River Home

by Hannah Richell

Genres: Family Life; Women's Fiction; Mystery

Synopsis

The river can take you home. But the river can also drag you under... The new novel from bestselling author Hannah Richell. A wise and emotionally powerful story of a broken family and the courage it takes to heal.
The river can take you home. But the river can also drag you under...
'It's something she learned years ago - the hard way - and that she knows she will never forget: even the sweetest fruit will fall and rot into the earth, eventually. No matter how deep you bury the pain, the bones of it will rise up to haunt you ... like the echoes of a summer's night, like the river flowing relentlessly on its course.'
Margot Sorrell didn't want to go home. She had spent all her adult life trying not to look behind. But a text from her sister Lucy brought her back to Somerset. 'I need you.'
As Margot, Lucy and their eldest sister, Eve, reunite in the house they grew up in beside the river, the secrets they keep from each other, and from themselves, refuse to stay hidden. A wedding brings them together but long-simmering resentments threaten to tear the family apart. No one could imagine the way this gathering would change them all forever. And through the sorrow they are forced to confront, there is a chance that healing will also come. But only if the truth is told.
The new novel from bestselling author Hannah Richell. A wise and emotionally powerful story of a broken family and the courage it takes to heal.

Release date: August 4, 2020

Publisher: Orion Publishing Group

Print pages: 368

Sample

TUESDAY



1

Margot stirs at the sound of the train horn screaming through a tunnel. Her cheek is clammy where it rests against the window and a familiar scent, sweet and heavy, lingers in the air. Opening her eyes, she meets the gaze of a young girl seated across the carriage table. She wears purple headphones with pointed cat ears stuck to the headband and bites into an apple. Empty wrappers escape from a pink packed lunch box lying discarded between them.

Margot looks from the lunch box to the apple, then back to the girl’s face. She is around seven or eight, she thinks, with blue eyes and hair the colour of corn hanging in two neat plaits. There is something reminiscent of Lucy in the girl’s appearance, though the girl’s hair is perfectly parted and the braids are tight and uniform. Her sister’s childhood plaits had never been neat, usually wrestled into unruly braids at the breakfast table by Eve or their father. Lucy had always been a wild tangle of a girl – though no longer a girl, of course, but a grown woman, soon to be married.

The messages had arrived the previous night, Eve’s flashing first on Margot’s phone as she’d let herself into the empty flat. She’d scanned it standing in the kitchen as the kettle boiled and had to read it twice before the meaning had sunk in. Lucy was getting married, in less than a week? Their middle sister had always been impetuous – prone to spontaneous gestures or blurting whatever was on her mind, no matter the consequences – but this latest spur-of-the-moment decision surely had disaster written all over it. It was typical Eve too, her elder sister’s exasperation and judgement evident even through the economy of her text message. And perhaps, Margot thinks – turning to the window and studying her reflection in the glass, regarding her bloodshot eyes and tasting the stale vodka still caught at the back of her throat – typical of her too.

The girl seated across from her crunches into the apple, brown pips now visible in the hollow chambers of its core. Margot watches, expecting her to discard it at any moment, or perhaps pass it to the woman – obviously her mother – bent over a book beside her, but the girl bites steadily into the shrinking apple until the innards, the pips and finally the thin brown stalk have all disappeared into her mouth. Yes, just like Lucy. She can picture her so clearly: denim cut-offs and long brown limbs, lying on a blanket amid the fallen fruit under the orchard trees, that wide smile and the tangle of her long blonde hair fanning out about her face.

Margot sighs. She thinks of the trolley service that had rattled by half an hour ago, and of the clinking glass miniatures holding so much promise. She wishes she hadn’t held her nerve. She wishes she’d bought even one, just to lift the veil of her hangover.

I need you.

The girl opposite licks her fingers then glances across at Margot, her lips twitching into a smile. Margot gives her a solemn nod, before turning away and leaning her head back against the window. Three words. It was all it had taken to undo her resolve. For Margot knows what it is to need. She couldn’t ignore Lucy’s plea. Against her better judgement, here she is, travelling home to Windfalls. What on earth was she thinking?

2



Eve stands in the lower orchard, one hand pressed to her chest, the other shading her eyes from the sun as the man from the marquee hire company paces between the trees, tutting audibly. She doesn’t like his frown, nor the way he keeps bending down and shaking his head, as if to assess the angle of the hill or the quality of the ground. ‘It’s pretty boggy,’ he says, coming to join her. ‘And the slope isn’t ideal, but I think we can do it. There’s enough space between those trees to put up a thirty- by forty-foot tent, which should give you plenty of room for your guests. Around fifty you said?’

‘It’s a little over sixty now.’

The man sucks air through his teeth and refers to his clipboard. ‘We could do it on Thursday morning. That would give you time to decorate.’

‘Great. You’re sure it’ll be OK down here?’ The ground feels ominously soft beneath her boots. It’s hard to imagine how the pegs to anchor the marquee will hold. As she pictures a vast white tent lifting up and flying off across the valley she tries, simultaneously, to ignore the tightening sensation in her chest. It’s as if a cold fist reaches inside her ribcage and squeezes her heart.

‘Don’t worry,’ he says, reading her expression. ‘We’ll see you right. Lovely spot you’ve got here,’ he adds, genuine appreciation in his voice.

Eve turns to survey the scene. The fruit trees hang heavy with ripe apples. Birds chatter through the lush green boughs while the sun, just past its pinnacle, drenches the hillside in golden, autumnal light. Below the sloping orchard, a strip of river glints like a mirror, visible through the trees as they move in the breeze. Behind her, the honey-coloured stone chimneys of Windfalls jut into a blue sky. Standing there in the soft September light, the old seventeenth-century farmhouse, with its wide, painted sash windows, grey slate roof and tangled wisteria clinging to its facade, has never looked prettier.

But Eve can’t focus on the beauty of her childhood home; she is too caught up in thoughts of untethered marquees, and catering, and what to do if it rains between now and Saturday and the orchard turns into a vast, boggy mudslide. Though all these are mere organisational logistics – jobs to cross off a list. When she considers them alongside the more worrying thought of her family coming back together for the first time in eight years, no wonder she feels panicked.

Hay, she thinks, wishing she had brought a pen and paper with her. A few bales from one of the local farms should do it. It could double-up as a rustic decoration … seating, even … but it would also be useful should the weather turn against them and the ground becomes too muddy. There is also the matter of a power supply to arrange. A generator of some sort, or cables connecting back to the house. They’ll need a dance floor and lights. Lanterns would be nice, but she’s not sure if they’d be allowed to light candles inside the marquee. These are all things to run past the man from the tent company.

She glances round for him and sees he has wandered off among the trees with his tape measure, while appearing along the garden path from the house is her mother, grey-streaked hair spilling from a loose bun, a colourful silk kimono flapping behind her, afternoon sun caught in the white cotton of the long nightdress she is still wearing.

As a teenager, Eve used to crawl with embarrassment at her mother’s alternative approach to clothes. She used to wonder if it was because Kit spent so long inside her fictional worlds that she was oblivious to fashion codes or clothing conventions. She’d pondered whether she did it to embarrass her daughters, or shock them out of what she might think their more prudish ways. But, after years of mortification, Eve has come to the conclusion that Kit just doesn’t care much about appearances. Buried in her books, she would notice what she dressed in each day no more than she would notice that the fridge was empty or the house was filthy. Fashion choices were no more considered than what lay draped over the armchair in her bedroom and came closest to hand. It is simply the way her mother is made. The man from the marquee company does a double-take at the sight of her, but Eve barely blinks.

‘I saw the truck in the drive,’ Kit says as she draws closer.

‘It’s all under control.’

‘Is Lucy here with you?’

‘No,’ says Eve. ‘I don’t know where she’s got to.’

‘They’ll put it here in the orchard, will they?’ she asks, watching the man with his tape measure.

‘Yes, it’s the best place.’

Kit turns her face to the sky and closes her eyes. ‘It’s lovely out here.’

‘I was thinking we could hang bunting and fairy lights to mark the route down from the house. It would look lovely at nightfall. But of course, all of that will take more work and more time,’ Eve adds. At this stage, she isn’t sure how they’re going to achieve even the basics of this organisational nightmare before Saturday.

‘Whatever you think, darling. I’m sure it will look wonderful.’

The fist clenches more tightly in her chest. It’s all very well Lucy springing this last-minute wedding on them all, saying she wants to keep the celebrations ‘low key … a private register office ceremony followed by a “bit of a party” at Windfalls … everyone back together … no big deal’, and while a part of Eve admires her sister’s desire to avoid the wedding machine and all the paraphernalia and pressure that comes with it, there is no getting around the fact that these kinds of events don’t ‘just happen’. No matter how spontaneous Lucy might want to be, no matter how laid-back their mother might seem, there’s a reason couples plan their nuptials months in advance. Say the word ‘wedding’, even at the last minute, and guests will arrive with certain expectations. Food. Wine. Music. Dancing. It’s the way it is.

She and Andrew had done it properly. They had allowed a respectable twelve months to organise their day. The venue had been meticulously researched. Monogrammed save-the-date cards had been sent out months in advance. The catering, dress fittings, disco hire, wedding cake, flowers and photographer had all been arranged with Eve’s trademark precision, and despite one broken heel on a pair of bridesmaid’s shoes, the day had run like clockwork.

Lucy, on the other hand, seems to expect the music, the decorations, the food and drinks to simply ‘happen’. Little wedding fairies sweeping in to take care of everything. Eve sighs. It might have been possible to wing it if the guest list was small, but Lucy, in typical Lucy fashion, had announced her bonkers wedding plan a few days ago, then glibly sent out a blanket email invitation to her friends. ‘Don’t worry,’ she’d said, ‘it’s such short notice only a few of them will be able to make it. Only the important ones.’ But what had started out a couple of days ago as a simple little party had since snowballed spectacularly. Sixty-five acceptances at the last count. Five vegetarians. Two vegans. One gluten-free. One dairy intolerant. What was wrong with these people? Didn’t they have lives, holidays, calendars hanging on their fridges full of scribbled plans and juggled appointments? It’s all so Lucy, all so ridiculously naïve and chaotic.

It isn’t as if Eve doesn’t have enough on her plate, with her own household to run and her part-time job managing the office of a small recruitment agency, Andrew working all the hours at his IT consultancy, and the girls with their ballet classes, piano lessons, science projects and invitations to birthday parties. Throw in organising a wedding in a week and her head feels fit to burst.

‘Eve, darling … what do you think about fireworks? Or maybe a bonfire?’ Kit’s voice breaks through her train of thought. ‘It would be rather fun, don’t you think?’

Eve regards her mother with an even stare. Bonfires and fireworks? Add a load of actual pyrotechnics to the explosive emotional landscape they already have to navigate on Saturday? Great idea.

‘Perhaps Andrew or your father could take charge?’ adds Kit, failing to read Eve’s mood.

Eve doesn’t answer. She can imagine Andrew’s face when she tells him he’s been nominated to manage an impromptu firework display on Saturday night.

‘Has anyone heard from Margot?’

‘Lucy and I have sent messages, but we’ve heard nothing.’

Her mother’s mouth forms a thin line. ‘Well, it’s sad, but perhaps it’s for the best.’

‘Lucy will be disappointed. Though if Margot does show up, we’re all going to have to find a way to smooth things over.’ She throws her mother a pointed look. ‘It’s Lucy’s day, after all,’ she adds.

Kit frowns and turns away to face the valley.

Thinking of her volatile little sister and what she might be capable of in the pressure-cooker situation of a family wedding, Eve feels another surge of panic. It had been bad enough two years ago when Margot had come home to celebrate their father’s sixtieth, though of course on that occasion their mother hadn’t received an invite.

Kit throws her hands up. ‘I know, I know. I wouldn’t stop Margot from coming and being a part of Lucy’s day, but until she offers some kind of apology or explanation, I can’t forgive her.’ She turns back to Eve. ‘Could you, in my shoes?’

Eve frowns. She wonders if she’s the only one to have noticed how similar Kit and Margot are, both of them hot and unpredictable, like fire. What Margot did was inexplicable and yes, perhaps unforgiveable. ‘Probably not, no,’ she admits.

Kit nods, seemingly satisfied. ‘I doubt she’ll come.’

Maybe it would be for the best if Margot stayed away. Perhaps the last thing any of them need is Margot showing up and raising tensions even higher. Eve returns her hand to her chest and feels the thundering of her heart. Take a deep breath, she tells herself. Everything is going to be OK.

3



Margot leaves the train at Bath Spa station and catches a taxi. Leaving the city’s grand crescents and elegant stone terraces with their uniform chimney pots aligned against the sky, the car drives into a valley sliding from late summer to autumn. All is green and gold and bronze, while here and there the purple leaves of copper beech trees shift to flaming amber. They cross the river Avon and begin the slow climb through the wooded vale, following signs to the village of Mortford. Margot twists in her seat to catch another glimpse of the green water snaking through the valley, catching the light like glass. The sight of it brings a shiver.

‘I’ve brought a few punters out this way,’ says the taxi driver, making small talk. ‘Most of them were fans hoping to find that famous writer. Whatsername? The one that wrote those books.’

‘Kit Weaver,’ she offers, gazing out at the honey-coloured stone buildings passing outside. Margot ignores his lingering emphasis on those books.

‘Yeah, that’s her. K. T. Weaver. My wife loves her stuff. She says a night in with one of her books is better than bingo night down our local and a slap-up meal after. You ever met her? Read her stuff?’

‘I’ve read a couple,’ she replies, her eyes never leaving the road.

‘She’s a bit of a recluse now, by all accounts?’

‘So they say.’

‘Bit strange, to just stop writing like that. Suppose she made so much money she didn’t have to bother finishing the series? All right for some, eh?’ The man must sense her mood because he doesn’t say anything else. Instead, he steers the car up the narrow lane until the slate roof of Windfalls comes into view and they are driving through a wooden gate and parking behind a white truck with the words ‘Main Event Marquees’ written in tall, red letters across its side. The vehicle’s rear doors hang open, revealing a bare interior, nothing but a few blankets and a toolbox. There is no one in sight.

‘Someone’s planning a party.’

‘Yes. A wedding.’

‘Ah, who doesn’t love a good wedding?’

Who indeed, thinks Margot.

Whenever she has thought of her home in recent years, it has always appeared strangely colourless in her mind. She’s imagined walking into a landscape of muffled grey, blank sky merging with muted earth, everything wrapping itself around her like a suffocating blanket. But here the sky is royal blue, the breeze brisk and warm, and the valley is spread before her in a tapestry of early autumn colour, leaves turning from glossy green to amber. The sun is beginning to settle upon the tips of the horse chestnut trees where the frayed rope swing of her childhood drifts idly in the breeze. Behind the tree, the Bath stone farmhouse glows golden in the light, its windowpanes shining like mirrors. Even with her sunglasses on, the world seems too bright, too intense.

Margot pays the driver, picks up her bag and takes the gravel path winding around the side of the house, past overgrown hedgerows and flowerbeds badly in need of a little care, before entering through the back door into the large flagstoned kitchen. She stands for a moment in the quiet of the house, taking in details so ridiculously familiar it seems impossible she had forgotten them all until now. A colourful crocheted tea cosy slumps over a teapot near the kettle. A terracotta bowl filled with fruit sits on the scrubbed oak table, a fly crawling over the browning skin of a pear. She sees a worn wooden chopping board covered in breadcrumbs, half a loaf, going stale in the afternoon sunshine; dirty lunch dishes stacked by the sink. Faded cushions sag on the window seat, above which is pinned a corn dolly she remembers Lucy buying at the village harvest festival many years ago. There is a huge stack of unopened letters – her mother’s unanswered fan mail, by the looks of it – heaped by the telephone, and a box of books, reprints from a foreign publisher, ripped open then simply left to prop open the door into the hall. She breathes it all in and closes her eyes, the slight thud of her headache picking up pace.

A clock on the drawing-room hearth ticks to the beat in her head. On the velvet sofa an ancient black cat lies curled in a small square of sunshine. She scratches behind his ears. ‘Hello, Pinter.’ The cat opens one rheumy eye and rewards her with a purr before sinking back into sleep. She reaches for an old cushion, threadbare and embroidered with painstaking cross-stitch into the image of a rose, and watches the dust motes rise up and circle in a shaft of light. A glass vase catches the sun, revealing its thin layer of grime. Everywhere she looks there are piles of paper teetering on surfaces, dusty corners and cobwebs strung in high places, plants that need watering and books standing in perilous stacks. She can’t help admiring her mother for her dogged there-are-more-important-things-in-the-world-than-cleaning attitude. Kit has never been one to bend to social convention and it seems not even the imminent arrival of a horde of wedding guests will change that.

A tray of mugs stands abandoned on the coffee table next to a hastily scrawled list written on the back of an envelope. Margot picks up the piece of paper and reads the words written in Eve’s careful handwriting:

catering numbers – confirm with Rnapkinsglass hirephotographerextension leadsjam jarsflowers – check with Sbatteriesfairy lightsconfettiMargot?

She scans the list before reaching down to swipe the last biscuit from a plate on the tray. It doesn’t escape her notice that she is last – well below such frivolities as fairy lights and confetti – and marked with that wary question mark.

The house feels like a stage, awaiting its players, curtains ready to swing open. Rather than break the stillness by calling out, she makes for the staircase.

Upstairs, the sun falls onto the landing through gabled windows, forming slanted squares of light on the floorboards. Margot steps through them like a child playing hopscotch. She passes the door to her mother’s bedroom, glimpsing the scarlet-flocked wallpaper, the heavy velvet curtains and the huge bed, rumpled and unmade. Another pile of teetering books stands on the bedside table, a dressing gown lies in a pool of silk on the floor. There is no discernible evidence of the room ever once having been shared with their father. She ignores the curved stairwell leading up to the turret room on the second floor where Kit has now made her office and heads on instead past the door to Eve’s old room, then Lucy’s, almost certain she can catch the faint scent of joss sticks and CK One still hanging in the air.

The house is so laced with childhood memories – pictures, scents, familiar objects – that by the time Margot reaches the far end of the corridor, she feels a little strange, almost light-headed, as though her feet don’t quite connect with the floor beneath them. It is as if she is floating a few centimetres off the ground, as if she has travelled not just the length of the country but somehow stepped back through the fabric of time, crossed an intersection as fine as gauze, returning to a past she’s tried hard to forget.

She hesitates. A night of broken sleep followed by the long trip south makes the thought of her old bed an appealing one, but still she lingers, reluctant and perhaps even a little afraid to close the gap between past and present. What does she fear is behind that door? Her old life? An earlier incarnation of herself? The girl who dropped out of school, packed a bag and left home at sixteen?

After the brightness of the landing, it takes Margot’s eyes a moment to adjust to the dim light inside the bedroom. The curtains are half-drawn, only a thin triangle of sunlight falling through their opening, but as she focuses, she is alarmed to find that her bed is already occupied. A figure lies on the pillows, arms outstretched, eyes closed. Blonde, not dark. Not the spectre of her old self, but her sister, Lucy, lying strangely formal – almost corpse-like – on top of the bedcovers. Beneath a familiar-looking denim jacket, her sister’s floral dress flows out across the bed and seems to blend with the tangle of flowers climbing the wallpaper. Looking at her, Margot is reminded of a painting she once wrote about at school, of a woman floating on the surface of a river. Millais’ Ophelia. She dredges the painter’s name up from the depths of her brain, surprised to remember it.

In the half-light, Lucy is pale, her limbs angular, almost birdlike, her skin a luminous white. Her long, fair hair flows in its usual wild tangle about her. Lucy opens her eyes and stares at Margot, expressionless. For a split second, Margot is reminded of the girl from the train – her wide, curious gaze – and then she is gone, replaced by the adult Lucy lying on the bed. Her sister’s face shifts with recognition. ‘You,’ she says.

Margot nods. ‘Me.’

Neither of them say anything else for a long while. Margot stands by the door, a small smile breaking at the sight of her sister’s stunned face.

Lucy seems to gather herself. ‘So are you going to stand there staring at me like a weirdo, or are you going to come and give your favourite sister a hug?’

Margot’s smile widens. She walks around and perches on the edge of the bed. ‘Hello, stranger.’

‘Hello, you.’ Lucy grins. She wrestles herself into a cross-legged position on the soft mattress so that she can hug Margot, pulling her close. ‘Am I the last to greet you?’

‘You’re the first.’

Lucy shoots a guilty glance towards the garden. ‘Eve’s going to be in such a strop. She’s had that tight-lipped look – you know the one she gets – ever since I told her Tom and I are getting married.’

‘And when exactly was that?’

‘Sunday.’

‘A wedding in a week.’ Margot laughs. ‘Poor Eve. You sure know how to send her into a tailspin.’

Lucy throws up her hands. ‘I didn’t ask her to take over. I keep telling her it’s supposed to be a low-key party, something fun and thrown together, but you know what she’s like. Bloody Martha Stewart. According to Eve, it’s not a wedding if you don’t have mountains of flowers and food, a cheesy DJ and a fancy three-tier cake.’

‘So Eve’s your official wedding planner?’

‘Self-appointed wedding planner.’

‘And here you are … lazing around without a care in the world … in my bedroom,’ she narrows her eyes, ‘wearing my denim jacket, while everyone else slaves away for your big day!’

Lucy shrugs. ‘I’m hiding. And the jacket looked lonely. It was hanging there on the back of the door. I bet you can’t even remember the last time you wore it. I mean, look!’ She reaches into the jacket pocket and pulls out a packet of Marlborough Lights and a box of matches and throws her an amused look.

‘Give me those,’ says Margot, taking them from Lucy and moving across to the window seat set into the alcove, pushing the glass pane open.

‘They’ll be stale,’ warns Lucy, but Margot doesn’t care. She sparks up and takes a long, slow inhale before blowing smoke though the open window, offering the cigarette to Lucy as she settles beside her. ‘No thanks.’

‘Sorry, I forget you’re wholesome yoga woman, these days.’

‘Anyway,’ Lucy exclaims, whacking Margot on the thigh, ‘what the fuck! You’re here!’

Margot nods.

‘You didn’t think to reply to our messages? Send warning? Smoke signals?’

Margot shrugs. ‘I thought it might be best if I just came. You said you needed me.’

Lucy smiles and squeezes her arm. ‘I’m so pleased. My evil plan worked.’

‘Your evil plan?’

‘Yes, it’s brilliant, don’t you think? Throw a last-minute wedding and force you home for an overdue reunion.’

‘Brilliant,’ replies Margot drily. ‘Though some might say a little extreme.’ She narrows her eyes. ‘So what’s the big hurry?’

Lucy waves her hands. ‘You know me. I’ve never been much of a planner. Besides, I didn’t want to give you too long to think about it, did I? I know what you’re like at finding excuses not to come back.’

Margot, noticing how neatly her sister has dodged the question, directs another stream of smoke out of the window and adjusts herself on the seat. ‘So, tell me, how did Tom convince you to settle down to a life of wedded bliss?’

Lucy hesitates. ‘It was me. I asked hi. . .