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Readers of Heather Morris’s The Tattooist of Auschwitz and watchers of The Queen’s Gambit won’t want to miss this amazing debut set during World War II. A young Polish resistance worker, imprisoned in Auschwitz as a political prisoner, plays chess in exchange for her life, and in doing so fights to bring the man who destroyed her family to justice.
Maria Florkowska is many things: daughter, avid chess player, and, as a member of the Polish underground resistance in Nazi-occupied Warsaw, a young woman brave beyond her years. Captured by the Gestapo, she is imprisoned in Auschwitz, but while her family is sent to their deaths, she is spared. Realizing her ability to play chess, the sadistic camp deputy, Karl Fritzsch, decides to use her as a chess opponent to entertain the camp guards. However, once he tires of exploiting her skills, he has every intention of killing her.
Befriended by a Catholic priest, Maria attempts to overcome her grief, vows to avenge the murder of her family, and plays for her life. For four grueling years, her strategy is simple: Live. Fight. Survive. By cleverly provoking Fritzsch’s volatile nature in front of his superiors, Maria intends to orchestrate his downfall. Only then will she have a chance to evade the fate awaiting her and see him punished for his wickedness.
As she carries out her plan and the war nears its end, she challenges her former nemesis to one final game, certain to end in life or death, in failure or justice. If Maria can bear to face Fritzsch—and her past—one last time.
Release date: October 19, 2021
Publisher: William Morrow Paperbacks
Print pages: 432
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The Last Checkmate
Gabriella Saab
Auschwitz, 20 April 1945
THREE MONTHS AGO, I escaped the prison that held my body, but I haven’t found freedom from the one that holds my soul. It’s as if I never shed the blue-and-gray-striped uniform or set foot beyond the electrified barbed-wire fences. The liberation I seek requires escape of a different sort, one I can achieve only now that I’ve returned.
A drizzle falls around me, adding an eerie haze to the gray, foggy morning. Not unlike the first day I stood in this exact spot, staring at the dark metal sign beckoning me from the distance.
ARBEIT MACHT FREI.
I remove the letter from my small handbag and read over the words I’ve memorized, then pull the gun out and examine it. A Luger P08, just like the one my father kept as a trophy following the Great War. The one he’d taught me how to use.
I drop the handbag onto the wet ground, straighten my shirtwaist, and tuck the pistol into my skirt pocket. With each footstep against the gravel, the scent of fresh earth mingles with the rain, but I swear I detect traces of decaying corpses and smoke from cigarettes, guns, and the crematoria. Shuddering, I wrap my arms around my waist and take a breath to assure myself that the air is clean.
Once I pass through the gate, I stop. No curses, taunts, or slurs, no cracking whips or thudding clubs, no barking dogs, no tramping jackboots, no orchestra playing German marches.
Auschwitz is abandoned.
When the loud voice in my head deters me, the little whisper reminds me that this is the day I’ve awaited, and if I don’t see it through I may never have another chance. I continue down the empty street, past the kitchen and the camp brothel. Turn by Block 14 and come upon my destination, my hand against my other pocket to feel the rosary beads tucked inside.
The roll-call square. Our meeting place. And he’s already here.
The bastard stands by the wooden shelter booth, and he looks no different than I remember. Hardly taller than I, slight and unimpressive. He’s in his SS uniform, crisp and pressed even in the rain, jackboots shiny despite a few splatters of mud. His pistol hangs at his side. And his beady eyes lock upon me when I halt a few meters away.
“Prisoner 16671,” Fritzsch says. “I prefer you in stripes.”
Despite the many times I’ve been addressed by that sequence, the way he says one-six-six-seven-one steals my voice. I brush my thumb over the tattoo along my forearm, such a sharp contrast to my pale skin, and pass over the five round scars above the tattoo. The simple gesture coaxes my tongue into forming words.
“My name is Maria Florkowska.”
He chuckles. “You still haven’t learned to control that mouth of yours, have you, Polack?”
The endgame has begun. My wits are my king, pain my queen, the gun my rook, and I am the pawn. My pieces are in place on this giant chessboard. White pawn faces black king.
Fritzsch beckons me with a jerk of his head and indicates the small table set up in the middle of the square. I’d recognize the checkered board and its pieces anywhere. Our footsteps against the gravel are the only sound until I prepare to sit behind the white pieces; then his voice stops me.
“Have you forgotten the terms of our arrangement? If you’re going to bore me, I see no need for a final game.”
As he moves to block my path, one hand rests on his pistol, and I take a slow breath. Somehow I feel like the girl surrounded by men in this roll-call square, all eyes on her while she engages in chess games against the man who would lodge a bullet in her skull just as soon as place her in checkmate.
The silence hangs heavy between us until I manage to break it. “What should I do?”
A hum of approval rumbles in his throat; I loathe myself for putting it there. “Compliance serves you far better than impertinence,” he says, and I watch his feet as he steps closer. “Other side.”
He’s taking my white pieces and my first-move advantage as easily as he took everything else from me. But I don’t need an advantage to defeat him.
I move to the opposite side of the board and study the water droplets glistening on the black pieces. Fritzsch will open with the Queen’s Gambit. I know he will, because it’s my favorite opening. He’ll be sure to take that, too.
And he does. Queen’s pawn to D4. The solitary white pawn stands two squares ahead of its row, already seeking control of the center of the board. When my black queen’s pawn meets his in the center, he responds with a second pawn to the left of his first, finishing the opening.
Fritzsch rests his forearms on the table. “Your move, 16671.”
I swallow the Jawohl, Herr Lagerführer rising to my throat. He’s not my camp deputy anymore. I won’t address him as such.
When I stay silent, the corner of his mouth tightens, and the heat of satisfaction courses through my body, mingling with the chill of this dreary morning. As I examine the board, I keep both hands in his view—the pistol remains tucked inside my skirt pocket, heavy as it rests against my lap.
Fritzsch watches while I reach for my next pawn, eyes alight as if he expects me to speak. Something inside urges me to comply, if only to get away from him, from this place, but I can’t, not yet. Not until the time is right. Then I will demand the answers I seek, but if I let the questions consume me now, if I lose focus—
After I make my play, I smooth my damp skirt, giving myself a reason to hide my hands under the table. The trembles can’t start. This game is too important. My hands are steady for now, but the slightest change is all it takes.
Finish the game, Maria.
Chess is my game. It’s always been my game.
And after all this time, this game will end my way.
Warsaw, 27 May 1941
EVER SINCE MY family and I were confined to Pawiak Prison, one phrase had reverberated in my mind: The Gestapo will come for me.
Huddled in the corner of our cell, I hugged my knees against my chest and brushed my thumb over my split bottom lip. At first I thought maybe the German secret police would decide I wasn’t worth their time. One look at my blond braid and wide eyes, and they’d deem me harmless.
But it was too late for that. They already had proof of what I’d done.
On the single metal bed with its thin mattress, Zofia hugged Mama’s arm. A prisoner had just stumbled past our cell, but my little sister hadn’t released Mama or stopped staring at the bars on the door. The man’s pleas for mercy echoed in my ears, pleas that had earned him kicks and shoves as the guards ushered him away. At last Mama coaxed Zofia into loosening her grip, then wrestled with her golden curls, likely hoping to distract her.
Karol, on the other hand, seemed to have forgotten the scene we’d witnessed. He got up from the filthy floor and hurried to my father at the opposite edge of the cot.
“I want to play with my toy soldiers when we get home, Tata,” he said.
“Will your soldiers defeat the Nazis?”
“They always do,” Karol said with a grin. “Can we go home now?”
“Soon,” Tata replied. “Soon.” But he exchanged a glance with Mama, the same one they’d started giving each other when the Nazis invaded. The one filled with doubt.
I wondered how much they resented me. They didn’t act like it, but they must have—if not for themselves, then for Zofia and Karol. My actions had gotten two innocent children sent to prison. We’d been held only a few days, but my parents’ soft yet emphatic sighs, their futile comforts and encouragements, my sister’s bored complaints and brother’s hungry cries, all reminded me that I was responsible for our misery.
As Karol clambered onto Tata’s lap, a new sound caught my attention. Footsteps.
My parents reached for each other—a small, simple gesture, but they made it as one. Moving at the same time, the same speed, perfectly in sync. Two halves of a whole. Their hands touched for a moment before they looked at me. I wished they hadn’t, because upon seeing the look in their eyes I hugged my knees tighter.
Mama sent Zofia and Karol to the far side of the bed, as if the rusty metal frame could protect them, while Tata stood. When he put too much weight on his bad leg, he winced and pressed his palm against the wall to stabilize himself. It was all he could do without his cane. Silence filled the tiny space while the booted footsteps drew nearer, then our cell door creaked open and revealed two guards. One pointed at me, a gesture that made my heart plummet almost as much as the words that accompanied it.
“You, out.”
All along, I’d told myself that, when the guards came for me, I’d obey to keep them from manhandling me. But suddenly I couldn’t move.
Tata lunged. I wasn’t sure how he managed to stay on his feet, but he did until a guard struck him and knocked him to the floor.
Mama held me to her chest, between herself and the wall, shielding me. “Don’t touch her!” she shouted. Her shrieks reverberated in the small space and continued even when her head jerked back. Her arms tightened around me, but I glimpsed the guard holding her by the hair, and he wrenched us away from the wall and tugged me from her grasp.
I twisted and writhed—a gut instinct, though there was no point—while they hauled me out of the cell as if my struggles were a minor inconvenience, and then they slammed the door and clamped heavy cuffs around my wrists. My family’s screams faded as they took me away. An ominous thought crept into my mind, and I wondered if I’d ever come back.
Thuds and clinks echoed alongside each footstep as we traveled down the long, cold hallways. Even my own breathing was loud. The air smelled like metal, blood, sweat, and God knew what else. If suffering had a smell, it would have smelled like this place.
When one guard opened a door, the other pushed me over the threshold. I emerged into a world awash in piercing light and stumbled blindly until another shove brought darkness back. Blinking, I found myself in a van, sitting on a low wooden bench along one side. A large black canvas hood stretched over the space, blocking my view of the outside, and the sudden pitch of the vehicle as it started to move almost threw me from my seat. The prisoners packed around me prevented me from losing my balance as the van rumbled through the streets of Warsaw.
The drive didn’t take long. When a merciless grip pulled me out, I stood before Aleja Szucha 25—the Gestapo headquarters on Szucha Avenue.
I squeezed my eyes shut, unable to bear the sunshine or the massive building with billowing Nazi flags, harsh red against gray stone. One guard said something about Polish swine and marching, so I followed the Pawiak inmates through the courtyard, inside, and downstairs, descending into damnation. Each step down the narrow, dingy gray halls took me deeper into the bowels of Szucha until we reached an empty cell. A guard grabbed me, sniggering when I shied away, but he removed my handcuffs and told me to file toward “the tram”—I assumed he meant the row of single wooden seats, one behind the other, facing the back wall.
The iron door clanged shut. The tiny space reeked of blood and urine, the smells of terror, so pungent I stifled a gag, and the wooden floor was slick with both.
I was the youngest prisoner.
I sat on a small, hard seat behind a woman whose left arm was swollen, bruised, and hanging at her side. Broken, probably. I stared at the back of her head, afraid to move, afraid to breathe.
From the corner of my eye—I didn’t dare turn my head—I noticed something etched into the black paint beside me. Maybe a name. Maybe a heroic message about freedom or independence. Maybe nail marks from a prisoner as he was dragged away for another interrogation, a prisoner terrified that he’d break this time.
Another sound pierced the shallow breaths around me. I lifted my eyes to a small open window, where I heard fervent voices from upstairs. An interrogator’s yelling, a prisoner’s petrified murmur, then cracks, screams, and sobs. Listening to torture was almost worse than the thought of experiencing it.
One by one, the guards summoned prisoners from the cell. In a vain attempt to stay calm, I closed my eyes and took deep breaths. In and out, slow and controlled. All it did was fill my nostrils with the tang of the blood and urine on the sticky floor and the stench of filthy, unwashed bodies. Every time another guard came to fetch a prisoner, my heart raced with renewed terror as I expected them to call my name.
But when I heard it, my racing heart came to an abrupt halt.
“Maria Florkowska.”
A rush of lightheadedness crashed over me. My body felt rooted to the tram, facing forward, always forward, and suddenly I would’ve given anything to stay seated for the rest of my life rather than go into an interrogation room. But I had to protect my family and the resistance. I sent up a quick prayer for strength and rose.
Upstairs, I sat at a rectangular table with my back to Hitler’s portrait. Two guards stood nearby while I assessed my surroundings. Stationed behind a desk in the corner, an impassive woman rested her fingers on a typewriter keyboard. Otherwise the room was sparse—except the far wall, lined with whips, rubber truncheons, and other instruments of torture.
Under the table, I clasped my hands together in an effort to stop them from shaking.
The door opened to announce my interrogator’s arrival. Sturmbannführer Ebner, the same man who had arrested us.
After the German invasion of 1939, when it had been safe to emerge from our apartment building’s basement, I’d seen a dead horse splayed outside. Birds had torn into its carcass, stripping flesh, muscle, and sinew from bone, staining the ground red, leaving the mangled form to rot. As Ebner sat across from me, I took in his features, from his premature baldness to his aquiline nose, and I couldn’t shake the image of those birds and that carcass.
“My name is Wolfgang Ebner.” His voice was light, as if we were old friends getting reacquainted. “Yours is Maria Florkowska, isn’t it?”
I hated the sound of my name coming out of his mouth, but I didn’t confirm or deny it. When the typewriter dinged, I jumped and hoped Ebner didn’t notice.
“Should I call you Helena Pilarczyk instead?”
The words held a faint trace of sarcasm, and a green identification card landed on the table. My false Kennkarte. He opened it to reveal the fabricated information and forged government stamps surrounding my photograph and signature. When I didn’t speak, Ebner moved the Kennkarte aside.
“As I recall, you speak excellent German, but I can bring in an interpreter if you’d prefer to resolve this matter in your native tongue.”
An interpreter would have lengthened the process, when all I wanted was for it to end. “I’ve been fluent my whole life,” I replied. Somehow I managed to keep my voice level.
Ebner nodded and produced a pack of cigarettes. He lit one and took a slow, pensive drag, then released the gray smoke. As it filled the space between us, he offered the pack to me. When I didn’t acknowledge it, he put it back in his pocket.
“All I need is the truth. If you cooperate, we’ll get along just fine.”
I almost heard Irena’s voice in my head—Dammit, Maria, how many times did I warn you about what those bastards will do to you? My fellow resistance member had filled my mind with tales of Gestapo brutality, and her vivid descriptions washed away Ebner’s false reassurance.
The typewriter let out another shrill ping while Ebner smoked and waited for me to say something. When my mouth stayed closed, his expression didn’t change, but a gleam of annoyance flickered in his eyes. He blinked and chased it away.
“I presume you are aware of the penalty for aiding Jews,” he said. And I was aware, of course, but was he really threatening such a minor member of the resistance with severe punishment, even death? He set a second document before me. “You delivered blank baptismal certificates for the Polish underground resistance?”
The proof was right in front of us, so there was no point in denying it. I nodded.
“How did you keep your work a secret from your family?”
“When you were a boy, did your parents know every time you disobeyed them?”
He chuckled. “No, I suppose they didn’t.”
My lie must have been far more convincing than it felt. If Ebner believed my parents had been unaware of my resistance work, surely I could convince him they hadn’t been involved alongside me. Whatever it took to spare my family an interrogation.
Ebner dropped his cigarette stub onto the floor and ground it under his boot heel to extinguish the smoldering embers. He placed the certificate next to my Kennkarte and leaned closer, slow and calculated, eyes alight, prepared to ensnare his prey. Although I tried not to move, I gripped the edge of my seat.
“For whom are you working?”
His voice remained even, but all I heard was the unspoken threat behind the question. A selfish part of me tried to force its way to the surface, desperate to prevent what would come if I stayed quiet, but I pushed it back. I wouldn’t let the Gestapo turn me into a traitor.
My fingers ached, unable to loosen their hold on my seat. Ebner retained the power to do anything to me. To my family. Sitting in the tram, I’d overheard how the Gestapo rewarded prisoners who didn’t give the answers they sought. And my time was coming; I knew it was.
“My family lives in Berlin,” Ebner said as he settled into his chair. “It’s difficult being away from them.”
This man was putting me, a girl, through Gestapo interrogation. Did he really think I’d believe he was sentimental?
“My wife, Brigitte, is a housewife. Hans is near your age, and he wants to become a lawyer. Anneliese is younger and says she’ll get married and have beautiful Aryan babies, but first, she’ll own a store which sells dolls, dresses, and chocolates.” He flashed an amused smile.
Discovering he had children left me with a small ray of hope; in the next instant it faded. I knew better than to trust him. The tactic was a good one, I gave him that. But not good enough.
“If you answer my questions, I will arrange for your release. And your family’s. Now, surely you can tell me who gave you your orders.”
The bribe sounded so genuine. If I hadn’t suspected that it was a bluff, he would have convinced me. Naturally I wanted my family released, but, even if I betrayed the resistance and confessed, somehow I didn’t think Ebner would let us go.
When I didn’t comply, he jerked his head in a nod, issuing a silent order. Before I could guess what it was, the guards lifted me as if I weighed nothing, and my chair clattered against the floor. They disregarded my struggles and tore off my skirt. Why were they taking off my clothing? It was happening too fast, much too fast. So fast that I had no time to resist.
Irena was right. They aren’t taking pity on me because I’m young.
The guards stripped me of everything except undergarments—a small, unexpected blessing—and slammed my back against the wall. They searched my clothing first, then tossed it aside and discovered the small seams in my brassiere, betraying hidden pockets.
The pockets are empty. I wanted to scream the words, but I could scream them only inside my mind. Don’t search them, please don’t search them.
But I knew they would, and they did. They searched my entire body and probed the pockets thoroughly, relishing my flinches and struggles while Ebner watched in silence. After they groped me, I was too breathless to struggle. I glanced at the woman in the corner, praying she’d come to my aid, but she placed a fresh sheet of paper in the typewriter and paid me no mind. I shrank back, acutely aware of my near nakedness among these wicked people.
It’s an intimidation tactic. Don’t let them know it’s working.
My breath came in shallow gasps, though I tried to steady it while Ebner skirted the table and fallen chair on his way toward me. He absorbed every centimeter of my small, exposed frame. As he approached, a tremor seized my body—whether from cold, terror, shame, or all three, I didn’t know. Gone was his pretense of camaraderie. I was his enemy, not a child; just a resistance member who hadn’t fallen for his wiles. Someone he would break.
He grasped my jaw and raised my head, yelling and spitting while his tobacco-laden breath filled my nostrils. He demanded to know whom I served, insisting that he’d uncover the truth if he had to pry every damn word out of my Polack mouth. Even if I’d been willing to answer, the tirade left my throat too dry for words, and when he released me he crossed to the far wall. The one with the torture instruments.
I twitched against my captors and prayed that the pathetic gesture would break their holds so I could flee from the hell I was about to endure.
It didn’t, of course.
Ebner caressed the metal rod, the chains, the whip, and I dug my fingernails into my palms. At last he made his choice. A club. More merciful than the whip, I supposed, though I couldn’t swallow the bile in my throat. When he reached me, I turned aside, but he caught my chin and made me face him. My unsteady breaths were the only sound until he touched the club to my temple, and worse than the solid weapon against my skin were the words that followed.
“Every prisoner pleads for death, but until I have answers, I don’t grant it. Remember that when you beg me to shoot you.”
Though Ebner’s voice reached my ears, it was Irena’s I heard.
By the time they’re finished with you, you’ll be begging them to put a bullet in your skull.
* * *
Two and a Half Months Earlier
Warsaw, 14 March 1941
The steady thump of Tata’s cane against the cobblestone sidewalk broke the quiet hovering over the Mokotów district. The morning sun was reflected in the silver handle, worn smooth from daily use following Tata’s service in the Great War. I drew a strange comfort from the shuffle of his limping gait and the rhythmic tap of his cane. His physical strength had been compromised, but his strength of character was the part of him that no injury could steal.
Ominous field-gray uniforms caught my eye—Schutzstaffel, the National Socialist Party’s Protection Squadron, or SS. Across the street, two officers smoked cigarettes and carried on a conversation. When Mama noticed them, she looked over her shoulder at Tata. It was a look I’d caught them sharing ever since the invasion. Concern and doubt, interlaced in glances so fleeting they’d be easy to overlook if I hadn’t grown accustomed to them. As we approached the end of our block, I rushed to Zofia’s side, awaiting the inevitable. Sure enough, she stumbled and yelped. I laughed and caught her arm to steady her.
“You trip over those loose cobblestones every time, Zofia.”
She cast a bitter glance at the stones scattered around us. “Someone needs to fix them.”
In response, I pulled one of her golden curls, then released it so it sprang back into a tight coil. She giggled and waved me away. A hole lay beneath the cluster of cobblestones, but we kicked them back to re-cover it. Once the trap was laid for the next unsuspecting victim, Tata scooped up Karol, who stole the wide-brimmed gray fedora from our father’s head and placed it on his own.
“Zofia, Karol, have fun at Park Dreszera and listen to your father.” Mama adjusted their coats before glancing at me. “Maria and I are picking up rations, so we’ll see you at home.”
As our mother kissed my siblings goodbye, Tata offered me a wink. He had shared many discreet winks with me these past few days, ever since I revealed that I was privy to his and Mama’s secret. Since I had eavesdropped on their whispered conversations late at night while my siblings were sleeping; discovered anti-Nazi pamphlets distributed by the Polish resistance hidden in our apartment; found identifications naming my parents Antoni and Stanisława Pilarczyk, not Aleksander and Natalia Florkowski. Since I had asked to join the Polish underground alongside them, to help free my home from the invaders who persecuted Jews, non-Jewish Poles like my family, anyone who was not Aryan or defied the Third Reich.
Mama and I were picking up rations, it was true. But not until after my first day of resistance work.
“Do you want to play chess with me when we get home?” I asked Zofia, while Mama checked her handbag to ensure she’d brought the ration cards.
She made a disgusted face. “Chess is boring.”
“That’s because you won’t let me teach you how to play.” I attempted to tug a curl again, but she slapped my hand away and darted out of reach.
“I’ll play chess with you, Maria. Zofia, you can set up Monopoly,” Mama said. A few years before the war, my father had returned from a trip to Germany and surprised us with the game, an American import; ever since, it had been my sister’s favorite.
We parted ways. As Mama and I sidestepped patches of snow and ice, we passed apartments and shops that had survived the bombings, but gaping holes indicated less fortunate buildings. Nazi propaganda contaminated every wall and storefront, and each bloodred poster featured a loathsome black swastika against a white circle. A street vendor offered Mama a brooch from his collection of trinkets, but she politely declined without slowing her pace.
Once inside a small gray apartment building in the Mokotów district, we discreetly followed a narrow hallway covered in cheerful yellow paint. Mama rushed to the last door on the right, knocked three times, waited, and knocked twice more. An unusual pattern, one I hadn’t heard her use before. A short woman opened the door, and Mama shoved me inside.
Though I’d learned that Mrs. Sienkiewicz was a prominent resistance figure, it was difficult to grasp because I knew her as my mother’s friend. She welcomed us with a beaming smile and fresh ersatz tea. I drank mine to be polite, though I wished the unpleasant mixture were real tea. I sat next to Mama on the sofa and studied a large portrait over the mantel. It depicted Mrs. Sienkiewicz and her late husband on their wedding day—she in a beautiful white lace dress, he in a decorated Polish army uniform.
“This is dangerous work, Maria, as I’m sure you understand,” Mrs. Sienkiewicz said. “Until you’re familiar with what we do, you’ll have a companion at all times.”
That was the last thing I’d expected to hear. Mama eyed me with disapproval, probably warning me not to look so sullen. At least the arrangement was temporary, and I supposed it would be beneficial to learn from someone. Once I’d proved myself, I could work alone. Mrs. Sienkiewicz disappeared to fetch my companion. She returned with her daughter.
Irena stepped into the room behind her mother and frowned at the sight of me. “Shit.”
Not quite the reaction I was hoping for from a colleague, but not unexpected when that colleague was Irena.
Mrs. Sienkiewicz grabbed her daughter’s forearm. “Language.”
I couldn’t pretend that I didn’t share Irena’s feelings; the idea of working with her didn’t appeal to me, either. Irena had always acted as if our three-year age difference were three hundred, even prior to the war, when we’d sat through endless dinners with our parents. She listened while the adults expressed fears that war was brewing, discussed Nazi Germany’s Anschluss, a plan to unify with Austria; I, eleven years old at the time, hated the thought of my father returning to military service, though he insisted it was impossible for him to fight. I had no reason to fear he would be sent away, where he might be injured again. Despite his reassurances, the incessant talk of increasing strife in Europe always prompted me to escape to my chessboard.
On that spring day in 1938, after the conversation about the Anschluss, Irena had followed me into my family’s living room, where my racing heart was already slowing as I plotted my opening strategy. “One day, when you’re older, you’ll understand there are more important things to worry about than that damn game,” she said, leaving me no time to reply before returning to her place at the dining table.
Perhaps she mistook my focus on chess for indifference toward the risk her father and so many others would undertake should war come to Poland; still, I bristled at the way she had spat when you’re older, as though youth were synonymous with ignorance. As for the so-called game, she had refused the few times I had offered to teach her how to play, yet I was the ignorant one?
But the same condescending glower she’d given me that day returned now.
“Maria is the new recruit?” Irena looked at her mother as if she’d been betrayed. “Mama, you said I’d be teaching a new member, not becoming a nanny.”
I sipped my ersatz tea, but it was as bitter as the retort that rose in my throat. Keeping the words within the confines of my mind wasn’t as satisfying, but I refused to wither beneath her scowl. “I’ll learn quickly,” I replied instead.
“Allow me to give you your first lesson.” Irena sat on the coffee table in front of me and clapped both hands onto my knees. I recoiled, before making a conscious effort not to give her the satisfaction. She leaned closer until I could see a tiny gold crucifix around her neck and count each delicate link in its chain. “There’s a special place in hell for resistance members who get caught. It’s called Pawiak Prison. And if all secret policemen were devils, the Gestapo would be Satan himself. Those bastards won’t take pity on you because you’re young, and by the time they’re finished with you, you’ll be begging them to put a bullet in your skull—”
“Enough.” Mrs. Sienkiewicz’s cheeks looked as if they’d been painted with an entire pot of rouge. Before she could say more, Irena stood and marched into the kitchen.
A sudden chill swept over me after Irena’s successful efforts to terrify me, and I resented her even more for it. I was well aware of the dangers I’d face. No need for the reminder.
Mrs. Sienkiewicz sighed. “Please forgive Irena’s behavior, and her swearing. I’ve tried everything to make her stop, but since we joined this cause after her father . . .” Her voice faded, then she cleared her throat. “Maria, if Irena is inappropriate while you’re working together, let me know and I’ll talk to her.”
Did she think I was stupid enough to tattle? I valued my life, thank you. “I’ll keep that in mind,” I said aloud.
“And don’t worry, dear, she’ll come around.” The uncertainty in her tone didn’t instill much confidence.
She joined Irena in the kitchen, and I concentrated on the muffled conversation carrying through the walls, on Irena’s complaints that she’d be encumbered by me, a child.
Mama sat with her lips pressed together while I placed my teacup on the silver tray and ran a finger over the sofa’s floral upholstery. Irena’s disparaging gaze and caustic tongue would place me under constant scrutiny. She’d analyze me the way I analyzed a chessboard, seeking weaknesses to inhibit my opponent. I didn’t intend to lose to her. As an established resistance member, she had the initial advantage, but she’d need more than that to overcome me.
After Mrs. Sienkiewicz coaxed Irena back into the living room, Mama embraced me, her grasp tight, breaths unsteady. I inhaled her familiar scent—geranium, her favorite flower. When she kissed the top of my head, the tautness in her body eased.
“Be careful,” she whispered as she tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear, probably to distract me from her glassy eyes. ...
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