Patty shrugs and shakes her head no. She places the watering can beside the open door before standing beside me. She takes my hand in hers, a gesture that is becoming more common in the days without Alice or Mother. “Turnips again,” I say as bile churns in my gurgling stomach. Another silent shrug, and Patty turns toward the open door of our little shack. “Momma’s sleeping.” My warning deflates her tiny body, and I watch with a sadness I seldom entertain as she turns and walks toward the barn. Several steps later, her familiar lightness returns as she hops, skips, and jumps, following an imaginary weaving line toward the barn’s faded red doors.
Sweat trickles down the side of my face as Mother’s cough echoes from the blackness behind me. I step over the threshold into the thick, stifling air of the tiny room. The air is cooler in the shade, but I worry the heavy sickness will suffocate even the healthiest of people.
The bedroom door groans as I ease it open, revealing Mother lying in bed. Her head is bent over the bucket I placed there earlier. The familiar smell of vomit rushes to greet me as I step into the room. Sunlight filters through the thin floral curtains, the fabric unable to block the light. Mother’s once-braided hair falls around her face like a veil separating me from the retching that consumes her. I place a boiled cloth on her skin, stretching my arm as far as I can and stepping no closer than necessary. I am careful to keep my distance as a wave of nausea rises in my own body.
Once she settles back in bed, I dip the cloth into the wash basin and wring it out with all the strength I can muster. I sit on the edge of her bed and dream of being anywhere but here. I wipe her face, beginning with her forehead. A small sigh escapes her chapped lips as her eyes flutter, watching me as I move the cloth across her cheek.
Mother grips my arm with both hands. “Bernice, I’m sorry you have to see me like this.”
I dip the cloth into the basin again. “We can thank Alice for that.” I blurt out the comment before I bite my lip, remembering that Father warned me not to complain to Mother about Alice or, well, about Mother.