The Promise of Jenny Jones

by Maggie Osborne

Genres: Historical Fiction; Westerns; Victorian Romance; Western Romance; Romance

Synopsis

A desperate mother takes Jenny Jones' place in front of a firing squad in exchange for Jenny's promise to see her daughter safely to California. Though she and the six-year-old Graciela get off to a rocky start, Jenny will do everything in her power to keep her promise, even with the child's cousins in hot pursuit. Then she is mysteriously drawn to the handsome cowboy Ty Sanders, and though neither know it yet, their purpose is the same.

Release date: October 14, 2014

Publisher: Grand Central Publishing

Print pages: 390

Sample

“I never heard your name before. I don’t know you. I’ve got nothing to say to you,” Jenny Jones stated, her voice cold as she turned her back on the woman the guard had allowed into her jail cell.

Turning to the window, Jenny caught a glimpse through the iron bars of the bored-looking Mexican officials rehearsing the firing squad. A light shudder tiptoed down her spine, and she wiped sweating palms against the oversize men’s pants she wore.

At dawn tomorrow, she would look down the barrels of six rifles. She hoped she didn’t wet herself before they killed her. She hoped she had the courage to die with a little damned dignity.

“I’ve come to save your life,” Senora Marguarita Sanders said quietly. That caught Jenny’s attention, and she turned around to watch the senora lift a lace-edged handkerchief to her aristocratic nostrils, clearly attempting to smother the stench in Jenny’s cell. The elegantly dressed woman glanced at the cramped quarters and released a soft sigh, then gathered her skirts close to her body and prepared to sit on the bare mattress.

“Don’t,” Jenny advised, turning back to the barred window. “The mattress is infested with lice.”

And so was she, but it didn’t matter now. Jenny mopped her sweaty throat with a bandanna and decided the heat building in the cell and the incessant buzzing of flies was slowly driving her crazy. She watched six of the ragtag soldiers march in sloppy formation toward a bullet-pocked wall. None of them looked like crack shots. She wondered how many rounds they would have to fire before they actually killed her. The way her luck was running, they’d still be trying at midday.

“Pardone, did you hear what I said?” Marguarita Sanders inquired softly. She wiped grime from a low stool with her handkerchief, hesitated, then seated herself as if she intended to stay. Her silk hem billowed before settling atop the damp filth coating the cell floor.

There was no humor in Jenny’s laugh. “Very dramatic. All right, I’ll play along. Just how do you plan to save my life, Senora?” She turned to inspect her visitor again. “Are you going to arrange a jailbreak? Gun down the firing squad? Reverse my conviction?” She watched Senora Sanders cough into her handkerchief, glance at flecks of blood on the snowy lace, then ball the handkerchief in her gloved fist. Jenny’s eyes narrowed. “You’re coughing up blood.” Interested, she studied Senora Sanders’s pale face. “You’re dying,” she stated bluntly.

Death rode Marguarita Sanders’s high, gaunt cheekbones, had drained the bloom from her cheeks. Her dark eyes were sunk in purplish circles, and the hair knotted beneath her stylish hat was dull and lusterless. Staring, Jenny could see that once Senora Sanders must have been a considerable beauty. Now, her flesh had shrunk, and she probably looked a decade older than she was.

“Why aren’t you resting in your own bed? Why did you come here?” Jenny asked in a gentler voice. Her grimy hand lifted to indicate the tin roof trapping the stench and the heat. “This isn’t good for you. Go home.”

Home was probably one of the large haciendas on a ranch beyond the village. The lace trimming the woman’s handkerchief and the rich fabric of her skirt and cape proclaimed wealth. The thin blade of nose and delicate bones announced aristocratic breeding as surely as did her self-possession and quiet air of confidence. If this woman had ever performed a single act of labor, it had been no more strenuous than lifting her own fork before a servant did it for her.

Such delicate women made Jenny acutely uncomfortable. Beside them, she felt large and ungainly, about as graceful as the balky mules she drove to earn her bread and board. Women like Marguarita Sanders inhabited a different, better world than Jenny ever had, a world she could barely imagine.

Her lip curled. Senora Sanders had never worn the same dirty clothing for a month running, had never bought a vermin-ridden bed for two bits and been grateful to get it, had never picked at blisters on her palms. Jenny would have wagered half the hours remaining to her that Marguarita Sanders had never missed a meal, or prepared one for that matter. She had never worried her pretty head about anything more taxing than what gown to wear to the next fancy event.

Bending, Jenny spit the taste of envy out of her mouth, then glanced up to see if spitting on the floor shocked her la-de-da visitor.

Senora Sanders had missed Jenny’s gesture of contempt. She was coughing into her blood-flecked handkerchief again, her dark eyes closed in pain.

When the coughing spell passed, Senora Sanders’s chest moved beneath a ruffled bodice, fighting for a full breath of the scorching air. “At five-thirty tomorrow morning,” she said when she could speak, “Father Perez will arrive to hear your last confession.”

“Tell him to sleep in. I’m not Catholic.”

“He’ll be wearing an ankle-length cassock and a deep hood. The guards expect him.” Marguarita pressed a hand to her thin bosom and drew a shallow breath. “Only it will not be Father Perez. It will be me. You and I will exchange places.” Her gaze traveled over Jenny’s soiled trousers and the loose man’s shirt stained by a month’s accumulation of filth. “The commander, a rather stupid fellow, has been informed that you don’t wish the firing squad to observe your face as you die, that you have requested a hood. The firing squad was relieved to hear this as they are not accustomed to killing a woman. It is further agreed that Father Perez will supply the hood and secure it.”

Jenny stared. Her hands curled into fists at her sides. “What the hell are you suggesting? That I walk out of here pretending to be Father Perez? And you’re going to die on the wall instead of me?”

Marguarita Sanders pressed her handkerchief to her pale lips, coughed, then nodded wearily. “I will die in your place.”

In the hot silence Jenny heard the fat Mexican official screaming at the firing squad. A horse trotted past the bars of her window, and a dog barked somewhere in camp. A breeze that died as quickly as it arose, curled around the scent of freshly baked tortillas and roasting chilies.

“All right. You have my attention.” Leaving the window, she sat on the bare mattress. Her blue eyes burned on Marguarita Sanders. “What’s the price? What do you want from me that is so important you’re willing to pay for it with your life?”

Marguarita smiled, and Jenny saw a glimpse of the beauty she had been. “I was told that you are blunt and to the point.”

“I didn’t have the benefit of a delicate upbringing,” Jenny snapped. She glanced at Marguarita’s soft smooth hands, then down at her own. Heavy calluses swelled the pads of her fingers. Wind and weather had chapped the backs of her hands into a tanned semblance of old leather. She resisted an urge to hide her hands beneath her thighs and almost smiled at the impulse. She couldn’t remember the last time she had displayed an ounce of feminine vanity.

“I can’t think of anything I can offer in exchange for my life, but you must have something in mind. What is it?”

She stared at Marguarita, trying to guess what the cost of her life would be. The price would be huge; it had to be. Marguarita Sanders wanted something that Jenny sensed would be hard to deliver, something worth dying for.

“This is what I want in exchange for dying in your place.” Marguarita returned Jenny’s stare. “I want you to take my six-year-old daughter, Graciela, to her father in northern California.” When Jenny started to speak, she lifted a shaking hand. “If my husband is dead, you must agree to raise Graciela as your own daughter. You are not to give her into the keeping of her grandparents, or anyone else claiming to be a relative. If you cannot, for whatever reason, place her in the safety of her father’s arms, you must raise her as your own and provide for her until she chooses of her own free will to marry and establish her own household. That is the bargain I wish to make with you. That is the price I ask for giving you back your life.”

Jenny’s mouth dropped. She felt as if a chunk of granite had fallen on her head. “That’s crazy,” she finally sputtered. “If you love your daughter, and I assume you must if you’re willing to die for her, then why in the name of God would you entrust her to the care of a stranger? You don’t know anything about me except that I’m condemned to die for killing a soldier!”

When Marguarita’s coughing fit passed and she’d caught her breath, she fanned her face with her gloves and shook her head. “I know you are honest to a fault. There were no witnesses. You could have denied killing the beast who attacked you. But you freely admitted it.”

“And look where that honesty got me!” Jenny indicated the stone walls enclosing them. “No one believed a man, even a drunk soldier, would try to force himself on a woman like me.”

Marguarita met her eyes calmly. “If my information is correct, you have been hauling freight into the state of Chihuahua long enough to know that the instant you admitted shooting Senor Montez, you were convicted.” Curiosity flickered at the back of her gaze. “Why didn’t you lie?”

Angry, Jenny strode to the window and curled her hands around the bars, ignoring the burn of hot iron against her palms.

“Honesty is all I’ve got,” she said finally, speaking in a low voice. “I don’t have family. I don’t have beauty, or a man. I don’t have money, and I sure as hell don’t have a future. All I’ve got to prop up my pride is my word.” Her chin rose. “When Jenny Jones says something, you can bet your last peso that it’s true.”

“So I have been informed.”

“If I don’t have my word, then I have nothing. I am nothing!” She stared hard over her shoulder, watching Marguarita Sanders press the bloody handkerchief to her lips. “Everybody needs something to make them feel good about themselves, even me. Honesty is what makes me feel like I’ve got a right to take up space in this world. It’s all I’ve got. No matter how bad things get, or how low my circumstance, I can always say Jenny Jones is an honest woman. It’s the one and only good thing about me.”

Honesty was what had placed her in a Mexican jail, a few hours away from a firing squad. “I could have lied to that mockery of a court,” she said between her teeth, staring out the window at the adobe wall that enclosed the camp. “And maybe you think I’m stupid because I didn’t. But telling a lie would be killing the only thing about myself that’s any good.” Raising a hand, she scratched at the lice in her hair. “If I don’t have my word, I might as well be dead. I’d rather die with honor than live without the only thing that makes me feel like I can face another day.”

It was a long speech, and it left her mouth parched. Embarrassment tinted her throat. She could have kicked herself for parading her private feelings in front of this crazy visitor.

“Your honesty,” Marguarita Sanders stated softly, “is why I trust you to take Graciela to her father. I believe you will honor our bargain.”

“We haven’t made any bargain,” Jenny said sharply. She leaned against the wall, catching a whiff of Marguarita’s powdery perfume. “There’s things about me that you don’t know. And things about you that I don’t know. Like…” She stared at the rich embroidery trimming Marguarita’s stylish blue cape. “Why a stranger? Don’t you have relatives who could take your kid up north?”

“Oh yes.” Marguarita studied the blood spots on her handkerchief. When she glanced up, bitterness deadened her gaze. “Our village is filled with cousins, none of whom would shed a tear if Graciela died tomorrow.” She drew a long careful breath. “My story is long and filled with tears, but I’ll tell it briefly.”

Curious despite herself, Jenny returned to sit on the mattress. “I’m not going anywhere. You can talk until dawn tomorrow as far as I’m concerned. But don’t go crying. I can’t abide weepy women.”

Marguarita turned her gaze to the sunlight slanting between the iron bars. “I grew up on a rancho in California next to the one owned by Robert’s parents. My father hated gringos; Robert’s father hated the Spanish.” She shrugged and smiled softly. “I loved Roberto.” A coughing spell interrupted her story.

“You should be in bed.”

“When I was sixteen, I became pregnant with Graciela. The news nearly killed my father; his shame and sorrow were so great.” She looked down at the handkerchief balled in her fist. “Our parents would not permit us to marry.” Now she tilted her head up to stare at the tin roof. “My father sent me here in disgrace, to my aunt. Roberto caught up to my carriage and we were married in The City of The Angels.”

“So why isn’t he here with you?”

“I am my father’s only child. But Roberto is the older of two brothers. If he followed me into exile, he would have forfeited his inheritance.”

Jenny decided she didn’t like this Robert, who chose an inheritance over his young wife and child.

“Neither my father nor Roberto’s parents recognize our marriage.” Pain flickered behind her eyelids, followed by a flash of surprising determination. “But my father will have to acknowledge Graciela after my death. She will be his sole heir.” Her gaze met Jenny’s. “My father is very wealthy, Senorita Jones, and so is my aunt. But my cousins are not. If Graciela should meet an untimely end, my greedy cousins are next in line and will inherit enough money to make them patrons in a region this poor. Already I see them looking at Graciela and speculating: if this child should die…”

“I see.” Jenny frowned. “When you’re no longer present to protect her, you think your cousins will kill your daughter.”

Marguarita flinched. “This is a terrible thing to admit. But, yes. Only one small child will stand between my cousins and a life of great ease and comfort. I cannot trust any of them to see her safely to her father.”

Jenny considered the dilemma. The poverty in this area was legion. There were grand estates, and she assumed Senora Sanders resided on one of them, but clearly the cousins did not. They, like the nearby villagers, most likely lived in thatched huts and counted themselves blessed to have a single cow in the yard and a few thin chickens. Perhaps the cousins occasionally joined the bandits who roamed the countryside, hard-eyed men who would not scruple to slit a man’s throat for a few precious pesos.

Jenny picked a louse from her scalp and cracked it between dirty fingernails. “What about your Roberto and his parents? Are they going to welcome Graciela with open arms?”

“I don’t know,” Marguarita whispered, bowing her head. She touched trembling fingertips to her forehead. “I’ve had only one letter from Roberto in six years. He said he would come for me when it was possible for us to be together.” She closed her eyes. “Perhaps he is dead. Perhaps he despaired of our future and forgot about Graciela and me. Perhaps… I just don’t know. I tell myself he has written many, many letters and they did not reach us because perhaps his parents intercepted them.”

“If you ask me, Robert Sanders is one sorry son of a bitch,” Jenny stated flatly, studying the line of dirt embedded beneath her fingernails. “You know that, don’t you?”

“No!” Senora Sanders’s shoulders stiffened abruptly, and fire flashed in her dark eyes. For an instant Jenny glimpsed the girl who had defied a powerful father to marry the man of her choice. “Roberto is the sweetest, gentlest man who ever drew a breath.”

“Spineless, you mean.”

Marguarita stumbled to her feet, coughing harshly, and flung out a hand to support her shaking body against the cell wall. “I will not listen to slanders against my husband!”

Jenny rested her elbows on her knees and watched Senora Sanders fight to draw breath. She was no expert on medical matters, but she guessed Marguarita Sanders had only days left to her. “Yeah, the guy’s a real prince. Sit down and rest. And finish what you came to say,” she said.

Marguarita collapsed rather than sat. Her thin chest rose and fell rapidly, struggling to find air in the fetid cell.

“I don’t have much time to arrange for Graciela’s safety.” She raised her eyes to Jenny. “If Graciela remains in the village after I die, she will shortly follow me to the grave, a victim of an unwitnessed accident. This I fear, and this I believe. The only solution is to send her to Roberto while I still can.”

“He might not want her,” Jenny said brusquely. “Your sorry Roberto may have remarried years ago. Have you considered that?”

“No!” Then the fire in Marguarita’s eyes died to an ember with no strength behind it. “But there may be some reason why he cannot take her. Perhaps his father will not allow it.” She closed her eyes and swallowed. “That is why you must give me your solemn promise on all you hold holy that you will never abandon Graciela. If you cannot give her safely to Roberto and to Roberto only, then you must raise her as your own.”

Jenny spread her hands. “Senora Sanders. I am the last person on earth you would want to have raise your daughter. I can read some, and I can write some, but I have no education to speak of.”

“I see the dictionary in your back pocket. I saw the books on the guard’s table among your effects.”

“Just feeding myself and keeping a shirt on my back is a full-time job. And it isn’t easy. In my time I’ve taken in wash, I’ve skinned buffalo carcasses, which is the worst job on this planet, I’ve signed on as a roustabout, and most recently, I’ve driven a mule team and hauled freight for the Comden outfit. Except for washing, none of those jobs is what you’d call women’s work. The only reason I got hired is because I begged for the work, and I happen to be better at those jobs than most men. Course, I got paid less than a man. The point is, I can barely feed and clothe myself, let alone a kid.”

“I will give you money for the journey.”

“What worries me is keeping Graciela if Robert can’t or won’t take her. Who’s going to hire me if I have a kid hanging on my pant leg? How would I support this kid if I had to? And what kind of life would it be for a kid anyway?”

Marguarita studied her. “If you let your hair grow, and cleaned yourself… if you put on a dress and—”

Jenny burst into laughter. “Me? And a man?” She slapped her thigh. “That’s a good one.” Her eyes sobered. “No man has ever looked twice at me in twenty-four years, and I doubt hanging a skirt on my waist would change a thing.” She shook her head. “A man has to be blind drunk to take a grab at me.”

“You have beautiful eyes,” Marguarita said after a minute, sounding surprised. “And a pretty mouth.”

“Forget it.” Angry now, Jenny made a chopping motion with her hand. “If I have to raise your kid, it’s going to be just me. And it’s going to be a damned hardscrabble life for both of us. She’s not going to have fancy clothes, or servants waiting on her hand and foot. She’ll be lucky to have food in her belly and a pillow for her head. Is that what you want for her?”

Marguarita’s head dropped and she closed her eyes. “I have no friends outside my family, no one to rely on. I have no choice, and neither does my Graciela.”

“That’s not the worst of it,” Jenny continued, being brutally honest. “I don’t like kids. Never have.”

“Graciela is precocious. She’s very bright. Much older and wiser than her years would indicate.”

“I don’t care if she’s a fricking prodigy. She’s six years old. That makes her a kid, and I don’t like kids. I don’t know how to talk to them. I don’t know how to take care of a kid.” Jenny threw out her hands. “Kids don’t know squat about how to survive in a desert or how to gut a rabbit or do a day’s work. Kids get in the way. They whine. They cry. They’re only half-human.”

“Why are you telling me this?” Marguarita asked softly, her eyes pleading.

“Because I want you to know exactly what kind of a person you’re willing to die for. If we change places, and I get stuck with your kid, I don’t want to wake up some night with me and Graciela sleeping on the dirt with empty bellies and then start feeling guilty that you died for me, and I’m letting you down.”

“I am not going to die for you, Jenny Jones, make no mistake about that. I am going to die so that Graciela may live. I’ll take the bullets for you only if you swear on all that you hold sacred that Graciela will not be left here to die at the hands of people she mistakenly loves! I’ll stand in front of that firing squad only if you promise on your soul that you will save my daughter. I’d a thousand times rather that she be hungry than dead.”

“Where does your father, the wealthy rancher, fit into all this?” Jenny snapped. The two women glared at each other. “If your precious Roberto can’t or won’t take Graciela, why can’t I just dump her off on your father’s doorstep?”

“He will never accept the child of a Sanders.”

“Well, there’s your answer.” Jenny leaned back against the wall, stretching her feet out on the lousy mattress. “Just explain that to your greedy cousins, and the kid is saved.”

And she had just talked herself out of a chance to live. For a moment she cursed herself. Then she thought about trying to support a child and decided she would almost rather face a firing squad. Things worked out the way they were supposed to work out.

“Graciela is my father’s legitimate heir whether or not he accepts her. Which he will not. In his eyes, Graciela is Roberto’s bastard. But when the court is presented with my certificate of marriage, which I will give to you, Graciela’s claim will be secure. I have verified this.”

Jenny stared at a toe poking out of her broken boot. “I’ve told you that I hate kids, that I can’t provide well for Graciela. Hell, I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t even know if I can get to northern California.” She lifted hard eyes. “But you still want this exchange?”

“You are Graciela’s only hope.”

“Then Graciela is in big trouble.” Jenny’s laugh was harsh. She thought a minute. “They may shoot me while I’m wearing a hood over my face, but they aren’t going to bury me in a hood. And the minute that hood comes off, everyone around this place is going to know they shot you, not me. Have you thought about that?”

Marguarita nodded slowly. “You’ll have about six hours’ head start.” She hesitated. “Frankly, I don’t believe the soldiers will bother searching for you. They wear uniforms, but they’re little better than bandits. There is no profit in wasting time chasing a penniless woman. They’ll have a corpse; that will satisfy the official records.”

“So what’s this about a six-hour head start? A head start on who?”

Marguarita stared at her. “My cousins, all of them, but especially Luis, Chulo, and Emil. Once my body is identified, they will understand all. But they will convince themselves you have abducted their beloved little heiress. They will convince each other that it is their duty to rescue Graciela. They will try to kill you both.”

“Well, son of a bitch!” Jenny pulled a hand through her hair. After a minute she glared at Marguarita. “You’re sticking me with a kid, possibly for the rest of my life, and I’ll have a bunch of murdering Mexicans trying to track me down and kill me. That’s a heavy price.”

“You will be alive,” Marguarita reminded her softly, meeting Jenny’s gaze. She glanced at the shadows creeping across the stone walls. “Now you must decide. If we are to make the exchange, I have much to arrange and little time.”

Two minutes ticked by in the heat while Jenny thought about it. A sigh lifted her breast.

“You know I’ll do it. You knew that when you bribed your way in here.” She shook her head and closed her eyes.

Tears of relief glistened in Marguarita Sanders’s eyes. “Let us be clear what each of us is promising. I promise to die in your place tomorrow morning. You promise to take Graciela to her father and give her to no one else. If Roberto cannot or will not take our daughter,” a cloud of pain crossed her features, “then you will raise Graciela as your own child. You will try to love her.”

“Oh no.” Jenny’s head snapped up and her eyes narrowed. “I’m not promising to love some kid I’ve never met and already know I won’t like. I’ll take her to Robert. And I’ll raise her up to be a woman if I have to, but don’t expect me to love her. I can’t do that.”

“You’re a hard woman, Jenny Jones.”

“You don’t know the half of it! My pa beat me from the time I was old enough to walk. The only person I ever loved, Billy, my third brother, died when I was nine, and it was my fault. My ma threw me out onto the streets of Denver when I was ten. I’ve been making my own way ever since. Yeah, you could say I’m a hard woman.”

Compassion glistened in Senora Sanders’s brown eyes. “I’m sorry. This should not happen to any child.”

“You’re going to die tomorrow, and you’re sorry for me?” Something sharp turned in Jenny’s chest. “You’re either a fool or a better person than I’ve ever met,” she whispered, staring.

The terrible truth of their transaction gripped her mind in a painful squeeze. This lovely, delicate woman would die tomorrow morning. Marguarita Sanders would face the firing squad in Jenny’s place because she loved her child better than whatever life was left to her. She would spend her remaining hours arranging for Jenny’s escape. She would say good-bye to a child she adored. With all this facing her, she could still feel compassion for a stranger’s squalid past.

“What will I tell Graciela when she asks what happened to you?” Jenny said, swallowing hard.

“She is wiser than her years. I will tell her the truth,” Marguarita said, standing. She shook her skirts, but the filth from the floor did not fall away. “I don’t want her to blame you for my death. She must understand this was my choice.”

“Assuming we aren’t killed by your cousins… and assuming that Robert is dead or something.” Jenny coughed uncomfortably. “What if Graciela asks me what kind of person you were? I don’t know anything about you.”

Marguarita’s eyes settled on the iron bars. “Tell her that I loved her and her father. Tell her that I tried to live my life with kindness and dignity.” She turned her gaze on Jenny. “Then tell her to forget me and honor the woman who raised her.”

They studied each other in silence. Then Jenny said softly, “You can be a hard woman, too.”

“Tell her not to burden herself with the past. Tell her to live and be strong, Jenny Jones. Teach her to laugh and to love. If she does this, and if she finds happiness, then wherever I am, I will smile and be happy.”

“Oh Christ.” Jenny scrubbed a dirty hand across her eyes. When Jenny realized Marguarita meant to embrace her, she hastily stepped backward. “I’m dirty, and I’ve got lice.”

Amusement twinkled in Marguarita’s eyes and a hint of color bloomed on her cheeks. “Senorita Jones,” she said, smiling, “the lice will not trouble me long.”

She wrapped her thin arms around Jenny’s waist and rested her head on Jenny’s shoulder. “Thank you,” she whispered. “I will pray for you, Jenny Jones.”

Jenny waved her hands in the air, then, helplessly, she returned Marguarita Sander’s embrace, careful not to apply too much pressure against birdlike bones. Marguarita’s size and delicacy made Jenny feel huge and awkward. As graceless as a new calf.

When she stepped away, embarrassed and clumsy, she dusted her hands together and stared at Senora Sanders, memorizing her features in the fading light. “I don’t know what to say. If it’s possible to get Graciela to California… then I swear on my sacred oath, I’ll do it.”

“I know you will.” Marguarita stepped to the bars set in the doorway and summoned her strength to call the guard. “There won’t be time to say good-bye when I see you tomorrow morning. So I will say good-bye now.” She smiled and pressed Jenny’s big callused hands between her small soft palms. “There are not words to express what I feel in my heart. Gratitude. Appreciation. Love. They do not touch the surface of what I feel for you. You are the salvation of my heart, which is my daughter. You are the answer to my prayers. You are the mother I give to my child.”

“Some fricking mother,” Jenny muttered.

Marguarita smiled and pressed Jenny’s hands. “I think you will surprise yourself,” she said gently. “I think you will love our Graciela. Your way will not be what mine would have been, but it will be good and strong and true. If you must, you will guide our daughter, yours and mine, into a womanhood we will both be proud of. I know t. . .