The Girl Who Wasn't There

by Ferdinand von Schirach, Anthea Bell

Genres: General Fiction; Literary Fiction; Crime Fiction; Psychological Thrillers

Synopsis

Sebastian von Eschburg, scion of a wealthy, self-destructive family, survived his disastrous childhood to become a celebrated if controversial artist. He casts a provocative shadow over the Berlin scene; his disturbing photographs and installations show that truth and reality are two distinct things. When Sebastian is accused of murdering a young woman and the police investigation takes a sinister turn, seasoned lawyer Konrad Biegler agrees to represent him - and hopes to help himself in the process. But Biegler soon learns that nothing about the case, or the suspect, is what it appears. The new thriller from the acclaimed author of The Collini Case, THE GIRL WHO WASN'T THERE is dark, ingenious and irresistibly gripping.

Release date: January 8, 2015

Publisher: Little, Brown Book Group

Print pages: 152

Sample

The village of Eschburg is halfway between Munich and Salzburg, a little way from the major roads. Only a few stones of the castle up on the hill that once gave the village its name still stand today. An Eschburg had been Bavarian ambassador to Berlin in the eighteenth century, and when he came back he built the new house beside the lake.

 

The last time the Eschburgs had been rich was at the beginning of the 20th century, when they owned a paperworks and a spinning mill. In 1912 the first-born son and heir drowned in the sinking of the Titanic. Later, the family had felt a little proud of that. He had booked a first-class cabin, and was travelling with his dog as his only companion. He had declined to get into a lifeboat, presumably because he was too drunk.

His younger brother sold the family firms, speculated, and lost most of his fortune during the crash of the 1920s. After that, there was never enough money to renovate the house properly. Plaster flaked off the walls, the two side wings were not heated in winter, and moss grew on the rooftops. In spring and autumn metal buckets stood in the attics to catch the rain.

 

Almost all the Eschburgs had been hunters and travellers, and for two hundred and fifty years they had filled the rooms of the house with the things they liked. There were three umbrella stands made of elephant feet in the entrance hall, and mediaeval boar spears on the walls – long lances used for hunting wild boar. Two stuffed crocodiles lay locked in combat on the upstairs landing; one had lost a glass eye, and part of the other’s tail was missing. In the domestic offices, there was a huge brown bear with almost all the fur worn away from his belly. The horned heads of kudu and oryx were mounted on the library walls, and the head of a squint-eyed gibbon stood on a shelf there between busts of Goethe and Herder. Beside the hearth lay drums, natural horns and lamellophones. Two grave, black figures, African fertility gods made of ebony, sat either side of the billiard room door.

Icons of saints from Poland and Russia hung in the corridors, next to enlarged postage stamps from India and Japanese ink drawings. There were little Chinese wooden horses, spear tips from South America, the yellow fangs of a polar bear, the head of a swordfish, a stool with the four hooves of a sable antelope, ostrich eggs, and wooden chests from Indonesia to which the keys had long ago been lost. One guest room contained fake Baroque furniture from Florence, in another there was a glass-topped showcase full of brooches, cigarette cases, and a family Bible with a silver lock.

Right at the back of the park there was a small stable with five stalls. Ivy grew on the walls and grass between the paving stones in the yard. Paint was peeling off the shutters, rust had turned the water brown. Firewood was drying in two of the stalls; tubs for plants, salt for the paths and fodder for game were stored in another.

 

Sebastian came into the world in this house. His mother had intended to give birth in hospital in Munich, but the car had been standing out in the cold too long and wouldn’t start. Her labour pains began while Sebastian’s father was still trying to get the ignition to catch. The pharmacist and his wife came up from the village, and Sebastian’s father waited in the corridor outside his wife’s room. Two hours later, when the pharmacist asked if he wanted to cut the baby’s cord, he shouted at the man that the starter was no bloody good. Later he apologized, but in the village they wondered, for a long time, what that portended.

 

Not much attention had ever been paid to children in Sebastian’s family. They were taught how to hold a knife and fork properly, boys learned to kiss a lady’s hand, and they were told that as far as possible children should be seen and not heard. Most of the time, however, no one took any notice of them. Sebastian was eight when he was allowed to eat with his parents for the first time.

 

Sebastian couldn’t imagine living anywhere else. When he went away with his family in the holidays, he felt strange in the hotels where they stayed. He was glad to come home and find everything still there: the dark floorboards in the corridors; the worn stone staircase; the soft afternoon light in the chapel, which didn’t stand quite straight.

 

There had always been two worlds in Sebastian’s life. The retinas of his eyes perceived electromagnetic waves between 380 and 780 nanometres, his brain translated them into two hundred tones of colour, five hundred degrees of brightness and twenty different shades of white. He saw what other people saw, but in his mind the colours were different. They had no names because there weren’t enough words for them. His nanny’s hands were cyan and amber; his hair, as he saw it, shone violet with a touch of ochre; his father’s skin was a pale greenish blue. Only his mother had no colour at all. For a long time Sebastian thought that she was made of water, and took on the shape that everyone knew when he went into her room. He admired the speed with which she always successfully performed this transformation.

 

When he learned to read, the letters had colours too. ‘A’ was red, like the village school-teacher’s cardigan, or the Swiss flag that he had seen on the mountain hut last winter: a fat, strong, unmistakable red. ‘B’ was a much lighter tone: it was yellow and smelled like the fields of oilseed rape he passed on the way to school. It floated in the room above pale green ‘C’, it was higher and friendlier than dark green ‘K’.

Since everything had not just its visible but also its other, invisible colour, Sebastian’s brain began putting that world into order. Gradually he created a map of colours with thousands of streets, squares and alleys, and every year a new level was added to it. He could move about that map, he found his memories through the colours. The map became a complete picture of his childhood. The household dust was the colour of the time he spent in the lakeside house: a dark, soft green.

 

He did not talk about it; he still thought that everyone saw in the same way. He couldn’t stand it when his mother wanted him to wear brightly multi-coloured sweaters; he would fall into a rage, tear them to pieces or bury them in the garden. Finally he got his way, and was allowed to dress solely in the dark blue jackets that were the usual rustic garb of the district. Until he was ten years old they were his daily wear. In summer he sometimes wore a cap just because it was the right colour. The au pair girl guessed that Sebastian was different. He commented on it when she wore a new perfume or a different lipstick. Sometimes she called her boyfriend in Lyons. She spoke French to him on the phone, but she felt as if Sebastian understood that foreign language, as if the sound of her voice was enough for him to know what she was saying.

 

At the age of ten Sebastian went to boarding school. His father, his grandfather and his great-grandfather had been to the same school before him, and as the family no longer had enough money for the fees, he obtained a scholarship. The school sent a letter to his home, saying exactly what clothes every boy was to bring with him, how many pairs of trousers and pyjamas, how many sweaters. The cook had to sew numbers into all his clothes, so that the school laundry could keep the children’s things separate. When she brought his trunk down from the attic, the cook cried, and Sebastian’s father told her crossly to stop making all that fuss, it wasn’t as if the boy was going to prison. She shed tears all the same, and although the letter expressly forbade any such thing, she packed a jar of jam and some money among his clean shirts.

The cook wasn’t really a cook; it was a long time since the Eschburg family had employed any domestic staff. She was one of the family herself, a distant relation, some kind of aunt, and in better days she had been the housekeeper and lover of a German consul to Tunisia. The consul died without leaving her anything, and she was glad to be taken in by the Eschburgs. Sometimes she was paid a salary, but usually she simply got free board and lodging.

 

When Sebastian’s father took him to the boarding school, the child would have liked to take the white water-crowfoot flowers floating on the lake with him, and the wagtails and plane trees from the front of the house. His dog was lying in the sun, his coat was warm, and Sebastian didn’t know what to say to him. The dog died six months later.

Sebastian was allowed to sit in the front seat of the car on the way to his boarding school because he felt sick in the back of the old vehicle on long drives. Looking out of the window, he imagined that the world was only just being created, and hoped that his father wouldn’t drive too fast, or it wouldn’t be finished in time.

Once past the orchard on the banks of the large lake that his father called the Swabian Sea, they reached the Swiss border. The area between Germany and Switzerland, said Sebastian’s father, was no-man’s-land. Sebastian wondered what the people of no-man’s-land looked like, what language they spoke, and indeed whether they had any language at all.

The border official looked dignified in his uniform. He checked Sebastian’s new passport, he even asked Sebastian’s father whether he had anything to declare. Sebastian stared at the official’s pistol in its shabby holster, and was sorry that the man didn’t have to draw it.

On the other side of the border his father changed some money and bought chocolate at a kiosk. He said you always had to do that when you crossed into Switzerland. Each square of chocolate was separately wrapped, and the silver foil was stuck down with tiny photographs: the Rhine Falls at Schaffhausen, the Matterhorn, cows and milk churns outside a barn, Lake Zurich.

They drove higher into the mountains; the air grew cooler and they wound up the windows. Switzerland, said Sebastian’s father, was one of the largest countries on earth; if you laid the mountains out flat, the country would be as big as Argentina. The roads became narrower; they saw farms, the towers of stone churches, rivers, a mountain lake.

As they drove through a village that looked particularly neat and tidy, Sebastian’s father said, ‘Nietzsche lived here.’ He pointed to a two-storey house with geraniums on the windowsills. Sebastian didn’t know who this man Nietzsche was, but his father said it so sadly that the name stuck in his mind.

They drove for about another thirty kilometres through the rocky landscape, and finally parked in the marketplace of a small town. Because they were a little too early, they went for a walk along its streets. The town had houses two or three storeys high, with tiny windows, arched gateways, and thick walls to keep the hard winters out. From here they could see the school buildings, part of a Baroque monastery. Arcades surrounded a fountain dedicated to the Virgin Mary, and the two towers of the mighty Collegiate Church rose beyond it.

 

They were met by the principal of the boarding school, wearing the brown habit of a Benedictine monk. Sebastian sat on the sofa beside his father. There was a Madonna behind glass in a niche in the wall. She had a tiny mouth and sad eyes, and the baby in her arms looked unwell. Sebastian felt uneasy. He had a bird-whistle in his trouser pocket, along with a very smooth stone that he had found on the beach last year and the remains of some orange peel. As the men discussed things that Sebastian didn’t understand, he picked the orange peel in his pocket apart into ever tinier pieces with his thumb and forefinger. Once the grown-ups had finished talking at last, and Sebastian could stand up, his father said goodbye to the monk. Sebastian was going to shake hands with the strange man too, but the monk said, ‘No, no, you’re staying here now.’

The tiny scraps of orange peel had dropped out of Sebastian’s pocket; they were scattered on the sofa, and there were dark patches on the upholstery. Sebastian’s father apologized, but the monk laughed it off. It wasn’t as bad as all that, he said. Sebastian knew that the strange man was lying.

Life in the monastery had concentrated on reading and writing for centuries. The library was a high-ceilinged hall with light oak floorboards, and it contained over 1,400 manuscripts and over 200,000 printed books, most of them bound in leather. In. . .