Cold Spring: A Story of Politics, Passion and Pretense

by Bernadette Walsh

Genres: Family Life; Women's Fiction; Second Chance Romance

Synopsis

AN INNOCENT GIRL IS A DANGEROUS THING

Twenty years ago Maura Lenihan was the curvaceous red-haired teenager at the center of a political sex scandal. Today, Maura is a thirty-five year old hospice nurse who spends her days caring for the cancer-ridden and comatose and her nights reading romance novels. Her life is boring and safe and just the way she likes it.

However, Maura's safe cocoon is now threatened both by the press' renewed interest in the twenty year old scandal and the attentions of her most recent patient -- a thirty year old Wall Street investment banker whose black hair and blue eyes are oddly familiar.

Release date: October 25, 2014

Publisher: Bernadette Walsh

Print pages: 182

Sample

CHAPTER ONE

 

 

My mother, never a large woman, now weighed no more than a twelve-year-old child. I favored my father’s side, the Lenihans. “A real farmer’s daughter,” my mother would say every year as the pediatrician marked the shameful statistics in my chart: eightieth percentile for both weight and height. Cheeks burning, I would close my eyes and imagine myself at my grandfather’s farm in Ireland, surrounded by my Lenihan cousins, whose long limbs and bright red hair mirrored my own. I would close my eyes and wish I was anywhere but trapped in the exam room with my mother and her perfectly coiffed blonde hair and sharp blue eyes. I’d wish I was anywhere rather than Cold Spring.

But now my mother was the one trapped in Cold Spring Harbor. The living room she’d so lovingly restored to all its nineteenth century glory, whose original moldings gleamed with decades of the housekeeper’s polish, was now her prison. The room we children had been forbidden to enter except at Christmas and Easter reeked of antiseptic, her treasures pushed aside in a jumble to make room for a steel hospital bed. 

My mother wanted to spend her remaining weeks in her own home, and not in the well run hospice facility I’d suggested. Of course my sisters and brothers acceded to her wishes, not realizing sickness and death were such a messy business. Although, how would they know? With their graduate degrees and five-bedroom colonials and well groomed children, life’s messiness was for other people to take care of. Housekeepers, nannies. People like me.

My eldest sister, Marybeth, had assumed I would care for Mama full time, not giving a thought to my own patients. “She’s changing bedpans anyway,” I overheard her say to my sister Eileen. “Why should we pay someone else to do it?” For once in my life, I held my ground. Twice during the week, I covered the hour gap at noon between the day and night home healthcare workers’ shifts, and I stayed with Mama each Sunday morning. It was more time than I had spent with my mother in years. It would have to do.

As usual, I spent the first ten minutes of my sentence examining my mother’s inert body for sores, carefully checking the pressure points: shoulders, buttocks, heels. That done, I spread out on the forbidden brocade couch, feet resting on the Queen Anne coffee table, and read the local newspaper one of my sisters left behind. The Harbor Sentinel, its pages festooned with the happenings of Cold Spring Harbor listed a Girl Scout bake sale and a local fishing competition. On the back page were photos from the historical society’s annual gala. I recognized a classmate from grammar school who hadn’t aged well, another tall balding man who’d played lacrosse with my brothers. And in the place of honor at the center of the page, were the Senator and Mrs. Mannion.

The Senator’s thick mane of hair was entirely white and his shoulders slightly stooped, but otherwise he looked as I remembered him. Mrs. Mannion hadn’t fared as well, with deep grooves carved into her cheeks that even makeup and the newspaper’s grainy print couldn’t hide.

Almost involuntarily, my gaze was drawn to the framed photo on the mantle. The Mannions and my parents at another nameless fundraiser, a glass of champagne in my mother’s hand, every highlighted hair lacquered in place. Despite everything that had happened, that picture encased in the finest Waterford crystal remained in its place of honor so that every visitor could see how far Margaret O’Connor Lenihan had risen in the world.

As if in a dream, I walked to the fireplace and picked up the photo. How many times had I entered this room, my sisters’ eyes on me as I pretended not to notice it? That photo triggering memories of the Mannions I’d successfully managed to suppress for weeks, even months, at a time. 

Ah, who was I kidding? The Mannions were never far from my mind. Not really.

The photo slipped so easily from my hand. Its delicate frame shattered against the fireplace’s slate. A shard of glass sliced through the Senator’s fine head of hair. My mother stirred in her bed, but the morphine rendered her unconscious of my most recent crime.

I left the remains on the floor and retreated to the kitchen, settling into the window-seat that had been my refuge for much of my childhood. A tepid mug of coffee in hand, I stared out onto the well tended garden and the partial water-view that had been my mother’s pride and joy. When the afternoon aide relieved me at one o’clock it was all I could do not to run out the door.

I hopped into my Honda and roared through the tranquil streets of Cold Spring Harbor and then the wider, less genteel avenues of neighboring Huntington until I reached the highway that would take me south. As a traveling nurse, summer was my busiest and most lucrative season. Desk jockeys who’d earned their fortune doing God knows what on Wall Street, men like my father and brothers, would as soon as summer hit pummel their aging and unfit bodies. Rounds of golf, jet-skiing, and ill prepared 5-Ks resulted in the slipped discs and blown out knees that paid my rent. These titans of Wall Street in their luxurious summer homes were by turns condescending, distant, overly-friendly, flirty even. But they were conscious and paid in cash, unlike my usual roster of aging cancer and stroke victims. Plus, their season was a short one. By Labor Day, they would either recover or move back to their opulent Park Avenue apartments. So, as I placed on the dashboard the medical pass that allowed me to use the service road onto Fire Island, thus avoiding the slower ferry, I thought of what my grandfather Lenihan said every summer we visited him. “Have to make hay while the sun shines.” I rolled down the window and allowed the hot air to kiss my cheeks as I pulled into the driveway of a simple salt box whose ocean frontage on Wegman’s Bluff belied its multi-million dollar price tag. Time to make some hay.

My newest patient had left the front door unlocked. As usual, the paperwork the agency sent me was incomplete---they hadn’t even gotten his name correct. Scott Ma..., they rest of the name fell off the page. Under diagnosis it said simply “knee.” Not knowing exactly what I would find, I brought my large medical bag in with me.

“Hello,” I called out to alert him I was there. I’d surprised enough men in solitude, and didn’t want to get off to an awkward start with this one.

“Five? They’re insane!” 

Like many oceanfront homes, the living area was on the second floor with spare bedrooms on the first. I climbed the stairs to a large combination kitchen/living room/dining room with floor to ceiling windows overlooking the beach. A dark-haired man, shirtless, with a phone in one hand and a cane in the other, limped across the bleached wood floor. “I don’t care what research says. Two point five is as high as I’ll go.” 

He continued to drag his bandaged leg across the living room as if it were an errant child. “I don’t give a fuck what Richard says. I swear to God if I weren’t stuck out here I would shove that spreadsheet up his ass. No more than two point five, Gary, you hear me?”

The man turned and threw the phone on the couch. “Who are you?”

Without waiting for me to answer he sprawled on a white couch, reached for his laptop, and started typing furiously. Not looking up, he said, “Shush, give me a minute.”

I stood there and shifted from one foot to the other as he made me wait. When he’d finally stopped typing, I said,  “I’m Maura Lenihan, from the agency.” He looked up at me, his eyes an aquamarine blue that seemed incongruous with his hard physique and rough manner. As usual whenever I met someone new, I held my breath for a moment. I steeled myself against any flicker of recognition in his eyes, but his expression didn’t change. Relieved, I exhaled and then read my paperwork. “I’m sorry, the coordinator has terrible handwriting,” I showed him the paper. “You are Mr. Ma..”

His glanced at it and then looked at me, his blue eyes opaque. “Matthews. Scott Matthews, jet skier extrordinaire.”

I allowed myself to smile. “And your orthopedist is?”

“Seligman.”

“You’re lucky, he’s the best out here.” I crouched down and lifted the dressing to find the the telltale stitching of a recent knee surgery. “When was your surgery?”

“Last Monday.”

“And you’re walking on it already?”

He smiled, erasing any evidence of the former cursing Wall Streeter. He looked young then, younger than me, anyway. Scott Matthews couldn’t have been more than thirty. “I’m a bad patient. Always have been, which is probably why my mother arranged for you to come and make me behave.”

“I don’t get paid enough for that. You should be healed enough in two weeks to be more mobile. Is that what Dr. Seligman told you?”

“He said closer to four. I’m a diabetic.” He stretched out his hand. “So this is my new office, for awhile anyway.”

The tide crashed onto the beach and the distant cries of the gulls spilled in through the open sliders. “It’s peaceful,” I said.

His cellphone chirped. He grabbed it, and before he answered his mouth twisted in a wry smile. “Yeah, peaceful.” Then Mr. Matthews began a tirade against poor beleaguered Gary.

I gathered the tools of my trade---fresh bandages, ointment, scalpel---and placed them in my bag as my new patient shouted about points. I mouthed at him, “I’ll be back tomorrow at two.”

The breeze from the open sliders blew papers from the coffee table. I retrieved them from the floor and handed them to him. He took them with his free hand and then winked at me.

Most people can wink effortlessly, but Mr. Matthews wasn’t one of them. The wink seemed to require every muscle of the left side of his face to contort. It was funny, and almost against my will, I smiled back at him. Then my smile froze. That wink was familiar.

“And who is this?”

Mrs. Mannion smiled, her legs tan and lean in her tennis whites, a sad contrast to my fish-white chubby thighs poured into my sister Eileen’s hand-me-down plaid skirt. She leaned in to kiss Mr. Mannion, and ruffled his thick black hair. “I swear, Brendan, you never listen. This is Maura, the daughter of one of your mother’s friends. She’s going to help out this summer.”

“While you play tennis?”

She laughed, “Yes, while I play tennis, among other things. Be nice and say hello to Maura.”

He smiled, and reached out his hand to me. “Hello, Maura.”

My hand was engulfed in his strong grip and my face burned with embarrassment as I sputtered out,“Hello, Mr. Mannion.”

His handsome face twisted, almost in a grimace, as he winked at me.

I hurried across the bleached floorboards, down the narrow staircase to my waiting Honda. My skull throbbed with a familiar ache, as if my head rebelled against any stray thoughts about that summer traveling through its synapses. Twenty years. Wasn’t that long enough? Move on, Maura. Isn’t that what my sister Eileen always said? Move on. 

If only it were that easy.

Mr. Matthews was my last appointment of the day, so I was free to return home. Home. What a strange word to describe my two bedroom rental in the Laurel Gardens complex. Laurel Gardens. More like Loser Gardens. The two years I’d spent there after I’d broken up with yet another boyfriend seemed like an eternity.

Laurel Gardens was aggressively manicured. Its gated entranceway with two formidable brick pillars promised security, refuge from the eighteen wheelers and minivans that endlessly barreled down Jericho Turnpike. Less than five years old, the complex had all the modern amenities: high ceilings, granite countertops, even a “clubhouse” at its center where the divorced dads and the few women in the complex under fifty would gather to celebrate their newly single status. Next to the clubhouse was a small pool, that on Wednesdays and weekends filled with sulky children forced to vacate the large colonials still inhabited by their mothers to serve their allotted time with their overly cheerful dads. 

Despite its stainless steel appliances and bay windows, Laurel Gardens was an overpriced dump with kitchen cabinets that never closed right. Its thin walls could keep out neither the cold nor the endless stream of ESPN from each neighbor’s big screen TV, typically one of the few possessions the divorced dads were allowed to move into their new nine hundred square foot cells. Still, for most this was a temporary stop until they moved on with their lives. Few stayed for more than a year or two.

I pulled into my assigned parking space and found my next-door neighbor, Rob---I think that was his name---once again waxing his pick-up truck with care. Rob was often home in the middle of the day and I never saw him dressed in a suit, so I wasn’t sure exactly what he did for a living. He’d only been in Loser Gardens for a few months, so he still had that hopeful glow, as if he really believed things were still going to work out for him.

“Hey, Maura.”

“Hi Rob.”

“Bob.”

I winced. “Oh, that’s right. Bob. Sorry.”

Bob was somewhere in his early forties, with silver strands making their way through his baby fine blond hair. He was tall, with strong arms and a kind smile. When I could be bothered, I wondered how he wound up in Loser Gardens and what had caused him to leave the mother of the twin boys I sometimes saw assist him in his constant car washing and waxing.

He smiled. “No problem. Hey, there’s a wine tasting at the clubhouse later. Will I see you there?”

“I don’t think so, Bob.”

He stopped waxing and his eyes met mine. I’d fended off so many of the divorced dads’ advances over the past two years, my responses had become almost automatic. Most of them were tools, and I didn’t feel even the slightest bit guilty about blowing them off. Some of them had recognized me, which made them even more persistent. But Rob, or rather, Bob, was different. He seemed genuinely nice. Still, the last thing I needed was to get involved with one of the apartment complex’s walking wounded. With my track record, the last thing I needed was to get involved with anyone.

“Someday, I’ll convince you. You’ll see.”

I smiled at him and dug the keys out of my purse.

Don’t count on it, Bob.