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After I bury him in the soil next to the airplane, and mark the spot with a cross made out of some broken propeller blades — it's a shallow grave, because that's all I can do with my two hands and a makeshift spade, so someone must return with men and tools to bury him properly — I enter the cabin to sweep the interior a final time with the beam of my flashlight.
In the corner where the body lay, there sits a small leather book.
Because it's been sheltered all this time, and because the climate's so dry, this book is in perfect condition. Unlike everything else, it's not coated in dust. The leather is clean and unstained, and when I lift it and open the pages, I find that it's not a printed book but a journal of some kind, in which someone has written in a firm black hand, notes and sketches and scrappy thoughts, until he stopped, about two-thirds of the way through.
Even with the help of the flashlight, I can't read it well, and anyway it's awkward to hold flashlight and book at the same time. I move outside and stand near the turned earth, the crude metal cross, and open the book again.
Against the cold afternoon light, the words jump from the page in a hand so familiar, it's as if I wrote it myself. But I did not. This is a story I never knew, a man I never knew. The mule brays at me; I don't have time to sit and read this through. I'll slip it in my pocket and read it when I return to my room in the primitive pension in Pamplona.
But I won't wait that long to find out how the story ends. Of course not. No one alive has that kind of patience, and certainly not me. I turn to the final entry, 5/15/37 in black numbers. His last thoughts, this lone, forgotten man; the last words his fingers would form before annihilation. A single line that wobbles and slants across the page, so you must squint your eyes and pick out the letters and put them together again in your head.
GM to rescue at last thank God She will live
I set my thumb on the page and close the book.
Nearby, the metal cross glints in the sun. A skiff of sand whirls in spirals around it. What a mystery! I mean, how the devil do they do it, these tiny, individual grains? How do they swirl about in communion with each other? Create this thoughtless symmetry? Nothing is random in nature; it is all pattern, pattern, pattern.
I open the book again. The wind riffles the pages. I find my place and read the entry again. The mule brays, irritated. I place my finger under the line and trace the words while I read once more, now aloud. Still their pattern escapes me.
GM to rescue? She will live?
Rescue. Somebody came to his rescue? Then why is he dead?
And who is She? There was no she, just this single man in his airplane. No second body lies here, no female body. Besides, Velázquez said nothing about a She.
On the other hand, Velázquez never did reveal a single detail he was bound to keep quiet, did he? Velázquez would never have mentioned this woman if her presence here were a secret.
The wind dies briefly. The sand settles back to earth, as if it had never dared to leave, and I believe I can hear the sound of my blood as it wooshes down my veins.
Well, then. Suppose there was a woman on board, a She. A woman whose presence was a secret. A She who was rescued, as the line suggests, while the man who wrote the line was left behind to die. A woman who flew airplanes. A woman who meant so much to this man, this skeleton, that he would thank God for her survival, even in the face of his own annihilation. A woman, let's say, who had also disappeared during the spring of 1937 — famously so — less than a month before this airplane went down. Two grains of sand, moving in communion with each other.
My God, I think.
Why did I never see it before?
I slide the leather book into the pocket of my coat. My fingers are numb, even inside the gloves. Already the sun falls, the air turns, the wind grows colder against my cheek. The mule brays once more, like he means it, lady. It's time to go.
I untie the mule from the juniper bush, but before I climb aboard, I turn to the silent airplane, the cross, the dunes of sand, and fix the scene in my memory. This was supposed to be the end of the journey, and it seems it's only the beginning. The diary is like a hot coal in my pocket. She will live. I stick my foot in the stirrup and swing into the saddle. The book strikes my thigh. A new road stretches before me, toward some destination that is not a place but a person, a woman who's supposed to be dead but might instead be alive, be saved, according to the orisons of a dying man, preserved in this ink and leather that beats against my leg as the mule strikes off gratefully toward Pamplona.
Because here's what I know for certain about that pile of abandoned bones, which was once a pilot named Samuel Mallory. There was only one She.
Only one person in the world to make him invoke the name of God.