Through Your Eyes

Book 3: For Your Love Novel

by Shannyn Schroeder

Genres: Women's Fiction; Contemporary Romance

Synopsis

"If this sweet romance doesn't have you dancing a jig, nothing will.”– Kirkus Reviews

“Schroeder's latest For Your Love sizzler has everything a romance needs”
                                                                                                           —RT Book Reviews, TOP PICK!

ONE LAST CHANCE

Deirdre Murphy has had her life planned for her since she was born: Work in her parents' noisy pub in rural Ireland. Live with her family until she marries. Marry her childhood sweetheart ASAP, since he's decided sexy fun time should wait for marriage. None of it excites her. But before her fate closes in, Deirdre's got one last visit to her Chicago cousins—where she can spend her mornings in a peaceful bakery, keep to herself, and savor the space she needs.... Until she meets Tommy O'Malley.

Tommy is as tough as his city and twice as ready to welcome her in. He's covered in tattoos, stays up half the night inking them on other people, and has a reputation for being good with his hands. And he's heart-pounding, forgot-her-words, can't-stop-staring exciting.

Tommy knows he's the opposite of everything Deirdre has prepared for. But to watch her set herself free, he's willing to risk almost anything...

Praise for the For Your Love series

“Schroeder infuses plenty of emotion into this strong love story.” —Booklist on In Your Arms

“A surprising big hearted romance.” —Kirkus Reviews on Under Your Skin

Release date: May 30, 2017

Publisher: Zebra Books

Print pages: 368

Sample

Deirdre Murphy stepped out of the international terminal at O’Hare Airport, into the blustery wind of Chicago. She disliked the crowds and held no love for the cold, but as soon as she stepped to the curb, she felt freedom. It had been months since she’d left this city to return home to Ireland, but something about this place put her at ease. Or maybe it was simply escaping her family and the responsibilities she’d left behind.

She scanned the curb for her cousin Maggie and, for the life of her, couldn’t remember what Maggie’s car looked like. Suddenly, loud honking preceded a pickup truck whipping into a spot in front of her. Deirdre looked up and saw Maggie’s smiling face.

Deirdre grabbed her suitcases and her shoulder bag, but before she got to the curb, Maggie was flying at her and wrapping her arms around her. If her hands hadn’t been full, Deirdre would’ve returned the embrace. Maybe.

“I’m so glad you’re back! And just in time for St. Paddy’s Day.” Her cousin chuckled. “You thought you were coming to hang out, but I had ulterior motives in getting you here. You can work at the bar with us. It’s a blast.”

Deirdre clenched her jaw. Working at O’Leary’s Pub was the last thing she wanted to do. Her entire life had been about her own family’s pub, and that was the single most important reason she’d wanted to leave home.

Maggie pulled away, but nudged her shoulder. “Really. It’s fun. And it’s only one day. You’ll make a crap ton of money in tips just for having the accent.” She paused and lowered her voice. “I know you don’t want to be there all the time.”

In fact, Maggie did know. She was the only person Deirdre had confided in. Maggie grabbed a suitcase and shoved it on the backseat of the truck.

“Whose truck is this?”

“Shane’s. My car is having issues, so I dropped him off at work so I could use his truck.”

Deirdre watched Maggie as she spoke about her boyfriend. She was so happy that it was evident in her entire body. Deirdre wondered if she looked the same when she spoke about Rory. She doubted it. Something was off between them, now more than ever.

After they were buckled up, Maggie reached across the seat. “Well? Let me see.”

“What?” Deirdre asked, her stomach plummeting because she knew exactly what Maggie wanted to see.

“Your Christmas present.” She paused. “Shit. He didn’t propose, did he?”

Deirdre shook her head. “On the upside, I’m here.” She forced a smile. “He bought me the plane ticket.”

A flash of Christmas night came to her. Rory had watched her open the present, and she’d swallowed her disappointment when she’d realized it wasn’t an engagement ring.

He’d held her hand. I’ve never seen you as happy as you were in Chicago. Your face lit up my computer screen. Go back and have a good time.

“What is it?” Maggie’s question pulled her from the past.

“I don’t know. I’m thrilled to be here, but things between me and Rory . . . something’s not right.”

Maggie pulled out into traffic, then asked, “Is he cheating on you?”

Deirdre shrugged. She never would’ve considered it, but then Maggie put her thoughts into words.

“I mean, I don’t really know him well, but what guy sends his girlfriend halfway around the world?”

Deirdre bit her lip. “Rory’s not like that. We’ve been friends since we were tots. He wouldn’t do anything to hurt me.”

“Not to be a bitch, but one way to keep you in the dark is to send you thousands of miles away.”

Deirdre laughed. “Saying you don’t want to be a bitch doesn’t make it so.”

Maggie feigned offense.

“I can’t imagine Rory would be able to have a girl on the side without my family or his knowing. And they certainly wouldn’t keep it from me.”

Maggie had gotten on the highway, and the rush of traffic and the crazy crisscrossing of the pavement mesmerized Deirdre. She loved so much about this city. “It doesn’t really matter why he sent me here. I’m here and I’m going to enjoy myself.”

“More than last time, I hope.”

“What do you mean? I had fun last fall.”

“Girl, you did little more than work and go to church with my mom.” Her hand flew up. “Not that we all don’t appreciate you taking on that task.”

Deirdre laughed again. “I don’t mind. It seems to make Aunt Eileen happy to have someone attend with her.”

While not as devout as her family believed, Deirdre liked the familiarity and rhythm of mass. It gave her peace that she didn’t find at home.

They exited the highway and began winding down residential streets. Deirdre was content to watch the scenery, but as usual, Maggie continued the conversation.

“Okay, since there was no engagement, give me the scoop. Are you still a virgin?”

“Why wouldn’t I be?”

“Come on, if Rory had proposed, we both know your panties would’ve dropped as soon as the ring slipped on your finger.”

Deirdre felt her cheeks heat. She didn’t have a sister of her own, and she’d never talk so openly with her brothers. As uncomfortable as the conversation made her, she realized that she’d missed Maggie and her brazen nature.

Plus, she was right. Deirdre had only been saving herself for marriage because it seemed like something Rory wanted.

“What’s that Beyoncé song? He should’ve put a ring on it?” She laughed with her cousin even though she didn’t feel the levity her remark should’ve caused.

Before she knew it, they were in front of the O’Leary house and Deirdre was filled with longing once again. She loved that although the O’Learys ran their own pub, they had a real house. Deirdre’s family lived above their pub, so there was no escaping it. Ever.

They hauled her luggage into the house, and Eileen came from the kitchen to greet them. “I have tea on. I thought you could use some after the trip.”

Deirdre nodded. “Thank you. It sounds lovely.”

“I’ll take your bags upstairs. The room is the same. No one has used it since you left.”

“Let me help.” Deirdre hefted one of her bags. As they headed up the stairs, she asked, “So Aunt Eileen is really all right with you living with Shane?”

“Why wouldn’t she be?”

“I just thought . . . I don’t know. My mom is so excited at the simple thought of marriage.”

“Come on. Your mom isn’t that old-fashioned. I’m sure if you and Rory wanted to live together, she’d be okay with it.” She tossed the suitcase on the bed and then plopped beside it.

Deirdre unzipped the case and flipped the lid. Maybe her mom wouldn’t care. Rory always seemed to think it would be an issue. Just like he wanted to wait to have sex. Now he’d sent her back to Chicago.

That unsettled feeling returned.

“Leave this for later. Let’s go have tea and catch up.”

“Don’t you have to get Shane?”

“Not till later. We have plenty of time.”

Back in the kitchen, Aunt Eileen was filling the teapot. A plate of cookies sat beside it on a tray. The same way her mom served tea at home.

Without turning, Eileen said, “I’ll have you know that I spoke with the McDonoughs. They’d love to have you back at the bakery.”

Maggie snickered.

“What?”

“I just think it’s ridiculous that the McDonoughs have owned that bakery for probably longer than I’ve been alive, but they leave the name Blackstone’s.”

“Blackstone’s is an institution.” Eileen’s voice stiffened.

Deirdre wasn’t sure if she was being serious.

“If I owned a bakery that was that good, you better believe I’d have my name plastered all over it. I’d want people to know it was me.”

Deirdre didn’t understand that. She’d be happy in the background. It was enough to create something that people would enjoy, even if they had no idea who had done it.

Eileen lifted the tray. Deirdre rushed forward. “Let me.”

They moved to the dining room table. She found comfort in the routine of having tea and cookies. As different as life was in Chicago, she liked knowing that family traditions were consistent.

Tommy’s phone rang as he finished giving his client after-care instructions. He said good-bye to the client and answered the phone. “Hey, Jimmy, what’s up?”

“I need you to get Norah’s birthday cake from Blackstone’s.”

“Why me?”

“Because Sean isn’t answering and Norah shouldn’t have to get her own cake. It’s all paid for. Just pick it up.”

He hadn’t gone to Blackstone’s since Cupcake had gone back to Ireland. He’d never gotten the chance to ask her out, and going to the bakery would just be a reminder of his failure. “Get Kevin to pick it up.”

“Not gonna happen. Stop being a dick and get the cake for our sister.”

He was being a dick, but he didn’t need Jimmy to point it out. He also needed to get over it. There were other girls. He’d barely had a conversation with Deirdre, even at the urging of Moira, who was Deirdre’s cousin and Jimmy’s fiancée. “Fine.”

He disconnected and caught Kai staring at him. Tommy thought that his boss would’ve lightened up since getting together with Norah. Some things, unfortunately, didn’t change. “Yeah, Kai, I took a personal call, but I was done with my client.” Then a thought hit him. “You want to pick up Norah’s birthday cake?”

“Why the hell would I want to do that?”

“She’s your girlfriend.”

“She’s your sister. And it’s your family that wants to do dinner. Besides, I have to go pick her up.”

Tommy sighed. Back to getting over himself. He waited a little while, hoping for a walk-in client, but only one came in and Puck, the other tattoo artist, beat him to the counter.

“I’m out of here,” Tommy called to Kai. “See you at the house.”

Outside, a blast of cold wind slapped at him. He couldn’t wait for spring. He wasn’t as bad as his brother Sean, who couldn’t wait for warm weather so he could ride his motorcycle. For Tommy, it was just being outside, hanging with people. During the winter, everyone tended to disappear and hibernate. Loneliness always hit him over the winter.

Which was why he missed having a girlfriend. A steady girl kept the loneliness at bay. And the regular sex didn’t hurt, either. He drove to the bakery and found a parking spot in front. It was near closing and the business was empty.

He walked through the door and a sweet scent filled the air. The place hadn’t changed much over the years. The fake cakes they had on display were different, changing with the times, showing popular themes, but the classics remained on a high shelf near the ceiling.

One of his earliest memories was coming here with his dad and Jimmy to pick out his birthday cake. His dad had hoisted him up on his shoulders and told him to pick any cake design he wanted. He couldn’t have been more than four or five. It wasn’t long after his mom had been killed, but the memory was such a happy one. He didn’t remember feeling sad.

That realization made him feel crappy.

No one came from the back, so he called out, “Hello? I’m here to pick up a cake.”

From the back room, with her head down, she came toward him.

“Cupcake,” he whispered.

She moved to the counter opposite him and turned her back to dig through a stack of order slips. Her reddish-brown hair trailed down her back in a ponytail. Without any greeting, she asked, “Name?”

“O’Malley.”

She spun with the pink slips in her hand. Her light blue eyes were wide, and the sprinkling of freckles across her nose reminded him how cute she was.

“You’re back,” he said.

“Another cake for O’Malley?”

He lifted a shoulder. “There are five of us.”

“It’s good to know you’re not eating all this cake. I was beginning to think you had a wicked sweet tooth.”

“Uh, your cousin Moira told me you went back to Ireland.”

The papers in her hands crinkled, and a blush swept across her cheeks. “I did.”

“Are you staying long?”

“I’m not sure.” She focused on the slips, flipping through them, looking for his order.

When she found it, she pulled it from the stack and looked up. She waved it at him with a smile. “I’ll be right back.”

She disappeared to the back room, and Tommy sucked in a deep breath. This was it. He had another chance. All he had to do was open his mouth.

Why hadn’t Moira said anything? She knew he had a thing for her cousin. Maybe she was the one who’d put Jimmy up to making him get the cake. That definitely sounded like a Moira move. But to get Jimmy involved, that took skill. Moira was obviously better than he’d given her credit for.

Deirdre returned carrying a box. She slid it on the counter between them and lifted the lid. “Here you go.”

He barely glanced at it. No one would care if something was misspelled. His gaze locked on hers as she lowered the lid.

“Would you like to go out sometime?”

She stared at him for so long, he began to wonder if he’d really spoken aloud.

“Uh . . . I have a boyfriend.”

“Oh.” The disappointment hit him hard. Again, he had to question why Moira wouldn’t tell him. This was the kind of pertinent information you gave a guy before he made a fool of himself.

“Your order is all paid for.” She nudged the box forward so he’d take the hint.

He scrambled for what to say to ease the tension. “Maybe you’d like to go out and do some sightseeing. As friends. You’re new to Chicago, and I could show you around.”

“Maybe.” Her eyes shifted away. It seemed no matter what he said, he made her nervous.

“Are staying with the O’Learys again?”

“Yes.”

“I’m right across the street. Stop by any time.”

She nodded and he took the cake from the counter. Not quite the answer he was looking for, but at least she hadn’t totally shot him down. She didn’t seem completely uninterested.

But boyfriend?

Were they doing a long-distance thing? Tommy wondered about her relationship. This was her second trip to Chicago in under a year.

Maybe there wasn’t a boyfriend and she was trying to be nice.

Shit. He hated when that happened.

He set the cake on the passenger seat and looked back through the front window of the bakery. Deirdre stood behind the counter, staring at his car. It was dark enough out that he didn’t think she could still see him, but he smiled anyway.

Boyfriend or not, she was interested.

Deirdre stood on the corner and waited for the bus. She should’ve asked the O’Malley boy for a lift. He was going to the same place, but after he’d asked her out, she didn’t think she could. She didn’t even know his first name, but he seemed to know quite a bit about her.

She stomped her feet and burrowed deeper into her coat. Well, Eileen’s coat, because she hadn’t packed one. She’d hoped Maggie would have one she could borrow, but Maggie had only skimpy, little things that barely wrapped around her. Deirdre didn’t see the point. She wanted to be warm.

Thinking about warmth made her think about how long she’d stay in Chicago. Her mom had brought her for a visit one summer when she was little and she’d loved it, but with the exception of last fall, she hadn’t been back at all. Her family didn’t take holidays. After all, who would run the pub?

She practically growled. She didn’t need to think about the pub. Not for now, anyway. She thought again of the stories Maggie had told her about the fun things to do during the summer in the city. Festivals and parties, and her cousin Liam ran a food truck. He’d told her about one that sold only cupcakes.

She couldn’t imagine doing nothing but driving a truck and baking cupcakes. No waiting on tables and slapping the hands of drunks. No smile plastered on her face for the duration of the night.

The bus pulled up to the curb, and she let the silly dream float away like the black exhaust from the bus. The pub was part of her family. Her parents expected her to take as much part in it as her brothers did. Then maybe they could relax on holiday and visit family themselves.

In the meantime, she’d enjoy her trip to Chicago. The bus rumbled down the street and she watched the sights blur by. She wanted to absorb every bit of adventure and culture as she could because this would probably be her last trip for a long time.

She wasn’t an adventurous soul, but she wanted to be.

She’d always done everything that was expected of her, from going to mass every Sunday to working at the pub, to getting good marks in school, to having Rory as a boyfriend. She knew she wouldn’t walk away from the family business. Her parents had worked hard their whole lives to provide for her and her brothers.

The least she could do was take over so they could enjoy the rest of their lives. The bus neared her stop and she stood, practicing keeping her balance as the vehicle bounced down the street.

Aunt Eileen’s heart attack the previous year had scared Deirdre’s mom enough that she’d pressured her husband to commit to retirement. Deirdre knew her dad didn’t want to. He loved being at the pub, but he’d do anything for his wife. Deirdre smiled.

She wanted that kind of love. She and Rory didn’t have it yet, but she thought they could get there one day. Walking down the block to the O’Leary house, she was excited to be able to enjoy the quiet. She’d never lived in a house so silent. All of the O’Leary siblings had moved out, leaving Eileen alone.

Deirdre unlocked the front door and peered over her shoulder before walking in. Noise from across the street caught her attention. The O’Malley house had visitors. Not surprising, since they had a birthday cake.

“Hey!” someone called.

Deirdre narrowed her eyes and realized that it was her cousin Moira. She jogged across the street toward Deirdre.

“How are you? Sorry I haven’t stopped in to say hi yet.”

“It’s fine. I’m not expecting a special welcome.”

“I’m glad you’re back.” She pulled Deirdre into a hug.

Deirdre wasn’t sure she’d ever get used to the physical nature of her American cousins.

“We’re having a party across the street. Want to come?”

“No, thank you.” That would definitely send the wrong message to the O’Malley she’d turned down earlier.

“It’s nothing fancy. Pizza and cake for Norah’s birthday. No one will care.”

“No, really. I just came from work.”

“Okay. Maybe next time.” She turned to leave. “We need to get together for a girls’ night. You and me and Maggie. Maybe Norah will come too. You and Maggie are only a few years older than she is.”

“Sounds fun.” Deirdre turned the knob on the door. “Moira?”

Her cousin spun at the bottom of the steps.

“Who’s the O’Malley boy with the dark hair?”

“They all have dark hair. I need more than that.”

“Tall, thin—” She was about to comment on his tattoos, but Moira suddenly waved a hand.

“I don’t know why I asked. You’re talking about Tommy. Any of the others would’ve introduced themselves. Why?”

“He picked up the cake for tonight and he asked me out.”

Moira’s face brightened with a huge smile and she rushed back up the steps. “Yes! What happened?”

Deirdre shook her head. “I turned him down, of course. I’m dating Rory.”

Moira tilted her head and narrowed her eyes. “Hmm. I thought maybe you guys called it quits.”

“Why?”

She waved her hand again, dismissing whatever she planned to say. “Nothing. No worries. I’ll call you to plan a night out.”

Deirdre watched her leave. Inside the living room, she hung her coat in the closet and thought about Moira’s excitement. Why would she be happy that Tommy had asked her out? And more important, why would she think she and Rory had ended their relationship?

For as long as Deirdre could remember, everyone had talked about what a perfect couple she and Rory made. Everyone expected them to have a long, happy life together.

Unfortunately, every day she was away from home, she began to question that. Never before had she been tempted to go out with another man. Of course, part of that was lack of opportunity and experience. But she never dreamed of other boys, other than schoolgirl crushes on celebrities.

Rory was always supposed to be the one.

But as she changed for bed that night, she couldn’t help but steal a glance out the window to the house across the street. She checked the time. Far too late for her to call Rory. He would be at the pub, and they’d be busy.

She’d wait until morning and call him then. He would be at the pub again, of course. It was one of the many reasons her family loved him. But in the afternoon it was easier for him to sneak off.

So instead of calling her boyfriend, she sat in bed with her laptop and streamed silly television shows.

For days, Deirdre and Rory had played tag with their phones and computers. She wanted to see his smiling face, hear his calming voice. She stood in her temporary room, getting ready for her girls’ night out with Moira and Maggie. Moira had said she’d invited Norah O’Malley as well. Moira seemed to be quite the matchmaker, trying to find friends for Deirdre.

Deirdre ran a hand nervously over the folded clothes in her drawer. She had no idea what to wear out. Back home, jeans and a T-shirt would suffice. She texted Moira to see if she would need anything fancier.

While she waited for a response, the mobile rang in her hand. Rory.

“Well, you certainly took your time ringing me.”

“Don’t talk like that, love. You know how busy it is here. Tell me about how much fun you’re having.”

His smooth voice came across the line clearly, but she could hear the noise of the pub in the background.

“I’m working at the bakery again. I’m learning a lot.” She paused. “Not that it’ll do me any good working at the pub, but at least I enjoy it.”

“Please tell me you’re doing more than working. You could’ve stayed at home to do that.”

She couldn’t lie to him, but she’d done little more than work. “I’m going out with Maggie and Moira tonight.”

“Excellent. Get good and pissed, and have a ball.”

“I don’t plan on overdrinking. What if a sexy man wants to take me dancing?” It was a silly question, and she didn’t know why she was trying to toy with Rory. Part of her wanted—no, needed—some reassurance.

“Then you dance.”

Definitely not the response she’d been expecting.

“Won’t you be jealous to know I’m in another man’s arms?” she asked, almost teasingly.

“I want you to be happy, Deirdre.”

There was commotion on his end.

“What?” she asked.

“I’m sorry, love. I have to go. Something’s happening in the pub.”

“Wait—what did you—?”

She didn’t get a chance to ask him what he’d meant by telling her to be happy, but no matter how she tried to interpret it, it wasn’t good.

Was he breaking up with her?

She sank to the bed, staring at her phone. What was happening to her life? The phone buzzed in her hand. Moira texted to say she could wear whatever she wanted. She dressed in a daze, and as she packed her purse, another text came through. This one from Rory.

Voices carried up the stairs from the dining room. Her cousins must be ready to go. Deirdre gathered her things and headed downstairs.

Maggie looked at her and asked, “Is everything okay?”

“I think?”

Moira looped an arm around her and said, “Let’s go talk over drinks. I find it’s always easiest to bare your soul when you have some liquor in you.”

Aunt Eileen sat at the table, flipping through a magazine. “Be good now, girls. I won’t be having you get Deirdre in trouble.”

Moira rolled her eyes. “We’ll be fine, Mom. Have a good night.”

“Always rushing out of here.”

“We’re going out this weekend for dresses. You get me to yourself for the whole day.” She bent and kissed her mom’s cheek.

They went outside, and at the curb, a car sat running. “Jimmy’s driving us. He insisted that he drop us off. It’s like he doesn’t even trust us to not drink and drive.”

“Who are you kidding?” Maggie said. “He’s controlling. And he doesn’t trust you. What does he call you?” She snapped her fingers. “A menace!”

Moira shoved her sister. “He overreacts.” Over her shoulder, she said, “I hope you don’t mind, but I invited Norah to come with us.”

Deirdre shrugged.

They all piled into Jimmy’s car, with Moira taking the front seat beside her fiancé.

“Where to, ladies?”

Maggie poked Deirdre’s side. “This is Norah, Jimmy’s little sister. Norah, this is our cousin Deirdre.”

“Hey,” the girl said with a small wave. “From Ireland, right?”

Deirdre nodded.

Moira turned in her seat. “Where do you guys want to go?”

“Before you decide, keep in mind I won’t be able to pick you up. Pick somewhere safe where it’ll be easy to get a cab,” Jimmy said.

Moira rolled her eyes again. Deirdre wondered how such a marriage would work.

“Tommy’s playing hockey tonight. He can get us,” Norah said. “In fact, if you guys don’t mind, we can just go to McGinty’s. The team always goes there after practice. Tommy won’t have a choice but to drive us home.”

“I like the way you think,” Moira said.

“I don’t know,” Jimmy added. “I’ve been to McGinty’s.”

“It’s fine. Kai will be there along with the rest of the team. Can’t get much safer.”

“They don’t have doormen.” Jimmy pulled away from the curb.

Norah laughed. “I think the bartender has a bat under the bar. Plus, the hockey players are their best customers. I’ve been there tons of times and I’ve never had a problem.”

“Sean playing tonight?”

Norah shook her head. “He’s doing something with Emma.”

Jimmy didn’t comment but continued on t. . .