Jane Steele

by Lyndsay Faye

Genres: Historical Fiction; Literary Fiction

Synopsis

'Reader, I murdered him.' JANE STEELE is a brilliant Gothic retelling of JANE EYRE from Edgar-nominated Lyndsay Faye, for fans of LONGBOURN and PRIDE AND PREJUDICE AND ZOMBIES. 'I loved it' - Elly Griffiths.,/p.

Like the heroine of the novel she adores, Jane Steele suffers cruelly at the hands of her aunt and schoolmaster. And like Jane Eyre, they call her wicked - but in her case, she fears the accusation is true. When she flees, she leaves behind the corpses of her tormentors.

A fugitive navigating London's underbelly, Jane rights wrongs on behalf of the have-nots whilst avoiding the noose. Until an advertisement catches her eye. Her aunt has died and the new master at Highgate House, Mr Thornfield, seeks a governess. Anxious to know if she is Highgate's true heir, Jane takes the position and is soon caught up in the household's strange spell. When she falls in love with the mysterious Charles Thornfield, she faces a terrible dilemma: can she possess him - body, soul and secrets - and what if he discovers her murderous past?

Release date: March 22, 2016

Publisher: G.P. Putnam's Sons

Print pages: 400

Sample

ONE
 
“…I wouldn’t have her heart for anything.  Say your prayers, Miss Eyre, when you are by yourself; for if you don’t repent, something bad might be permitted to come down the chimney, and fetch you away.”
 
 
Of all my many murders, committed for love and for better reasons, the first was the most important.
Already this project proves more difficult than I had ever imagined.  Autobiographies depend upon truth; but I have been lying for such a very long, lonesome time.
“Jane, will you be my friend again?” Edwin Barbary had asked. 
My cousin’s lips were gnawed red, his skin gleaming with exertion and desire.  When his fleshy mouth next moved, the merest croak emerged.  He breathed precisely five more times, the fat folds of his belly shuddering against his torn waistcoat, and then he stilled like a depleted clockwork toy.
More of my homicides anon—the astute among you will desire to know why a dyed-in-the-wool villainess takes up pen and foolscap in the first place.  I have been reading over and over again the most riveting book titled Jane Eyre, and the work inspires me to imitative acts.  My new printing features a daring introduction by the author railing against the first edition’s critics.  I relate to this story almost as I would a friend or a lover—at times I want to breathe its entire alphabet into my lungs, and at others I should prefer to throw it across the room.  Whoever heard of disembodied voices calling to governesses, of all people, as this Jane’s do? 
Hereby do I avow that I, Jane Steele, in all my days working as a governess, never once heard ethereal cries carried to me upon the brawny shoulders of the North Wind; and had I done, I should have kept silent for fear of being labeled eccentric.
Faulting the work for its wild fancies seems petty, however, for there are marvellous moments within.  I might myself once have written:
 
Why was I always suffering, always browbeaten, always accused, for ever condemned? Why could I never please? Why was it useless to try to win any one’s favour?
 
I left such reflections behind me in childhood, at the bottom of the small ravine where my first cousin drew his final gurgling breaths.  Yet I find myself pitying the strange, kindly Jane in the novel whose biography is so weirdly similar; she, too, was as welcome in her aunt’s household as are churchmice in the Communion larder, and was sent to a hell in the guise of a girls’ school.  That Jane was unfairly accused of wickedness, however, while I can no better answer my detractors than to thank them for their pains over stating the obvious.
It was the boarding school that taught me to act as a wolf in girl’s clothing should: skulking, a greyer shadow within a grey landscape.  It was London which formed me into a pale, wide-eyed creature with an errant laugh, a lust for life and for dirty vocabulary, and a knife in her pockets.  It was Charles who changed everything, when I fell in love with him under the burdens of a false identity and a blighted conscience.  The beginning of a memoir could be made in any of those places, but without my dear cousin Edwin Barbary, none of the rest would have happened at all, so I hereby begin my account with the unembellished truth:
Reader, I murdered him.
 
~~~
 
            I may always have been wicked, but I was not always universally loathed.  For instance, I remember my mother asking me at five years old, “Are you hurt, cherie?”
Then as now, I owned a pallid complexion and listlessly curling hair the colour of hazelnut shells.  Having just fallen flat on my face in the garden behind our cottage on the outskirts of Highgate House, I considered whether or not to cry.  The strawberries I had gathered were crushed under my apron, painting me with sweet gore.  I pored over the best stratagems to gain my mother’s undivided attention perennially in those days—back when I believed I might be merely naughty, fit to be punished in the here and not the hereafter. 
            As it happened, my mother had been well all day.  We had navigated no weeping, no laudanum, no gnawing at already-bleeding fingernails; she was teasing and coaxing, snatching my hand up as she wondered whether we might cover some biscuits with berries and fresh honey and host an impromptu picnic.
Therefore, I saw no need to cry.  Instead, I stuck out my tongue at the offending root and gulped down the swelling at the back of my throat. 
“I’m fine,” I told her, “though my wrist is sore.”
Smiling from where she sat on a quilted blanket beneath our cascading willow, she called, “Come here then, and let me see.”
My mother was French.  She spoke to me often in that language, and I found this flattering; she directed her native tongue at no one else unless she desired to illustrate their ignorance.  She seemed to me unpredictable and glimmering as a butterfly, one worthy of being collected and displayed under glass.  I was proud of her; I belonged to her.  She noticed me when no one else bothered, and I could make her laugh when she could bear no one else.
Ma mere studied my wrist, brushed the specks of juice and flesh from my pinafore, and directed a dry look in my eyes. 
“It is not very serious,” she declared lightly in French.  “Not even to a spun-sugar little girl.”
“It hurts,” I insisted, thinking it may have been better to cry after all.
“Then it is most profoundly serious to me,” she proclaimed, again in French, and proceeded to kiss me until I was helpless with giggling. 
“And I lost all the berries.”
“But consider—there is no harm done.  We shall go and gather more.  After all, have you anything of consequence to do?”
The answer was no; there was nothing of consequence to do, as this garden party took place at midnight under a wan, watchful moon.  Having spent my entire life in my mother’s company, I thought nothing amiss herein, though I was vexed I had not seen the root which had tripped me.  Surely other little girls donned lace-lined frocks and enjoyed picnics featuring trifle and tea cakes, sitting with their mothers under the jewel-strewn canopy of starlight, never dreaming of sleep until the cold dew threatened and we began to shiver.
Do they not? I would anxiously ask myself.
It is relevant that my beloved mother, Anne-Laure Steele, was detested throughout our familial estate, and for two sound reasons.  First, as I mentioned, she was—tragically and irrevocably—French.  Second, my mother was beautiful. 
I do not mean beautiful in the conventional insipid fashion; I mean that my mother was actually beautiful, bizarrely so, in the ghostly, wide-gazed sense.  She possessed a determined square chin, a chin I share, so that she always looked stubborn even when meekness was selling at a premium.  Her hair was dark with a brick-red sheen and her almond-shaped eyes were framed beneath by pretty caverns; her wrists had thin scars like pearlescent bracelets which I did not then understand. 
At times she screamed under the indifferent moon in French for my dead father.  At others she refused to budge from the bed until, groaning at the slanting afternoon light, she allowed our combined cook and housemaid, Agatha, to ply her with tea. 
What’s the matter, Mamma? I would ask softly.  Now I am grown, I comprehend her answers far better than I did then.
Only that yesterday was so very, very long.
Only that my eyes are tired and nothing in the new novel I thought I’d like so well means as much to me as I imagined it would.
Only that I cannot think of a useful occupation, and when I do the task daunts me, and so cannot attempt it anyhow, sweet one.
Never could I predict when her smile would blaze forth again, nor earn enough of the feathery kisses she would drop to my brow inexplicably—as if I was worthy of them for no reason at all.
In short, my mother and I—two friendly monsters—found each other lovely and hoped daily that others would find us so as well.
They did not.
 
~~~
 
I shall explain how I embarked upon a life of infamy, but first what my mother told me regarding my inheritance.
When I was six years old, my mother announced in French, in August, in the shade-dappled garden, “One day you will have everything, cherie, even the main house.  It all belonged to your father and will always be yours—there are documents to this effect despite the fact inheritance for girls is always a highly complicated matter.  Meanwhile, our cottage may be poor and plain, but you understand the many difficulties.”
I did not fully understand the many difficulties, though I assumed my aunt and cousin, who lived in the estate proper, did so because they were haughty and wanted the entire pile of mossy stonework, complete with dour servants and taspetries hanging somber as funeral shrouds, to themselves.  Neither did I think our cottage, with its mullioned windows and its roaring fireplaces and its cheery bay windows, was either poor or plain.  I did, however, understand particular difficulties, ones regarding how well we got on with our relations.
“You see the way your aunt looks at me—you know we cannot live at the main house.  Here we are safe and warm and friendly and ourselves,” she added fretfully, worrying at the cuticle upon her left thumb as her eyes pooled.
“Je deteste la manse,” I announced. 
Passing her my ever-ready kerchief, I dried her tears.  I plucked wild sorrel to sprinkle over our fish supper and told everyone who would listen—which amounted only to my mother and frayed, friendly Agatha—let us always live just as we please, for I love you both.
Such was not to be.
 
~~~
 
My aunt Mrs. Patience Barbary, mother of Edwin Barbary, was like my mother a widow.  She had been wed to Mr. Richard Barbary; Mr. Richard Barbary was the half-brother of my own father, Jonathan Steele, whose claim to Highgate House was entire and never called into question in my presence.
In fact, one of our visits to the main house, shortly after my ninth birthday, centered around just such a discussion.
“It is so very kind of you to have us for tea,” Anne-Laure Steele said, her smile glinting subtly. “I have said often to Jane that she should better familiarise herself with the estate—after all, she will live here when she is grown, and mon Dieu, to think what mismanagement could occur if she did not know its…I think, in English, intricacies?”
Aunt Patience was a sturdy woman wearing perennial mourning black, though she never otherwise appeared to regret her lack of spouse.  Perhaps she was mourning something else entirely: her lost youth, for example, or the heathens in darkest Ethiope who perished in ignorance of Christ. 
Certainly my uncle Richard was never mentioned nor seemed he much missed, which I found curious since his portraits were scattered throughout the house—a wedding watercolour from a friend in the drawing room, an oil study of a distinguished man of business in the library.  Uncle Richard had owned a set of defined, almost pouting lips, an arched brow with a peaked head of dark hair, and something rakish in his eyes made him seem more dashing than I imagined “men of business” ought to look—ants all walking very fast with their heads down, a row of indistinguishable umbrellas.  I thought, had I known him, I should have liked him.  I wondered what possessed him to marry Aunt Patience of all people.
Thankfully, Patience Barbary was blessed with a face ensuring that conjugal affronts would not happen twice, which did her tremendous credit—or at least, she always threw beauty in the teeth, as it were, of my own Mamma, who smiled frigidly following such ripostes. Aunt Patience had a very wide frog’s visage with a ruddy complexion and lips like a seam in stonemasonry.
“So much time passed in our great Empire,” Aunt Patience sighed following my mother’s uncertainty over vocabulary.  “And despite that, such a terrible facility with our language.  I ask you, is that a proper example to set for the—as you would have it—future mistress of Highgate House?”
“It might not be,” my mother replied with snow lacing her tone, “but I am not often invited to practice your tongue.”
“Oh!” my aunt mused.  “That must be very vexing.”
I yearned to leap to my mother’s defense, but sat there helplessly dumb, for my aunt hated me only marginally less than she did my mother.  After all, I was awkward and gangly, possessed only of my Mamma’s too-thin neck and too-thoughtful expressions.  My eyes were likewise catlike—voluptuous, in truth—but the plainest of ordinary cedar browns in colour.  My mother ought to have done better by me, I thought on occasion.  Her own eyes were a strange, distant topaz like shards of frozen honey.
I never blamed my father, Jonathan Steele, for my shortcomings.  I never expected anything of him—not remembering him—and thus could not expect more of him.
“Aimes-tu votre gateau?” my mother asked me next.
“Ce n’est pas tres bien, Mamma.”
Aunt Patience simmered beneath her widow’s weeds; she supposed the French language a threat and, in retrospect, she may have been correct. 
“Pauvres petite,” my mother commiserated.
Mamma and Aunt Patience embarked upon a resounding and communicative silence, and I felt Cousin Edwin’s eyes on me like a set of hot pinpricks; when the adults abandoned decorum in favour of spitting false compliments and heartfelt censures at one another, he launched his offensive.
“I’ve a new archery set I should show you, Jane,” he murmured.
For a child’s tones, Edwin’s were weirdly insuinuating.  The quick bloom of instinctual camaraderie always withered upon the instant I recalled what my cousin was actually like.  Meanwhile, I wanted to see a new archery set very much indeed—only sans Edwin or, better still, with a different Edwin altogether.
My cousin was four years my elder, thirteen at the time.  Our relationship had always been peculiar, but as of 1837, it had begun to take on a darker cast.  I do not mean only on his behalf—I alternately ignored and engaged him, and was brought to task for this capriciousness by every adult in our household.  I let them assume me fickle rather than snobbish when actually I was both.  Granted, I needed him; he was closer my own age than anyone, and he seemed nigh-drowning for my attention when no one else save my mother noticed that I breathed their castoff air. 
Edwin, on the other hand, was what his mother considered a model child; he was brown-haired and red-faced and sheepdog-simple.  He chewed upon his bottom lip perennially, as if afraid it might go suddenly missing.
“Have you seen the new mare yet?” he inquired next.  “We might take a drive in the fly-trap tomorrow.”
I maintained silence.  On the last occasion we had shared a drive in the fly-trap, the candied aroma of clover in our noses, Edwin had parted his trouser front and shown me the flesh resting like a grubworm within the cotton, asking whether I knew what it was used for.  (I do now; I did not then.)  Other than gaping dumbly as he returned the twitching apparatus to its confines, I elected to ignore the incident.  Cousin Edwin was approximately as perspicacious as my collection of feathers, which made my own cleverness feel embarrassingly like cheating.  It shamed me to disdain him so when he was my elder, and when the thick cords of childhood proximity knotted us so tightly to one another.
Just before arriving home, he had asked whether I wished to touch it next time we were in the woods, and I laughed myself insensible as his flushed face darkened to violet.
“You are a wicked thing to ignore your own kin so, Jane,” Edwin persisted.
Kin, kin, kin was ever his anthem: as if we were more than related, as if we were kindred.  When I failed to cooperate, he stared as if I were a puzzle to be sorted.  My dawning fear was that he might think I was in fact a puzzle—inanimate, insensible.  While I no longer presume to have a conscience, I have never once lacked for feelings.
“But perhaps you are only glum.  I know!  Will you play a game with me after tea?”
Games were a favourite of my mother’s, and of mine—and while I was wary of my cousin, I was not afraid of him.  He adored me.
“What sort of game?”
“Trading Secrets,” he rasped.  “I’ve loads and loads.  Awful ones.  You must have some of your own.  It’ll be a lark to exchange them.”
Considering my stockpile of secrets, I found myself reluctant. 
I tell Agatha every night I’ll say my prayers, but ever since I skipped them and nothing happened six months ago, I don’t. 
I tried my mother’s laudanum once because she said it made everything better, and I was ill and lied about it. 
My kitten scratched me and I was so angry that I let it outside, and afterward it never came home and I feel sick in my belly every time I imagine the kitten shivering in the dark, cold woods.
I did not want Edwin to know any of these things.
“Fiddle!  You aren’t sharp enough to know any secrets worth having,” I scoffed instead, pushing crumbs around my plate.
Edwin was painfully aware of his own slowness, and hot blood crawled up his cheeks.  I nearly apologized then and there, knowing it was what a good girl would do and feeling magnanimous, but then he rose from the table.  The adults, still merrily loathing each other over the gilt-edged lips of their teacups, paid us no mind.
“Of course I do,” he growled under his breath.  “For instance, are you ashamed that your mother is no better than a parasite?”
My mouth fell open as I gaped at my cousin.
“Oh, yes.  Or don’t you hear any gossip?  Doesn’t anyone come to visit you?”
This was a cruel blow.  “You know that they don’t.  No one ever does.”
“Why not, Jane?  I’ve always wondered.”
“Because we are kept like cattle on our own land!” I cried, smashing my fist heedlessly against a butter plate.
When the porcelain flew through the air and shattered to smithereens upon the hardwood, my cousin’s face reflected stupid dismay.  My mother’s was equally startled, but approving; I had only been repeating something she slurred once during a very bad night indeed.
Aunt Patience’s face practically split with the immensity of her delight, as it is no unpleasant thing when an enemy proves one’s own point gratis.
“I invite you for tea and this is the way your…your inexcusable daughter behaves?” she protested shrilly.  “I should beat the temper out of her if I were you, and lose no time about it.  There is nothing like a stout piece of hickory for the prevention of unseemly habits.”
My mother stood and smoothed her light cotton dress down as if she had pressing obligations elsewhere.  “My inexcusable daughter is bright and high-spirited.”
“No, she is a coy little minx whose sly ways will lead her to a bad end if you fail to correct her.”
“And what is your child?” Mrs. Steele hissed, throwing down her napkin.  “An overfed dunce?  Jane does not suffer by comparison, I assure you.  We will not trouble you here again.” 
“You will not be welcome here again,” Aunt Patience spat.  “I must offer you my congratulations, Anne-Laure.  To so completely cut yourself off from polite society, and then to offend the one person who graciously allows you to sit at the same table—what an extraordinary effort on your part.  Very well, I shall oblige both our tastes.  If you cannot control that harpy you call a daughter, do keep entirely to your residence in future.  I certainly shall to mine.”
            My mother’s defiance crumbled, leaving a wistful look.  Aunt Patience’s plodding nature would have been forgivable had she been clever or kind, I decided; but as she was common and gloating, I hated her and would hate her forever.
Mamma softly pulled her fingers into small fists.
“Please in future recall my daughter’s rights, all of her rights, or you will regret it,” Mrs. Steele ordered, giving the table a single nod. 
She departed without a glance behind her.  Mamma often stormed away so, however—ferocious exists were decidedly her style, so I remained to assess what damage we had wrought this time.
Aunt Patience, though purple and fairly vibrating with rage, managed to say, “Would you care for more cake, Edwin and Jane?”
“I goaded her, Mummy.  I’m sorry for what I said before,” Edwin added to me, his tooth clenching his lip.  He wore a stiff collar that afternoon, I recall, above a brown waistcoat and maroon jacket, and his neck bulged obscenely from its confines.
“That’s all right, Edwin.  Thank you for tea, Aunt Patience.”  Like most children, I loathed nothing more than embarrassing myself, and the sight of the fragmented china was making me physically ill.  I rose from the table.  “I had better...goodbye, then.”
Aunt Patience’s eyes burned into me as I departed.
I went to the stables that evening, where I could visit the docile mares and peer into soft liquid eyes, and I could stop thinking about my cousin.  Thinking about Edwin was a private class in self-loathing: I hated myself for indulging his mulish attraction, yet it had been a tidal pull for me over years of reluctant camaraderie.
Flattery, I have found, is a great treat for those born innately selfish. 
For the hundredth time, the thousandth time, I stood listening to soft whinnies like lullabies, pressing my cheek against sinewy necks; whether the horses at Highgate House liked me or my sugar cubes I have no notion, but they never glowered, nor warned me I teetered upon the paper-thin tightrope of eternal damnation.  Smelling sweet hay and their rich bristled coats always calmed me—and I calmed them in turn, for a particularly fidgety colt often stilled in my presence.
My thoughts drifted from the the horses to the uses I might make of them.  I daydreamed of riding to an apple-blossom meadow where my mother and I should do nothing save eat and laugh; I envisioned charging into war, the heads of Aunt Patience and Edwin lying neatly chopped at my feet.
Mamma and I never took more than a light supper in the springtime, and following a departure as precipitous as the one she had just executed, I knew that she would lock herself away with her novels and tonics, and thus I stayed out until the wind began to nip through the slats in the great stable door and the horses’ snuffles quieted under my caresses…never realising until the following day, in fact, that I had been left entirely, permanently alone.
The ominous liquorice aroma of strong tonic drenched our cottage when I arrived home at eight o’clock.  I was told my mother had retired to bed at seven, which was unfortunate timing, as I never saw her again. Our servant Agatha found her the next morning, still and cold in her bed, marble eyes directed at the window.