Direct Strike

by Lorelei Buckley

Genres: Fantasy Romance; Paranormal Romance

Synopsis

There's no rest for the haunted. If someone had asked Zoey Hawthorne eighteen months ago to describe her life she would have said it couldn't be better. Perfect marriage, booming business, and best of all, her son was alive. Today she's divorced, unemployed, and pissed at the universe for taking her child, a loss that's cracked her soul in half. To date, she's addicted to pain meds and anger, with no intention of turning back. When Zoey inherits a ranch in rural Colorado from an estranged great uncle, she leaves Chicago behind to self-destruct in peace. But lightning changes her plans. Zoey is struck and left with an extrasensory gift that lets her see one more problem on her hands: vengeful spirits haunting her land. To stop the cycle of death rampant on her property, Zoey must solve a fifty-year-old mass murder while keeping her hot lover from melting her armor. She's tough enough for the task--provided she isn't killed in the process. WARNING: This title contains adult language and explicit sex. 70,000 Words

Release date: June 1, 2012

Publisher: Lyrical Press

Print pages: 208

Sample

 

Chapter 1

 

Zoey gasped and sprang upright, her comfortable indifference jeopardized by nightmares. She recalled vividly concession stands doused in halting yellows, Caribbean blues and circus reds, pink cotton candy and the sickening contrails of pure cane sugar.

She remembered the man in overalls, an obese guy who’d held a small white bag stuffed with popcorn. He’d tossed a kernel skyward and caught it in his mouth, and then it happened. Laughter, rickety rides and brave cackles unsparingly mutated into horrified shrills—her son’s, his friend’s and the muffled howls of two other people who had died that day.

Despite the madness, she’d heard the pings and tings of her camera smashing against pavement. Common with objects, not people. Not children.

The bedroom air thickened with humidity, and rolls of blue fog swelled against the windows, adding an icy hue to the row of pharmaceuticals positioned next to a deer-antler lamp on the nightstand. She’d arrived earlier and had hoped the long drive would exhaust her enough to sleep. Good fortune hated Zoey.

Her new environment exacerbated her confusion. She hadn’t chosen the furniture, and the bed was too big.

Her eyes burned. She wiped wetness from her face and wished for amnesia, but the poisonous memory persisted.

From the pits of their souls, the crowd shrieked, forced to watch the tragedy like some kind of karmic punishment for collective wrongdoing or thinking. Hinges squeaked and the innocent teetered between life and death for seven minutes and two seconds.

She’d made a lucrative living as a photographer. When emotionally moved, she’d snap the picture. She’d had an impeccable sense of timing and extraordinary compassion. Her descriptive imagination and unyielding empathy were traitors. Haunted by the tiniest of details, they’d ripped her heart from her chest and ate it.

Helpless, she stood below in a mass of human shockwaves stunned by the creaking Ferris wheel bending and moaning, a destructive robot twisting its rusty wrist.

Her son’s healthy flesh grew pale, his eyes bulged and his boyish fingers reached for her to save him, and she couldn’t, and her mind wouldn’t let go.

She would have murdered the mechanic. She’d almost murdered the machinist. Had the bolt been inserted inside the cart rather than outside, it wouldn’t have gotten stuck between the exit door and the wheel, and the swinging cart would have swung back in place instead of overturning, and her son Milo and his friend Yaphet and the elderly couple from Idaho wouldn’t have plunged seventy feet to their deaths.

“Stop! Why do I have to go through this?” She massaged her pulsing temples. Before bed she’d taken enough meds to anesthetize a whale. If she increased her dosage, she may not wake up. She’d often thought about the ultimate way to find peace.

Imitating a brush fire, hellish and damaging, the memory continued.

The whites of her son’s eyes glowed. He grasped at invisible rope frantically trying to escape. Everything blurred. Not Milo. His fear was palpable. Back and forth the buggy swung, back and forth, back and dumped the bellowing souls like waste.

Milo’s arms and legs flailed, thrashing gravity all the way down.

“Enough! I can’t take anymore. Do you understand?” She grabbed the bottle of sedatives, distinguishable by height. She tossed two in her mouth and swallowed.

Milo hit a manhole cover. The thud echoed in her head. A nauseating bull’s-eye, his lifeless body centered on a sewer lid. Blood outlined his hair and filled the metal grooves.

Zoey wiped tears and took a deep breath.

“Come on,” she begged the drugs. “Please. Knock me out.”

She hadn’t said goodbye to her own child, yet everyone expected her to comfort Yaphet’s parents. Didn’t happen, and it wouldn’t. They’d escaped gruesome imagery. As far as she was concerned, they’d won the lottery.

Milo resided within her being. He drove with her to Colorado and accompanied her when she entered their new home, an inheritance she’d claimed on his behalf. She’d do anything to bring him back. Sometimes she’d pretend he was at school or camp or sleeping at a friend’s house. She’d call herself from his phone to see his number. No more radical than curing depression with a smile, tricking the brain into a state of happiness. By believing he was somehow with her, she’d deceive the universe and revive him. Illogical? Maybe not. Thoughts became things. A time existed when airplanes were outrageous, and going to the moon outright insane. She could alter reality, couldn’t she?

Unreasonable mental chatter caused bouts of anxiety. She needed to be grounded.

“Where the hell is my phone?”

She scanned the night table, floor, dresser and bed for her cell in vain. Shadows consumed the room. She’d unpacked pictures of Milo but not much else. On the opposite wall, a mounted deer head studied her movements.

“What are you looking at?”

Lightning flashed. Deer eyes glistened. Her heart galloped.

Zoey flung the blankets aside and rolled out of bed. Her feet slammed against the cool hardwood, and she trimmed the furniture, patting for her phone.

Another flash illuminated a photo of Milo feeding squirrels at Lincoln Park Zoo.

His fall replayed in her mind.

“Son of a bitch! Why Milo? Why?”

She banged the stomach of a vase and knocked it to the floor along with pictures of her son. Startled by the clatter, she paused. Objects faded in and out of distinction. In a moment of clarity, she walked toward the rustic armoire. Something hard crunched underfoot. She glanced down. The frame Milo had made for Mother’s Day lay snapped in half.

“Shit.” She rubbed her forehead with the heel of her hand to relieve the pressure of earning the title for most wicked mother in the universe.

“One thing is all I ask. One damn thing.”

She spun and bashed her knuckles on the wood. Her fingers ached. She cradled her hand, exhausted and equally frustrated. Unable to stand, she slipped into the nook between the dresser and armoire. Pressing her back to the plaster, she slid down until her ass hit bottom. A slight sailboat effect made her queasy.

Lightning cut through the darkness, allowing her to see obscure silhouettes. She closed her eyes and tilted her head against solidity, trying to remember Mitch’s voice. She spoke to him almost every night, why couldn’t she find his voice? Panic whirled in her stomach. She breathed in and out, slowly, inhaling, exhaling, a calming technique she’d learned the one time she had agreed to therapy. Hell with therapy.

She opened her eyes and raised her chin. The deer’s neck arched toward the bed across from her cubbyhole.

She slithered up, steadied on her feet, and faced the animal head. “What do you see?”

Zoey stepped backward, closer to the footboard. The hem of her nightgown tickled her thighs, and the underside of her long hair, drenched in perspiration, caused a deep chill.

The deer seemed to gaze at something important.

“Hey, look, this isn’t the best of circumstances for either one of us. You’re staring. At what?”

Lightning sparked and the trophy’s marbled eyes fixated on her cluttered nightstand.

Zoey rushed to the overstocked tabletop. Sidetracked by beautiful amber bottles, she maneuvered around the lamp of bones and grabbed her favorite numbing agents, the oblong pills. She took two and recapped the bottle. And there was the phone, peeking out from under a crumpled road map. Had she remembered to charge it?

Two bars and decent reception. Zoey festively punched the air. She pressed his contact button.

The phone rang.

Lightning flickered, and from somewhere behind the mountains, distant rumbles crept closer.

The phone rang again.

“Zoey?” Mitch’s strong voice was akin to the uncurling thunder.

“Who else?”

“I tried calling. You didn’t answer.”

“I didn’t hear the phone ring.”

“You couldn’t tell me you were leaving?”

“It was a spontaneous decision.” She’d almost called him, but decided her choices weren’t his business.

“You made it there okay, though, no car trouble?”

“None. Are you amazed?”

“Yes.”

“It is possible, Mitch. I will prevail.”

“Are you okay?”

“No.” She held back tears. “Damn nightmares. I haven’t slept in over a year. Three or four hours, tops. I’m exhausted.”

“I know. I’m sorry.”

“No, I’m sorry. You’ve gone on as if our son never existed.”

“Knock it off, Zoey! You know that’s not true.”

Zoey squashed the phone to her ear and perched on the edge of the mattress. “I miss him so much.”

“I know. Me too,” he said, seeming to shed his fatigue. “Why don’t you come home?”

“Home? What is that? We’re divorced. You walked out on me.”

“Living in a shrine got old. It’d be easier for both of us if you stopped lying to yourself. You left me long before I gave you my key, and you took our house with you.” He paused. “And the drugs—”

“Prescription drugs.”

“Abused prescription drugs. Cymbalta, Zoloft, Valium, Prozac, did I skip anything? I’ve said it a thousand times. I won’t watch you destroy yourself.”

“Pussy.”

“What are you on?” he asked.

“All kinds of pills, Mitch. They’re worthless. I’m still unable to function.”

“Come back and get help.”

“Help?” She sucked her cheeks inward, attempting to stimulate saliva. “Why are you always trying to fix me? I’m irreparable. I’m mourning. I see Milo die every night. How do you expect me to go on? I can’t concentrate. I have no purpose without him. Don’t you understand? My son was my world.”

“I do understand, and it pisses me off. You were a wife, and a friend, a professional, an artist—you wore many nametags, and you wore them well.”

“I would give it all up for him.”

“You have, and where has it gotten you?”

“No! I would trade it for him, but I can’t, so I’m waiting to see him. He’ll return. Watch. What do you do? How do you honor our deceased son?”

“I coddle his doped-up mother on a regular basis.”

“I don’t need your bullshit, okay? Just listen.” She reclined on her pillow. “Remember his eyes?”

“He had my eyes.”

“He would have been an exceptional photographer,” she said as her skin numbed.

“Sure. He would have been good at whatever he chose to do. You need to stop the drugs, Zoey.”

“Why do you keep talking about me? It’s about Milo, and right now I want to be here, in Milo’s home, on Milo’s land.”

“Milo never knew that place. You’d be closer to him here. You can visit his gravesite.”

“And what, stare at a headstone? He’s not there. Remember his mobster impersonations?”

“‘Marinara sauce? Who do I need to rough up to get a meatball?’”

“And pirates, he loved pirates.” Zoey smiled.

Mitch snickered gently, and again mocked from memory. “‘Take out the garbage? Arrgh, sweet merciless heaven.’”

Zoey sniffled. “Merciless heaven. Oh God, so true. He was a smart kid.”

“Come back to Chicago. You have friends and family here.”

Zoey glanced at the ceiling. “I can’t. I belong in his house with him watching over me. I feel him.”

“You’re not making sense, Zoey. He didn’t know your uncle and neither did you. Think. What are you on?”

“I told you, a bunch of stuff. I take whatever will destroy the film playing over and over in my head. Nothing works. I still see him get on that ride, and I still see him fall, and I can’t fucking take it anymore.”

“We’ll find the right medication, but you have to let me help you.”

“I don’t need help. I need my son alive.” She thumbed the Off button and tossed the phone on the floor.

It rang nonstop. She threw a pillow over the noisemaker and scooted higher in bed. She eyed the windows. A chalky mist swirled against the black backdrop of night. It reminded her of a photo shoot she’d had at the dessert factory. Vanilla ice cream and chocolate syrup spiraled in a snail shell design on a black porcelain plate. Milo had gone along and almost ruined a perfect shot with his finger. She should have let him. So many things she would have done better.

A quick crimson hue veiled the bedroom.

She watched the window for signs of another unique outburst and witnessed a spear of blood red lightning.

“Fantastic.” She advanced to the glass. The next flash appeared normal. She leaned forward and examined the land. In daylight the miles of woods and mountains overwhelmed her, a fairytale bloated with a hundred shades of green, happy sunshiny sky and a mesmeric frothy river. She related to the night, to its mysteries.

Sparks of light danced on muted boulders. A bush near the driveway had tinier shrubs at its base, transforming the plant into a top hat. Beyond the rocks, a pine tree stood in front of two others, each wider than the next. A grand illusion if captured at the right angle.

Though she had no interest in resuming professional photography, she’d at least consider snapping pictures for fun. She turned for her camera, buried somewhere under a heap of clothes, and noticed her jeans. She bent over and slipped them on, straightened and glanced outside again.

To the left was a hill with a fairly steep drop, but she could see where the ground leveled at the forest’s edge. Lightning flashed in shorter increments and revealed a change in the density of darkness near the tree line.

A foraging raccoon? She blinked and refocused. A coyote? A child?

A drug interaction.

She tucked a bothersome hair around her ear, rubbed her filmy eyes and pressed her face to the window. Her heart jammed. A young boy, two or three years old, sat beneath a hut of branches.

“What the…”

He had no shoes and wore tattered clothing. He appeared to be playing with rocks.

Panic surged, and she hit the glass several times. “Baby boy, don’t move! I’m coming, hang on!”

Zoey rushed to the doorway, her body zinging with dread and wonder. She staggered down the stairs, passed an empty office nook, managed to miss both sofas, and poured out the front door. Cedar wafted from the deck.

Frigid air iced her arms. She massaged her skin and assessed her whereabouts. Plush forest grew on hills that bled into mountains that vanished in the smoky mist laid by a looming storm. Lightning highlighted her route. She sprinted from the porch onto the crisp lawn and headed downhill toward the woods. Immersed in darkness, she stopped and focused.

Thunder boomed. So did her heart when she spotted the boy. He seemed to be drawing abstract art in the dirt with a stick.

“Don’t be scared. I’m coming!” Her long legs carried her speedily across the earth. “Stay there, honey, I’m on my way.”

Somehow she’d lost sight of him. She halted. She should’ve seen him, but didn’t.

“Don’t run from me, little man. I won’t hurt you.”

Shivering, Zoey blanketed her arms with her hair and waited for a spear of lightning. When the ground lit, she raced the decline, tripping on a vine that threaded a spongy patch of grass. She plummeted and stopped rolling a few feet from the child.

His eyes were dreadfully sad, and he clutched handfuls of soil.

“I’m here now.” She wobbled to her feet.

Slowly she entered his creation of choppy stick writings and tiny mountains of dirt, but he wasn’t there. “Where did you go? Don’t be afraid, baby boy. I can help you. You’ll be safe with me.”

Flickering spider veins spread overhead like plant roots, as odd a vision as the toddler in the woods. A crackle jumpstarted her pulse. She faced the forest and its fresh pine-scented breath, and saw the boy within reach.

“You precious little guy, what are you doing out here? It’s cold and dark, and you could hurt yourself.”

He held his arms up and gently bounced on his butt, urging her to lift him.

Zoey leaned forward and grabbed the baby—grabbed nothing.

“Not possible.”

She looked in all directions, certain he couldn’t have gone far.

Leaves rustled, and the wind hummed.

“Where are you?” She searched for his drawings and metropolis of dirt, but all proof had vanished with his body.

“No!” She confronted the wooded labyrinth. “I know what I saw! What did you do with him? Where’s the kid?”

Lightning flashed incessantly. Zoey squatted and ripped at the shrubs. With scratched and blotchy fingers, she rose and kicked a tree trunk with her bare foot. “What the hell did you do with the boy? Where is he?” She tied her annoying hair in a knot. “You can’t just pluck children from earth like dandelions. They’re not weeds, goddamnit! Where is he?” She raised a rotted log and pitched it at the child-chomping monster she knew lived Out There.

She stepped on a stone and toppled to the ground.

“Son of a bitch.” She lay on her back under evasive lightning and blunt thunder, and when she’d forced the pain from her foot, she stood.

“I know what I saw.” She stammered uphill. Breathless, she paused on a spongy patch of grass and briefly eyed the malicious vine that had caused her earlier fall.

Lightning webbed the sky and tinted the blackened land with blinding white.

Zoey tasted metal. She refreshed her teeth with her tongue and saw the scorching red fist that punched her in the shoulder. Dumbfounded, she flew through the air and landed on her backside. Her head pounded, brain-splitting. She gasped at the smoke snaking off her flesh. Right before she went unconscious.

 

 

Chapter 2

 

“Nurse!” Zoey winced. Her right shoulder, wrapped in gauze, burned, and she might as well have chugged a bottle of lava. She massaged her neck and then canopied her delicate eyes from the harsh fluorescents. An IV dangled from her hand.

“Anyone?” She coughed and the rawness of her throat produced a tear. Her organs and bones roasted, and she lay on the nurse’s button, terrified of cooking alive.

Botanical wallpaper bordered the room and sparked memories—darkness, trees, a tot in the woods with enormous brown eyes sadder than starvation. Not possible. She recoiled and blamed insomnia and drugs and incompetent medical staff for allowing her to panic.

Voices streamed the hall. One in particular drew closer to the doorway. An elderly male doctor with squinty teal eyes and a bulbous nose entered the room. He smiled and held a clipboard close to his chest.

“Good afternoon,” he said, hoarse and crackly with age. “I’m Dr. Selden.”

“It’s about time. I need something for pain. My shoulder is killing me.”

“I hadn’t expected you to be so vibrant, but yes, I promise, we’ll get to that. I have questions and forms for you to sign before I can administer meds.” He approached the bed.

“I have questions too.” Zoey clicked a green switch and the bed buzzed while elevating her upper body. “What the hell happened to me?”

“You don’t remember?”

“That’s why I asked.”

A heavyset Asian nurse with shiny black hair, cut to her jawline, rushed in and adjusted the IV drip. “Hello,” she said cheerfully. “I’m Nurse Chong. How do you feel?”

“Like shit,” Zoey said.

Dr. Selden put his pen to the clipboard. “Describe the pain, is it throbbing, biting, piercing, burning…”

“I hurt all over. Was I beat with a bat? Are you going to tell me what happened?”

“You hurt all over. Can you be more descriptive?” Nurse Chong asked. “We’re not mind readers.”

“Neither am I,” Zoey snapped. “I’m in a hospital, bandaged, and in severe fucking pain and no one will tell me why. I won’t cooperate until I get answers.” Talking grated her throat and she clutched her neck.

Nurse Chong shook her head. “Have some water.” She filled a paper cup and then passed it to Zoey. “Careful. Don’t choke.”

“I’ll do my best.” Zoey gritted her teeth. She raised the rim to her lips and sipped. The flame in her esophagus subsided, but the pain in her shoulder drilled clear to the bone.

“Do you know if you’re allergic to any medications?” Dr. Selden asked.

“That’s a stupid question. Of course I know. I have no allergies whatsoever.”

“Nurse Chong,” Dr. Selden said, “would you please get our patient 600 milligrams of ibuprofen and Valium, 10 milligrams, to help her relax?”

The nurse rolled the IV post closer to the wall and addressed Zoey. “You’re a very lucky person.” Her rubber-soled shoes squeaked as she scuttled out of the room.

“What does she mean, lucky?” Zoey set her cup on the side table.

“First the necessities,” he said, holding his pen tightly. “Zoey Ha. . .