Fragments of Reflection

by Grace Augustine

Synopsis

A 40 year journey in prose, poetry, thoughts, wishes, and dreams

Release date: April 22, 2015

Print pages: 119

Sample

Reliance

Thoughts escape so quickly Sending roots of permanence Down into the alien soil. New ideas formulate… Only to tumble down existing walls Eroding emotions away Attachments are formed Being reliant on your words, deeds is wrong I know nothing will materialize The chains keeping you in bondage Only strengthen as I tug on them Resulting in physical, emotional defeat Rather than a victory I don’t want to admire you If you’re in a shatterproof glass box Give me the key that I may unlock you Your deepest secrets and wildest dreams Let’s enjoy each other for awhile Not worry about tomorrow If tomorrow comes We’ll part A little more than friends A little less than lovers Fully aware of the strings Knowing they’re not attached Knowing they don’t dictate The moves of our chess game. -2/22/79

Dreams

I had a dream about you today We were sitting in a dark corner booth Sipping Mai Tai’s Relating the day’s events to each other It’s been a long time since I’ve seen you Much too long I’d forgotten what it was like Having you hold me Touch me Be receptive of your warmth and kisses We left the shelter of the night Arm in arm Holding on to pieces of yesterday That really didn’t exist I woke up to raindrops That’s all I heard Soft, silent raindrops When just a moment ago You were so vivid So close to me. -2/25/79

Clowns

A day in the life of a clown For one and all to see Sometimes up and sometimes down So, what’s right for me? Am I now alone In this foolish game? Can I still condone Life’s fortune and its fame? Do these tears still fall Drowning what’s not right? How I fail to hear you call As you whisper in the night I want to be aglow From all the love you give Your warmth I want to know So I’ll more fully live I need to be with you In all parts of my day To find our friendship renewed Through all the words we say. -6/81

Need to be Needed

I’m flattered you care so much There’s nothing physical to base this on. The heartfelt treasures we share The secrets hidden in the dark corners Mean so much. I’m glad you said you need me Right now, I need you, too For selfish reasons, really The need of feeling needed The feeling of being loved The loving you seem to share The chance of doing it in return I do need you I do love you Both are hard truths to face When you’re two time zones away. -6/81

Melodies

My mind grows weary From thoughts of yesteryear The records keep playing the same old tunes What accomplishment is made by running? Is purpose achieved through posterity? Is victory achieved through retaliation? Vanity, the unnecessary evil, Lurks in dark corners Of cob-web like hearts Waiting To instill darts of doubt In our feeble, insufficient minds. Darts so probing, so sharp, so subtle That years pass before the full impact Of their hemlock taste reveals itself. The tunes play on Their familiar pounding rhythm The notes of joy Of fear Or both It’s not an easy melody to forget The clear, vivid portraits still appear -3/11/79

Mountains

Mountains are tall and wide Almost everything they’ll hide By lifting their heads up high Obscuring the bright blue sky Faults in a mountain are great Often endangering fate Continually making us fall Down their harsh and stony wall Mountains will be altered Only through the falter When things are dark and amiss At the depths of the deep abyss Someone sends the rain To lift us from our pain The drops will trickle down Enlightening what is found Tiny grains of sand Quickly lose their stand Something much greater than they Will sweep them all away If your mountain seems great Enough to endanger your fate Be calm and content within Just quietly give it to Him Know there is a plan Made by a wonderful Man Who watches you day and night Guarding in darkness and light So when your mountain falls And you’re buried by its walls Keep looking to Heaven above Resting securely in God’s love -1/79

Eulogy for Philip

I love you with a love so deep My days are filled with pain The nights do not hold sleep. My head only beats in anger My heart is an empty shell I’m numb, void of feeling For today from life you fell. I remember many dinners Late night moonlight walks Singing and playing music And quiet heartfelt talks I remember Halloween The masked bandit and the clown Laughing and dancing ‘til 3 am And all the love we found I remember the day we met I thought you old and gray Then deja vous got in our way You loved wispy pastels and long flowing hair We made quite a pair, you and I You came to Sunday dinner in a three piece suit Portraying some big winner You saw me during good times Counselled me in bad Held me during rough times Loved me when I was sad Animals seemed to love you Children did, too. You played the piano and we sang ‘til dawn I still can’t believe you’re really gone Gone from my life And all that is real We sat on your roof Counting the stars Dreaming our dreams I never thought you’d leave Be gone forever And I’d never get the chance to say good-bye I wonder where you are Are you sitting on a star? Sailing a ship? Singing love songs in my ear? Have you passed through the Gate? Are you clothed in sparkling white? God, I feel you so close My heart beats in tune with yours As it always did I loved the curls of your soft auburn hair The twinkle in your beautiful eyes Every time you smiled. Your closeness warms my heart My dear, dear, Philip We will never live our dreams We will never be together We will never be each other’s soulmate I’ll never hold you again Feel the warmth of your touch The passion filled kisses The plans for marriage For a lifetime together All gone in the blink of an eye. I love you, darling Someday, someday We will have our second chance We will have a brand new start Until then Fly with the angels Brighten the night sky I’ll forever hold you in my heart I’ll see you soon I’ll never say goodbye --5/21/81