Happy Family

by Tracy Barone

Genres: Family Life; Literary Fiction; Women's Fiction

Synopsis

One of these things is not like the other. That's how Cheri Matzner felt growing up in her adoptive family, and it's what continues to define her as she tries to start a family of her own. Funny and fierce, desperate for connection yet pushing it away with both hands, she needs to jump-start a marriage in danger of flatlining and save her career from scandal. But Cheri is still contending with a complicated relationship with her parents-her aging Italian bombshell of a mother and a distant father who looms large, even in death-unaware of the sacrifices they made to be together or of the difficult truths and lies in their marriage. When tragedy unravels Cheri's well-designed defenses, she is thrust into an odyssey of acceptance that brings her full circle back to her dramatic origins.

Sometimes it takes half a lifetime to come of age. To be able to glimpse our parents beyond their roles as our parents. To uncover the many versions of truth within our family stories and within our own. And to laugh at it all just a little bit sooner.

Release date: May 24, 2016

Publisher: Little, Brown and Company

Print pages: 400

Sample

The pregnant girl enters the Trenton Family Clinic, looking like she parted the Red Sea to get there. The lower half of her dress is wet with amniotic fluid, and the upper half is streaked with sweat. She stands, shifting her weight from foot to foot, in the waiting room near the check-in window. She breathes in quick, sharp breaths; no identification, no insurance card. The entire contents of her plastic purse: one dollar and thirty-nine cents, half a roll of Necco wafers, a chewed pencil, and a hand-shaped pendant with an eye in its center. She’s sixteen or seventeen, with white-white skin and black hair. She smells like tobacco and spices that don’t come in tins at the Stop and Shop. A jolt of pain makes her feel like her flesh is being stripped from her bones. “Hey.” She pants, gripping the ledge of the window. “Hey, somebody.”

The somebodies around don’t have white coats, caps, or name tags. They sit or stand, pressing towels to wounds, looking dazed or scared. An elderly man wearing a janitor’s uniform strains first to pull, then to push a fat man off a chair and onto a gurney. The man has lost a shoe, has blood spatter on his pants. During one attempt, the janitor tips into the gurney, sending it caroming into a wall.

“Nurse?” the girl asks.

On a regular day, the nurses wouldn’t have been in a rush to help this girl. They see poor kids like her all the time—although they’re not white, not in this neighborhood. But this is not a regular day. It’s a short-straw Sunday, and the majority of the clinic staff are off; they’re in movie theaters or dipping their feet in water, anywhere to get out of the record-breaking August heat. The nurses and lone doctor on duty are in the back, overwhelmed with trauma patients—victims of a highway collision—who, due to a generator failure at St. Mercy General, have been routed to the clinic because it’s the only medical facility within miles.

The girl feels faint. The only fan stopped working long ago, and the air is close and thick with the rust smell of blood, bleach, and something nasty somebody’s just thrown up all over the floor. A teenage orderly slops over with a bucket and mop and swipes at the vomit, which streaks close to the girl’s bare feet. She squeezes closer to the window just in time for another pain, this one sharper, longer, harder to endure. The orderly’s eyes dart from the floor to the girl. He can see the dark rings of her areolas through the thin fabric of her dress. The girl moans and the boy quickly looks down.

“Orderly!” A nurse with a name tag that reads Syl sticks her head into the waiting room, points at the kid, and then disappears. He looks up—What, me?—and his left hand involuntarily starts curling as if around an imaginary ball. The girl closes her eyes and sees floating specks of orange and gold.

When the girl’s contraction has subsided, the orderly and the janitor are gone. She waits. She walks, she sits on her heels, she breathes and forgets to breathe; she waits for the next pain to come, then waits for it to go away. She waits—it could be minutes or hours—until she feels a nurse’s fleshy arms around her, pulling her to a standing position. “Come on, you can walk. Just around the corner.”

Just around the corner is one big room sectioned into cubicles by curtains. All of the cubicles are full of what the nurse calls “real emergencies.”

“Wait here,” Syl says, trotting off.

The girl is left standing. Movement had blunted the pain for a few seconds, but her next contraction is so intense she bites the inside of her cheek until she tastes blood. Between ragged breaths—she’s already determined that calling for help will do no good—she focuses on the little tables next to each patient’s cubicle. On the tables are pink, kidney-shaped trays filled with bottles of medications, pills in paper cups. No one is paying attention to her. The nurses’ station is untended. The girl moves toward a table parked beside the bed of an unconscious person with a surgical mask over his or her face. In one quick movement, she swipes a syringe and two bottles identified with a typed strip that says Morphine. Her hand shakes from the aftershock of labor pains, but she’d shoot up right there if it weren’t for Syl’s returning.

Syl is nothing if not efficient; she’s converted a corner next to the bathroom into a birthing station and an IV awaits. Within minutes, she’s got the girl hooked up and lying on a cot, covered with a paper sheet. Syl feels around inside the girl to see how dilated she is. The girl clenches the vials in her hand so hard her fingernails bite into her palm.

“No time to put you out,” Syl says into the chasm of the girl’s open vagina. And the nurse is off to retrieve something, a doctor perhaps.

I’m going out, all right, the girl thinks as she plunges the syringe into the first bottle of morphine. She’s on a first-name basis with Dilaudid, Nembutal, chloral hydrate, opium smoked from a hookah in Chinatown. She taps the side to make sure there are no air bubbles and sticks it in the feed to her IV line. As the girl feels the first gold filigree spread its fingers through her body, she thinks she is lucky. Lucky to be in the last bed in this, her Last Resort.

Syl’s back, lifting something wet from underneath the girl. She barks at the orderly, who has suddenly materialized. The girl doesn’t care. She’s warm and open, lying in the sun. She squints a little from the heat, then closes her eyes again. “Doctor’s coming,” Syl says. To the girl, everything sounds like it’s underwater. Maybe she’s floating on her back in the ocean and her ears have dipped below the surface. She is aware of friction in her womb and the need to bear down and push. And yet the pain is hovering above her, outside her body.

“Don’t bear down. Hold on for the doctor,” Syl says.

The girl is laughing because the baby is popping out. She hoists herself up on her elbows and sees a white-crusted head, the neck still inside of her.

“Don’t bear down!” Syl insists. As if the girl had any control. As if she could stop the head from opening its eyes, locking onto her. The doctor appears in bloodied scrubs, but with one push, the baby flops out like a bass. “Girl,” Syl says. She already knows that because the baby’s speaking to her in thoughts no one else can hear. I am here to love you, Miriam, the newborn says. At the sound of her name, Miriam starts to cry.

Before, Miriam couldn’t feel connected to another person, even when their bodies were fused and melting into each other. Having a man inside of her, lying stomach to stomach, thigh to thigh, forehead to forehead, she felt only the nothingness of herself. She yearned to be filled, yet when somebody was inside her, she wanted only to escape. Now, as she and her baby are separate yet still one, united by the cord that still joins them, Miriam understands the ecstasy of connectedness. Her thoughts and the baby’s thoughts flow through the cord effortlessly. Miriam pictures herself, eyes ringed with kohl, standing in front of the sea in the blue dress her mother made her. She holds the baby up to the sky like an offering. Miriam is breathing in her child’s sweet, sweet breath and listening to her words. We’ll fly to bliss, she says, and her baby carries them up and into the clouds.

But her baby is being taken away. The doctor has cut the cord with his scissors and has given the crying infant to Syl to take someplace to weigh and measure and clean.

Miriam is shivering so badly she thinks she’ll fall off the gurney. She’s alone and her body aches and is so cold. She wishes she had a blanket. She tries to go back to the blue dress, the sea—but they are only thoughts. She still has the other little bottle; she’d meant to save it, but she can’t wait, she’s shaking with cold and can’t feel her lips. She’ll have to worry about later later; she needs it now.

Whhhhhhssshhhhh—the liquid is hot in her veins and she hears the blip of someone else’s machine. She can wriggle her toes and feel the sun, just like the one on the postcard from the Jersey Shore—the one she’d sent to that nice man after she’d found out he’d made her pregnant. She didn’t know why she felt the need to go south; maybe she was a confused bird, or because after they’d make love he’d cry in her hair and call her his treasure. What was his name again? Something with a J, like Jesse or James or Jerry. He’d let her stay with him and didn’t ask her where she was going and when she’d be back. He’d stroke her hair and make her something with potato chips and soup from a can. And he made this baby. How could she tell him that opium is beyond sex? All she wanted was to suck the white dove of smoke out from under a glass and then eat a chocolate bar. What is she supposed to do with a baby? She’s never had a pet, though she likes turtles. She keeps losing herself, how can she hold on to someone else? She feels no pain now, but she knows it is coming, that she has only so long before she’s in worse pain than when she was in labor and there will be no more little bottles or nice Jerrys.

Miriam knows her baby is safe. She’s being wrapped up in a soft blanket and the nurse is washing her and kissing her head like in a baby-shampoo commercial.

Miriam thinks of the child in The Red Balloon. It’s the only movie she’s ever seen, wearing kneesocks, eating sticky toffee, and drinking soda pop that made her burp out of her nose. No matter that the man she was with pushed his hand between her legs during the best part. She doesn’t care about any of that because it’s so nice lying here—just one more moment with heavy lids, drifting—one, two, three, four, let’s walk out the door. Five, six, seven, eight, get up now before it’s too late.

Miriam sits up and takes the saline bag off its hook. Nobody has come, nobody is watching. She keeps the IV in her arm and puts the tubing and the bag under her dress. She was supposed to remember to do something. What was it? She wanted to write something down. She looks around and finds her purse, fishes for her pencil. She smooths down a semiclean part of her crushed paper sheet and writes what she thinks is the father’s full name and where he lives. Then she picks up her purse and, as an afterthought, pulls out the hand pendant—it should protect her baby now. She places it on the sheet next to Jerry’s name and walks out of the clinic. Nobody notices. Nobody except the teenage boy who leans on his mop, watching her disappear into the hot blast of day.

Billy Beal runs. He runs because his pops insists he train year-round despite the fact that high school baseball season doesn’t start until the spring. He runs in the predawn darkness, accelerating his pace when he feels the headlights of Pops’s station wagon lick the back of his legs. It’s all uphill from here—he’ll have to beat his time from yesterday or do another ten miles. “You’re falling behind,” Pops yells, “get a move on, Billy Beal. Motivate.” It doesn’t matter that Billy Beal was the only East Trenton High School junior to play in the Great Northern League Baseball Tournament, or that, with his team trailing five to three in the third inning, he came in and struck out the side for six innings in a row, paving the way for his team’s championship victory. He can always do better.

This morning, like almost every morning for the past two weeks since the girl left her baby in the clinic, Billy Beal’s brain is stuck in a groove. Each day it gets worse because it’s one day closer to the start of school and one less chance he’s got of seeing her again. When school begins, he will have done his community-service hours and will have no excuse to go back to the clinic. What if she comes to pick up her baby the day after he leaves? Then he’ll never see her again. If he never sees her again, he can’t give her back the charm she’d left among the dirty towels. He’ll say something like: “I think you forgot this.” Of course the charm won’t be what she’s coming back for, he knows that. Just like he knows she didn’t abandon her baby, at least not forever. “You’re a romantic, Billy Beal,” Moms had said when he told her the girl would be back.

“Focus, son,” Pops shouts out of the station wagon’s open window. They’ve reached the bottom of the hill, and Billy Beal’s American Legion T-shirt has a dark V of sweat at the neck. He would have pitched in the American Legion World Series in California last month if he hadn’t gotten involved playing lookout for Manny Cannerni’s liquor-store robbery. Eight weeks of community service at the worst clinic in Trenton was getting off light, the judge had said. Billy Beal never thought about anything other than the baseball he was missing as he pushed dirt around on the floor of the clinic. Until the girl came in.

She didn’t look like anybody he’d seen before. Certainly nothing like the girls who went to his high school. If she had gone to his school, he would have wanted to ask her to homecoming—if he’d ever go to a dance or dare to ask a girl her name. True, he wasn’t seeing the girl in the best of circumstances—there was a lot of puffing and heaving going on—but she had clean nails and a nice dress. It didn’t matter that she didn’t have shoes; she had pretty feet. She didn’t scream when nobody paid attention to her, or freak out about the vomit on the floor. He thought she looked at him when he was mopping around her; she noticed him. Which was unusual because Billy Beal felt invisible except on the pitcher’s mound.

As far back as Billy Beal can remember, his world has been dominated by men: Pops, his two older brothers, and everything baseball. If high school girls were prey to the letter-jacket-aphrodisiac effect, Billy Beal was unaware of it. The girls he knew—cousins who smelled like corned beef from working part-time in the deli—were like old socks. His brothers didn’t bring girls to the house; they went to Asbury Park with beers they’d pilfered from the deli and came home with hickeys on their necks. But Billy Beal wasn’t blind. He noticed how girls changed in high school: their circle-pinned shirts got tighter, their pleated skirts shorter, and everywhere he looked there were legs. Legs in the bleachers, legs crossing and uncrossing under the desks. Girl legs that were frighteningly downy and soft; coltish thighs and calves speckled with blond hair, ankles covered with bobby socks that would sometimes slip down to expose a curve of bone.

None of this came close to preparing Billy Beal for the pregnant girl. The few times he’d seen women come into the clinic to have babies, they were taken behind a curtain, and he’d drown out their cries by running baseball stats in his head. The inner workings of femaleness made him squeamish. The last thing he wanted to see was a baby coming out of a girl—especially a girl his age. He stared at a scraped-up patch of linoleum on the floor and inhaled the ammonia vapors from his bucket. Then Sylvia was snapping her fingers at him, saying, “Are you deaf? I asked for towels!” The girl was losing a lot of blood. He’d gotten down on his hands and knees and scraped up all kinds of clots and body fluids but he’d never associated those remnants with a face before. Billy Beal not only looked at this girl’s face, he memorized its contours. She didn’t frighten or shock him. Her face was soft as she turned toward him, and he could swear her eyes flashed out a message to him in code. I know you, Billy Beal, they said.

Billy Beal thinks about the girl’s eyes, which were practically transparent, like drained Coca-Cola bottles, like he could see through them right into her. Was she doing the same to him? Billy Beal runs past their mailbox, might have kept going but for Pops yelling and holding up his stopwatch: “Made it by three-tenths of a second. Sometimes I think you’re somewhere else, I swear to Christ.” They’re walking in the front door, which has a perennial Christmas wreath nailed on it, and Billy Beal’s mouth is a desert. “Peg? Peg? Did that goddamned Ralphie take the extra keys, because I couldn’t find them. Peg, goddamn it!” Pops looks up and there’s Moms with that crooked smile of hers, holding out the extra keys to the deli. Her long silver hair is still restrained in its nighttime net, and her face is rumpled like an unmade bed. “Well, why didn’t you say something?” Pops says, barreling past her toward the kitchen, where breakfast is ready and waiting.

Billy Beal is at the icebox, guzzling milk from the bottle, leaning into the cool electric air, when it occurs to him: they should take the girl’s baby. “We should take the girl’s baby,” he says.

“What?” Moms says.

“We should take her baby,” he repeats, because it makes perfect sense.

“What the hell are you talking about?” Pops says, looking up from his plate of bacon and eggs.

“He’s not talking about anything, close the door, Billy, you’re using the electricity up.”

Billy Beal wipes milk off his mouth with the back of his hand, “Just for a little while, until she comes back. It’s the right thing to do. That’s what you’d say, Moms—”

Pops jumps out of his chair like a jack-in-the-box. “Jesus Christ, you know about this, Peg? I can’t believe it! I can’t believe you snuck behind my back and knocked someone up…who is it? Who’s the little slut? How the fark did this happen, you son of a bitch? ” “Hey, now,” Moms says, moving her body between Pops and her son. “Get the hell out of the way, woman. You can’t protect him on this.” Pops puffs his chest out like an ape. “I’m going to kill you, Billy Beal. You’re going to wish you’d gone to jail by the time I’m through with you!” “Al, Al, Al, you’ve got it wrong.” Moms waves her hands. Pops pushes her out of the way and thumps on his son’s chest, pushing him backward into a chair. “What’s the matter with you, huh?” Thump. “Are you a moron?” Thump. “You got a baseball scholarship to think about, you farking idiot, you farking fool. You got shite between your ears—” Pops jumps on the floor and wrestles with Billy, trying to get him in a headlock.

“Al, Al, Al,” Moms screams, pulling on his shirt, “it’s not his baby!”

“I’m going to farking strangle you…” Pops uses weight to his advantage—he’s about to sit on his son when Moms screams in his ear: “Al, stop! I said it’s not his baby!” Pops looks up at Moms, and Billy gets out from under.

“Jesus, Pops,” Billy says, holding up his hands in disgust.

“Are you trying to kill me?” Pops says to Billy. “You scared the shite out of me. I should pop you one just for that.” Billy Beal looks down at the floor, pictures all two hundred and thirty pounds of his father running while he drives the station wagon up his ass. Die, he thinks, die.

“Farking baby, what’s he got to do with a baby?”

“It’s a good idea,” Billy says, staring into the mid-distance.

“If I were you, I’d leave well enough alone…”

“Okay.” Pops slams down his cup, sending rivulets of coffee out into the universe. “Since when does he have ideas that I don’t know about? What the fark’s going on?”

“Get upstairs, Billy.”

“But you said I have to eat—”

“The two of you are stepping on my last goddamned nerve…”

Moms swoops up Billy’s plate of food and hands it to him. “Go,” she says, waving him off. “Shoo, shoo…” Moms’s eyes mean if he has any hope of getting her on his side he better scram right now.

“Lucy, you’ve got some ’splaining to do,” Pops says without a trace of irony.

Billy Beal paces across his bedroom floor, making the boards squeak because he can. He hates being treated like a little kid, being told to go to his room. He hates it when Moms babies him and Pops jumps on his neck, blaming him for everything.

His idea is genius. It’s so simple he doesn’t know why he didn’t think of it sooner. Moms taking the baby would solve everything. The girl would come to him, and Moms would tell her how it was he, Billy Beal, who saved her baby from being what Moms called a ward of the state. The girl would be so grateful she’d agree to go get a root beer with Billy and he could make a cord for her pendant and put it around her neck as a surprise. And Moms is so good with kids she’d help the girl take care of her baby and maybe the girl would stick around awhile. Moms did it for total strangers and the girl, well, it’s not exactly like he knows her, but after what they went through, it feels like he does. Moms has to be on his side on this one, she just has to.

It takes Moms a while to tell Pops the story about the girl and her baby, mainly because Pops’s frequent eruptions and subsequent spills slow her down. He’s finally stopped flailing enough that she can start in on the juice and coffee that have found their way onto his pants. “I don’t know why he cares, but he cares. It’s the first time I’ve seen him care about anything other than baseball. He’s showing a bit of compassion, which is more than I can say for you.” Moms dabs his pants with a moistened towel.

“Compassion? For a nigger slut who leaves her own baby in a clinic? That girl’s never coming back and you know it. It’s the goddamned state’s problem, not ours. You’re rubbing it in, not taking it out!”

“I’ve got to blot. And she’s white, not that that should make a difference.”

“You’re not saying you think this is a good idea, are you? Because if you did, I’d say you’re out of your farking skull. Or I’d think this isn’t about the boy, it’s about you. How many times do I tell you, my wife doesn’t work! I provide for this family, and, what, the deli’s not doing well enough for you? You want to go back to running crumb-crunchers nobody wants through here like it’s a farking summer camp? I let you do that once and you’re forever throwing it in my face. Fostering, you’ll be fostering a bruise on your head, woman, if I hear one more word out of you.” He spits when he talks, white gunk starting to form at the corners of his mouth.

“You’re way out of line, Albert Beal,” Moms says, dropping the towel. She turns her back on him and starts to do the dishes. The only thing that breaks the silence between them is the rush of water from the faucet and the timpani of rubber gloves on porcelain.

Billy Beal heard Pops calling the girl a slut. Forget that the walls are thin; Pops communicates in only two forms: loud and louder. He could take his father; he’s known that for a while. He’s strong and quick—he doesn’t have to let himself be pushed around. Billy Beal hasn’t heard a peep from downstairs in a while. He hates his parents’ silence more than their fighting.

Pops and Moms sit in the kitchen listening to the tick of the Budweiser wall clock that Pops got for free at Wally’s Liquor Shop. After what feels like forever, Moms says, “Okay, then. I accept your apology. And I was thinking, with Terry taking off for the South Pacific—”

“It’s not in the South Pacific,” Pops says.

“Wherever it is, we’ll have an extra room.”

“It’s off China, what’s it called? Where’s Ralphie? He knows. Ralphie! Ralphie!” There’s no response. “Don’t tell me he didn’t come home again!”

Elvis’s “Good Luck Charm” starts playing so loud Moms has to raise her voice:

“Can we stick to Billy? If we did it, I’m saying if, it would only be temporary, until they could find a home for the child.” Pops goes to the closet and grabs a broom. He punches the handle against the ceiling. “Turn that shite down, goddamn it! And you, don’t you go thinking I’m considering it because I’m not.” Moms hands Pops a sack lunch she made for Billy last night.

“Viet Nam,” she says. “They’re sending Terry to a place called Viet Nam.”

Carlotta Matzner gets goose bumps when her husband blows on the back of her neck. Tonight he’s doing it to cool her off; the late-summer nights are hot, even in the country, otherwise known as Montclair, New Jersey. “Scopa me,” she whispers. He loves it when she speaks Italian, especially when she talks dirty. She could be reciting the phone book right now and it would sound sexy. “Scopa me con tuo cazzo duro, Solomon.” Even though they have no family left to share their happiness with, this was worth it.

She’s burning him up, and at this rate, Sol won’t be able to last. “Aiiieeeeeee!” she cries.

“What? What did I do?” he says, pulling out.

“Aiiiieeeeeeee!”

“Are you okay, did I hurt you? Where? What, chérie, tell me?”

“Solomon, the baby, he arrive. You stir him with you generals!” Her eyes are earnest; he wants to be concerned but her malapropisms slay him. “Oh, chérie, no,” he says, trying not to laugh. “You’re just having a cramp, remember, like the one the other night, and the day before? Nothing to worry about.”

“This is no like the last time. We make him arrive, we should no be doing this. Porca Madonna, la minchia, it hurts.”

“Breathe,” he says. She breathes and he breathes; they breathe.

“For a second there, you scared me,” he says. “But trust me, the baby’s totally protected in there, from things much bigger than the mister here.”

“Pronto, Solomon,” she says, “call dottore, per favore.”

Panic happens often, though never while they are making love. Rationality doesn’t work when Cici is like this, so there is no point in saying you can’t bother a doctor in the middle of the night for nothing, especially when he just saw you the other day and everything was A-OK. No point in saying you’ve got another month to go and at this rate the obstetrician will be so fed up that by the time the real thing comes he’ll play an extra set of tennis before meandering into the hospital. No; Sol listens and comforts, he looks at his watch and says, “Just to be sure, we’ll see how long it takes between pains.” He manages to keep his eyes open for half an hour, and when all is quiet on the baby front and Cici’s thinking she’d like some runny cheese and a cigarette, he says, “I’m okay if we don’t make love. I want you to know I would never want you to do it just for me.” He’s out of bed, in his bathrobe, ready to get her snack. “I mean it; I abstained before and I can abstain again.” She looks up at him and whispers something impossibly sexy. “Look what you do to me,” he says, “you’re incorrigible.”

As Sol is looking for the runny cheese Cici likes, he trips against a leather bag that’s parked next to the kitchen door. Goddamned handyman, leaving his stuff all over the place. Sol hired Gusmanov to check on the house and see if Cici needs anything because he (a) had pimples the size of boils on his neck and was no threat, and (b) spoke a little Italian he learned from his neighbors in Brooklyn. Sol worked such long hours, he didn’t like leaving Cici alone all day in a new house in a new neighborhood. Cici was still nervous about driving so he’d also recently hired a housekeeper to clean and run errands.

When Sol goes back upstairs, Cici is sleeping. The moon shines through the still-curtainless windows, bathing Cici in a faint glow. He has made a hobby of looking at his wife. Her naked body is ravishing, but something about seeing her fully dressed, reaching a hand up to screw in an earring or fasten the clasp on her necklace, is magical. As she lifts her hair to pin it up or adjust her jewelry, he can see the mole behind her left ear and it startles him, as if he’s discovering it for the first time. There’s an equal thrill when she unpins her hair and it swans down her back. Hair that Sol loves to feel the weight of when wet. Her honey licks of hair spill over her pillow and onto the sheet. Her face is dewy from the moonlight or pregnancy or, Sol would like to believe, because of him. How did a thirty-two-year-old redheaded radiologist whose best features are his calves and his mind, not necessarily in that order, get a twenty-one-year-old shiksa goddess? Looking at Cici ripe with his child, well, could life possibly get any better?

The next morning, Sol gets up early and decides to surprise his wife with coffee in bed. My wife. He loves to say that—I’ll just go call my wife; sorry I can’t cover your shift, the missus is waiting for me. While the espresso percolates, Sol peruses the newspaper, folding each section in half lengthwise and then again crosswise. His long, tapered hands are spotted with freckles even though he’s barely been in the sun all summer. Between the move, Cici, and his radiology caseload at the hospital, he hasn’t been able to play much tennis. He hastily butters a roll, eats it in a few bites. This gives the pot enough time to bubble over, making a gritty mess Sol decides is best left to the new housekeeper, whose name he thinks is Coffee. Who names a child Coffee?

When he returns to their bedroom, Cici is bent over next to her open closet. She’s making a series of exasperated Oooooffs, followed by a bout of cursing. Sol pulls the espresso cup from behind his back. “For the missus.”

“Do you know my bag, is big like this?”

“The one by the kitchen door that I almost killed myself tripping over last night?”

“Ah, I forget! I put it there so it is ready to go.”

“Where exactly is it going?”

“Buuuu, to the hospital, you silly.”

“They say first ba