CASSANDRA
The flies talk to us, okay? This is fly country. Flies fly all around us, a nation of ideas buzzity buzz buzzing above Calia’s head. She’s unfazed, as usual, focused on her drawing of an elephant. The drawing, anatomically precise, isn’t just the product of boredom and the summer heat. Calia never even looks up. One of the fattest flies lands on her forehead and wends its way over the pores and hairs and sweat droplets, flaps its wings, cleans them, what a lovely spot it’s chosen to watch the action, to contemplate the elephant drawing, to admire and extemporize upon Calia’s artistry and offer a thoughtful critique of her work. For example, the fly might remark that the elephant in the drawing is more than just a realist rendering of the original pachyderm, it might observe that the elephant is actually flawless, so perfect it’s practically alive, and the fly might wonder if, any moment now, an invisible curtain will drop down Calia’s sheet of paper, a closing flourish in the miraculous process by which the elephant draws breath and takes solid form. The fly dreams of landing atop the elephant’s hulking gray mass. A beautiful mass. Notes of dung.
The fly waits on Calia’s forehead.
An exercise in patience.
Do the flies dream of her drawings?
We do.
Just three years old. No, not the flies. The flies are much younger than my sister.
No one remembers when Calia started drawing. At this point, we just assume she was born with a paintbrush in hand and made her first watercolor with strokes of blood, amniotic fluid, and the mucus plug. I guess some anatomical masterpiece must’ve emerged from her experience in the birth canal; in any case, she never stopped, and the drawings keep multiplying like ants.
Her oeuvre can be studied, like any other genius’s, according to her obsessions. Calia only draws animals. Like I said (and the flies are clearly also interested), her drawings aren’t clumsy doodles like you’d expect from a kid her age, the page sinking under the weight of so much colored wax; they’re fucking perfection. She started with insects. Ants were her favorite. And spiders. I’d say that was her darkest period. Drawings of predatory ants and spiders at the exact moment they dismembered their prey, a victim that was no longer animal but merely an object of the hunt, caught in a state of limbo between the jaws of death and the remote possibility of escape. Then came the birds. Mostly sparrows. It’s easy to understand the rationale behind that pictorial decision. The only birds Calia has ever seen are the few emaciated sparrows that still fly in this country, fenced in by hunger and heat, sparrows with hearts as small as the pad of your little finger, sparrows that go into cardiac arrest and expire in people’s gardens. After that, Calia moved on to monkeys. Monkeys with big fat asses. Veiny and bulbous, swaths of reds and purples. Those monkey butts brought an explosion of color to Calia’s formerly sober pages.
And that brings us to today. Her elephant period. Thankfully, Calia hasn’t yet considered what the genitals of an elephant in heat look like. She’s just focused on their hooves, the shades of gray in their wrinkles and scars, the spindly hairs on their trunks.
To be clear, I have nothing against Calia’s gift. I think it’s great she spends so much time drawing—I just wish she was worse at it. That’d be a relief to everyone. It’d help us be more patient with the parade of monkey butts and spider legs. Couldn’t she at least make the monkey butts and spider legs a little less lifelike? Or just draw a square house in front of mountains and a yellow sun, the typical awkward sketch kids are supposed to enjoy
making and that everyone thinks is so adorable because it proves their baby girl has artistic inclinations? That’d be ideal.
Jesus, ...
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