Tender Beasts

by Liselle Sambury

Genres: YA Social Themes; YA Horror; YA Mysteries & Thrillers

Synopsis

After her private school is rocked by a gruesome murder, a teen tries to find the real killer and clear her brother’s name in this psychological thriller perfect for fans of The Taking of Jake Livingston and Ace of Spades.

Sunny Behre has four siblings, but only one is a murderer.

With the death of Sunny’s mother, matriarch of the wealthy Behre family, Sunny’s once picture-perfect life is thrown into turmoil. Her mother had groomed her to be the family’s next leader, so Sunny is confused when the only instructions her mother leaves is a mysterious note: “Take care of Dom.”

The problem is, her youngest brother, Dom, has always been a near-stranger to Sunny…and seemingly a dangerous one, if found guilty of his second-degree murder charge. Still, Sunny is determined to fulfill her mother’s dying wish. But when a classmate is gruesomely murdered, and Sunny finds her brother with blood on his hands, her mother’s simple request becomes a lot more complicated. Dom swears he’s innocent, and although Sunny isn’t sure she believes him, she takes it upon herself to look into the murder—made all the more urgent by the discovery of another body. And another.

As Sunny and Dom work together to track down the culprit, Sunny realizes her other siblings have their own dark secrets. Soon she may have to choose: preserve the family she’s always loved or protect the brother she barely knows—and risk losing everything her mother worked so hard to build.

 

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Release date: February 27, 2024

Publisher: Margaret K. McElderry Books

Print pages: 413

Sample

PROLOGUE

Ainsley Behre did not do lateness. She couldn’t stand walking into a meeting after it had already started, a room of people turning to her with knowing smirks that said, “Black people are always late.” It grated on her. Her dad regularly failed to be on time, and it didn’t exactly endear him to the people who already hated him for what he had. And now that he was gone, what she had.

But, devoted as she was to punctuality, sometimes shit just hit the fan when you didn’t expect it. Like the snowstorm that had suddenly swept across the East Coast. Her flight in from New York was supposed to land at Toronto Pearson Airport at 6:00 p.m. But the weather had caused delay after delay and when the aircraft finally bumped to a stop on the tarmac, she stared down at her phone and saw 11:05 p.m. staring back at her. Her lip curled.

When the seat belt sign clicked off and everyone scrambled from their seats, she rose slowly, unwilling to look like a panicked cockroach. She took her time retrieving her roller bag and slipped into the aisle. She’d been in the front row as was her preference, and so she was one of the first people off when they finally opened the boarding door.

As she departed, she checked her phone to see if Paris had sent her any messages, but there was nothing from the lawyer. For the sake of her retainer, the woman had better be working day and night on this case. Paris was calculating and meticulous, which was why Ainsley had taken her on in the first place. Also, she preferred to work with other Black professionals whenever possible. Paris was good, but she wasn’t perfect. Though Ainsley’s husband would say that no one would ever be perfect enough for her.

Ainsley attempted to ignore the blizzard still raging, which she could see out the giant windows as she stepped onto the moving sidewalk toward customs. Her shoulders cramped, and she took a moment to roll them back. The flight hadn’t even been long, but that was the thing about getting older. Your body betrayed you more and more. Her heart rate accelerated against her will, and she immediately thought of the ranch. Of the suffocating stink of the blood. And that sour smell she couldn’t escape. No. Stop it, she thought. You’re better than this.

She forced herself to relax. It was fine. She was fine.

Ainsley made her way past the throngs of passengers heading to the long customs line and breezed forward through the mobile customs since she had the sense to arrange her affairs ahead of time. The same way she’d set her husband to the tasks that he needed to do today, but she wouldn’t feel settled until she was home with him. Until she could ensure that everything was as it should be.

She was thankful that this business trip hadn’t required more than a carry-on, so she didn’t have to wait for baggage. Though she cursed herself when she nearly tripped over her feet rushing out of customs. She righted herself quickly, but not in time to avoid knocking into a little boy.

When she looked down to apologize to him, he stared up at her with a face she recognized, his lips pulled into a wide smile comically stretched from ear to ear.

“Excuse us,” his mother said, tugging him away.

Ainsley squeezed her eyes shut, then opened them again. The boy was looking at her over his shoulder, but the familiarity was gone. She didn’t know him.

She didn’t have time for this.

The floor transitioned from carpet to tile, and the heels of her boots clicked as she strode across the space toward the parking garage. She checked her phone again as she waited for the elevator; it was only quarter past. She was going to make it.

“Ma’am?” someone called from behind her.

She turned and raised an eyebrow.

It was an airport staff member who pointed to a sign that she hadn’t noticed. A sign noting

that the parking garage could not currently be accessed by elevator. “You’ll have to walk out and go down the stairs,” he said. “The fastest way is those ones out door D. They’re outside, but it’s a bit of a trek otherwise.”

She knew that he didn’t deserve the look she threw at him, but she did it anyway. She couldn’t bring herself to smile and be courteous. To thank him. To do any of the things that Ainsley Behre would usually do. This was not the day for it.

She considered texting her husband to tell him that he should prepare in case she was late. No. She couldn’t be late. Jay had already messed things up last year. He could barely be counted on to tie his own shoes. The Jay she had grown up with had been so different. Confident. Assured. Calm under pressure. But the fire had changed that. Or rather, everything that came after had. She’d thought maybe he would grow out of it, like her. It was the worst gamble she’d ever made.

Instead, she walked to door D as she’d been directed. Outside she was immediately hit in the face with a torrent of hail and wind. Cars were lined up and slow moving, attempting to make pickups while passengers struggled with their luggage.

She yanked her suitcase behind her across the pedestrian walkway that led to the giant parking structure, searching for P3 signs. When she finally found them, she made a beeline to the set of outdoor steps leading down, which were covered in snow and ice. Because of course they hadn’t salted them yet.

When she set her foot down on the first step, she felt the ground slip out from underneath her and clung to the metal railing, only just managing to keep herself upright. It worsened the pain in her shoulders, making it feel like someone had shoved their thumbs between the blades and dug in with their nails.

She was not going to be late.

She was not going to let Jay take over.

She was not going to let him fuck this up, again.

She walked, more carefully now, to the landing leading into the P3 garage. It was blissfully clear of ice because of the overhang of concrete from the upper floor.

Ainsley let out a sigh of relief when she spotted her black Cadillac Escalade and rushed down the rest of the stairs.

What she had failed to see, however, was the figure tucked into the shadows.

Half an hour later, an airport staff member would finally get a chance to go out and salt the area leading to the underground parking. That was where he found Ainsley lying on the steps with a key fob clutched in her manicured fingers. Her eyes were wide open with icicles forming on the lashes and a dark pool of

blood spread around her head.

Meanwhile, the Escalade still sat innocently in its spot, waiting for her to get in.

Ainsley didn’t make it home.

She wasn’t able to take care of everything like she always did.

And as she’d died, she’d thought of one thing and one thing only.

Dom.

 

CHAPTER ONE

It took Mom dying for me to realize that she had an excessive obsession with bears.

The tiny wooden carved bear on her key chain that they found in her frozen hand. The bear-shaped air freshener in her empty Escalade, just a few feet away from her. And the dozens of teddy bears that people brought to her funeral, that small detail being the most that the average person knew about her. The funeral we’d had all because of a patch of invisible black ice at the bottom of a staircase. One little slip and Mom was gone.

Now I looked to the handmade bowl on the coffee table with tiny bear ears on either side. The family was together on the main floor of our three-story lakeshore home. It was boxy and modern, and its design had been meticulously overseen by Mom. Every detail she’d insisted on had been carried out, from the open-concept main area, to the glass-enclosed pool attached to it that you could see into from the basement observation hall, to the precisely ten balconies—two of which were technically inaccessible but were needed for symmetry.

I tucked my feet up under me on the couch while our lawyer, Paris, explained to Dad how everything would go down today. She was a seemingly constant presence in our lives lately. A dark-skinned Black woman who I imagined white women might like to call strong. She looked at us out of the corner of her eye while she talked to Dad. Our living area included a giant U-shaped sectional, and yet we were all piled together in the middle.

I kept staring at the bear bowl. Now that I had time to think about it, it was wild how many things there were in our lives that fit the theme. Murals in our childhood bedrooms that ranged from cartoonish Winnie the Pooh–type designs to paintings so realistic that they reminded us of the real thing, which we often feared running into at our family-owned ranch in Oro. Our monogrammed towels in the washrooms with tiny bears embroidered beside the initials.

And then there were the songs she would sing to us.

She loved “Five Bear Cubs” the most.

One bear cub

Feeling so blue

She would point to Karter, the oldest, who would roll her eyes but have a smile tugging at the corners of her lips. Now Karter had on no makeup and stared intensely at Paris, her face looking oddly pale without her foundation.

Begged for a brother

Now mama has two

That was Mom’s cue to point to Darren, who’d come next, kicking and screaming, though the song didn’t mention that. He was the epitome of middle child syndrome before he even became the middle child. Now his eyes seemed hollowed out, and he picked at the chipping polish on his nails.

Two bear cubs

On adventures at sea

Wished for a third mate

Now mama has three

Kiley was next. The beauty

of the family, which was so obvious that the rest of us couldn’t even get mad about it. People of multiple genders had literally fought over her before. A lot of bad love poems had been delivered to our house over the years. She’d even incorporated them into a sculpture for a competition. She’d won it too. Now was the first time I’d ever seen her perfect skin dull.

As usual, she and Darren were huddled close together. They’d changed since Mom died. All of us had, I guess. But somehow I’d expected them to be less affected. Or maybe to bounce back faster. I always used to know they were home because of all their shouting and laughing and talking into the night. Now their rooms were quiet. They were the middles. That title felt like it should be some sort of armor. They were the ones who brought parties to life, even if they sometimes went too far. Though technically, they weren’t the only middle children. I was too. Maybe I should have been mad to be left out. But I knew it wasn’t me who they were ignoring.

Three bear cubs

Practicing their roars

They wanted to be louder

Now mama has four

That was my cue. I would pop up from wherever I was sitting and strike some sort of pose that would make Mom laugh and my siblings scoff. According to my parents, I’d come straight out the womb with a tiny, gummy smile on my face. It was why they’d abandoned their K and D naming pattern to call me Sunny. Because I came to them as a bright ray of sunshine. Now… well, now I look the same. I always do. A smile pasted on my face as I pretend to listen to Paris, feeling far away from the emotion that my expression would suggest.

Four bear cubs

Practicing their dives

Needed bigger splashes

Now mama has five

The song ended there, which I always thought was fitting. Dom didn’t get his own verse, and when Mom finished the song, she wouldn’t point at him. She’d just hold up five fingers and laugh, and we’d cheer and clap. Dom wouldn’t say anything. He’d just sit in the corner, watching us.

The four of us were born in a row, one after the other. But Dom was born two years later. They’d broken their naming pattern with me, but when Dom came, they went back to it. Maybe that should have made him feel more like he belonged.

But it didn’t.

I knew the middles weren’t the middles because I didn’t count.

They were the middles because we left out Dom.

And then he went and killed that girl.

Allegedly, anyway.

Now he was as separate

from us as he could ever be.

I didn’t think any of us really thought he did it. But at the same time, I also wasn’t sure that any of us could say with complete confidence that he hadn’t.

“That’s everything. We’re ready to go,” Paris declared, apparently done with what she had to tell Dad, though I knew he hadn’t actually taken it in. Paris talked to Dad because he was the “real” adult, but he was like a phone. He had the ability to do a lot of things, but he needed input. He needed someone to tell him exactly how to work his many functions.

That used to be Mom.

Now it was Karter.

But it should have been me.

It was our little secret, Mom and me. That I would be the one to lead our family when she was gone. But as it turned out, she’d hid this secret too well because I was the only person who seemed to know. Karter had just swept in like the controlling bitch she was, and what was I supposed to do now?

I had lived through things. I had perspective that Karter didn’t. And I prioritized the family above all. I knew them better than anyone. That was what Mom had told me. She wanted me to lead, and I wanted to do that for her, so why hadn’t it happened the way it was supposed to? Why was I sitting here like a spectator while Karter took the wheel?

I sucked in a deep, calming breath and disguised it as a “glad to have that all sorted out!” contented sigh, then stood up with a grin. “We should grab some McDonald’s or something on the way. Dom would like that.” He might. I knew he went there sometimes with his friend. I also knew that none of us wanted to endure a two- to three-hour sit-down meal with him.

I had that sort of attention to detail and understanding of the family. Karter didn’t. And yet here we were.

My grin forced Dad to smile too. “Sure.”

That was the point. I smiled when no one else wanted to, and it helped them do it. That was the Sunny effect. Even when I couldn’t look at my oldest sister without wanting to glower at her, and despite the fact that Mom had promised me something she’d now failed to deliver and couldn’t correct. I couldn’t fix it either without breaking character. I did not create discord within the family. I soothed it. Accusing Karter of taking a role that didn’t belong to her without proof was not very Sunny.

And I always lived up to my name.

***

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The SUV stank of McDonald’s.

We were packed into the Escalade and each had our own paper takeout bags in our laps. Probably, we should have waited for Dom and eaten together, but as usual, by the time we got him, he would be eating alone.

“She’s not going to be there, right?” Karter asked. She was driving, seated next to Paris in the front seat while Dad sat in the second row with me and the middles were in the far back, dipping their fries into an Oreo McFlurry they were sharing.

Paris shook her head. “She’d better not be. She wasn’t even supposed to know he was the one charged, but we can’t do anything about that now. Either way, she’s not going to talk, and no news source would publish his name even if she did, which she won’t. Dom is a youth offender. Exposing his charge in any way would land her in serious shit. She could never pay back those fines. That’s not even getting into the fact that she’s got two boys at the academy. Ms. Allen will behave.”

I remembered the courtroom from Dom’s bail hearing. Remembered how we sat in those seats behind Dom and Paris, filling up an entire row. Dom had worn a perfectly tailored suit. It had fit him like a glove, but he’d still looked like a kid playing dress-up. The Crown had been on the other side—a plain-looking guy in his early forties who would be trying to prove beyond a reasonable doubt that our younger brother had murdered his girlfriend.

Despite how confident Paris had been going into it, bail was denied on the grounds of the seriousness of the crime. Dom’s shoulders had slumped, but he hadn’t said a word. Just quietly got up and followed the police out to where he would be transported to a juvenile facility.

When we’d walked outside, there she was. Ms. Allen. I only knew because Karter had let out this hiss between her teeth, and Paris had immediately turned to the Crown to snap at him that she shouldn’t have been there.

But she was. Marsha Allen had stood next to a run-down red Honda Civic with her dark hair cut into a distinctly uneven bob. I’d looked over at her, and her face had twisted into this expression of perfect fury. Lips peeled back, crow’s feet at maximum crease, eyes narrowed so hard they were watering.

Then Karter had snapped at me to keep moving, so I’d turned away and headed for the SUV with my family. Ignoring, as usual, my instinct to snap back at her.

We left together, knowing that we would see Dom soon enough, assuming that Paris would come through like she was supposed to.

Ms. Allen stood alone.

I could feel her eyes on my back even when I was inside the vehicle. They’d followed us as we drove away. And when I’d lain in bed that night, I’d thought about them.

Now we pulled into the parking lot of the juvenile detention center where Dom had spent the last couple months, and Dad went inside with Paris. I smothered the smile

 that my lips attempted to peel into when Paris told Karter that they only needed his legal guardian and she should stay in the car. That wouldn’t have been the right sort of smile for me to have on my face.

“Well, Paris came through,” Darren said from the third row, pitching forward, playing with his septum piercing. “She got him out.”

Karter frowned at him. “Of course she did. Aside from the obvious, he’s got a clean record. People accused of worse have been able to go back to their normal lives until trial.”

“What’s worse than murder?”

“Uh, serial murder. And first-degree murder. Premeditated shit. Which would be obvious if you used your own brain for two seconds.”

“Even Paris said the evidence was largely circumstantial,” I added. Most of the details had been kept from us between Mom, Dad, Paris, and Karter. And it’s not like I casually talked with Dom to ask him about it. But that was the line our lawyer kept using, so I assumed it held some weight.

“But should he be out?” Kiley mumbled. We all looked at her, but she was staring at where Dad and Paris had disappeared, chewing on the same fry for so long that it must have turned to mush in her mouth by now.

“Dom is innocent,” Karter insisted, her voice firm. “And I don’t care if you have a dissenting opinion, but keep it inside.”

I could have rolled my eyes. Jesus. She really couldn’t find a way to put everyone at ease instead of just telling us to keep our mouths shut?

Darren actually rolled his eyes. “We know that.”

Kiley chose to stay quiet.

Before Mom died, I would have said we were close. All of us. Not Dom. But the rest of us. Now there was something fractured. Split and cracked like the ice that’d taken her from us.

“We’re getting our brother back,” I said. “That’s what matters. That’s what’s the most important. We’ll be together again.”

Even if we’re together without Mom.

Dad, Paris, and Dom walked out of the building toward us a while later.

It was a shock briefly to see my younger brother. He seemed older even though it had only been a couple months. Not a man, though the Crown had at every turn referred to him that way. Like he was grown. But he wasn’t.

I forced myself to get out of the car and slapped on a smile for him. I opened my mouth but couldn’t quite figure out what to say, so I settled for launching myself at my brother and tugging him into a hug. He smelled like antiseptic. Like they didn’t have detergent in the center, only bleach.

“We’re so happy to have

you back,” I gushed as I held him.

He snorted. “Are you?”

I froze for a moment and resisted digging my nails into his shoulders. No, that wouldn’t be very nice, would it? I laughed and stepped back. “Of course we are.”

His expression was blank. Like he wasn’t even remotely happy about getting out of juvie.

His locs were gone. He looked so much like Darren now. The same dark skin and shaved head. But he was different from our older brother. I hugged Darren and felt happy. Comforted. Hugging Dom was a chore. And I felt like he knew it.

Ms. Allen and Dom were both familiar with being alone. It was what I felt when she glared at me. The heat of her eyes that followed me home. They were like my brother’s. A deep sense of solitude that was catching. Like an infection. I suppressed a shudder.

I thought of Mom’s note, handed to me by Paris in a private meeting after the will reading. We all had one because of things she wanted to say to us. Instructions left. At mine, Paris had just handed me a sticky note that read, Take care of Dom.

It was a slap in the face.

After everything she’d told me, all the time we’d spent preparing me for this role, and her promise that she would leave something that made it clear that I was to take over, all I’d gotten was a pink Post-it note.

About Dom of all people.

He stared back at me, his face devoid of anything.

Exactly how I remembered him.

Take care of Dom.

I didn’t often feel anything about Dom. But in that moment, I wanted to strangle him. Instead, I held up the greasy paper bag in my hand. “We got you McDonalds!"

CHAPTER TWO

On the first day of school, I cut across the track field with Dom and tried not to think about if people would find out he was charged with murder.

Every single one of our siblings had attended Behre Academy. It was Mom’s invention. A scholarship-based private high school that only accepted students who were considered in need. It was her way to empower kids who wouldn’t otherwise have access to even the tiniest bit of what her own children had. We, as students, obviously weren’t needy, but it was important that we attend the same school for solidarity. It showed how much she believed in the quality of education at Behre Academy that she would send her children there too, instead of to any one of the other elite Toronto private schools.

Though it clearly stood apart from those other institutions. For one, the building wasn’t what you might call beautiful. It was a functional brick box that spanned three floors with the addition of a basement and rooftop. I’d asked Mom why we didn’t upgrade the design of the school once, when I was younger and didn’t know any better, and she said, “We’re not trying to compete with Toronto French School or Upper Canada College, or any of them. This is a high-quality institution for underprivileged youth that relies on donations. What do you think would happen if investors visited an absolutely gorgeous campus that their privileged children were denied?”

I didn’t know. So I’d just shaken my head.

She’d continued, “They would be upset. They would feel… short-changed. We want them to see our academy as quaint and cute. Lovely to toss some money at but ultimately subpar for their own precious angels.” She’d smiled at me then. “At the end of the day, all that matters is that these kids get a quality education and enough of a boost to be given a chance. That’s a lot more important than what the school looks like. And it’s crucial that you be a good ambassador for the family while you attend, especially because you’ll be the one running things when I’m gone. Be humble and open-minded, and check your privilege at the door every day you walk into that school.”

And now, here was my brother, walking toward the building without a single care despite the fact that he could destroy everything she’d created.

It had been two weeks since we picked him up, which he had mostly spent in his room. Including Karter’s birthday the week before, when the rest of us went out for dinner.

He kicked at the ground as he walked, his backpack sliding off the single shoulder where he’d slung it. It wasn’t cold, but he had a bright orange knit hat pulled over his shaved head that reminded me of prison jumpsuits. His jeans hung low on his hips, and he had pulled on a T-shirt with a portrait of some anime-looking girl whose face was distorted, the fabric punctured with safety pins.

We were supposed to be in uniform.

He had done this deliberately.

Technically, I couldn’t know that, but I felt it. It seemed natural that Dom, once again, had to find a way to stand apart from this school. Mom’s school. Because even though we pulled back from him, he kept his distance too.

I, of course, had my uniform on. The green-and-white plaid skirt that fell just above my knees, crisp white socks, black shoes, and a matching white polo with the school logo on it. A roaring bear. Mom’s touch. I even accessorized with a matching headband placed on the fresh silk press I got done yesterday. On her way out the door Karter told me that my level of matching made me look desperate and sad. Then she treated me to a lecture about watching Dom at school.

She was trying her best to replace Mom. Something none of us asked for. She even carried around a journal with all her notes and appointments like Mom had. 

I couldn’t wait until it came out that I was actually the one meant to be in charge. I pictured the expression on her face, and it brought me an immense amount of joy. It wasn’t that I hated her. I loved Karter. She was family. It was just that she was so unbearably smug about a title she’d just taken for herself that Mom had never wanted for her. She wasn’t even executor of the will—Dad was. There was nothing proving she deserved the role she’d assumed. But Karter was the sort of person who, once she’d decided to do something, pursued it relentlessly. Out of all the Behres left, she had the sharpest teeth. And she was the most willing to bite.

I gnawed on the inside of my cheek. Grinding my teeth along the flesh, trapping the smallest amount between them and pressing down. When the pain had calmed me enough to speak, I said to Dom, “You’ll have to change when you get in.”

Uniforms, Mom said, were the great equalizer. Kids didn’t have to worry about having the latest brand-name clothes, shoes, or accessories they couldn’t afford because they weren’t allowed. There was a set dress code. The uniforms at Behre Academy were given free of charge. A set of three summer and winter uniforms plus one accessory and a standard shoe.

This way, when we walked in, no one could tell us apart from the other students who attended based on need. The ones who weren’t living in mansions by the lake. It was our duty not to shove our wealth in their faces.

“I’ll go in the back,” Dom said. “I have anatomy first after homeroom anyway.”

“Anatomy? That’s a grade-twelve class.”

My brother shuffled in place. “Yeah, Mr. Balmer said I could take it if I do my grade-ten bio in the summer. It’s self-guided and super easy. All my bio classes are easy. That’s why he’s letting me do the anatomy. I like it. And he said that in grade eleven he can help me take the university-level exam so I can—whatever. I have anatomy.” He abruptly cut himself off, almost like he was embarrassed by everything he’d said.

I had no idea that Dom was doing so well in biology, and definitely didn’t know that he was passionate about anatomy of all things. “Okay…”

“Cool.” Dom veered away from me toward the southeast end of the building.

My hand reached out automatically and snapped onto his wrist.

He paused and stared at me.

My fingers shook. “I—just don’t leave the house without a uniform again. Okay? That’ll save you having to do any of this.” I paused before forcing myself to add, “Why don’t we go in together?”

“Afraid to have me out of your sight?”

Yes.

“No,” I said. “I just thought it would be nice.”

He looked down at where I was gripping his arm, then back up to my eyes.

I let go.

“I’ll be fine,” he said. “I’m supposed to meet Jer.”

I held my face still so I wouldn’t frown. Jer, aka Jeremy Lidell, was Dom’s best and only friend. He used to live a few blocks away from us, and the two of them had basically been besties since they were seven. He was a permanent fixture at our house until he and his dad moved a few years ago when their apartment complex renovated and raised the rent. They’d lived there since Jeremy was born and had spent the whole time being slowly but surely priced out as the neighborhood evolved. They’d been forced farther east between where we were and Mimico.

Jeremy was annoying, mostly, but all right. The real problem was that he’d also been in and out of juvie several times, which wasn’t exactly great for Dom’s public image.

“Do you think that’s a good idea?”

His eyes narrowed. “You’re not going to tell me who to hang out with. You’re not Mom.”

No. Mom was six feet under. He knew that. He’d been there when we buried her. It was the first time I’d seen him cry in years. He’d had more tears for Mom than his dead girlfriend. Though the latter hadn’t gotten any that I’d seen, so there wasn’t much competition.

I trapped the air that rose in my throat and swallowed it down. I didn’t need to huff a breath out. I was calm. I wasn’t going to try to physically shake intelligence into my brother.

Dom continued, “I’m not going to say anything to anyone. I already promised Paris and Dad that I wouldn’t. Jer already knows, so too late on him, but he won’t say anything either. There’s no one else I would tell.”

I swallowed and tried not to look worried. The strain squeezed at my neck like someone was gripping the back of it with meaty fingers. “I’m sure you won’t. You remember what you’re supposed to say, right?”

During the summer, we’d needed to continue attending public functions without our brother. It helped that he usually didn’t come anyway, but it wasn’t foolproof. Paris’s suggestion was to say that Dom was suffering with depression and had a mental breakdown under the pressure to perform in his schoolwork. When Paris announced this as the cover, Darren had left the room, Kiley going with him.

I remembered a time when we had to take all the knives out of the house. All the pills. Anything

with a sharp edge. How Darren had to stay home because Mom and Dad were afraid to let him go out.

They told everyone he went on an artist retreat.

We never said the D-word.

But we could say it with Dom because it was a lie.

I thought of that rhyme, Secrets secrets are no fun, secrets secrets hurt someone. Everything was so much nicer in a nursery rhyme. But in reality, truth was a luxury. One that we, even with all our money, couldn’t afford.

Dom shrugged. “Yeah, whatever.” He didn’t wait for me to say anything else before he left.

I turned away from him so I didn’t shout that he was being an entitled brat. That the rest of us had swallowed the lie for the sake of the family, but he always thought he was an exception.

That was when I spotted a white woman standing near the hedge by the corner of the school, beckoning to me. She was wearing a black hoodie with the hood pulled up over her face and it was clearly several sizes too big for her. She kept looking around even as she tried to get me to come over.

Well, that was creepy. And of course, now I had to go deal with this.

I made my way over to her. “Ma’am, are you a parent? You need to check in with the office. Otherwise, you can’t be on school property.” I did carry a small amount of spare change for homeless people, and I dug out a toonie and offered it to her. “Did you want some change for coffee?” That was usually enough to get strangers off campus.

She refused the change, which was not at all how this usually went. Her eyes were a dull blue and her hair was hidden by the hood. “Do you know the Milk Man?” she said, her voice low and urgent.

It was too early for this shit. “Ma’am, you can’t be here. Would you like money for the streetcar or…?”

She grabbed my arm, and I stopped myself from jerking away, but the smile slid from my face. “Please, I need to know. I can’t tell you any more until I know what you know. You might be in danger, but I might be too if I say anything. The Milk Man wants ruination. He wants to spoil the milk. He—” The woman cut herself off abruptly. “I’m sorry… I don’t know if I can do this… I need to go.” She dropped my arm and ducked her head, rushing across the track field.

I could still feel her hand on my arm. ...