Red

by Kate Kinsey

Genres: Romantic Suspense; Crime Fiction

Synopsis

Truly, madly. . .deadly Detective Tom Hanson has a string of grotesquely mutilated bodies on his hands and no answers--aside from the fact that the victims were members of an underground sex club catering to singular erotic tastes. Tastes the long, lean detective has sampled himself in the arms of his former lover, a fiery redhead who offered the most erotic, irresistible sex he'd ever encountered. Until the night she'd begged for the one thing he couldn't give, and he lost her forever. Gina Larsen is the only one who can guide Hanson through the fringe world of dark fantasy and desire that lies hidden deep beneath the Bible Belt. Lured into her lair by a quest for justice, Hanson discovers his hunger for Gina has only grown stronger and deeper. . .beyond the edge of control. Soon he's shedding his last inhibitions in the search for answers, but the more she draws him into her erotic web, the less he can distinguish between passion and duty, pleasure and pain. . .good and evil. "A wrenching, seductive journey into the raw, honest world of BDSM, written by someone who lives it." --Vonna Harper "Debut novelist Kinsey explores the BDSM lifestyle she lives and introduces mainstream readers who have welcomed Fifty Shades of Grey to a larger segment of the BDSM community. . .a psychological exploration of aspects of BDSM, bound by a rather grisly thriller." – Library Journal 85,000 Words

Release date: September 1, 2012

Publisher: eOriginals

Print pages: 338

Sample

The desire had always been there. A yearning for dark, shadowed things that could not be spoken of, could hardly be put into words even if she dared.

Before she knew what sex was, it had been a craving for consuming intimacy. To be known. To belong to someone. To be utterly lost in another’s soul.

And so she formed intense attachments to bestfriendsforever. But her singular devotion overwhelmed each in her turn, and their failure to comprehend and reciprocate cut her to the core.

Even as she built up a wall against that hurt, still she yearned.

She burned to be desired so intensely that savage conquest was the only course. The tender, tentative fumblings of first boyfriends only ignited dreams of passionate violence.

Then came the furtive, half-ashamed masturbation under the sheets, breath stopped for fear her parents on the other side of the wall might know, somehow, what she was doing. Know not just what her fingers did with increasing skill, but what dark thoughts pushed her to orgasm.

Fantasies of strong hands holding her down, binding her, using her, hurting her. Not because she deserved it, but because she wanted it.

She wanted to offer up her body and mind and soul in devotion and pain and suffering so sweet it denied all attempts to define, describe, quantify.

She learned what others called it. Sadomasochism. But it was inadequate, not the right word at all. Perversion was worse in its cruelty, its judgment.

But nothing could stop the want.

When she found him, it seemed as if he’d always been there.

He saw right through her, took all the dark yearnings, and gave them back to her, fulfilled beyond her wildest imaginings.

She was his, and only death could tear her from him.

They called it a glory hole, but there was nothing glorious about the dim little booths in the rear of the adult bookstore. The plywood was hastily slapped with black paint, and the concrete floors, sticky from God-only-knew what, sucked at her high heels. The only light came from the washed-out flicker of porn on the small screen in the booth with her.

The air held the faint smell of mold, sweat, and jism under the cheap industrial deodorizer.

Yes, jism. Man-juice. Cum. Semen. The smell was unmistakable. After all, that was the point of this lurid little alley of closets where men came to shoot their load, alone with only video flesh and moans bought for a token.

She had never been here alone. She had come with him once, of course. That time he had merely taken her into one of the booths and used her. (Funny how his fingers curled into the hair at the nape of her neck could cause all bone and muscle in her legs to dissolve, even when the last thing she wanted was contact with that floor. By the time he had yanked her to her feet, pushed her against the wall, and shoved his cock into her ass, she would have licked the floor if he’d asked her to.)

Today he was testing her, and she was a little disappointed. It was her birthday after all, and she had hoped he would come with her.

“Imagine the fear,” he had whispered through the phone line. “Imagine how your heart will beat. How your pulse will race. Walking into the back of that bookstore all alone. Feeling the eyes of the clerk following you. He’ll think you’re a whore. And he won’t be wrong, will he?”

Her heart jerked in her chest as she argued with herself.

You don’t have to get naked, the voice of reason whispered slyly in her head. He won’t know if you did or not. He won’t know if you actually did what he told you or not.

But he would know. She couldn’t lie to him.

She took off her dress and then slipped out of her panties and bra. The thigh-high stockings and stiletto heels, she kept on. Not just because he had told her to, but because she liked the way she felt wearing them.

She folded the dress into a neat square and positioned it on the floor in front of the hole in the wall. She drew in a deep breath, equal parts fear and arousal, knelt on her clothes, and waited.

It wasn’t really a hole, either. The crotch-high rectangle cut in the plywood was big enough for her whole head to fit through. Big enough for someone’s hands to reach in . . .

She heard a door open. Steps in the hall outside. She could not breathe, waiting to see if some stranger’s cock was going to appear through the hole.

Instead, she heard the sounds of tokens being dropped into a video machine somewhere farther down.

She waited and wondered if a cop might show up instead. What would she do if she got arrested?

Oh, God . . . Once more, she could hear feet outside in the hall, but no one came into the booth on the other side. Then all she could hear were the video moans and grunts over tinny porn music.

She brought her hands to her heavy breasts, stroking her nipples to distract herself. She craned her neck upward and back to see the threesome fucking on the screen. Two men had a third impaled on their cocks, one in his mouth, the other up his ass. The sight of it sent a gush of her own juices down her thigh. Why was the sight of three men fucking such a turn-on?

She didn’t hear him come in. He was just suddenly there.

But not on the other side of the hole.

In the booth. With her.

Oh, Christ, she hadn’t locked the door . . . How could she have been so stupid?

She watched his thick fingers turn the latch and heard the dull click.

She had a glimpse of dark, intense eyes looking down at her through a black ski mask . . . And then a cock jutting through the khaki of his trousers as two hands came down on her shoulders.

Panic flared, but she clamped down on it. She could manage this. Just suck his cock and be done with it. That was all he wanted. If he didn’t leave, she’d start screaming. Cops be damned.

She bent her mouth toward him, but his knees and hands were forcing her backward.

“No,” he snarled abruptly. “I don’t want your filthy mouth on me, whore.”

The words both stung and inflamed her. How dare he? And yet, she was a whore, wasn’t she? Her clit tightened, beginning to ache.

He reached down and grasped both nipples, twisting and pulling, even as he pushed her over onto her back. An outraged cry died on her lips when he spoke again.

“Man, you got some big titties on you.” His words came in a rasp, and she lapped up his excitement, drawing it into her like a succubus growing drunk on his lust.

Large rough hands pawed, squeezing her breasts as carelessly as he might scratch his own balls. The very authority in his touch made something inside her melt as he groped and plundered.

He was sitting astride her now. His long, thin penis slid against her breasts and down into the valley between them. Even the weight of his body, pinning her to the concrete, drove her mad with excitement.

“Yesssss,” he breathed. He held one breast, tightening his grip until the areola bulged over his fingers, and brought the other palm down in a sharp slap. “Big, soft titties. Just the kind made for titty-fuckin’.”

She moaned and instantly regretted it.

“Oh?” The whiteness of his teeth shone in a grin. “Little whore likes this, does she?”

He slapped her breasts again and her brain reeled.

This man was using her body, pushing her breasts together until they formed a substitute cunt around his erection. But she couldn’t deny the wetness between her legs. Even the phrase he’d uttered—“titty-fucking”—aroused her and kept circling in her head. So deliciously dirty . . .

His hands cupped around the outer curve of each heavy mound, fingers curling into the soft flesh even as his thumbs found her nipples. The tips were so hard now they ached, sensitive even to the breath he exhaled in soft guttural grunts.

He spit on her, spraying tits and cock with saliva. Humiliation battled desire; she loved the slick feel of it as he grew ever harder against her softness. He spit again, and again, until the cleft was as wet as her cunt.

When the swollen head of his cock peeked from between her breasts, her tongue flicked out like a starving thing.

“No, goddamn it.” He slapped her left check, then reached around behind him, brought something flimsy and pink to her lips, and shoved it into her mouth.

Her panties, she realized. The satin gave up a musky she-juice as it settled against her tongue.

“Yes,” he breathed again, low and thick. He was rocking back and forth now, squeezing her harder, working toward his own satisfaction with a single-minded drive that would have offended most other women. Most. Not her, though. For her, it was ecstasy.

“Oh, baby, that’s it . . . That’s it . . . Love those fuckin’ tits—”

He was riding her, riding her titty-cunt. Harder, faster . . . Her breasts were just his tools, a temporary orifice fashioned for his pleasure.

The first spurt of cum hit her chin, and he groaned with release as the rest of his load shot onto her chest. The thin white semen oozed down around her collarbone and a final squirt landed on her throat. She could feel its warmth slithering over her flesh.

He pulled the mask from his head, looked down at her, and grinned. Oh, he was marvelous; he looked like an impish boy when he grinned like that.

Hadn’t she really known it was him from the first, or had there been real fear? She didn’t know for sure. The only thing that mattered was that he had, once again, made one of her fantasies come true.

“You said you wanted a pearl necklace for your birthday,” he whispered. “And I knew you didn’t mean jewelry.”

She began to giggle, trailing her fingers in his cum and lifting them to her mouth.

“Oh, Roger,” she whispered, beaming up at him. “It was the perfect gift. Thank you.”

When she had dressed again, she slipped into the bathroom (almost as disgusting as the booths) to tidy up as best she could.

“Honey, you’ve got that just-fucked glow,” Roger whispered in her ear as he walked her to the car. “Makes me wanna do you again right here in the parking lot.”

Roger’s phone began to beep.

“You’ll just have to wait till you get home tonight,” Marla said, but her smile faded as Roger’s brow furrowed. He was staring at his phone, and she knew without asking whose number was on the caller ID.

“Aren’t you going to answer it?” Marla asked.

“No,” he frowned. “I’ll call her back later.”

“She’s just a kid—” Marla said softly, stroking his back.

“She’s a giant pain in my ass right now.” Then he brightened and pinched her butt. “Speaking of asses—”

She giggled, then kissed him quickly on the lips before sliding into the driver’s seat of the Accord.

“Don’t be late,” she teased. “Or I’ll have to give you a spanking, bad boy.”

Roger threw his head back and laughed.

“That’ll be the day!”

“I love you, you big old pervert.”

“You love me because I’m a pervert.”

She pulled out of the lot, waggling her fingers out the window.

It was the last time she ever saw him alive.

Something woke her.

She had no idea what it was, only that something yanked her up from the depths of fitful sleep and left her lying there, completely awake, staring into the darkness. Something made her heart thud heavily, suddenly out of sync.

Something was such a big word. A scary word that held the possibility of every conceivable horror and a vast, yawning uncertainty that could swallow her whole.

She could not move, only lie frozen there and hope that the something would go away. That if she held very, very still, it would not see her. Would not smell her. Would not find her.

When she was little, she would sometimes wake in the dead of night like this, with an absolute certainty that someone—something—was in the room with her. Her mother said she had too much imagination.

“It’s all those horror movies you kids like so much,” her mother always said.

Only now she was twenty-six years old, with a job and an apartment and bills to pay. She knew that there were no monsters under the bed or in the closet . . .

At least, not the kind of monsters she had feared as a child. No vampires, no werewolves, no Freddy Kruger. But there were monsters of another sort out there. She had the bruises to prove it.

If only she could sleep. In daylight she felt fuzzy and out of focus; at night, she was wound tight as a bowstring. She was going to lose her job if she didn’t get this under control. Maybe Marla was right and she should see somebody.

She lay there, listening hard and hearing only the faint electric whir of the air conditioner and the static burst of crickets outside. Her eyes strained, seeing nothing but the usual dim outlines of furniture, window, and door.

Cherry didn’t see how she could ever tell. They would only say it had been her fault. That she had—literally—been asking for it.

A dark shape moved, and the bed bounced on its springs. She yelped, springing upright—

“Oh, Jesus, Gunther! Oh, shit, you scared me half to death, you stupid cat!”

The big gray tabby pressed his head against her forehead, then sniffed at her face.

She lay back down, and Gunther settled on her chest.

Everything is all right. Breathe . . . just breathe . . .

The doors are locked and bolted. He doesn’t know where I am now . . . I’m safe.

He had seemed so perfect in the beginning. His e-mails and phone calls, always saying the things she’d dreamed of hearing. She had wanted so much to be his.

Until the first time she screamed, “Red!” and he didn’t stop.

Tom Hanson and his partner, John Griggs, arrived on the scene just after six a.m. Both were still working on their first cup of Starbucks. Hanson couldn’t decide what to do with his coffee; he didn’t want to take the cup over to the body, but he didn’t want to leave in the car, either. He needed every ounce of the caffeine.

“Jesus,” Griggs grumbled, tossing his cup into the backseat of the unmarked car. “You’d think dead bodies could wait for a decent hour to be found. It’s not like they’re going anywhere.”

“That cup had better be empty,” Hanson said, leaving his cup in the console and getting out of the car. Bad enough that Griggs didn’t know how to use a trash can, but Hanson would be damned if he’d clean up spilled coffee along with the fast-food wrappers and empty soda bottles.

“Of course it was empty,” Griggs said, straightening and smoothing his awful tie. “I pay five bucks for a cup of coffee, I’m gonna drink every damned drop.”

Hanson was nearly forty-two, of a respectable height and slender build. His best features—so women told him—were his soulful, puppy-dog brown eyes, and a head full of shaggy brown hair that promised he would escape the humiliation of balding as he grew older. Women were drawn to him, as often to mother him as to seduce him.

The harsh overhead lights of the parking garage gave a surreal edge to the great, looping arcs of cast-off blood spattering the grimy cinderblock walls and the oily black pools spreading from the body.

Hanson was relieved to see his preferred medical examiner, Miles, hunkered over the victim. It was way too early in the morning to deal with Creepy Carl, who never seemed to wash his hair and always reeked of morgue chemicals. Or Tyna, who was just too damned perky for both the job and the hour.

He fished a pair of gloves from his coat pocket. He had none of the little paper booties to place over his shoes—he could see the black pools sucking at the ones on Miles’s feet—but decided to just try to stay out of the blood.

Griggs stood with his hands on his hips, squinting down at the body. He was forty-seven, and still looked a bit like a pit bull in his expensive suit and necktie of questionable taste. Today’s specimen was a nightmare of red, purple, and orange stripes.

At least, Hanson thought, Griggs’s tie was nowhere near as ugly as the body in front of him.

“Damn,” Griggs said. “What the hell happened to this guy?”

“BFT,” Miles said. “Baseball bat, maybe. Maybe a tire iron.”

BFT: blunt force trauma. No shit, Hanson thought.

Hanson had seen dead bodies, but this one catapulted easily into his top five of all-time bloody messes. He and Griggs stayed back: Hanson out of respect for the evidence splattered all over the place, Griggs no doubt in fear for his Italian tasseled loafers.

More blood streaked the car. A handprint was clearly visible, as if someone had groped for purchase and found none. Some of the pooled blood had been stepped in, smeared across the concrete, evidence of a struggle.

The crime scene techs were gonna have a field day with this one, and Hanson didn’t want to listen to Louise Fortner bitch about them having stepped all over her evidence.

“Found these under the body.” Miles held out a set of keys.

“Bet one of those keys fits this Lexus,” Hanson said, taking them with two fingers, careful to grasp the chain from the key fob.

Building security had found the body around five a.m. and had shut down that end of the parking garage. Hanson gave silent thanks that the rent-a-cops had had the sense not to fuck things up.

The Lexus was the only car within a hundred feet. A few business-types stared over at the little party as they waited for the elevator to open. Hanson wondered if they were curious or just pissed that they hadn’t been able to nab one of the prime parking spaces inside the crime scene tape.

“Can’t even tell what color his tie is.” Griggs straightened up abruptly and turned away. “Aw, Christ, I don’t wanna see that . . .”

Hanson was about to break his balls for being squeamish, but when he saw where Griggs was looking, his own bile rose.

The corpse’s fly was open. Something ragged and bloody lay there like the product of a sausage grinder.

He studied the keys rather than dwell on what might or might not have happened to the victim’s equipment.

Six, no seven keys on a ring with some kind of round metal tag. There was something on the tag; initials, maybe? He couldn’t tell for the blood. But he could make out the Lexus logo on one of the keys.

“Yep, it’s his car. Check the glove box for the registration, will ya, Griggs?”

Hanson dropped the bloody keys into a paper bag and turned back to Miles.

“He still got his wallet?”

“Yeah.” Miles grimaced at Hanson’s ancient Thom Mc-Cann’s. “Let me hand it to you.”

Hanson opened the wallet and took out the driver’s license.

“Roger Andrew Banks,” he read, passing it to Griggs.

“Hazelwood Lane.” Griggs whistled. “Nice neighborhood.”

Hanson flipped through the cards: American Express, MasterCard, a Blockbuster card, and a discount coffee bar card.

“So, he’s leaving the building, late, after everybody else has gone home.” Griggs was thinking aloud. “He’s at the car, he’s got his keys out . . .”

The coffee bar card had four little holes punched in it; Roger only needed one more. Poor bastard was never gonna get that free cappuccino now.

“So it wasn’t a robbery.” Griggs was eyeing the cash and cards.

“Muggers don’t usually beat the hell out of someone like this.” Or filet their dicks, either.

“Maybe a homo thing gone bad?” Griggs asked as he took out a notebook and began to write. “I mean, the pants being unzipped and all—”

Hanson sighed. Gina had once called Griggs “a knuckle-dragging, equal-opportunity bigot.” He wasn’t a bad cop, just an asshole. Still, Griggs was his partner now and Gina was history.

“Possible, I guess. We’re looking at a perp with a hell of an anger management problem. Strong, too.”

“Yeah,” Griggs agreed, then grimaced. “Not your usual hundred-and-forty-pound faggot, anyway.”

Roger had a bit of a beer gut, but he must have been close to six feet, 250 pounds easy.

“The killer hit him a good one to the head,” Hanson said. “Doesn’t look like Roger ever made it to his feet after going down the first time.”

“Yeah, all the blood smears on the door. Either the killer snuck up on him, or it was somebody he knew.”

“Possible.” Hanson shrugged. “But the perp had to be carrying a fairly large weapon. If my own mother came up to me in a parking garage at night, carrying a tire iron, I wouldn’t turn my back on her. Would you?”

“My mom or your mom?” Griggs snorted. “I wouldn’t turn my back on my mom if she was holding a box of animal crackers. Your mom, I dunno the woman.”

He squatted, grunted, reached under the car, and came up with a briefcase.

“Musta gotten kicked under here. Don’t see any blood on it.” Griggs carefully snapped the case open and peered inside. “Papers and shit.”

“We verify that he works in this building yet?”

“Yeah, he works up on twelve. Wilmer, Banks, and Cohen,” came a thin, male voice. “I mean, uh . . . I can’t say a hundred percent if it’s him, but that’s Mr. Banks’s car and his parking space.”

They turned to look at a thin black male in a gray security uniform. He was in his early twenties and smelled slightly of vomit.

“Antone?” Hanson read his nametag. “You found the body?”

“Uh-huh. And it’s An-to-NEE. Not AN-tone.”

“Jesus,” Griggs muttered. “Like it’s our fault you people can’t spell your own names right.”

Antone gave Griggs a sullen eye roll, then looked back at Hanson.

It turned out that Antone had come on at four forty-five to open up. There was no night security, just a couple of cameras aimed at the doors. Griggs went off to find the tapes, but Hanson doubted they’d find any joy on them. The Lexus was too far from either the lobby door or the elevators, but maybe it had caught something or somebody worth checking out.

“I saw Mr. Banks’s car still there,” Antone went on. “Thought maybe his wife had picked him up or something. People sometimes leave their car here overnight.”

Antone was losing some of his ashy pallor as he warmed to his subject.

“But then I saw the blood. First, I thought it was oil, you know? Didn’t look like blood, it looked black. But I thought, that’s too much oil for a leak. Even if somebody had changed their oil in here—you wouldn’t believe the shit people will do—it was still too much—”

“Did you touch anything? Step in anything?”

“Hell, no!” Antone looked offended. “You think I’m stupid or something? I didn’t want to get close enough to touch nothing. I just called nine-one-one and sat my ass back in the office ’til you guys showed up.”

“Where’d you throw up?”

Antone looked at his feet.

“I made it ’round the corner,” he admitted.

“Okay,” Hanson said. “You did good. Thanks, Antone.”

The crime scene unit had arrived. Lenny was taking pictures, and Hanson was happy he could leave his shitty camera in the car. Fortner was walking slowly around the Lexus, no doubt deciding where to dust for fingerprints first.

Griggs came back with a brown bag, and opened it to reveal a stack of videotapes inside.

“Probably taped over the same ones a hundred times,” Hanson said with a grimace. “The picture will be shit.”

“What gets me,” Griggs said, “is that the perp must have been spattered pretty good with blood, too. But I don’t see any trail. Did he just walk out of here? Jump in his car? Either way, it’s gotta help us find him.”

“We can hope.”

They took the elevator up to the twelfth-floor lobby to have a little talk with Wilmer, Banks, and Cohen, Attorneys at Law.

By the time they got to the morgue, Miles had already undressed and washed the body. Roger looked . . .