High-powered executive Steven Kerner is living the dream in southern California. But when his bottled pain ignites in anger one night, his wife kicks him out. Then an eccentric mystery man named Andy Monroe befriends Steven and begins unravelling his tightly wound world. Andy leads Steven through a series of frustrating and revealing encounters to repair his life through genuine friendship and the grace and love of a God who has been waiting for him to accept it. A story to challenge and encourage, Bo's Cafe is a model for all who struggle with unresolved problems and a performance-based life. Those who desire a fuller, more authentic way of living will find this journey of healing a restorative exploration of God's unbridled grace.
Release date:
September 25, 2009
Publisher:
Windblown Media
Print pages:
256
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“I cried when Lindsey first hugged Andy, and when Steven confessed to Lindsey, and when Steven realized that Andy was his
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(Wednesday Evening, March 11)
“They just never let up, do they?”
He’s sitting right next to me—a guy about my dad’s age—with a tall glass of ice in front of him. He’s watching the tiny television
bolted to the wall in the corner of the bar, balancing his chair with a flip-flopped foot propped up against the counter.
A dozen empty chairs, and this guy’s sitting next to me. I get up and move a couple of stools over. I glance at him just long
enough to size him up. He’s scruffy-looking, wearing an old Dodgers ball cap, ragged Levi’s, and a loud Hawaiian shirt. He
looks like he’s been following Jimmy Buffett on tour. Old guys like this are all over Southern California. It’s as if they’re
scattered around strategically by the Department of Tourism.
“Sometimes it’s hard to figure, isn’t it?” he says, his eyes fixed on the TV.
Is this guy talking to me? I think he’s talking to me. “I’m not really watching the game.”
Still staring, he says through a mouthful of ice, “I’m not talking about the game.”
I just need to stay quiet. He’ll figure out I want to be left alone.
“You’re not a regular here.”
I glance over at him. “No.”
“No,” he repeats.
“Look, no offense, but I’d really like to be alone.”
He waves his hand. “No, hey—don’t let me bother you there, champ. You just keep at what you’re doing. Pretend I’m not here.”
There’s a pause, and then he starts in again. “Yep, I’ve got my ice. Tall glass of ice, that’s what I’ve got. Nothing better
than nature’s own H-2-O. Am I right?”
Can’t this guy take a hint? I stare down at the bar, willing him to be quiet.
“Cold, clean, no aftertaste. Just God’s own beverage. Agua. Yep, that’s my drink—el agua. It means ‘the water’ in Spanish. Those folks make a big deal out of the definite article, don’t they?” He shakes his glass
and looks through it. “A lot of people might think el agua just means ‘water.’ Those same people would be wrong. It’s the water, isn’t it?”
He looks over at me again. “Oops. Sorry. I’m bothering you, aren’t I? Look, you just pretend I’m not here.”
Not even twenty seconds pass.
“Truth be told, it’s not the water, really. It’s the ice. They say it’s bad for your teeth, but I love it. Crunching it. You
know, the ice.”
I shouldn’t be here. I should be home, watching the news with my wife and daughter after dinner. Instead, I’m sitting here,
listening to some lonely old hippie chew ice.
“Here” is a restaurant in east Culver City that has changed hands more often than a cafeteria tray. Its present name is Fenton’s
Grill. On the sign out front, the neon Gr is blinking in and out, so the display sporadically reads Fenton’s ill. From the looks of the place, it’s easy to see why he would be.
When I was a kid, Fenton’s wasn’t even Fenton’s. It was Petrazello’s—a friendly neighborhood restaurant, clean, homey, and
reasonably priced. Even after dark I felt safe walking there. It was always the centerpiece of life in the ten or so square
blocks of my childhood world. Little League teams would wolf down pizza there. Dates sat stiffly in rented outfits at white-linen-covered
tables. I was one of them, sitting across from gorgeous Brenda Magnusson. A perspiring freshman in an ill-fitting suit about
to go to homecoming, where the entire world would discover that I couldn’t dance. Other nights the place transformed into
a loud, smoky den where husbands gathered around a television set in the bar, praising or berating the Dodgers. The women
sat nearby, praising and berating their husbands.
Old man Petrazello was always there, day or night, greeting the neighborhood at the cash register or on busy nights reworking
tables to jam as many into that room as the fire marshal would allow. Nobody ever seemed to mind how crowded it was. Nobody
seemed in a hurry at Petrazello’s. You were in a room with familiar faces. Friends of your parents walking by your table,
tousling your hair, calling you by a nickname, and telling you they saw the double you hit last game.
Old man Petrazello carried candy in a pocket of his apron for the kids. Good candy. Not the cheap mints they put up front
for a donation to the Civitans. Old man Petrazello was always smiling too. It’s as if he didn’t run the place for a profit
but because he truly enjoyed being a relative to everyone in our neighborhood.
But that was then, and this is now.
The once attractive freestanding building with a few parking spaces and some nice landscaping was eventually asphalted over,
and some other cheap buildings were added to form a strip mall. Fenton’s is now more bar than restaurant. The TV is still
in the same spot—maybe even the same one, judging by the bent antenna. The lighting is a strange combination of harshly glaring
and dim. I have no idea how that effect is achieved, but it can’t mask the fact that the floor is the same drab green linoleum
I remember. Every few feet along the bar—now Formica instead of wood—are mismatched plastic dishes of Spanish peanuts. One
bowl has little tiki faces. Another says, “Visit Arizona!”
The “grill” is several wobbly tables with plastic vases of plastic flowers. So I opted for the bar.
Fenton’s is about eight miles from where I work—not far by Southern California standards, but I hadn’t come down here in years
until recently. I guess it’s embarrassing to see what my childhood world has become. My old neighborhood is on the decline—one
in a long list of once proud middle-class communities falling victim to quick-cash stores and porn shops. Taking the surface
streets from my office in Santa Monica, the scenery quickly morphs from manicured curbsides and executive condos to a conveyor
belt of sputtering neon.
But now, for the first time in a long time, I’m actually inside this joint. The first two times I ended up in the parking
lot and didn’t even get out of the car. I just sat there, angry, resentful, and noisy. Arguments at home, conflicts at work
all rattling around in my head. And this horrible feeling that I can’t drive far enough to get away from it. Something is
wrong. Something’s not working, when everything should be working. I don’t know how to describe what I’m feeling. It’s like coming to a place in your life where all the slot lines
come up cherry but nothing comes out of the machine. You sit there, hoping that staring will make something happen.
I’m here again, I thought, and I’m hungry. Fenton’s “illness” aside, I might as well see what this place has sunk to.
Everything on the menu looks a little scary. This is not a place where you gamble on meat loaf.
The bartender is impatient even though he has few other customers.
“I’ll have a manhattan.”
Why did I say that? I’m not even sure what a manhattan is. I think my dad used to drink them. Something about Fenton’s wood-paneled
decor suggests that a manhattan might be an appropriate drink for a person who doesn’t want to stand out.
A half dozen or so patrons are engaged in muffled conversations. The place looks smoky, though I know the smoking ban in California
makes that impossible. It’s as if all the smoke of years past is still hovering in the air. Or maybe it’s grease from the
grill. The surface of the bar feels a little filmy.
My manhattan appears, and I’m quickly acquainted with why I’ve never ordered one. It tastes like butane with a splash of syrup.
I ask for a glass of water and mindlessly stare at the sports recap on the television.
That’s when the scruffy-looking guy sat down… I think.
Okay, what can I say without sounding like a jerk so he’ll get the message? Why do guys like this go into bars and try to
start conversations with complete strangers?
“She got to you last night, didn’t she?”
“What?” My head whips in his direction.
“Last night.”
Now I’m getting ticked. “Who got to me? What are you talking about?”
“Your wife,” he says. “You knew she was right, of course. Same stuff. But no way were you gonna own it. What would you do,
anyway? Say you’re sorry and repeat the same thing next week? I can see why you drink.”
“I’m not drinking!” I nearly shout. “I mean, I’m not a drinker.” I put some cash on the bar and get up.
“Sure… lots of guys come in a bar and order stiff drinks by name because they’re not drinkers. Listen, sport, you’re not obligated
to explain anything to me. Most people don’t want to deal with what’s eating at them. Just pretend I’m not here.”
This guy has just called me “champ” and “sport.” What’s next, “chief”?
“Your wife,” he says flatly. “The argument. The whole reason you drove down here instead of going home after work. I mean,
this is a long way from Manhattan Beach.”
I turn and look at him. “What was that?”
“Gotcha there, didn’t I?” he says with a grin. “Pretty hard to just get up and leave when a total stranger starts reeling
off details about your life. Am I right?”
He walks over to me and puts his hand on my shoulder, like he’s about to tell an old friend a joke. In one move I push his
hand off me and step back.
“Get away from me. You don’t know me!”
For a moment the room is frozen, my words hanging in the air.
He raises his hands, palms toward me. “Whoa, whoa, whoa there, partner. Calm down. I’m just talking.”
Just as I get to the door he calls to me. “You gonna just up and leave? You come to this place for maybe the third time in
as many months and finally stumble inside. You’re telling me some guy starts throwing out some pretty accurate details about
your life, someone who takes an interest in you and the problems that got you here… and you walk?”
“What?” I turn back from the door. “What are you saying to me?”
“Look, you’re making me strain my voice here, chief,” he says. “You want to talk, then come sit back down with your nonalcoholic
manhattan.”
I walk back to the counter. What am I doing talking to this nut? I don’t want to talk to anyone. I sit down in front of the flammable drink.
“—even if he could tell you why you’re so sad?”
“Listen. Who are you, Mister?”
“I just thought you might be thinking something along those lines. See if this fits: It’s like you’re stumbling around in
a dark room, bumping into furniture. How am I doing? Making sense?”
I stare at him blankly.
“I’ll take your silence as a yes.”
His voice gets quieter and lower. “After many experiences, you’ve learned to memorize paths around the pain. You think you’ve
finally figured out how to navigate in the dark. You almost get used to doing life in the dark. Then the next day, week, month,
maybe while you’re sleeping, the furniture gets moved, and you slam your shin into an end table.
“And each time, with each new bruise, you lose more and more hope, more confidence, more sense of purpose. You start reacting
to pain more than anything else. You make decisions based on what hurts least. You avoid stuff you know you should face. You
avoid interaction with people you suspect might be moving your furniture. Eventually that list grows to include a whole lotta
people.
“And the worst part is that it feels like almost everyone else can see you stumbling around. It’s like they can all see the
furniture. They might never tell you this, but you’re pretty sure they know.”
He looks at me, waiting, but I’ve lost my response. He turns back to the television. “So how am I doing, Steven?”
“How do you know my name?”
He ignores my question. “They want to tell you, you know.”
“Who does?”
He taps the bar with his fingertips. “Your friends. Your family. Those you work with. Truth is, some of them have actually
tried. They want to help. But you don’t believe they can help. Sound familiar, Steven?”
I sit up straight on my stool and nearly knock over my glass of water. “Look, I don’t know who you think I am, but I don’t
know you. Now stop the game, pal, and tell me how you know me.”
No response.
I pick up my water glass and lean closer to him. “You want me to call the manager? Or do you want me to pour this glass of
ice all over you before I throw you out in the street?”
His voice is quieter now. “Yeah, I guess you could do that. Then you could drive home and pretend this didn’t happen. You
could go back to what you’ve been doing. Pretend it’s just a bad week, a couple bad breaks. But you’ll be back. If not here
then somewhere else.”
He pauses.
“And until you let someone shine a light into your room, nothing’s gonna change. Life’s gonna get more painful, more confusing,
and darker. Pour ice on me if you want. Heck, throw me out if it makes you feel better.”
The man tips up his glass and shakes a couple of ice cubes into his mouth.
“Oh, by the way, you might wanna take that name tag off your shirt if you don’t want strangers calling you by name, Steven…
. Just a thought.”
I look down and see the name tag—the little sticker with my name on it that I’ve worn all day since that meeting outside the
office. What an idiot! Might as well have been wearing a sign around my neck saying, “Please talk to me, I’m lonely!” I rip the sticker off my shirt.
We’re both quiet, except for his obnoxious crunching.
“Look,” I say. “I shouldn’t have reacted like that. I’m… I’m not in a very good place. And some stranger starts spouting stuff
about me and I don’t know what to do. Maybe this is all a joke someone put you up to, but I need it to stop. What do you say
we start over? Tell me your name and how you know me.”
He shakes his head. “Oh no you don’t. I’ll call the manager out here and see why a perfect stranger wants to know my name.”
I chuckle. “I deserved that, didn’t I?”
“Yes, you did.
“Steven,” he says, “would it help if you knew that I’m from this neighborhood? I grew up here too. I remember when this place
was Petrazello’s. Gracious Sister of Monrovia, they had great pizza! The sauce… It had this sweetness to it. Remember? Nobody
was sure if it was cinnamon or what.”
“I’d forgotten that.”
“You can’t find that sauce anymore. It died with old man Petrazello.”
Then he smiles warmly, searching my eyes. “Maybe it would help if I told you that I know your dad.”
“You do? Why didn’t you say that at the start?”
“I’ve seen you before this,” he says. “You were sitting in the parking lot.”
“How did you know it was me?”
“Your dad told me about the car. Steven, I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but there aren’t a lot of late-model SL-Class Mercedes
in this neighborhood.”
“So you know my dad, huh?”
He nods. “We were pretty good friends when you were a little kid. Hung out here a lot. Then I got on the fast track, and we
sort of lost touch until a few years ago. Anyway, he brags about you, you know. So I’ve kind of kept a watch for you and followed
your life the last couple years. That’s how I was sure it was you today when you walked into Fenton’s. I was walking out of
Radio Shack next door and thought, How cool is this? I know this kid, but he doesn’t know me. Let’s have some fun.”
“So that’s how you knew about Manhattan Beach?”
“Yep.”
“So, you’re not a mind reader, after all?”
“Not really. But I kind of was there for a while, wasn’t I?”
“Yes, you were.”
“I’m surprised he hasn’t told you about me.”
“Me too.”
We’re quiet again, both staring at the television set. Finally I laugh. “So are you going to tell my da. . .
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