The Plover

by Brian Doyle

Genres: Sea Adventures; Literary Fiction

Synopsis

Declan O Donnell has sailed out of Oregon and deep into the vast, wild ocean, having had just finally enough of other people and their problems. He will go it alone, he will be his own country, he will be beholden to and beloved of no one. No man is an island, my butt, he thinks. I am that very man...

But the galaxy soon presents him with a string of odd, entertaining, and dangerous passengers, who become companions of every sort and stripe. The Plover is the story of their adventures and misadventures in the immense blue country one of their company calls Pacifica. Hounded by a mysterious enemy, reluctantly acquiring one new resident after another, Declan O Donnell's lonely boat is eventually crammed with humor, argument, tension, and a resident herring gull.

Brian Doyle's The Plover is a sea novel, a maritime adventure, the story of a cold man melting, a compendium of small miracles, an elegy to Edmund Burke, a watery quest, a battle at sea—and a rapturous, heartfelt celebration of life's surprising paths, planned and unplanned.

Release date: March 31, 2015

Publisher: St. Martin's Publishing Group

Print pages: 320

Sample

I
45° NORTH, 125° WEST


WEST AND THEN WEST for weeks and weeks or months and months sweet Jesus knows how long. A lifetime of lifetimes. On the continent of the sea. A pair of shaggy claws scuttling on the ceiling of the sea. The silent She.
West and then west! says Declan aloud, startling the gull sitting atop the Plover's tiny cabin, her feathers ruffling in the steady wind. Onward twisted soldiers! The gull launches without the slightest effort, sliding into the welcoming air. Declan laughs. Go ahead, bird, assume the position, he says, and as if in obedience to the man's command the gull wheels behind and over the stern and hangs exactly nine feet above the boat without even a shiver of her wings. Sweet Jesus, says Declan, I would ask you how you do that, but you know and I know that there are more things than we know, as you know. Onward whiskered soldiers!
* * *
The Plover, out of Oregon, skippered by O Donnell, Declan, no fixed address or abode. Last registered midcoast, in Depoe Bay. Originally a small trawler, much amended and edited by its owner, who installed a mast and rigged the boat for coastal cruising. Wrecked once near Neawanaka, minor damage, repaired by owner. For some years a fishing boat bringing in regular catches, occasional permits filed for charter fishing, one permit filed for whale-watching cruise, a number of gratuitous permit applications filed in last three years apparently for the amusement of the owner: for flossing the teeth of unsuspecting whales, in search of Robert Dean Frisbie on account of incontrovertible evidence of his faked demise in the South Seas, in pursuit of the magnetic West Pole, in search of the names of god in the languages of the invertebrates west of the Mendocino Fracture Zone and east of the Emperor Seamounts, and etc. in that vein. Flurries and then blizzards of permit applications filed in the last six months, each more fanciful than the last. Last seen heading directly west from Oregon coast. Captain reportedly stated that he was going to "glom on to the 45th parallel and ride that sucker right onto the beach of some godforsaken island being bickered over by the Japanese and the Russians and claim it anew for Saint Mary Magdalene while none of the formerly murderous imperial powers were paying close attention." Also heard stating that he was going to "turn sharp left at 150 degrees longitude and snatch a Society island, naming it fresh for Saint Catherine of Siena, why should bold imperialism die ignominiously during my brief lifetime, and there were not enough celebrations of and monuments to Catherine of Siena, fine woman, twenty-fourth of twenty-five children, who are we not to sing her praises assiduously with gratuitous acts of theatrical foolery," and etc. in that vein. Conclusion: no destination known. Coast Guard reports no sightings. U.S. Navy Pacific Command alerted. General marine bulletin posted. To be considered lost at sea pending further information if any. Notice of same sent to next of kin. No estate. Three survivors, a sister of age and two minor brothers. No plans for funeral or memorial at this time.
* * *
What's on board: two hundred gallons of fuel, stashed in every conceivable nook and cranny. One hundred pounds of rice. Magellan survived on rice and so dammit will we. More onions and heads of garlic than a man can count in an hour, as I well know, having tried. A man is like an onion, is he not, a layered and reeking thing? Fifty boxes of cookies, fifty lemons, fifty limes. An enormous tin of marmalade. Fifty oranges. An enormous tin of olive oil. Fifty small bags of almonds scattered variously throughout the vessel so that a man will constantly be discovering a small bag of almonds no matter where he is on board, good idea, hey? Element of surprise, hey? Not that there is all that much board on board, or surprise neither. Twenty feet long by eight feet wide by seven feet deep. The size of a roomy coffin. But few coffins have fifty limes aboard, hey? Life raft, life jacket, foul-weather gear, medical kit, complete set of spare parts for engine, complete set of tools for fixing the fecking engine, complete set of fishing gear. One, two, six, seven, why do I have seven fishing rods? Radio, charts, graphs, sextant, compass, flashlights, soap, baseball bat (Dick Groat model), set of Edmund Burke's speeches, sails, rigging, backup sails, backup rigging, a trumpet, excellent knives, bow and arrows? Who the hell put a bow and arrows on board? I don't remember putting a bow and arrows on board. Am I losing it already? A bow and arrows … what am I going to do with a bow and arrows, shoot flying fish? Sweet Jesus. Binoculars, backup binoculars, mirrors, sounding lead and string, flares, pencils, batteries for flashlights, sweet Jesus, arrows, I cannot believe I am shipping arrows, is that even legal? Am I considered armed? Can I get pulled over by the fecking Coast Guard and busted for harboring unregistered weapons? What is this, the fecking age of Magellan? Almanac. And, most important of all, boys and girls, your six-volume set of sight reduction tables! Never leave home without it! Because why? Because sight reduction tables are your handy solutions to problems of spherical trigonometry, which is to say problems in observed latitudes, celestial declinations, and computation of your azimuth! Exactly! The azimuth is important! Also do not leave home without Edmund Burke's speeches. Burke is important. Burke is an ocean whose depths are in general unplumbed. Everyone thinks they know what Burke said and wrote and meant and means and no one has the slightest idea what he actually wrote because no one fecking reads old Edmund Burke anymore but I will address and redress this problem. I am going to read old Ed Burke, because I have the time, because I am on a voyage to nowhere, and in no hurry to get there neither.
Bird! says Declan aloud, startling the gull surfing effortlessly above the stern, are you in this for the long haul? Because if so I'll have to edit the crew manifest, and we'll have to talk about shares of the proceeds and stuff like that. Hey, can you calculate sight reduction tables?
* * *
The Peaceful Sea, Fernão de Magalhães called the Pacific, when he wandered into it for the first time in 1520, in his ship the Trinidad—a caravel, a two-masted ship. The South Sea, Vasco Núñez de Balboa called it when he saw it for the first time, in 1513 (and promptly asserted ownership of the entire ocean and all lands encroaching upon it). The Panthalassic Ocean, scholars call the Pacific's predecessor, the ocean of the world when the world was young. The Endless, some early and brave travelers called it, people who sailed by the stars. The Mother, other old cultures called it, in their various languages. It is the biggest ocean on earth and perhaps in the universe. It is about half of the wildernesses we call oceans on this planet. It composes about a third of the surface of the earth. Some parts of it are more than six miles deep. On average it is about two miles deep. It weighs about eighty quintillion tons, an idea represented by an eight followed by eighteen zeroes. In the hundred thousand years or so that human beings have been exploring the Endless, we have discovered some two hundred thousand species of animals and plants living and working in it, which some of us believe to be perhaps a tenth of the actual animals and plants in it, the rest of those beings not having revealed themselves to us as yet. If it is true that human beings in our current form rose in Africa, and then ambled briskly into the rest of the world, there must have been a moment when one human being, probably a curious and mischievous child, peeked through a fringe of forest, perhaps on a high hill, and saw the biggest blue thing on earth and perhaps in the universe. Imagine that scene for a moment: the child's gape, the thrumming roar of the ocean, the child's thrill and terror, the shock and allure of encountering a thing far bigger than the imagination had previously stretched. Imagine that child's wide eyes and sizzling brain. Imagine the message imparted to his mother by the fire that night. Imagine that.
* * *
On this voyage, this particular jaunt, this epic adventure, this bedraggled expedition, this foolish flight, this seashamble, this muddled maundering, this aimless amble on the glee of the sea, we will navigate not by what's in the ocean, which is elemental but really incidental if you take the long view, but by the wilderness of the bottom, which is … fundamental, so to speak, says Declan to the floating gull, who appears to be paying close attention. In my view the water of the ocean is essentially fascist, trying to dictate all life and action by weight and violence, whereas what is beneath it, the bones, the skeleton, the actual warm skin of the planet, is generally unremarked, unsung, unknown, but, as a population is the foundation for a government, the bedrock, the necessary and patient mattress for what sprawls upon it, so to speak. So a real journey into the Pacific ought to steer by the mountains below; and wouldn't that show more respect for the planet we are actually on, rather than steering by the light of stars we will never actually see? Are you with me here, bird? Why should water have the last word, you know what I mean? Let's take the long view. Let's forget the past and keep an eye on the horizon. Let's think of this as an expedition of inquiry, during which a man, let us say a former dairyman and sometime fisherman, sails west and then west, curious about seamounts and fracture zones, and vast epic valleys into which light has never penetrated since the dawn of time, and caves and intricate wildernesses in which reside creatures never seen by the eye of man or gull, and soaring mountains on which live ancient eels and squid the size of ships, and he conducts experiments into fauna and flora as such opportunities present themselves, and earns his protein with his longlines, dipping into ship's stores only for the occasional lime, doing his best to avoid demon alcohol which has never served him well, and keeping an eye on the shape of his sanity, such as it is, or was, and leery of such things as talking freely to gulls, for example, which may be a sign of incipient something or other. You with me here, bird?
* * *
Neither the Plover nor its master had the slightest initial experience with sails and masts and rigging and wind management, but Declan, having dreamed of a footloose voyage on the ocean since he was the boy who tripped over a ratty rug in the library and fell facefirst into Kon-Tiki: Across the Pacific in a Raft, by Thor Heyerdahl (followed in dizzying succession by Robert Gibbings's Over the Reefs and Coconut Island, and James Norman Hall's Faery Lands of the South Seas and Under a Thatched Roof, and Jack London's South Sea Tales, and Robert Louis Stevenson's In the South Seas, and Joseph Conrad's Typhoon and Youth, and The Journals of Captain James Cook, and Captain David Porter's Journal of a Cruise Made to the Pacific Ocean, and Richard Maury's The Saga of Cimba, and Herman Melville's Typee, and Edward Frederick Knight's The Cruise of the Falcon, and The Venturesome Voyages of Captain Voss, and then literally hundreds of books about the islands west and south of his muddy tense pained angry lonely home in the rain), had bought the old trawler when he was seventeen, from an old man who built it half-size because he had half the money he needed half his life ago and only used it half the time now that he was half the man he used to be. Declan then used it for fishing the near coast, generally for salmon and halibut; but always in the back of the back of his mind, tucked away beyond conscious thought, was the irrepressible idea of someday heading west and then west, for no particular reason, just to see what he could see; and so he had edited and amended the boat slowly and idiosyncratically over the years, adding a mast and standing and running rigging so as to use the wind wherever and whenever possible, thus saving gobs of fuel, and becoming familiar with such mysterious and obdurate words as batten and clew, and luff and leech, and toggle and tang, and reaching and running, although the Plover did not do overmuch reaching and running, more like shuffling and shambling, as Declan said, not without a deep affection for the old cedar creature. He built a simple hoist for the engine, and a cedar weather box for the engine to sleep in, for when the Plover had sails on, in winds that looked like they might last; and when razzed by other fishermen, and by the weekend sailors in Newport and Depoe Bay who laughed aloud at the little trawler with its mast like a grade-school flagpole and its sails made of old kitchen towels, as a wit from Waldport sneered, Declan thought happily of all the fuel he was not expending, and gave everyone the cheerful finger; his usual digitous discourse.
* * *
And no thinking on this trip, either, he said to the gull floating over the stern. No recriminations and ruminations. No logs and journals and literary pretensions neither. Thinking can only, like the boat, proceed forward. We can only think west. Sweet blessed Jesus. Four days out and I am already talking to a fecking gull. Why are you here, exactly, bird? What's in it for you? Because there's not a whole lot of food available here, my friend. This is a working boat. Everyone on or over the boat has to work for a living. That's why I am fishing for my supper, and no, you cannot have half, although yes, you can have the head and tail and innards. Did you want to be going west and then west? Because that is where we are going until further notice. And what are you doing on behalf of the boat, may I ask? Are you providing some rudderly service that I am as yet not aware of? Are you protecting the boat in some mysterious capacity? And don't give me any of this spiritual crap. And don't get all literary on me either, talismans and metaphors and symbols and crap like that. You are most definitely not a metaphor, my friend. You are a herring gull and this is a boat and I am the guy on the boat. It's that simple. You are no albatross and I am no ancient mariner. I read my classics. In fact I vow that if an albatross ever hangs in exactly the same position you are hanging in right now I will strike myself three times on the breast and intone prayers and imprecations. This I swear. You are welcome to hang there as long as you want but don't steal anything. I cast no aspersions on gull people. I am just laying out the rules. Maybe you are unlike all the other gulls who ever lived and you are the first one who won't steal whatever he or she can at the drop of a fecking hat. In which case we will get along fine. If that is not the case and you steal anything from the boat I will catch your raggedy ass and cut you into filets and savor each and every gullicious bite. Are we clear here? On this boat there are no gray areas. There are no misunderstandings. There are no misapprehensions. There are no infinitesimal gradations of emotions and feelings. No one makes mistakes as regards anyone else. There is no anyone else. There's no past and there's no future. We are stripping it all down here, my friend. No man is an island, my ass. This is an island and I am that very man. You are a guest nine feet in the air over my island. Are we clear here? You can visit any time you like, but don't expect anything from me. We are all islands, my friend. We are all playing it straight for a change on this island. I expect nothing and you should expect nothing. The rules are simple here, bird. No emotional complications can ensue if we lay it out clear as day in advance. We can crash, sink, burst into flames, get smashed by a huge squid or a whale or a cyclone or pirates, or I can die in any number of interesting ways and the boat goes on by itself skipperless, but that's the sum total of possibility, understand? We are stripping things down to the bones here. No more expectations and illusions. No more analysis and explications. We are going to live a real simple life here, my friend, and deal with what is, rather than what seems to be. We have wind and fuel, we have food and water, and we have the biggest fecking ocean on the planet in which to putter around, and we are damn well going to putter around until further notice, is that clear? Are you with me here, bird? Hey?
* * *
In the first four days alone Declan saw so much stuff bobbing in the ocean that he started keeping a list with a pencil: sneakers, hockey gloves, the top of a coffin, a poem in Japanese carved into a maple plank, half a bottle of wine, a plastic turtle, two dolls' heads taped together with a huge tangle of duct tape, lots of seeds of various species, what looked like the keel of a fishing boat, three oars, most of a fishing net, an enormous root ball from what Declan judged to be a Sitka spruce, the tiny skull of a sea lion child, two life buoys, a very old basketball on which every hint of nub had been eroded so that the ball shone like a dark sun when he scooped it up with a net, ropes of every sort of shape and color many of which he salvaged just in case, a ukulele he thought about salvaging but recovered his sanity, every sort of tampon ever made on this blue earth, a cassette tape that he carefully dried and rewound and tried to play in the boom box in the cabin to no avail and the shrill awful screeching of it made the gull launch shocked off the cabin roof, all sorts and shapes of seaweed, seven dead murre chicks, and what certainly looked like a muscular squid tentacle about twenty feet long, although he saw it from a distance at last light, so it could have been a whip of bull kelp, or God knows what else, though probably bull kelp, probably.
Probably bull kelp, he said to the gull, who was staring at it too, looking nervous. Don't you think that's bull kelp? Bull kelp gets to be like a hundred feet long, you know. Grows like a bastard. Grows a hundred feet in three months, that's a foot a day, that's just disturbing. Imagine if you grew a foot a day, pretty soon you would be an albatross, and then where would you be? Albatrosst, albalost. Sure that's bull kelp. It just looks like a tentacle. And tentacles don't travel solo, you know. So it has to be bull kelp. Sure it does. Well, hey, full dark, I am just going to step into the cabin here and buckle up, might be weather coming, better tether the old ball to the old chain, you know what I'm saying? If a squid bigger than the boat comes for you just give me a holler. Squawk three times so I'll know it's you. Or do that disgusting barf thing I love so much when you do it on the roof of the cabin. A truly endearing habit, barfing up fish guts. Is that what your mama taught you for manners, barfing on other people's property? Because that is not what my mama taught me. Ah, you ask, what did my mama teach me? And the answer is my mama taught me jack shit, because she wasn't around much longer than it took to pop out four kids and drag the old suitcase down the old driveway and leave the old man and the four ducklings, but she taught me that, bird, yes she did, she taught me there's times to cut and run. Taught me that good, yes she did.
* * *
Why did I name the Plover the Plover, you ask? says Declan to the gull, who had not asked. I'll tell you. Listen close now, because I have not explained this before and will not again. Far too much repetition in life altogether. We should say things once and let them just shimmer there in the air and fade away or not, as the case may be. The golden plover of the Pacific, the Pacific Golden Plover, is a serious traveler. It wanders, it wends where it will. It is a slight thing, easily overlooked, but it is a heroic migrant, sailing annually from the top of Pacifica to the bottom. It forages, it eats what it can find. It talks while it travels and those who have heard it say it has a mournful yet eager sound. This seems exactly right to me, mournful yet eager. We regret, yet we push on. We chew the past but we hunger for the future. So I developed an affection and respect for the plover. It's a little thing the size of your fist, other than those long pencilly legs for sprinting after grasshoppers and crabs and such, but it can fly ten thousand miles across an ocean itching to eat plovers and reaching for plovers with storms and winds and jaegers and such. You have to admire the pluck of the plover. It doesn't show off and it isn't pretty and you hardly even notice it, but it's a tough little bird doing amazing things. Also it really likes berries, which appeals to me. Most of them fly from Siberia or Alaska to Australia and New Guinea and Borneo and such but some of them camp out awhile in Hawaii and just cruise around in the long grass in the sun eating and dozing. This appeals to me. So when it came time to name a little drab boat that wasn't dashing and didn't weigh much and no one notices much, but that gets a lot of work done quietly and could if it wanted to sail off and go as far as it wanted way farther than anyone could ever imagine such a little drab thing could do, that might pause here and there at an island so as to allow a guy to eat and doze in the grass, well, that's why we are the Plover. So now you know. Don't keep badgering me with questions.
* * *
On the seventh day there arose a tempest such as man nor bird had never seen and the Plover was tossed hither and thither as if by a vast and furious hand not unlike an idiot boy in a bathtub slamming the water with his fool flipper because he can, the cretin!, shouts Declan at the gull. The Pacific never being particularly pacific, the storm raged for two days, and was followed by another day of immense uneasy swells; Declan, who had never been seasick in his life, threw up every hour on the hour as if he were a broken alarm clock, and by the time the swell finally eased he was as limp and pale as a rag in the rain. Then the Plover came within yards of being crushed by a vast grim oil tanker at four in the morning, at exactly eight bells, as Declan realized with a shiver, the traditional nautical slang for death; and had he not been clipped onto the boat's jackline, the safety rope he rigged before a storm, the savage bucking of the boat would have tossed him into the endless fog. Then it began to rain, not hard but steadily, for days and days; then he discovered that one of the extra fuel tanks aft had broken off and been lost sometime during the last few days; then he hooked, fought, and lost a tremendous bluefin tuna that would have been glorious eating for a week and lovely dried salted savories for a month; then the rudder fouled on what appeared to be the biggest fecking gill net in the history of the universe where no one but a fecking idiot would set a fecking net; and then, on the first dry hint of sunny morning in weeks, Declan realized the gull was gone.
* * *
And flooding in upon him, to his absolute astonishment, was a black sadness and loneliness and despair so sudden and thorough that he sat down heavily on the deck and wept as he had never wept before in all his life. He was overwhelmed, inundated, swept away by it, his usual salty confidence shredded and tattered so that who he had thought himself to be was completely shattered and he was merely a being in a boat, alone and foolish, running away from everything that had ever meant anything to him, a coward and a joke, utterly alone, unloved and unloving. The sun strengthened by the minute and the boat steamed so remarkably than an observer might have mistaken it for smoke; but there was no man or woman or child for hundreds of miles around, and Declan felt the absence of his kind like a new hole in his flinty soul. He sobbed amid the steam, his face in his hands, until he was empty, a shell in the stern; and finally he fell asleep, his arms wrapped over his head like a shroud. There was the faintest of swells in the sea and the Plover rocked gently, carried west and southwest by the current, no sails set, the engine asleep in its little cedar house. Two young humpback whales slid by silently big and blue and black, on their way south, but they did not remark the boat, being intent on each other and their own vast literature, and Declan slept on through the warming morning. Tuna arrowed beneath the boat, and bonito, and marlin, and cod six feet long, headed east to eat a ton or so of the smaller residents of the continental shelf; and a mile below, as Declan slept, the Plover drifted over a vent in the ocean floor around which gathered blind crabs as white as snow, and nameless fish with transparent heads, and creatures never seen yet by the eyes of man; but we have seen them in our deepest dreams, looming out of the dark, with eyes like fire.
* * *
Consider, for a moment, the Pacific Ocean not as a vast waterway, not as a capacious basin for liquid salinity and the uncountable beings therein, nor as a scatter of islands still to this day delightfully not fully and accurately counted, but as a country in and of itself, dressed in bluer clothes than the other illusory entities we call countries, that word being mere epithet and label at best, and occasion and excuse for murder at worst; rather consider the Pacific a tidal continent, some ten thousand miles long and ten thousand miles wide, bordered by ice at its head and feet, by steaming Peru and Palau at its waist; on this continent are the deepest caves, the highest mountains, the loneliest prospects, the emptiest aspects, the densest populations, the most unmarked graves, the least imprint of the greedy primary ape; in this continent are dissolved beings beyond count, their shells and ships and fins and grins; so that the continent, ever in motion, drinks the dead as it sprouts new life; the intimacy of this closer and more blunt and naked in Pacifica than anywhere else, by volume; volume being an apt and suitable word to apply to that which is finally neither ocean nor continent but story always in flow, narrative that never pauses, endless ebb and flow, wax and wane, a book with no beginning and no end; from it emerged the first fundament and unto it shall return the shatter of the world that was, the stretch between a page or two of the unimaginable story; but while we are on this page we set forth on journeys, on it and in it, steering by the stars, hoping for something we cannot explain; for thousands of years we said gold and food and land and power and freedom and knowledge and none of those were true even as all were true, as shallow waters; we sail on it and in it because we are starving for story, our greatest hunger, our greatest terror; and we love most what we must have but can never have; and so on we go, west and then west.
* * *
Sweet Jesus, it's just a bird, and just a gull at that, the bilge rats of the air, a quarrelsome greedy race that eats their own, said Declan aloud to where the gull used to be. It's not like you were an albatross or some such gentry. Good riddance. No one barfing on my roof anymore. None of your foul and disgusting squirts and pellets raining on the boat from above, none of your toenail scratches in my lovely cedar finish, no having to notice your awful rubber feet like a fecking flying lizard, and that damned red dot on your bill. Out out, damned dot! How does it go, the Scottish play? I remember performing it in the gym, in school, the candles in the dark, the wild wind, the constant rain, all rain all day all night all winter, no one else could remember the lines: I have many nights watched with you, and seen you rise. A great perturbation in nature! Out, damned spot! out, I say! Hell is murky! No more o' that, my lord, no more o' that. Heaven knows what she has known. What's done cannot be undone. God forgive us all! I think, but dare not speak.… Exactly so. That's what I'll do. I'll think but not speak. No family, no friends, no girls, no gulls, no destination, no beer, no talking. Silently scuttling on the ceiling of the sea.
* * *
Consider, for a moment, that the longest chain of mountains and volcanoes and hills and guyots and cliffs and sheering walls on the face of the earth is invisible to the eye, unless you are plunged into the blue realm of Pacifica, which houses the Emperor Seamounts, which stretch nearly four thousand miles across the wild ocean like the longest grin there is; and consider further that only the very tail of this endless ridge, this vast vaulting, peers above the surface, and is christened Hawaii; and consider further that there are more volcanoes along that line of mountains than anyone has yet counted, let alone mountains; and let your mind wander along that line, in and out of ravines, a wilderness beyond the reach of man, a wilderness that thrashed and throbbed for millions of years without a single witness of our kind; how very many stories those mountains and valleys have hosted, battles and loves, heroes and cruelties, beings who changed the ways of their kind, last survivors of their races, ancient kings and queens, blind bards and tiny warriors, creatures beyond counting who left neither fin nor fossil, and are remembered perhaps only by whatever it is that forces fire through volcanic vent, and heats the bottom of the sea; caves and passages beyond number and explorers far beyond that numberless number; literatures and languages, songs and singers, villains and visionaries we can only dimly begin to imagine, even their shapes and sizes and colors endless and mutable; and over all this, for thousands of years, we floated in boats, utterly unaware of what was below, a wilderness beyond all reckoning or robbing; so what was it we were so sure we knew