps into my bones. It’s always there, lurking in the background. What if?

I check the time. It’s only 8 a.m., far too early now that I don’t have to go to work. A surge of exhilaration rises inside me as I remember that I’ve given up the job I’ve been doing for the past five years. No more getting up at six before a fast walk to catch the 7.30 train to Paddington. No more flat whites at the station, sipping my coffee as I watch other commuters racing around. My schedule was crafted as carefully as the leaf pattern on top of my coffee; I always arrived at the café half an hour early, settling myself and planning the day ahead before the bustle began. Who knows what my American routine will be like? Bagels and coffee in a diner in Times Square, perhaps, watching the famous billboards flashing?

My dressing gown hangs in the wardrobe next to my party dress, a floor-length Victoria Beckham piece in electric blue with silver flecks. It’s hard to describe how beautiful it is, even harder to believe that Ben personally picked it out for me and had it shipped over from New York. Excitement made me tingle as I undid the red ribbon with eager fingers, the tissue paper whispering as I pulled out the garment. The dress slid over my slight frame like liquid silver and the fit was faultless. He couldn’t have chosen a more perfect dress. Ben. Not long to go now …

Sounds of traffic echo in the bare room. Now that the pale grey walls have been stripped of mirrors, the space looks bigger. Behind the white wardrobe doors the rails are full of empty hangers, the metal frames rattling against one another like hollow bones. Dad picked up my clothes along with the rest of my stuff last night and took it all back to theirs. Everything I need for one last night in this house is packed in my overnight case, which stands beneath the window. The surface of my dressing table is empty. My paperback is face down on the floor, next to a glass of water. It’s one of Mum’s favourite novels, The Best of Everything, and I’m racing through the story of four young women starting out in New York in the fifties, sharing their hopes and dreams. Soon it will be my turn. I can’t wait. After tonight’s party, I have one final evening tomorrow with my parents in an attempt to assuage my guilt at how much they are going to miss me, and then I’m off.

My mind returns to the text. I’ve left something for you. What does it mean? Is it Lena? But it’s not from her number. As if organising this surprise party for me wasn’t enough; I don’t need a surprise gift too. Could it be from Ben? Excitement rises in me, along with the secret hope that he’ll turn up at the party. But I’m scared to ask Lena in case those hopes are dashed. It’s bound to be a going-away present, I tell myself; of course it’s nothing sinister. I slip into my silk dressing gown and pull the belt tight as I try to convince myself not to worry.

Careful not to wake Lena, I push my bedroom door open gently. Hers is ajar, and I tread quietly on the wooden floorboards. She has spent weeks organising this party, and as soon as she wakes she’ll be in a state of uncontrollable excitement. As will I once I sort out this niggle. I don’t like niggles.

From the top of the stairs, I see something on the doormat. It’s far too early for the postman, and anyway, it’s the wrong shape for a letter. I step forward and then stop, gripping the banister. From here I can see it’s a cardboard box, long and thin. I squeeze the banister with both hands, so hard it hurts, but it doesn’t stop the way my pulse is racing. It can’t be.

I pull the belt of my dressing gown even tighter in an effort to stop myself shaking. It doesn’t work. I know what’s in the box because I’ve been receiving them for the past thirteen years – ever since the day I can’t forget, no matter how hard I try. One thing’s for sure: moving to New York is definitely the right decision. It’s the only way to escape.

I wish that right at this moment I was high up in the sky, seated safely in the aeroplane, England disappearing below me into a patchwork of green fields and toy houses, my eyes fixed firmly ahead, seat belt securely fastened. Far away from boxes slipped through my letter box, reminding me of my past. Whoever is doing this won’t follow me all the way across the Atlantic, surely? Plus, Ben will be around to protect me. Though I’m hoping he’ll never need to know what I’ve left behind. My stomach churns at the thought of telling him, and I take a deep breath. He doesn’t need to know. Ever.

Heading down the stairs, it’s like I’m walking towards the hangman’s noose. I pick up the familiar package, knowing only too well what will be inside: the petals dyed an unnatural black, the thorns waiting to dig into my skin and make me bleed. I open it with fumbling fingers, hoping against hope that it’s not what I think. A possibility as slight as the sliver of deep purple ribbon that holds the box together.

My hope fizzles as quickly as it was sparked. Black rose number thirteen. Dark petals conjuring up an image of death. I drop it on the floor and rush into the downstairs bathroom just in time.

The floor tiles are cold against my clammy skin and I give in to an uncontrollable shaking. This time it’s worse, far worse. Because all the other roses arrived on the day of the anniversary. But that date has already passed. That date happened seven months and two days ago. In all these years, this is the only flower out of sequence.

And I don’t know what that means.

Lena arrived with two oversized carrier bags and hovered nervously on the doorstep. She’d been friends with Ava for four years now, but had never been inside her house. Ava had been to hers more times than she could count. If Lena wasn’t ashamed of the dilapidated council block she lived in, then what was Ava trying to hide from her?

She puzzled over this question as she stepped back onto the long drive and looked up at the vast expanse of house in front of her. Five bedrooms, Ava had told her, yet there was only Ava and her sister. What did they need all those rooms for? Jamie had to share a room with Dad when he was at home, but he’d been put away for two years this time. Lena would be almost an adult by the time he got out. She prodded the doorbell hard, in the way she’d like to prod some sense into her older brother.

‘About time,’ she said when Ava opened the door and moved aside to let her past. ‘Butler off duty, is he?’

‘Very funny,’ Ava replied, but she grinned, and Lena smiled back.

‘Are you sure your parents are out?’

‘Of course. I told you. They’ve gone to spend a day in Durham with my sister. It’s miles away, near Scotland. It’s where she’s going to university in September. My parents do love a day out. They’ll get back really late and I told them I was staying at yours. I’m so excited.’

Lena had never seen such a large kitchen, with so many sparkling surfaces, apart from in the showroom where her Uncle Pat worked. And that was just a mock-up. She glanced through into the living room and spotted an upright piano in the corner, the mahogany wood gleaming.

‘Don’t tell me Martha plays the piano.’

Ava’s cheeks burned. ‘It’s me who plays, actually.’ She didn’t think Lena would understand her intense desire to be a concert pianist. ‘Have you got the stuff?’

Lena lifted the carrier bags onto the weird island thing in the middle of the room. ‘My cousin got it all for me. I had to give him some money, though.’

‘I’ll pay for that,’ Ava said, and took a ten-pound note out of a wallet beside the kettle. ‘And my share of the drink.’

Lena couldn’t believe that rich people left their money lying around – her dad kept his in a biscuit jar, but it was always empty. She unpacked the bottle of cheap wine and four cans of cider and put them in the enormous fridge. ‘How many did you say were in your family again?’

Ava laughed.

‘We can have a drink while we get ready,’ Lena carried on. ‘I’ll do your make-up, I’ve brought my stuff. I can’t wait to see Danny.’

Lena had fancied Danny ever since she saw him on the market stall helping his father. It was after school one day, when she was hanging out with Ava in the café opposite. She liked to watch his muscles flex as he unpacked the fruit, arranging colourful displays of oranges, kiwis, bananas and bright red apples. Creative, she liked that. Like her with her make-up. She wanted to be a professional make-up artist one day, painting the faces of beautiful Hollywood actresses.

‘Who’s that?’ she’d asked Ava at the time.

‘Danny Appleford,’ Ava had replied. ‘He’s in my sister’s Saturday drama class.’

Ava’s older sister went to the private school up the hill. Ava had persuaded her parents to let her go to the local comprehensive, where all her friends were going. The headteacher had reassured her mother she would do just as well there. She was right – Lena could see that Ava was clever; she would succeed wherever she went.

‘Hmm,’ Lena had said, watching Danny. ‘About the right age for us, then. Boys are immature, everyone knows that. So a seventeen-year-old is perfect. Apart from Gareth, that is.’

Ava pulled a face. She wasn’t sure about Gareth. He’d hung around their group of friends for ages and everyone knew he was mad about her. She liked him well enough, but she didn’t think she fancied him. How would she know for sure? Martha said that if you had to think about whether you fancied someone, then you most probably didn’t. Not that Martha was an expert or anything. All she was interested in was studying and getting the grades so she could go off to university.

Ava was more interested in hanging around with Lena. Lena made her more adventurous; she was always doing impulsive things, like talking to boys she didn’t know and giving teachers lip, and she was forever on at Ava to stop taking herself so seriously. With Lena, Ava could laugh at herself. Lena didn’t have much of a family but she knew how to enjoy herself, and how to be loyal. She would do anything for Ava, and Ava felt the same. She didn’t want boys to get in the way of all that. And being with Gareth gave her an uncomfortable feeling in her stomach. She didn’t really want to go out with him any more, but just thinking about ending it made her squirm inside. How could she possibly tell him?

Now that Dad has taken most of my stuff over to the family home, the house feels empty, my footsteps loud on the bare wooden floor, my pictures removed from the hallway. WELCOME is written in large letters on the doormat, but the image of the black rose is fixed in my head, making me feel anything but. Whoever has been sending the roses, it feels like they’re getting closer.

The clip of my heels echoes as I cross the floor. The living room looks larger without my furnishings: the turquoise cushions, my Oriental rug and all the wall hangings. I didn’t realise how much of it was mine. The bookshelves are empty of my books and knick-knacks. All that’s left in the room is a brown leather sofa, an armchair, and some fold-up chairs stacked neatly against the bare walls. And my precious piano. Sitting at the stool, I run my hand over the dark waxed wood, trail my fingers across the ivory keys. Leaving my piano behind pains me, but my parents will look after it for me – after all, they’ve been looking after it for the past few years, when I was unable to face it. I’ve only been playing again for a couple of months, and just thinking about the memories that made me freeze whenever I sat on the stool, fingers poised to play, sends a shudder right through me. I blink hard to clear my mind.

I’ve spent most of the day on the phone, finalising closure of accounts and last minute business I need to sort out before moving abroad. The day has flown by, the sky gradually darkening, and Lena’s due back from work soon, and I can’t wait; the moment she’s home, we’ll crack open a bottle of bubbly and get ourselves party-ready, painting our faces and twirling in front of the mirror like we’ve done so many times before. But for now, the house feels stark and quiet, and I crave some company. I switch the radio on.

Lena’s been fiddling with the stations again, and Lady Gaga blares out. I’m not in the mood for music, so I switch to a talk station, hoping to catch something interesting to take my mind off the rose and the ominous text. Remembering that camomile tea is supposed to have a calming effect, I make myself a cup, inhaling the floral smell.

The early-evening news is on and I listen to the headlines. A stabbing in a London street, the blood of a defenceless kid smeared across the pavement, another tragic loss of life. This takes my thoughts into dangerous territory; it’s easily done – so many triggers for unwanted memories. You’d think I’d be better at it by now, but today, reality has hit me in the gut. I’ve allowed myself to form the thought that has been wriggling in my subconscious: having a party is tempting fate. I’m convinced now that whoever sent the rose will be at the party tonight. And I can’t tell anyone about it.

The text message is on my mind, a tangible link to the roses. Who? Why? Somebody from my past, it has to be. I hardly see anyone from my school days, apart from Gareth, but he wouldn’t do that, it’s not his style. The thought almost makes me laugh. Almost; I’m not quite there yet.

The weather bulletin follows; it’s another unseasonably warm November day, more evidence of climate change. The possibility of rain showers. Not what you want on Bonfire Night, when you’re hoping to use the garden for a party. I check my watch – only two hours to go until guests will start arriving, arms outstretched for one last hug before I jet out of here. How will I know if one of those embraces is a trap?

I push aside the thought, focusing on Ben instead. Lena wouldn’t tell me whether he is coming, but a tingle of excitement runs through me at the thought that I might be seeing him tonight. That’s more like it. All I have to do is forget the roses for a few more hours and then I’ll be off. The Great Escape is how I think of it. The two of us hand in hand, wandering through the busy New York streets, me looking up in awe at the towering skyscrapers; yellow cabs honking and people hurrying past talking in strident American accents. But my excitement is dampened when I think about our last chat over Skype, which didn’t end well. There was a strange sense of unease between us that has never been there before. He insisted that there was nothing wrong, but his stiff shoulders told me otherwise, his floppy dark hair covering his eyes so I couldn’t look for my answers there. We can sort it out later, I tell myself.

On the radio, a music track plays before the start of the next show. I take my tea and sit in the one remaining armchair, closing my eyes for a moment. I blink them straight open when I hear the new presenter’s voice. It’s Martha.

As her clear tones jump out at me, I’m transported back to the last words she said to me. The words that have haunted me ever since. She’s trying to take my place and you’re letting her. But you’ll regret it; one day you’ll see what she’s really like. If this had been any other day, I would have carried on listening, unable to help myself, but Lena chooses this moment to get back from work, and I rush to switch the radio off.

‘Party time!’ she calls, slamming the front door and throwing her bag onto the sofa. She drops the carrier bag she’s holding on the floor with a clink and rubs her arm where it’s red from th. . .