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“Ready for this?” Dad asked across our thick
wooden dining table. “You don’t have to go to school.”I couldn’t think of anything to say in response. Instead, Istared at the extra-large stockpot of cheese and veggie eggs.He’d perfected them, because that was his way of dealingwith things.I checked his clean-shaven face. He’d perfected that, too.In the days after Virginia, constant YouTube videos blastedfrom his bathroom on how to get rid of his beard. He’dgrown it long and scraggly before and I’d liked it. Cou-pled with his red-rimmed glasses and neat sweater vest, helooked like the African American history professor thathe was. Ever since that horrible day, he’d gotten rid of the scraggle and hung the sweater in the back of the closet,exchanging it for pressed suits.Now, he looked like a banker.“You don’t have to speak if you don’t want to,” he saidbefore getting back up to stir the eggs. “They’re gettingclumpy just sitting here.”For the sixth time since we’d sat down, he began whip-ping the nonexistent lumps away.“More OJ?”He bounced up. I shook my head and kept quiet. I’dbegun counting my daily words again. It wasn’t quite sevenin the morning and I’d said none so far. I don’t know why Iwas doing it. Maybe I was saving them for a larger momentto release all at once.Dad sat back down for exactly four seconds, hummed atune, and jumped back up. Polar opposite of me, he hatedstillness and silence with a passion.“Do you hear the baby crying?” he asked, chuggingextra-hot coffee without flinching. “I think I do.”He took off, leaving me alone with the eggs and the OJthat I didn’t ask for.Virginia had been his favorite, but I couldn’t blamehim. Virginia was everyone’s favorite. She knew what tosay. Always. She didn’t overthink it. Empathy flowed directlyfrom her heart and through her lips without taking anystops on the way. Virginia and Dad especially, their soulsmatched. Orange and blue. Yellow and purple. Red and green. Complementary. He and I, on the other hand, well,we were different.He sprang back into the room holding Melody, my one- year-old sister. She was more like me than anyone in theworld. Another quiet storm on the horizon. I smiled at herand she smiled back.“Ruuuuu!” She reached and leaned for me and I took her.I wanted to tell her good job for getting my name righton the first try, but I didn’t want to waste words. Melodyhad started accidentally calling me other names. She’d stut-ter through Virginia and Ruuu and Mama and Dada untilshe’d finally give up and go quiet like me. Melody’s smilenever lasted all that long anymore, either. That morning,she sat in my lap, calmly and deliberately picking apart myplate of eggs with her fingers and frowning.She missed our mom.“Your mother should be home next weekend,” Dad said,sensing it, too. “Senate recess is coming up soon. Hopefully.”He added