Three dramatic and emblematic stories intertwine in Zachary Lazar's extraordinary novel, Sway -- the early days of the Rolling Stones, including the romantic triangle of Brian Jones, Anita Pallenberg, and Keith Richards; the life of avant-garde filmmaker Kenneth Anger; and the community of Charles Manson and his followers. Lazar illuminates an hour in American history when rapture found its roots in idolatrous figures and led to unprovoked and inexplicable violence. Connecting all the stories in this novel is Bobby Beausoleil, a beautiful California boy who appeared in an Anger film and eventually joined the Manson "family." With great artistry, Lazar weaves scenes from these real lives together into a true but heightened reality, making superstars human, giving demons reality, and restoring mythic events to the scale of daily life.
Release date:
January 7, 2008
Publisher:
Little, Brown and Company
Print pages:
268
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FROM A DISTANCE, they had the demeanor of prisoner and guard. Bobby looked down at the frayed cuffs of his shirt, pushing them back over his
wrists as he followed Charlie away from the house. His truck stood in the sun, its fender dented, the bed enclosed by weathered
wooden boards. Beside him, Charlie looked silently ahead, his hair covering his face and beard, his hands crossed behind his
back. He was an ex-convict, maybe fifteen years older than Bobby, but it was hard to think of him as being any particular
age. He had taken just one look at the beat-up piano in the back of Bobby’s truck and his face had gone expressionless, as
if it disgusted him.
“We’ll take the Ford,” he said, holding out the keys to Bobby in the flat of his palm. Then he smiled a little facetiously,
a smile at nothing, as if they both knew there were intricate layers of pretense between them and Charlie was inviting Bobby
to admit it. “Do you mind driving?” he said. “I don’t really feel like driving right now.”
There were two men coming up the road on motorcycles, some girls walking back from the corral, carrying empty buckets. Dogs
slept in the shade beneath the broken planking of a shed. It was an abandoned ranch. The first time Bobby had seen the place
he’d felt oddly protective of it because it had seemed so doomed. The buildings were falling apart — shingles missing, holes
in the walls, windows covered by black garbage bags or sometimes just left as empty frames. There were drawings everywhere
of peace signs, animals, birds. His first day there, with his girlfriend Kitty, they had all fallen in love with his teen-idol
face, his jeans with the colored velvet patches. It was like a lot of other places he’d been in the past two years — everywhere
along the coast now there were groups of young people with nowhere to go and no money to spend. It was as if they were living
in a fort or a tree house. They scraped meals together out of plants they grew or things they scavenged from the trash outside
of supermarkets.
He looked back at his truck as they got into the car. The piano was strung up with lengths of rope, a battered upright with
a few deep scratches on its side. He was a musician — that had been his plan, to be a rock musician — but it struck him now,
with Charlie there, that the plan had become unreal somehow, that it had been diminishing so slowly that he hadn’t noticed.
Two years ago, he’d starred in an avant-garde film about the rise of Lucifer, a kind of rock-and-roll god who seduced the
world not into peace and love but into something more brutal, something more like ecstasy. He’d thought of it at the time
as just a stepping-stone to other ambitions, but the role had also appealed to him, had spoken to his particular gift — “charm,”
“charisma,” none of the words captured its unpredictability, the way it was sometimes in his grasp, sometimes not.
Yesterday, in one of the barns, he’d been looking for some twine or rope to secure the piano to the back of his truck when
he’d come across a gun sitting in a tool chest, wrapped in a towel. Kitty had been with him — she was hardly even a friend
anymore, just another one of the girls he would see when he was at the ranch. She watched his expression as she pulled up
the halter strap on her shirt, her face a mocking reflection of his surprise. The gun was a revolver, the wooden grip splintered
on one side, the wood as dry and smooth as bone. When he looked back at Kitty, his head tilted a little to the side, her eyes
seemed to say,
Who do you think you are? You’re really just some good-looking fool, the kind of boy I would have had a crush on in high school.
“Be quiet for a minute,” he said.
She looked at him, her arms crossed in front of her chest. “Cut it out, Bobby.”
“You can stop staring at me like that. I know what you were thinking just now.”
He brought his hand to the back of her neck and tried to kiss her. She turned her head away at first, but he turned it back,
his fingers on her jaw. His chest was heavy, his face unsmiling. He moved away from her a step, letting his hand slide from
her neck down her back, the gun still in his other hand, pressing against her arm. Her hair was sheared off at different lengths,
standing up in clumps. She was so small, so delicate, that he was almost afraid, his hand on her back, feeling the flat muscles
beneath her shirt. She kept her eyes open, watching him, as he backed her toward the table behind her, propping her up a little
in his arms. He just stood there for a while, close enough to brush his body against hers, to feel the rise of her breasts
against his rib cage. Then he unbuttoned the front of her jeans, using just one hand, the other one still on the gun.
“You know, you’ve been here so long you can’t even remember your own name anymore,” he said. “I thought you were a little
smarter than that.”
“I don’t really care what you think.”
“All this ‘Charlie is Christ’ bullshit. Or is it ‘Charlie’s the Devil’? I forget.”
“My parents were strange people,” she said, leaning back, her hand on the table. “They never really talked. They just sort
of policed each other. I never understood what they were so afraid of. What are you so afraid of?”
The words and ideas were not exactly hers. She had become smarter than before, but also dreamier, smarter but also absent.
He thought of the first time he’d seen her walk off with Charlie, maybe a month or two ago, her hand in the back of his jeans,
sloppy and blatant and stoned. “Turning them out,” Charlie called it, “breaking them in.” If you seduced them like a father
with his daughter, if you scared them a little, got inside their heads, then any kindness you did them afterward would seem
like an act of God.
He pushed his fingers down through the opening of Kitty’s fly, feeling the rise of muscle beneath the tangled wedge of hair.
She looked right into his eyes and seemed to barely see him.
This morning, he’d found her in the kitchen, washing dishes in the ragged slip she sometimes wore as a dress, her nose and
the skin around her mouth burned red by the sun. She was all forearms and shins, barefoot on the dirty kitchen floor, even
smaller than he’d remembered.
“You just need to leave me alone for a little while,” she’d said.
He thought of her hips rising toward him in the barn, the freckles on her rib cage reminding him somehow that she was sixteen,
a girl from a house with a swimming pool in Brentwood. He told her that he was going to take the used piano over to his friend
Gary’s place, pick up the twenty dollars profit, use the money to buy some motorcycle parts. He asked her if she wanted to
come along. He spoke in a purposeful voice, as if nothing had happened between them, but she just smiled at him in a disbelieving
way, as if she knew that Charlie was about to walk in and say that he and Bobby needed to go have a talk.
He got in the Ford with Charlie and they headed south toward Los Angeles, listening to a faint scratch of music on the radio,
not speaking. The rocks outside were gray, the plants a grayish green, the dirt tan. Everything was the color of dust, except
the sky, which was a washed-out blue behind a thin yellow haze. At the little store outside of Chatsworth, they pulled over
and Charlie bought a six-pack of beer and some things for the girls: a booklet of find-the-word puzzles, some candy bars.
Bobby started the car and backed up, looking over his shoulder. When they got on the highway, Charlie lit a joint, examining
its smoke as it leached out the cracked window. He passed it over, his hand low, down by Bobby’s knee.
“You’re kind of quiet,” he said.
“I’m not quiet, I’m just wondering where we’re going.”
“We’re going to a friend of mine’s house. It’s nice there, peaceful. You’ll like it.”
They were on Highway 118, heading toward Topanga Canyon. They drove for a while, looking at the sparse houses surrounded by
trees — oaks, sycamores, a few tall eucalyptuses. After the hills, they came eventually into the suburbs: gas stations, coffee
shops, a movie theater.
“I always thought you were a nice kid,” Charlie said. “But I guess maybe there’s more to you than that. Like maybe you weren’t
just bullshitting me about the time you spent in that reform school, for example.”
Bobby looked ahead at the road. “This is about Kitty, isn’t it?” he said. “Whatever Kitty told you.”
“What does that mean?”
“This little talk we’re having. Whatever this is. She knew about this.”
Charlie looked down at his lap, rubbing his knees with his hands. “You need to stop thinking so much,” he said. He brushed
something off the dashboard with the side of his hand. “Turn up here,” he said. “Take a left.”
“Left?”
“Up here at the light. Put your signal on.”
Bobby turned from the wide boulevard onto a two-lane street, steering with one hand, the other on the vinyl armrest between
them. They passed a Safeway supermarket on the corner, then a post office and a school, then they were in an ordinary neighborhood
of small houses behind sidewalks and fences.
“That piano you had in your truck back there,” Charlie said. “I was just wondering, where were you taking that thing?”
Bobby looked at him blankly, not even understanding for a moment. “What?”
“That piano you had in your truck. I was wondering where were you taking it.”
“I was taking it to Gary Hinman’s. He’s buying it from me. I got it cheap at one of the auctions.”
“Yeah, well, I figured something like that. I was just wondering where you got that piece of shit in the first place. I wanted
to make sure you didn’t find that on the ranch somewhere.”
“I bought it at an auction.”
“That’s what you said.”
“Yeah. That’s what I said. What is this?”
Charlie stared at him with an expectant frown, as if waiting for more. Then he turned away, and Bobby wished he had never
seen the piano, or that he had found it on the ranch, that he had stolen it.
“I just wonder what goes on in that head of yours sometimes,” Charlie said. “Selling a used piano like that. Wasting your
time.”
Bobby turned the knob on the radio. “I’m trying to make some money.”
“Yeah, well, money. There’s lots of ways to make money.” He passed the joint, not looking at Bobby. “What day is it today?”
he said. “Friday?”
“I think it’s Thursday.”
“Not bad. Just driving around on a Thursday, getting high. Why don’t you just cool off and relax?” Charlie nodded then, his
mouth half-open, drifting into some sort of sarcastic daydream. He had a way of miming his emotions, acting them out so that
they came across as artificial and sincere at the same time. It was the way he played his guitar, dipping and bucking his
head, giving himself up to the song, but also making fun of the idea of giving himself up to the song, making fun of you for
believing it.
They drove on in silence. It was like this sometimes when you were Bobby. The way he looked — the fact that he was good-looking
— made it hard for people like Charlie to believe that he really was who he was. They were always giving him nicknames — B.B.,
Cupid, Bummer — as if “Bobby” was too intimate, as if saying it was like kissing him on the lips. He remembered being out
in the desert one time, just he and Charlie riding around in one of the jeeps, when Charlie had spiraled off into one of his
moods, suddenly angry, hectoring and strange. The world was always at war, he’d said. It wasn’t just Vietnam, it was the nature
of people, the way they made sense of things. Look at a newspaper and all you’d see were soldiers, riots, assassinations.
You’d see things being pulled apart, sides forming, rifts widening: black and white, rich and poor, young and old. It was
like everyone had looked down and finally seen that they were standing on a tightrope. They didn’t know which way to walk
(that was the problem), they didn’t know how to choose. Some of them were so scared that they just wanted to fall off. They
might seem harmless, but you had to be vigilant, because they wanted you to fall with them — that was the peculiar thing about
their fear.
Bobby was usually embarrassed when Charlie talked this way. It seemed involuntary, a way of showing too much of his hand.
They turned at the next stop sign. The house on the corner was invisible behind its high brown fence, garbage pails in front,
thick tufts of palm trees pushing out over the wooden slats.
“That’s it up there,” said Charlie. “Park up there a little ways.”
He raised his chin at one of the houses across the street. It was a Mexican-style bungalow with a carport off to one side,
a front yard covered in smoothly raked gravel. There were cactuses and yuccas planted in little islands behind white bricks.
It was so neat that it looked almost like an old toy that had been pressed into service as something real.
“I don’t think anyone’s home yet,” Charlie said. “Why don’t you let me have the keys.”
Bobby looked at him skeptically. Then he handed him the keys and Charlie nodded, clasping them in his hand.
“Just wait here for a minute,” Charlie said. “I’ll go and see if anyone’s there.”
He got out of the car and crossed the street, heading up the sidewalk that bordered the gravel yard. He had the sack of beer
cradled in one arm, his free arm dangling at his side like a little boy’s. Bobby watched him walk around to the side of the
house, following a winding path of concrete disks. Then he disappeared around the back, his head down.
Bobby wiped his eyes. He looked through the windows at the houses: ranch houses, Spanish houses, a miniature Tudor house with
a lawn and a chain-link fence. The neighborhood seemed empty, abandoned for the day of work and school. It was like the neighborhood
he’d grown up in: middle-class, somehow accidental. There were sidewalks, but nobody outside to walk on them.
He thought of Kitty, the way she had leaned her head on her shoulder last night, looking down at Charlie’s hand on her wrist,
then back up at Bobby, her eyes sleepy, dismissive. Maybe she was just acting a part — you would see it happen around Charlie
sometimes, a certain carelessness in people’s faces, a faint edge of sarcasm. Bobby had just kept talking — he’d been acting
a little like Charlie himself, he realized now — staring at Charlie to show how little it mattered: he could have Kitty back,
she was Charlie’s girl now, there were others. But the more he thought about it now, the more distorted the memory became,
his face not calm but twitching a little at the cheeks, like a rabbit’s.
He looked at his face in the rearview mirror: his dark hair coming down over his forehead, his blue eyes beneath the hatch
marks of his eyebrows. His head felt empty, full of air. The longer Charlie was gone, the less he trusted him. Charlie said
that fear was the end of thought, the end of lies, an opening up to what was real and true about someone, his soul. But that
had always sounded to Bobby like just more of Charlie’s bullshit, words for the others, not for him.
He got out of the car and crossed the street, flicking the hair out of his eyes. He walked across the gravel yard — the cement
circles, the cactuses in their little islands — but everything he saw was slightly blurred, as if he were looking at it through
a smeared pane of glass. At the back of the house, he found a wooden door, a flimsy thing with a windowpane and a rusted brass
knob. It was still open a crack, as Charlie must have left it. He stood there for a moment, hesitating. He had felt like a
child in the car —
just wait here for a minute — but now he felt even more like a child, standing outside the door.
Inside, there was a small laundry room, a kitchen beyond it, all of it dark. There was something hanging from the ceiling
— three baskets connected by woven strands of yarn that held fruit and boxes of tea. The kitchen counter had all kinds of
domestic things on it: a ceramic cat; several canisters for flour, sugar, and the like; a notepad by a telephone. He could
see through a rectangular opening into the empty living room with its dim walls. Above the sectional sofa hung a clock shaped
like an exploding star.
Charlie emerged from a hallway off to the side. He turned to Bobby with a kind of disgusted shrug, his hands crossed before
his waist. Under his arm, pressed to his side, he had what looked like a rolled-up extension cord.
“Not what you thought,” he said.
He turned and walked into the living room, his hair covering his face. In the faint light coming in through the picture window,
the furniture looked strangely abandoned.
“What is this?” Bobby said.
“I told you that already. It’s a friend’s house.”
“What friend?”
“Right now it’s just a house. It’s just here. What difference does it make whose house it is?”
He sat down in a padded armchair, putting the extension cord down on the coffee table before him. The sack was on the floor
at his feet, hidden from Bobby’s view, and he reached down into it, rattling the paper. He brought out a can of beer and offered
it to Bobby with an upturned, cupped hand.
“You knew something like this was going to happen, didn’t you?” he said.
“I don’t know. I don’t know what this is.”
“This is kind of like the experiment where you break into someone’s house in broad daylight and decide whether or not you
can handle it.”
Bobby looked back to the kitchen door. It was still partly open, sunlight brightening the little curtain in front of the windowpane,
a bleached pattern of inkblots on pink fabric. In the living room, Charlie looked almost like a doll, dwarfed slightly by
the overstuffed chair. He was small, only five and half feet tall, and yet the dark room seemed to gather itself around him,
as if habituated to his occasional presence.
“You came all this way, you might as well have a seat for a minute,” he said. “Nothing’s going to happen to you here. Just
trust me for a minute.”
Bobby was still in the kitchen. He looked down at the floor — linoleum with a pattern like Mexican tiles, the shapes fixed
and identical, like bored eyes. Charlie pushed the beer to the far edge of the coffee table, toward him. Then he sat back,
one of his elbows on the armrest, his fist beneath his chin, and Bobby stepped into the living room, sitting down on the floor,
bringing his knees to his chest, looking down at the carpet as if being careful.
They were friends, Bobby had always thought. They played music together and rode motorcycles and drank beer, slipping off
with the girls, and usually after a few days Bobby would leave. Other people came to Charlie as if he were a visionary, some
sort of guru, but to Bobby he was another musician, someone with connections. He knew the Beach Boys, Neil Young, a man named
Terry Melcher who produced the Byrds. The music they played together was coiling and improvisatory, a current that Bobby helped
guide, leaning in toward Charlie to hear his voice, a controlled presence next to Charlie’s endless wandering. They were going
to make a record together, that was the plan, but it never seemed to happen. There was another Charlie who didn’t care about
plans, cynical and distant, and it was this Charlie, oddly, whom you could most easily imagine becoming a star, swaying the
crowd like a revivalist preacher, fully believing in his act until the moment it was over. This was the Charlie who always
kept a special eye on Bobby, aroused and suspicious. He seemed to anticipate Bobby’s thoughts, to always find them a little
disappointing, evidence of squ. . .
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