Road to Bliss

by Joan Clark

Genres: Young Adult; YA Social Themes

Synopsis

Set against the vividly described Prairies in the heart of a cloistered religious sect, this is a gripping novel from a beloved Canadian author.

Fifteen-year-old Jim Hobbs, alienated from life in Toronto, hitchhikes to the Prairies on a whim, where he finds shelter in an abandoned farmhouse. There, he encounters his neighbours, members of Majestic Farm, a group that abides by an old-fashioned, ultra-conservative set of rules enforced by their ruthless pastor. When Miriam, one of the pastor’s daughters, secretly befriends Jim, they must hide their blossoming love for one another — or face terrifying consequences.

In helping Miriam to escape her religious imprisonment on the farm, Jim must risk everything.

Release date: September 22, 2009

Publisher: Doubleday Canada

Print pages: 288

Sample

1

Without his guitar, Jim Hobbs felt like the loneliest guy on the planet. Here he was on a sweltering August afternoon, parked on the running board of a transport truck waiting for the driver inside to wake up. Above him abc household movers was printed on a shiny white door. Not a lick of shade anywhere, not a tree in sight, nothing to shield him from the sun smashing down. Though he’d taken off the woollen tuque he wore winter and summer, sweat dripped from his forehead onto the pavement, where it sizzled like drops of water in a frying pan before being sucked up by the sun. Water. What he wouldn’t give for a drink of water. He saw a farmhouse way off in the distance, but if he hiked over there to ask for water he might miss a ride, and if he missed a ride he might change his mind, might turn around and go home. No way was he going home, at least not yet. It wasn’t the first time Jim had felt like leaving home, but it was the first time he’d made it this far, and he didn’t want to quit. He had something to prove, even though he wasn’t sure what it was. To pass the time, he drummed the empty water bottle against his knee before squeezing it until the plastic buckled and he tossed it away.

He glanced at his watch. Three o’clock. Six hours since he left the café forty miles back. It had taken six hours to travel forty miles, not what you’d call progress. The café was where he’d grabbed breakfast and used a pay phone to leave a message on the condo voice mail saying he was okay but wouldn’t be home again tonight. He didn’t expect anyone to answer the phone. His mother, Paula, was out of town for three days, and his sister seldom picked up the phone. He’d lost track of the number of times he’d watched Carla stand beside a ringing phone to read the incoming number before deciding if the caller was someone she was willing to talk to. Truth was, Jim didn’t want anyone to pick up the phone. He wasn’t ready for a conversation about why he’d decided not to go home but to clear out of the city instead. The situation at home was complicated in a way he couldn’t put into words. It was a normal family– parents split like Solly’s and Web’s. After six years he should be used to it, but he still missed his father. If Zack were around more often, maybe Jim wouldn’t get fed up living with two women. Maybe he wouldn’t feel so lonely. How could he explain all this stuff to his mother? If he said, I’m lonely, Mom. Paula would say, Why are you lonely? And he would have to tell her about missing Zack big time, and that would make her unhappy. The strange thing was he was lonelier at home than he was now, parked on the running board of a transit truck in the middle of nowhere. It didn’t make sense except for the fact that he had chosen to be alone, and there was no one around to make him feel like he shouldn’t be here. At home his sister often made him feel he shouldn’t be around. The night before the subway accident, after Paula had left with Ron and Jim had gone out for pizza, Carla had locked him out for two whole hours so she and her snorky boyfriend could make out without having a younger brother around. After hammering on the door until their neighbour told him to pipe down, Jim sat on the hallway floor when he could have been in his bedroom trying out a new piece on his guitar. When Carla finally condescended to let him in, she said, “C’mon in, bro,” as if lock ing him out was normal. No apology– his sister didn’t go in for apologies. No point telling her she was a bitch. Whenever he used the B-word to her face, he got a lecture about being sexist. According to his sister, the entire English language was sexist, and the words priest and God assumed to be male. Jim couldn’t be bothered arguing. Carla never gave up an argument until she’d won.

Another complication in Jim’s life was Ron, Paula’s on-again, off-again boyfriend who was sixty at least– way too old for his mother–and tried to seem younger by spiking his dyed-black hair. Pathetic. Whenever Ron turned up at the condo, he’d pat Jim on the back. How’re you doing there, buddy, he’d whisper. Scoring any chicks? Jim didn’t see what Paula saw in the creep. Luckily, she didn’t go away with him often, and whenever she did, she came home happier, so Jim kept his mouth shut.

If he’d still had his cellphone, Jim would have tried using it to call home. Unfortunately, his cellphone was inside his backpack, which for all he knew was still under the seat inside the subway car where he’d shoved it before the accident, when the subway had screeched to a stop, plunging everyone aboard into total darkness. Sometime during the accident, he’d lost his Walkman, too. He figured it must have fallen off when he and the other passengers were pitched sideways. Lucky for him he hadn’t taken his guitar with him on the subway; it was still safe at home in his bedroom. If it had been strapped to his back, it would have been smashed when he lost his grip on the slippery subway platform and fell backwards, hitting his head on the iron track. If he hadn’t knocked himself out cold, he might have remembered to go back to the subway car and look for his Walkman and backpack, but his head was so messed up, he wasn’t thinking straight. Concussion, the nurse in the subway told him. It’s important you not fall asleep. Stay on your feet as long as you can. If your head still hurts in the morning, see a doctor.

No problem, Jim told her; he was used to walking and used the subway only to get to his summer job. What’s your summer job? she asked. Gardening, Jim said. Mowing lawns and stuff.

Apart from his job, Jim walked just about every place his life took him– to school, to the city malls, to the Cineplex and video stores–so it was no big deal to keep on walking. He told himself he could walk all night if he had to. But most of his walking had been in the city centre, near the condo where he lived with his mother and sister. Yesterday, when he’d finally emerged from the subway after being in the dark so long, he was blasted by sunlight, and like some pale, weak-eyed creature, he blinked at what he saw. What he saw were streets jammed with buses and trams, cars and trucks, campers and trailers, vehicles of all kinds, none of them moving. But people were moving. Wandering back and forth through the glut of stalled traffic were people who seemed at a loss about what to do with themselves. There were thousands of people out there, some sitting on café chairs or the curb or standing alone. Most stood in huddles of three or four, chatting, gesturing, talking on cellphones.

Standing near the subway entrance was a bearded man in a pale blue business suit. He must have seen the lost expression on Jim’s face, because right away he began to explain. We’re in the middle of a massive power failure, he said. The entire electrical system in the city has crashed. There’s no electricity for miles around. No one knows why. Some fault in the system. Computers are down and elevators aren’t working. The traffic lights and gas pumps aren’t working either, so all these people on the street are stranded downtown waiting for some kind of transportation to take them home. They’ll be waiting a long time. Jim heard the defiance in the man’s voice when he told him he wouldn’t be waiting around– he was getting out of downtown. Jim watched in admiration as the bearded man, holding his briefcase over his head, plunged like a swimmer into the crowd.

The electricity wasn’t working, but the sun sure was. The blinding light hurt Jim’s eyes and he tugged his tuque lower to shield them. “It’s a frigging party out here,” he grumbled. “A big noisy street party I don’t want to join.” His head and eyes hurt, and like the bearded man, he couldn’t clear out of downtown fast enough. Head down, eyelids shuttered, he shouldered his way through the crowd and kept on shouldering until the crowd gradually thinned out and the sidewalks were clear enough for him to hit his long-legged stride. He’d gone more than twenty blocks before he noticed that the office and apartment build ings were gradually becoming shorter and less important-looking, and that there were vacant lots and playgrounds with kiddy swings and slides. Every few blocks the streets were bordered by rows of shops and boutiques, each one with a Closed sign hanging in the door. All this Jim passed with barely a glance.

It wasn’t until the sun had slumped out of sight behind a stand of trees, colouring the sidewalks a chalky grey, that Jim awoke as if from a trance, and stopping to look around, realized he was in the suburbs, where low-roofed houses had tidy fenced gardens and there were small strip malls and gas stations on street corners. By now the business centre of the city, with its banks and skyscrapers, its crowded streets and grubby alleyways, was far behind, so far behind that when he turned around, he couldn’t even see the tallest skyscraper of them all, a needle thrust into the sky. The landscape had entirely changed.

He knew then that he was a long way from home. It was the first time in his life that he’d been this far from home on his own. The aloneness excited him, gave him a sudden thirst for independence. He felt the faint stir of rebellion. Maybe he wouldn’t go home tonight. Maybe he wouldn’t go home tomorrow night either. With Paula away with Ron and Carla getting it off with her boyfriend, Jim didn’t see a reason for going home, except for his guitar. Why should he? Why not give himself a break and head out on his own? His mother and sister were doing what they wanted, and now that the pain in his head had eased and he was ordering his thoughts more clearly, he couldn’t think of a single reason why he shouldn’t do what he wanted. What he wanted was to head somewhere different. He’d never been west of the city, and going by the pink blush of the setting sun lighting the sky behind the houses, he knew he was heading in that direction. Why not keep going west? He began walking again, more purposively now, driven not by the nurse’s instructions to stay on his feet, but by the adrenalin rush of adventure.

As the miles behind him lengthened, so too did the shadows, and gradually the unlit streets deepened to charcoal grey and then to black. Without the spawn of city lights, the stars stood out sharply in the night sky, but their flickering light was so distant it barely touched the sidewalk, and Jim began to stumble over unseen cracks and concrete shards. Still he kept on, walking slowly, groping his way through a canyon of darkness. Exhausted, he stumbled on, passing no one, though occasionally a vehicle drove past, its headlights casting houses and lawns in ghostly light. It was close to midnight when a car pulled into a driveway directly ahead of him, and in the wash of headlights Jim saw a low rambling house off to one side, with candles lighting two windows and a chaise longue on the lawn. As soon as the driver shut the front door behind him, Jim felt himself being pulled toward the chaise longue. Soon he was stretched out on it sideways, hands pillowing his head, feet hanging over the end. He was asleep within seconds.

It wasn’t until the stars were disappearing into the dawn sky that he shifted onto his back and the tender bruise at the base of his skull woke him. By then the pain in his head was completely gone and the bruise was the only reminder of yesterday’s subway accident. He got up at once and moved on before the owners of the chaise longue even knew he’d been there. Hungry and bleary-eyed, he made his way through the city’s fringes, walking in the direction of the freeway. Now that it was daylight, cars and trucks were on the road, and he had hopes of thumbing an early ride. The café where he stopped for breakfast and used the pay phone was a couple of miles from the freeway, but close enough for Jim to hear the distant thrum of traffic.

Leaving the café, he headed for an overpass he saw in the distance. In less than an hour, he was standing on the highway with his thumb stuck out. He tried to look harmless, which wasn’t easy, given his size– like his father, he was six feet tall and broad shouldered. Zillions of drivers zoomed past without a sideways glance. The glass face of Jim’s watch had cracked in the accident, but it still worked, and at first he checked it at fifteen-minute intervals. But with the prospect of a ride fast fading, checking the time only discouraged him more, and he soon gave it up.

Four hours dragged past. It was noon, the sun beating down hard. Jim was beginning to think that maybe heading west wasn’t a good idea, and he felt his sense of adventure leaking away. Still he walked on. Finally, when defeat seemed inevitable and he thought he’d have to turn around, a battered station wagon pulled over and the driver, a housepainter wearing splattered overalls, offered him a ride. Going far? the man asked. The nearest truck stop, Jim told him– a truck stop was almost as familiar to Jim as home. It’s thirty miles on, the housepainter said. I’m only going twenty-five, so you’ll have to walk the rest of the way. Sure, Jim said. He’d never been to the truck stop ahead, but he already knew what it looked like, just a big flat lay-by alongside the road. Though the truck stops where he’d stopped with his father had all been to the east, Zack said they were all more or less alike.

It had been years since Jim had been on a trip with his father, and except for a fishing weekend last summer, they hadn’t spent much time alone. Jim missed going on short hauls with his father. So why was he heading west and not east? Because if he headed east, there was an off chance Zack would pick him up on the road, and then Jim would have to tell him he was leaving home and Zack would want to know why. Jim wasn’t about to tell his father that Paula was away with Ron– he’d rat on Carla, but he wouldn’t rat on his mother. He wouldn’t do anything to spoil the chance of his parents getting back together. So he was heading west. But to reach the West he’d need to hitch a ride with a long-distance driver, which was why, thirsty and hot, he’d parked himself on the running board of the abc household movers truck, waiting for the driver to wake up.