Lark Ascending
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A riveting story of survival and hope, set in the not-too-distant future, about a young man forced to flee the United States and seek refuge across the Atlantic.
As fires devastate most of the United States, Lark and his family secure a place on a refugee boat headed to Ireland, the last country not yet overrun by extremists and rumored to be accepting American refugees. But Lark is the only one to survive the trip, and once ashore, he doesn’t find the safe haven he’d hoped for. As he runs for his life, Lark finds an abandoned dog who becomes his closest companion, and then a woman in search of her lost son. Together they form a makeshift family and attempt to reach Glendalough, a place they believe will offer protection. But can any community provide the safety that they seek?
For readers of novels such as Station Eleven, The Dog Stars, and Migrations, Lark Ascending is a moving and unforgettable story of friendship, family, and healing.
Release date: September 27, 2022
Publisher: Algonquin Books
Print pages: 288
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Lark Ascending
Silas House
What I recall best is the noise.
The thrashing of heavy sprays, the thundering of the sails, the shrill cries of the crew. The suffering of the seasick. I was ill the entire first week of the crossing. Most everyone was, all of us hanging off the sides of the boat, moaning and retching. Worst of all, though, was that for days there was only the dry heaving, so bad my stomach must have bruised from the violence of it all. Even after the worst passed, I lay between sleep and waking, my eyes wide open in the darkness, the sickness gone but replaced by my head swimming and my body giddying, which was almost worse to bear. Just the thought of those days makes my stomach churn again.
I’ve never known such misery, despite what I’ve been through since. I have had many adventures in my life but there is no matching that anguished time. There’s pain and suffering, and then there is misery, which is what we lived while we crossed the ocean. And of course, none of us was as bad off as my father, although I wouldn’t realize that for many days into the voyage.
My mother worked with the crew the entire time. There was always something to do with the sails, and although she had never been on a sailboat, she got the hang of it better than the rest of the ragtag crew. Everyone on that six-person crew barely slept. If they got sick, they worked through it. Most of them had wormed their way onto the boat promising to work in trade for the passage over. The Covenant had once been a grand yacht meant to carry about ten wealthy passengers. The boat was most likely stolen from some unwatched dock in the wake of the war. Now it was scraped and worn but still sturdy, with two large sails latched to thick masts.
“Pay attention!” the captain yelled at least once a day when she felt the crew was not adjusting the sails quickly enough. She was a giant of a woman who was always angry and anxious. She had no teeth, which made her face seem thinner and meaner. Then, quietly but with even more frustration, to herself: “That is the most important thing.” After which she would close her eyes and make her lips move in prayer. To what force I don’t know. The ocean, most likely, as it controlled her entire world.
I watched the captain all the time because I watched everyone. That was the only way I remained sane, but it is also just how I have always been. My father used to say I noticed things that others did not and for that reason I might be an artist someday. But that was before everything happened, before we were just trying to keep ourselves alive hour by hour.
That first week my father did little more than care for me, although he was in far worse shape than I was and besides, I was twenty years old and I had seen most of the people I cherished die in front of me. So I was grown in every way a person can be. But there I was, accordioned across my father’s arms, helpless, as our boat rose and fell across the dark blue sea. There was not much he could do, anyway, nothing more than lie there beside me. I didn’t realize it at the time but the injuries to his leg were already working on his mind, as well. This truth would present itself soon enough.
Sometimes I heard the others on the boat making fun of me—someone that useless ought to throw himself overboard—but I wasn’t just seasick; I was undone in sorrow. Only days before, we had been a family of six, and now we were only three. Every time I retched over the side of the boat, I felt like I was vomiting up some of that grief. But nothing can get that out of you, no matter how hard you try. I did find that something as simple as my father rubbing my back in a perfect circle during the worst bouts at least calmed me a little. Sometimes I lay against him as if I were a child again and he cooed against my ear and that helped, too. Everyone else on that boat was going through the same thing in one way or another. Grief had ravaged us all. We were the survivors, and we all had lived through nightmare days. I thought I was at my lowest place, but I didn’t know that things would soon get worse.
By the end of that first week, I stood and got back to work. We had witnessed most of the country burning and what followed: the food shortages, the war, the migrations. We had lived just fine on our own for seven years up in the mountains, surviving seven brutal winters in those Maine woods. We had buried people we loved, with our own hands. We had walked all the way to Nova Scotia, risking everything so we could catch this boat. We were survivors. And we were going to make it across this ocean.
The rain pummeled us for four straight days and caused the crew—mostly my mother—to never stop pulling at ropes and adjusting sails. During those days she must not have slept more than a couple of hours a night, when I relieved her. This only happened when the winds died down enough for me to handle the lines. And a couple times there was even a calm spell when we drifted along and I could close my eyes, imagining myself back home in Maine, on the mountain, the only place I had ever been safe in my whole life. In those interludes there was nothing but the sound of the water slapping against the boat. Everyone was either asleep or silent in their misery and there would be a kind of peace for a time. I’d open my eyes and look out at the aching blue of the ocean—a color I had never seen in nature and that most likely only exists in the middle of the Atlantic, a gray blue like a storm cloud full of unspent lightning and unfallen rain. There was some comfort in knowing that, although the world was being torn in two, there were still remarkable things that went on being, that refused to lose their shine. Some days it was only the wonder that kept us going.
But then, one morning the sun stained the far horizon a rich pink that made everyone feel better. One of the old women said the sky was the color of grapefruit meat, but I was too young to have ever seen such a thing, and this meant little more than to remind me that there had been a whole world before that one generation could recall vividly while another could not conjure it at all. For an entire week after that pink-like-no-other-pink, we had smooth sailing weather.
We had not known how small the refugee boat was when we gave nearly everything we had to board it, but we would have had no choice either way. Since the captain liked to recite these facts on occasion, I learned that the Covenant had been intended for the calmer coastal waters around America and now she would have to cross the wide Atlantic. She was forty-three meters in length—about 140 feet. There were forty-four of us in the beginning. There was not one moment for twenty-seven days that I wasn’t up against at least three people at once. There was so little space that we had no choice but to lie upon one another. By the seventh day four people had jumped overboard, driven mad by the lack of room. I tried to not think about what happened to them. Which would be worse—to drown and drift down to the darkest depths of the ocean or to be eaten by sharks and shat out into the sea?
The first death aboard was a man who died of a heart attack, and we all gathered to pay our respects and lift his body over the edge of the boat to drop it into the sea. He had been one of the men who had helped me get my father aboard on that first day, his gray eyes steady on mine as I made that step from certain death to the thrill of hope. Miriam, who was brave enough to reveal that she was a priest and had managed to hide from the Slaughters, said the rites, which she still knew by heart. The dead man was large, and I was surprised by what a small sound he made, being swallowed by the water.
For a while, there was a baby who cried throughout each night. Every time the crying stopped—just as dawn began to light the wide ocean—I was sure the baby boy had died of whatever ailment caused him to wail, but within minutes shrieks began again. The wailing was the loudest when darkness crept in with its purpling and then graying ways. I never saw the infant. Not once. The baby and his mother were on the other end of the boat, and in the daytime, she kept the sleeping tyrant tucked beneath her blouse to keep the sun from roasting his skin. The baby died on the ninth day, and when we bowed our heads to acknowledge his passing and dropped his small bundle into the ocean, his sound was no smaller than the large man’s had been. I couldn’t help feeling thankful—I was glad for an end to the baby’s endless protests, I’ll admit, but mostly because we all knew there was nothing but misery awaiting him anyway. And despite our sadness, the silence his absence provided was a wonder. I had expected the infant’s mother to take up wailing where her child had left off, but until the day she died, she sat looking out on the ocean as if shaping her own face into a tombstone.
From the beginning my mother argued with the captain, especially after my father folded himself up, overtaken by the pain he could no longer bear. He was the strongest man I had ever known, but lying there for days with a dying leg had taken everything from him.
“He’s supposed to be a doctor!” the captain yelled at my mother. “All he does is sit and stare off into space.”
“If you knew how to control your boat, he wouldn’t have been caught between it and the raft motor,” my mother said, her voice as calm as if she were introducing herself. She was taking a gamble that the captain would not actually check in on my father, because he had not been harmed by any fault of the boat as my mother was claiming. The truth was, a knife had been plunged into his leg a week before we boarded, and blood poisoning was slithering its way through his body. “Do you expect him to tend to the sick on a crushed leg?”
So she and I had to work twice as hard to make up for my father’s inability. And she had to give a portion of the seeds to the captain or be thrown overboard. Before the deal was struck, there had been much shouting about this and the captain had two of the crew grab my mother by the arms, hustling her toward the side of the boat.
I rushed forward, ready to fight them all in an attempt to save her. By this point the pain and sepsis had taken my father to somewhere in his mind where he didn’t even have the ability to flinch at the possibility of his wife being murdered.
Another two of the crew members held me back as I screamed and kicked at air. We all reeked at that point but one of them stank so badly—a slick scent of unwashed genitals and dirty hair—that I gagged at the smell of him, even in my rage.
There was a whole group of people—led by Miriam—who locked arms and stood in front of the captain. “We won’t sit by while you commit murder,” Miriam said, her eyes hard and blue gray as the sea. “We won’t allow it. She and her son are doing all they can.”
The captain looked to Miriam as if she might reply, but then her gaze went out over the ocean. She stood thinking for a time, her square fists planted on her tremendous hips, while I struggled against the men. My mother made no movement there on the edge of the boat and it seemed that she was preparing herself to die. Just when I thought they might actually shove her into the ocean, there was a deal made about the seeds.
At last, the captain spat a gelatinous wad into the sea and nodded her chin to the men holding my mother. “Let her go,” she said. “For now.”
And from then on everyone on the boat knew my mother was a seed-saver, so we had to watch ourselves even more than before. We had always slept in shifts but now when it was my turn to keep watch, I never took my hand off the knife that hung in a leather pouch around my neck. Now my eyes scanned back and forth over the rocking boat, always expecting someone to rob us.
Sometimes as the gloaming crept toward us over the ocean, the little children gathered around Miriam while she sang very old songs from the Before:
You belong among the wildflowers
or
I can’t live, with or without you
or
Never mind, I’ll find someone like you
Her voice was deep and rich and no matter what she sang, everything sounded mournful and full of longing. Every song made me think of Arlo. Made me think of the three graves we had left behind us that day in those woods.
On the eleventh day my father’s panics started.
He was unable to catch his breath. At first he calmed down if I did just what he had done for me during my lowest point: whisper Shhh, shhh into his ear and rub his back in a perfect circle.
But the attacks grew worse. On the thirteenth day, he clawed at his chest and his eyes rolled back in his head.
“Daddy,” I whispered, something I had not called him in years. Our plan all along was to draw as little attention to ourselves as we could and now the entire boat not only knew we were seed-savers but also that my father was screaming and thrashing. We had everyone’s attention. On the other side of the boat my mother kept steady, tightening the sails while the other crew members slurped down their daily ration of canned beans. “Calm down, it’s okay.”
He rubbed at his heart with the tips of his fingers.
“Look, the water is nice, the sky’s clear,” I pleaded. “Just hold on and we’ll be okay. We’re fine.”
But I knew that we were not. I knew that we had never been worse.
Mostly he looked at me with tears brimming in his eyes, staring at me as if he was trying to tell me something but could not put it into words.
His whole body trembled, shaking uncontrollably. His lips, his hands, his head, his poisoned leg. Seeing him with no control over his own body hurt me worse than any of it.
“My heart,” he stammered, quietly at first, but then, with each word building into a frantic scream: “My heart’s. Beating. Out of. MY! CHEST!”
That brought my mother to us. She took his face in her hands and kissed him with her cracked, wind-burned lips on the forehead, on each eye, on the mouth. “Stay with us, my darling,” she said. She was not the kind of person who revealed herself but in this moment her voice was full of pain. “Come on, now, my darling. Please.”
She turned and dug frantically in the one pack we had, which contained everything we owned, the duffel bag we protected at all costs. Her hands shook. We were nearing the end. I can barely stand to remember the way she looked at him, beseeching him to come back to her. She wedged open his crusted lips and shook a spoonful of turmeric onto his teeth, then forced his mouth shut. “It’s all I have left for the pain,” she whispered to me, but kept her eyes on his face.
There was a quiet woman whose name I never knew, with a quiet child called Charlotte. They always kept near us, as if they had some sense that we were safer people than others on the boat. They both slept on the other side of my mother. On that day the woman approached my father and held his hand as if they had known each other a long time. “Never mind,” she repeated several times, in low coos. Eventually the repetition of this strange phrase calmed him into a steady breathing. For a time.
On the fifteenth day he became delusional.
“Take the knife and cut them off,” he said, over and over until I could not bear to hear it. His arm shot out and took hold of the knife I kept around my neck, pulling it so hard that I was propelled forward, but wrestling it away from him wasn’t difficult. “The devil has ahold of my legs and won’t let go. Take the knife and—” I capped my hands over my ears and hummed—This one goes out to the one I love—to block out his cries. I had never heard him speak of anything such as the devil before. I had surely never heard him cry out like this. Then I lost my patience and pressed my hand over his mouth so he would stop. I’m haunted by how it must have hurt when I pushed his blistered lips against his teeth. But perhaps this was a brief distraction from the poison coursing through his veins. Still, I have so many regrets such as this. That is the thing people rarely mention to you about grief: all of the regrets.
Sometimes he whispered this same thing ove. . .
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