Love without a Compass

Book 2: Least Likely Romance

by Lindy Zart

Genres: Contemporary Romance; New Adult Romance; Romantic Comedy

Synopsis

Team building takes on a whole new meaning—when work is the last thing on your mind . . . The Illinois wilderness should be a relaxing change of pace for advertising superstar Ben Stitzer. But he has one goal during this company retreat: proving to his boss how far he’ll go to succeed. Even if it means having to team up with the uber competitive, exasperatingly attractive, woman who has tried to undermine him at every turn . . . Being in the great outdoors is Avery Scottam’s biggest nightmare. And hard as she tries, she can’t even hide her fear from Ben. When one of her especially huge freak-outs gets them lost, they’ll have to rely on each other to survive wild animals, sketchy campers, and their mutual distrust. Yet somewhere between a malevolent crow and a surprising confession, they just might end up something more than friends . . . Will returning to civilization make them forget how truly wild they can be together?

Release date: September 4, 2018

Publisher: Lyrical Press

Print pages: 224

Sample

1

BEN

Extreme Retreat’s goal for us is to reach our destination by nightfall.

My personal goal is for us to make it there without first killing each other.

I tell myself I can do it. I can endure Avery Scottam for the next however many hours. Haven’t I dealt with her for the last six months? Not well, I admit, but I’ve managed. There’s just something about her that—

A tree limb whacks me in the face. My eyes snap to my coworker. Avery looks back, innocence etched into her features. I rub my stinging cheek. “What the hell, Avery?”

“Whoops.” Avery shrugs. “I didn’t realize you were so close.”

That. That’s the something about her. She’s a menace disguised in sensuous woman.

I shift my jaw back and forth, tighten my grip on the straps of the backpack to keep my fingers from finding her pale, slim neck, and stride past her. Her grapefruit scent teases my senses and I breathe shallowly, fighting my reaction to the pleasant smell.

“I’ll lead,” I announce.

The mountain is cantankerous, full of divots and loose rocks, holes and hidden danger. Each breath of air I take is thick with heat, and the August sun is having a good old time with the back of my neck. Less than an hour ago we walked into a fortress of slanted trees and rocks that don’t appear to have an end. We’ve been marching an uneven path to perdition ever since.

Avery appears beside me, her jaw set. The sun catches strands of her hair, causing it to shine like gold. “I’ll lead.”

“You don’t know where we’re going.”

“Up.” She gestures in the direction we’re heading. “We’re going up, just like the Extreme Retreat employee said to do. It’s not hard to figure out.”

Everything is a competition with her. I misstep on a twig, and losing my balance, bump into her. It’s completely by accident that my elbow happens to shoot out at the exact moment it connects with her biceps.

“Ow!” Scowling at me, she rubs her arm. “You did that on purpose.”

“Whoops,” I say evenly, eyes trained forward.

Avery hurries past, her perfectly rounded ass emphasized by her microscopic white shorts with each upward lunge of her legs. Who wears white shorts to go hiking through a national forest? Really, I want to know. Turning from the view I wish I didn’t enjoy, I look at another one. Blue skies and green trees have taken over the world. I drop my gaze to the unseen valley below, wondering how far our coworkers have gotten. I’m sure none of them are enjoying their time with their partner quite as much as I am.

“I hate this,” Avery mutters once we crest a small hill. She sets her palms to her knees and draws air into her lungs. Her pale face is flushed, and dewy with perspiration. Avery’s hair, normally smooth and straight, is forming waves I didn’t realize it had.

“Hate what?”

“This. Walking. The heat. Bugs. Outside.”

“Outside?” I give her a sidelong look. “You hate outside?”

“That’s what I said.”

“That’s a pretty general statement.”

We lock eyes, hers like smoldering fire. “Meaning?”

“Meaning it covers a lot of areas. There’s nothing you like about outside?”

“No. Wait. Air. I like air. Air is outside.”

“Yes. It is,” I agree, and wait.

Avery sighs. “You’re getting to a point, aren’t you? What is it?”

“I find it interesting that you hate everything—besides air—that has to do with outside, since you were gushing to Duke about how excited you were to go on this wilderness team-building quest.”

Avery’s golden eyes land on mine and skirt past.

I gesture to her spotless pink Pumas. “I bet you bought those tennis shoes just for this, didn’t you?”

The corners of her mouth tighten. “So?”

“I find it interesting, that’s all.” I tell myself I will not be the first to look away, but I still blink in surprise when she does.

Avery scowls. “Hiking in the mountains is not my idea of fun, but I always do what is necessary.”

“With a lying smile in place,” I murmur.

“Can smiles really lie?” she returns with an arched eyebrow.

“Yours do.”

Her jaw shifts, but Avery doesn’t reply.

After a couple minutes of walking, I ask, “Aren’t you from Montana?”

“What’s your point?”

“Do I have to say it?”

She gives me a look.

I guess I do. “How can you be from somewhere that is known for its mountains and have not a clue as to how to navigate through them?”

“Illinois is known for its high crime rate. Does that make you a criminal?”

Touché.

Avery straightens, running a hand through her hair. “I might have overstated my level of enthusiasm over this.”

“You mean you lied.”

She scowls. “Overstated.”

“Lied.”

She’s been sweetness and goodness to everyone since she walked through the red door of Sanders and Sisters. She even has Duke Renner, the owner of Sanders and Sisters and a man who cannot be manipulated, captivated. She’s a fraud, and I plan on exposing her. It could be said that, so far, my attempts have backfired. Case in point: where we presently are.

“Okay. Fine. I lied,” Avery says.

“Was that so hard to admit?”

Avery rolls her eyes and faces the rocky walkway. “How much farther do you think we have to go?”

“Duke said it should take around five hours to find the flag and get back to the lodge, so, for us, it’ll probably take twenty lifetimes. Here’s to many, many years of torture,” I tell her cheerfully.

“He said this is mandatory continuing education, whatever that means.” She complements her next statement with a pout. “What is the purpose of this, really? Other than to make us miserable.”

“True. The same outcome could easily have been accomplished by sticking us in a room together for two minutes.”

“You’re hilarious,” Avery replies mockingly, swatting at something that dares to try to touch her. Probably a speck of dirt.

Twigs snap under the weight of my hiking boots. I squint at the landscape before me. In the distance, brown and gray rocks climb a path to the clouds. We both know why we’re here, and it isn’t because of any continuing education bullshit. “I wasn’t kidding.”

A prolonged pause follows that.

“I can’t believe he did this to me,” she finally says.

“Well, he did. And what’s worse is that he did it to me.” I’ve been Duke Renner’s star employee for years; Avery’s been around less than seven months. It chafes. It chafes a lot.

“At least you have something nice to look at. I just have…you,” Avery says.

I turn around, studying the woman. “Careful, Avery. You’re starting to show your true colors.”

Avery crosses her arms and turns her head to the side. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“What’s wrong with the way I look?” I don’t know why I ask it, or why I care what she thinks. I know I’m not the best-looking guy around, but I’ve never had a problem getting dates.

“You’re, you know…” She gestures vaguely to me.

I stand up straighter, hands on hips, and lift an eyebrow. “What am I? Please, do tell.”

Avery makes a face. “You’re not that tall.”

“I’m five-ten.”

“Exactly.”

I decide not to point out that five-nine is the average height for a guy. Plus, she’s barely five-four herself, if she’s even that.

“What else?” I know there’s more. That can’t be the only thing about me she sees as a negative.

“You wear glasses.”

I snort. “Yeah. A lot of people do, so they can, you know, see.”

Sighing, she shakes her head and attempts to move around me. “Never mind. It doesn’t matter.”

I step into her path. She has to tilt back her head to meet my gaze. I don’t point that out either. “Oh, no, let’s hear it. I’d like to know all the ways I am visually unappealing.”

“Okay, well, your hair is, I don’t know, boring.”

“Boring?” I narrow my eyes. “How can hair be boring?”

“I don’t know. It just can. It lacks character.”

“Are you serious?” I ask in a low voice.

Ignoring my glower, she adds, “And you’re not nice.”

My voice is unusually high as I sputter, “What the—”

“It makes you less attractive.”

I stare at her hard, long enough that my vision blurs beneath the lenses of my glasses that apparently make me unattractive.

“You’re not my type,” Avery says, as if she thinks I want her to want me.

The world goes unnaturally silent as my blood pressure skyrockets. I take a slow breath, keeping my eyes trained on Avery. She watches me with that fake innocent look she uses around the office. Whatever the scenario, I will not let her win. I will remain calm. I will one-up her, again and again. Because I’m too short, and wear glasses, and not her type.

I may not be a lot of things, but I am something.

I move closer. “Avery.”

Avery lifts her eyebrows.

My gaze trails from her eyes to her mouth. I watch her lips part and sweep my eyes back to hers. “I think we both know you’re not my type.”

She gasps, her face going pink, and I turn before she catches my smirk. Satisfaction, warm and pure, flows through my limbs.

AVERY

I must have died sometime during the night and been sent directly here. Nothing else makes sense. I’m fairly certain, when Duke Renner set up this team-building mumbo-jumbo, he specified that it should be located in Avery Scottam’s—that’s me—least favorite kind of place: outside. Outside is gross. It’s dirty, and there are bugs, and my hair does not respond well to heat.

To add more salt to the wound, Ben Stitzer is the last person I want to see me at anything less than completely composed, so of course Duke paired us together. It has nothing to do with the fact that I did something awful to Ben and he’s hated me ever since. Things have been tense around the office, and wherever I turn, there’s Ben, plotting his revenge. But that’s not why we’re here. Right. Nope. Not at all.

Our boss’s words repeat in my head, bringing inner calamity and outer perspiration with them.

Wilderness retreat.

Improve team-building skills.

Rely on one another.

And the most upsetting words of all…

Ben and Avery, you’re partners.

I shoot a look in Ben’s direction. More likely, he chose the setting. As if sensing my eyes on him, his head turns, his eyes slicing me in two. The look lasts all of one second but has enough vexation in it to steadily burn through many, many lifetimes. There was one single night that could have been the start of something amazing, but I ruined it.

I think we both know you’re not my type.

The words echo through me, bringing an uncomfortable twinge with them.

“I have no idea what you’re talking about,” I reply with a sniff. “I’m sure you made up some fantasy scenario in your—”

A bitter laugh comes from my side, cutting off my words. “Trust me, you’re not in any part of my fantasies.”

I stop walking, my eyes shooting to my coworker’s. Ben gazes stonily back, his bespectacled brown eyes scalding me with their animosity. I sigh and face forward, absently scratching at the most recent of countless bug bites. Mountains, rocks, and trees greet me, splashing the immediate vicinity in shades of brown and gray, speckled with green. They remind me of Ben’s eyes, actually, except without the perpetual loathing in them.

“What’s the hold up?” he demands, hands on his hips.

“You.”

One dark eyebrow quirks.

I know men fantasize about me. I’m not being vain. I’d rather only one man want me over all the rest, and it’s the one next to me, looking at me as if I’m diseased and contagious. That’s irony for you.

“If I simply stand here all day, will I wake up and realize this has all been a really bad dream?” I ask without looking at Ben.

“The better question is: will I?”

I swallow a snort and take the rubber band from my wrist, twisting my hair into a sloppy bun. I don’t understand how Duke Renner could drop us off in the middle of nowhere with a gleeful wave and shouted well wishes. But then, since I started at Sanders and Sisters over six months ago, I’ve realized that the only constant with my boss is that he is unpredictable.

Things were much simpler in Montana.

Ignoring the sharp pain that accompanies thoughts of my life before I relocated to Illinois, I set my shoulders back and once again take on the dusty trail to an unknown destination.

“Where do you think the others were taken?” I ask.

Our six coworkers are somewhere within the miles-wide expanse of Shawnee National Forest, paired with the person they get along with the least, working on their own quests. I wonder how Juan Narvaez and Nate Schroeder are faring. Nate went out with Juan’s ex-girlfriend a while back and came home that night to find all the beer in his fridge reduced to empty cans strewn about the kitchen.

To most people, that wouldn’t be a big deal, but to Nate, who loves beer, it was catastrophic. Juan showed up to work the next day with the scent of alcohol seeping from his pores and a smug expression on his face, silently naming him as the culprit. Nate was not happy.

The wind picks up, bringing authentic country dust with it. Even though my mouth is closed, I still taste its gritty, chalky flavor on my tongue. I haven’t navigated through much of Illinois yet. I have to say, I can think of better reasons to explore the state.

Ben’s jaw is tight as he walks beside me. “We may be partners, and yes, we are obligated to work together to get through today but talking is not a requirement. In fact, let’s not.”

It’s supposed to be four days of this. Four days of hell spent trekking over countryside with a man who loathes me. Wonderful. Exactly how I want to spend my time, following a map and compass with checkpoints through uncivilized terrain. I kick at the ground, hurting my big toe in the process.

I stop and pull the map from my back pocket, pretending Ben didn’t say that. Pretending he isn’t justified in his aversion to me. One day, he’ll forgive me. I am going to make sure of that. But for now, we need to focus on what’s required of us to pass our mandatory continuing education class.

“Let’s see what we need to do first,” I offer just to irritate Ben, and come to a stop.

Ben turns toward me and shoves his glasses up his long nose, the ever-changing shade of his eyes striking against the backdrop of his olive skin and dark hair. I envy the golden sheen of his skin. He’s probably one of the lucky people who never burn, their skin only darkening with sun exposure.

Fair-skinned and fair-haired, I am prone to burn instead of tan. Regrettably, I freckle too. My skin is already feeling the effects of the early morning sun.

“I’m going to look at the map now,” I announce loudly in an attempt to get a reaction from Ben.

There isn’t one.

As the seconds tick by and I simply watch Ben, he gives me an exasperated look and gestures for me to continue. I lift an eyebrow, the map remaining closed.

His teeth are bared as he says, “Will you please check the map, Avery?”

“Yes, I will, Ben, thanks for asking,” I reply pleasantly, hiding a smile when Ben rolls his eyes.

I unfold the map and study the colorful landscape paired with specific directives. Although I know it isn’t, the marked-off area we are to navigate seems endless. It’s pocketed with lakes, caves, trails, and other vague, ominous wildlife pictures. I chew on my lower lip, wondering about the sanity of this whole thing.

It seems an archaic form of employee bonding to me. But then Extreme Retreat, the company Duke hired to orchestrate this obstacle course of madness, is known for their wild, sometimes dangerous, means of bringing coworkers together. No electronic devices, including cell phones, are allowed. They didn’t even let us have first-aid kits or flares. I think whoever runs the organization is partially crazy.

Their motto is actually “There is no don’t, only do.” Being nontraditional himself, I can see why this organization appealed to Duke.

Anne Dobson, one of our coworkers, got into a tug-of-war match with an Extreme Retreat employee when they attempted to take her cell phone from her. Besides the map I hold, all we were given is the backpack presently resting on Ben’s shoulders and were told it has everything we’re allowed to have, or will need for the day. Unless there is a room inside it with air conditioning, running water, and takeout cuisine on hand, I tend to disagree.

I read the first objective on the list. Goal number one: Hike Crow Hill. Retrieve red flag.

“The first checkpoint is at the end of a two-mile hike.” I look up, frowning. Working at keeping my voice unconcerned, I say, “It’s called ‘Crow Hill.’ Why do you think it’s called that?”

Ben resumes walking, not answering.

I lengthen my stride, catching up to him.

He scowls and moves faster.

I do the same, minus the scowl.

We continue this way until we’re jogging side by side up a narrow rocky incline with towering stones surrounding us. A worn green sign, along with an arrow, announces we’re on Crow Hill. I’m not a runner and it soon shows. Panting, my legs and lungs scream at me to stop, but I don’t slow down. I’m not slowing down until Ben does. I glance at him, taking in the determined set of his face.

I don’t think he ever plans on slowing down.

I push myself harder when I begin to fall behind, full-on running now. Ben moves ahead of me, his legs long and leanly muscled. He doesn’t appear to be sweating, whereas I already feel the salty wetness trickling down my spine and the sides of my face. A wheezing sound has replaced my normal breathing. I tell myself to pick up the pace, but my legs don’t want to cooperate, and that is unacceptable. I force my legs to go. Anything Ben can do, I can do—sometimes, even better.

We briefly exchange looks crackling with intensity.

As we near the end of the trail, it takes me far too long to realize what we’re doing, and that it is exactly what put us where we are. Working against each other instead of together. There’s friendly competition and then there’s rivalry.

Duke was right to send us here. Ben and I have competed since the day I started working for the advertising company. It’s instinctive, part of our natures. Why would I think now would be any different?

And it needs to be.

“We’re supposed to be a team,” I remind him around gasps of air.

“Now you want to want to be a team?” Ben scoffs, his form and breathing steady. “Forget it.”

“We’ll be in trouble if we don’t.”

He pulls up abruptly, jerking around to face me. I skid to a stop, gravel rolling beneath my tennis shoes. I fight to breathe, partially from the run, mostly from the man before me. Ben’s eyes are alive with simmering emotion, sparking green and electrocuting with thunderous gray. His chest lifts and lowers as I watch, finally seeing a hint of exertion. Ben’s hair is damp, the ends curling around his ears.

The air turns stifling as we stare at each other, the heat combustible. Ben looms over me, dark and furious. Desire streams through my veins, and I see it reflected in his eyes. I’ve wanted Ben since the moment I met him. I saw the same lightning bolt response in Ben. He tries to hide it beneath a shield of resentment, but sometimes, like now, it finds its way through the cracks.

“I won’t be in trouble,” Ben says confidently. He’s probably right.

“Do you want to take the chance?” My voice is scratchy.

Ben studies me, his gaze dropping before slowly returning to my face. I feel that look as strongly as if he’d physically touched me. It steals my air; it turns my body to warm mush. Something unmistakable and equally unnamable glints in his eyes. “With you?”

He’s toying with me. I know it, and I can’t seem to care. Because he’s looking at me in a way that makes me forget everything, even why I sought a job for Sanders and Sisters in the first place. Too often, Ben makes it hard to remember what I promised myself, what I vowed to my mom.

Unconsciously, as if I can’t control myself, I step forward.

Ben steps back.

“Maybe,” is all I allow myself to admit.

“You’ve never been very good at being direct, have you?”

I watch the fire die out, feeling the loss of it as if it’s real and not only in his eyes. I bite my lower lip, not answering. If I ever decide to be brave enough, I’ll be so direct with Ben he’ll wish he could mute me like the volume on a television with a remote control. ‘If’ being the key word.

I cross my arms and reply with a scowl, “I know how to be direct.”

He steps closer, bringing his heat and earthy scent. Ben stares into my eyes, his face devoid of expression, and lifts a hand toward my face. “Oh, yeah? How so?”

I hold my breath and go still, wanting to feel his fingers across my skin. I can’t remember ever wanting anything more.

Toying with me or otherwise, I don’t want this to end.

“Show me,” Ben encourages silkily. “Come on, be direct. Tell me what you’re really doing at Sanders and Sisters.”

My heart lurches and I study his face. He can’t know anything. Realizing that doesn’t make me feel any relief. I open my mouth, but no sound comes forth. If we’re playing games right now, Ben’s winning.

Ben pauses, darkness billowing around his lean frame like a shadowy cloak. “You can’t, can you?”

“Ben, I…”

Holding my gaze, he trails his fingers across my shoulder. I unconsciously shiver. Then he snatches his hand back, a red flag dangling from his fingers. Hardness claims Ben’s features, wiping any hint of seduction from his bearing as he growls, “Don’t forget who I am.”

“I have no idea what you mean.”

His eyes narrow. “I think you do.”

I swallow hard, knowing what he’s going to say before he says it.

Ben turns from me. “Remember, Avery, I know you. I know you better than anyone at Sanders and Sisters.” He looks over his shoulder with a single glance that blazes and chars. “How could I not? I’m the person you royally screwed over.”

I blow out a noisy breath, wrinkling up my nose. Yes, he is that indeed.

2

BEN

Duke Renner has never been much of a rule follower. Since he was in his mid-twenties, he’s run Sanders and Sisters, a small, but prestigious company that centers on marketing words to the right buyer. The company, run by two aging sisters and their brother, wasn’t much when Duke took it over, but he had the right amount of humor, bullheadedness, and charismatic personality to get his words noticed by the right people.

Inspirational quotes, greeting cards, business logos, makeup, clothing, and athletic apparel slogans—Sanders and Sisters handles that and more. Words are everything. They can be the difference between crying and laughter, a smile and a frown. Hope and giving up.

The Avery Scottam that Sanders and Sisters is familiar with doesn’t complain. She doesn’t have to, because ever. . .