Blood and Other Cravings

Genres: Anthologies

Synopsis

When we think of vampires, instantly the image arises: fangs sunk deep into the throat of the victim. But bloodsucking is merely one form of vampirism. For this brilliantly original anthology, Ellen Datlow has commissioned stories from many of the most powerfully dark voices in contemporary horror, who conjure tales of vampirism that will chill readers to the marrow.

In addition to the traditional fanged vampires, Datlow presents stories about the leeching of emotion, the draining of the soul, and other dark deeds of predation and exploitation, infestation, and evisceration…tales of life essence, literal or metaphorical, stolen.
Seventeen stories, by such award-winning authors as Elizabeth Bear, Richard Bowes, Kathe Koja, Margo Lanagan, Carol Emshwiller, and Lisa Tuttle will petrify readers. With dark tales by Laird Barron, Barry Malzberg and Bill Pronzini, Kaaron Warren, and other powerful voices, Blood and Other Cravings will redefine the terror of vampires and vampirism.


At the Publisher's request, this title is being sold without Digital Rights Management Software (DRM) applied.

Release date: September 13, 2011

Publisher: Tom Doherty Associates

Print pages: 320

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ALL YOU CAN DO IS BREATHE

Kaaron Warren


Kaaron Warren's first short-story collection was the award winning The Grinding House (CSFG Publishing). Her second collection, Dead Sea Fruit, is published by Ticonderoga Publications and is shortlisted for two Ditmar Awards. Her first novel, Slights, (Angry Robot Books) won the Australian Shadows Award for fiction, the Ditmar Award, and the Canberra Critics' Award for Fiction. Angry Robot Books also published the novel Walking the Tree, (shortlisted for an Aurealis Award) and most recently, Mistification.
Warren lives in Canberra, Australia, with her family. Her website can be found at kaaronwarren.wordpress.com.

Stuart lay trapped underground for five days before the tall man appeared and stared into his eyes.
He thought he sensed movement. Flicked on his cap lamp—"Barry? Did you make it through the wall?"—but there was no one here.
There was something though, in his face, so close he pulled back and banged his head on the rock behind. He shouted, mouth open, squeezed his eyes shut. He'd never felt such terror, not even when his daughter had fallen into the pool and they didn't notice for god knows how long.
This was a man. Something like a man. Tall, elongated, the thing looked deep into his eyes. It reached out and almost took his chin with its bony fingers, keeping his head still, paralyzing him even though it wasn't actually touching him.
Stuart could smell sour cherries, something like that. It made him hungry, and that hunger somehow beat out the terror.
He pulled his head backward. The man nodded, stepped back, and was gone.
Within a minute or two, Stuart was sure he'd imagined it. Though he had words in his ear. "See you soon, Stuart." He was sure he'd heard those words.
It felt like the walls were getting closer, but he kept testing by stretching his arms and the distance was the same. The part of the mine he was working had collapsed so quickly, it seemed like time stopped and froze, and when it started up again, he was surrounded on all sides by rock.
Barry, his workmate, was on the other side, but he'd heard nothing from him for twelve hours now.
Thank god for the luminous hand on his watch. The kid gave it to him for Father's Day years ago, and even at the time he'd been thrilled. You don't always get that with Father's Day presents.
It wasn't what you'd call a worker's watch. It was full of gadgets, like the watches of the office men who drove to work each day, passing him as he stood, cold in the dark, at the bus stop with the other miners. Their cars blinked with gadgets.
This watch kept perfect time, and followed the date, and the hand provided a warm green glow in the pitch black. At home he had to keep it in his bedside drawer at night because the light kept his wife awake. But he could still see the thin green line across the top of the drawer where the light escaped.
Since the walls came down, he'd slept sporadically, waking a couple of times thinking he was home in bed because of the glow. He'd covered it up with his lunch box and only a small line escaped.
He had his cap lamp, but he really didn't want to use that. There'd been mine rescues lasting two weeks, and he wanted to know he could have bright light if he needed to. He knew they wouldn't give up. They never left a body underground, mostly because they didn't want it found much later.
He had his GPS so they knew where he was. He could see Barry's blip, too, but that didn't mean he was still going. Just his GPS.
Stuart stretched his legs and arms out and in, counting to a hundred. His wife was always on at him to do more exercise, so she'd be pleased to see him do this. His water and food had run out on the third day. He knew there was no sense keeping the food. It'd just go off and make him sick. Some gritty water dripped down the wall. Licking it made his tongue ache it was so cold, and there wasn't enough of it. He pissed into his water bottle and knew that drinking it wouldn't kill him. He pretended it was lime cordial, the sour stuff, not the sweet.
Foodwise he knew he could last without for a while, but it didn't help the hunger pains. Lucky his wife packed him heaps and there was Barry's lunch as well, on Stuart's side of the wall where Barry couldn't get to it.
He'd tried moving the rocks but it just caused more of a tumble no matter where he took the rocks from. He wanted to keep trying but his instincts told him just to leave it.
Bugs skittered about and he could eat them. The strap of his lunch box was leather and he chewed on that, making jokes that it was about as good as his sister-in-law's roast dinner. If he got out, he'd make that joke and people would write it up and his sister-in-law would be famous for her bad cooking.
Stuart tried to sleep when he figured it was nighttime outside, to keep a routine going. It was hard without a change of light and with an empty stomach, and he hadn't done anything to wear himself out. Usually he'd drop into bed after a shift and a feed exhausted. On a Saturday, if he hadn't been in the mine, he and his wife might have sex, but it wasn't something he thought about much.
He thought about it now.
He spent a lot of the time with his eyes closed, but he tried not to think about the dark. Instead, he went through football matches he remembered.
* * *
It was seven days before they found him. Nowhere near the record, but enough to have a media frenzy going on. As they were getting close they'd managed to get a tube through to him, and sent him notes from his wife and daughter, and bags of glucose. They dropped some biscuits down, too. "I was hoping for a meat pie," he called up the tube. He could talk with his mouth close to the tube, tell them shit he wanted his family to know. Tell them all the jokes he'd thought up while he was down there. Nothing worse than a joke without an audience. They called questions down, like, "Are you scared?"
"Naah, I'm not scared. I'm fearless! Nothing scares me!"
He asked them about Barry and they said they were working on it. Ever since the long man had visited him, Stuart had had a bad feeling about Barry. He thought perhaps that was Barry's ghost and he felt bad about screaming. He wished he'd said, "G'day, mate," whatever.
It was overcast when they pulled him out, but still far warmer than inside the mine. It meant he didn't have to squint because of the sun. His wife, Cheryl, was there, and his daughter, Sarah, and for a long time he couldn't talk, just held them and cried. He'd never actually cried before, not since he was a little kid, anyway, but this he couldn't help. He thought he'd never see them again and he loved them, loved them hard. Sarah looked so beautiful, so grown up for her thirteen years. Underground he'd imagined her future. In his darkest times, like the hours after the long man disappeared and he felt like giving up, he imagined her future. Who she'd be, what she'd do, who she'd marry. What her kids would look like. He dreamed it all in case he didn't get to see it, and now, there she was.
His rescuers were there, too. None of them keen to go home. Dirty faced, exhausted, he couldn't believe how happy they were to see him. He knew he'd have to live well, every day of his life, to justify what they'd done.
"Where's Barry? Did you get him out yet?" he asked once he'd had a warm drink. They loaded him into an ambulance although he said he felt fine.
"They haven't got Barry yet," Cheryl said, but her eyes were downcast and he knew she was fibbing. She didn't do it very often and he thought only to protect him. Like the time half the mine was shut down and the wives knew about it first. And the time Sarah had broken her arm because of the kid next door. Cheryl didn't want to tell him that because she knew how angry he'd be, but he didn't do anything about it. The kid was never allowed in their front door again, but that was it.
"I'd rather know than not know," he said.
There were news cameras, people with microphones and others with notepads.
"Why do you think you survived?" they shouted at him. "Why you and not Barry?"
The tears took again at that and Cheryl squeezed his hand hard. The ambulance crew shut the door and then it was a week in the hospital before he had to face the questions again.
They told him about Barry once they thought he was all good. Barry'd been trapped, his leg under the rocks. Stuart could imagine how bad that must have felt. So Barry tried to cut his way through, Jesus, cut his way through his own leg.
They said he bled to death.
"He wrote you something while he was down there," Cheryl said.
"He was always scribbling, that Barry. He'd write a letter to the Pope if he could get the address," Stuart said. It was an old joke, which made him tear up, thinking that Barry would have laughed at this one.
"He was hallucinating, they reckon. But still. You should read it."
I thought you'd got through the wall, Stu. I didn't hear you but heard a rock shift so thought you must be to my left. You wouldn't answer me so I cracked the shits. I couldn't turn my body but turned my face as far as I could, twisted my cap lamp around to catch you. I figured you wanted to kill and eat me, that's how stupid I was.
Wasn't you.
My light went right through this thing. I could see it, though. Looked almost like a man, but stretched out like a piece of bubble gum or something. Or when you press Blu-Tak onto newspaper and get some print and stretch it out. Like that. He had long fingers, twice as long as mine. Dunno if you heard me scream but this thing freaked me out. It came at me and I would have pissed myself if I wasn't already sitting in my own wet pants. It leaned forward and put its eyes real close to mine. Stared into me. I screamed my head off, no reason, just scared shitless. It came at me, touched my nose with its long finger, then it shook its head and drifted back.
I thought, shit, it's going to Stu, and I screamed louder. I wanted to warn you. But what do you do? I didn't know what to tell you.
I don't know if I'll last until they find me. Tell my mates they did me proud and if you can find my mother tell her I'm sorry.
"Do you know anything about this long man, Stuart? Did you hear anything, see anything?" his wife asked him.
Stuart nodded. He spoke quietly. "I saw a man like that. I thought I must have imagined it. But maybe it was a ghost. Maybe someone died in there and he was looking at us, going, ‘You're not going to make it. No way. You're going to die.' Because he made me feel so bad I almost wanted to die."
"That's awful, Stuart. We're so lucky to have you back." He kissed her, as he did any chance he got.
"Maybe keep it just between us for now. About this long man. Other people won't understand it. Don't tell the media types. Okay?"
"You think I'm crazy."
"No, I don't. But I know you and they don't. Just keep it to the simple stuff, hey? Shouldn't be hard for you!"
* * *
He discovered he was good at talking. Cheryl thought it was funny. "You're a gabber now, Stuart. Couldn't get ten words a day out of you beforehand!" She fixed his hair, getting him ready for the next press conference.
"Yeah, well, they're always asking me for answers," he said. He didn't mind. It was always the same thing, so he didn't have to think too hard. This one, the room was packed. They knew he was fully recovered and had some others to talk, too. The mine owner, who Stuart had never met. One of his rescuers. And some doctor, a psychologist.
They had a good go at the mine owner for a while about responsibilities and compensation, then they turned to Stuart.
"Did you always think you'd be found?"
"I always expected to be found. I'm a bit like that. I expect I'm gonna get good luck. Just that kind of person. All credit to the rescuers, though. I can't believe those guys, still can't believe what they did. We'll be friends for life because of it."
The rescuer next to him clapped a hand on his shoulder.
"Was there any time you wanted to give up?"
He thought of the long gray man and the feelings of despair he'd left behind. They wouldn't believe him if he talked about that, think he was mad.
"Nah. I just thought of my wife's pot roast and that got me through."
"What is it you've got? Why did you survive and not Barry?"
"I can't answer that."
The psychologist stepped in. "There are many reasons why people survive. For Stuart, he had thoughts of his family to sustain him. Barry didn't have that and studies have shown it makes a difference. Also, Stuart was less dramatic in his actions. Maybe he thought ahead a bit more, and maybe Barry thought he could get out of it."
"You're saying it's Barry's fault he was trapped? His own fault he died?"
"No. Not at all. But the fact is that Stuart thought it through and trusted the rescuers."
"Do you think yourself lucky, Stuart?"
"Couldn't be luckier," Stuart said. "Luckiest man left alive."
"I'm sure your rescuers will be happy to hear that. Do you feel any sense of obligation to them? Do you owe them anything?"
"Yeah, look, they're all spread out around the place, but they can come to my place for a feed any time they like. And you know what I really owe them? I owe them a good life."
He and the rescuer shook hands, and the cheering of the audience went on for two minutes.
"What do you say to the idea that some people don't survive because they may have died helping others?"
"Yeah, well, if I coulda helped Barry survive I would have."
"What about his food? Is it true you ate his food?"
"Yeah, I ate his food. He couldn't get to it and it was only going off. That's not what killed him."
The psychologist said, "It is true that often it is the survivors don't help others. Especially in times of famine. Survivors are the ones who will take food from a child's mouth."
Stuart felt stunned. He wasn't sure how the conversation had turned against him and what a hero he was, but it seemed it had.
"All I did was survive," he said. "No one had to die for me to survive. I did it because I love my family, I love my life, and I wanted to get here on TV for the free beer I've heard about."
With that, he had the audience back.
Afterward, there was plenty of beer drunk. The crew took him out to the local pub and he was there long after they left. People had watched the interview and they all wanted to talk to him about it.
"If only we could bottle what you've got, there'd be no little kiddies dying of cancer," people said to him more often than he wanted to hear.
"If only we could bottle it, you'd be a rich man."
"If only we could bottle it, we'd save the world."
They thought he had some magic power, that it wasn't a willingness to drink your own piss and a great desire to have proper sex with your wife again, it was something else. Something they couldn't have.
He took a drink well but even he was feeling a bit woozy by around midnight. By 3 A.M., the pub was almost empty. He could no longer remember who he'd spoken to, so when a sad-faced man said hello, he nodded and went back to his beer.
"Hello, Stuart," the man said again. His voice was soft. It had an amused tone, as if he knew more than other people, found something amusing. Stuart no longer wondered how people knew his name. Plenty of them did. He rather liked the celebrity. He'd always enjoyed making connections with people all over.
Stuart looked at him this time. "Do I know you?" he asked.
His teeth were bright, white and even. Clearly false. His hair, pale blond, sat flat on his head. He smelled strongly of aftershave, the kind Stuart used to smell wafting out of the cars while he waited for the bus. His mouth drooped. Sad man, Stuart thought.
"How are you holding up?"
"I'm okay. Bit tired."
The man moved so that he looked directly into Stuart's eyes. Stuart froze. This is how the apparition in the cave had looked at him. With this intensity. He was used to people staring at him greedily, but this was different. The sad face, the long arms. Long, long fingers.
It was the apparition from the mine.
The man's hand went out and grabbed Stuart by the wrist with a powerful grip.
"Hold still, Stuart. This won't take long."
Stuart shivered, feeling as cold as he had underground. Chilled to the bone and dreaming of snow.
"Leggo, mate, wouldya?" he said. He tried to pull back, but he felt a deep lethargy, as if he'd been injected with golden syrup and his limbs couldn't move.
The man raised his other arm and brought it up to pinch the bridge of Stuart's nose. Stuart was paralyzed. He wanted one of the other drinkers to intervene, to hit the man, knock him away, but no one did. It was so quiet Stuart felt as if he were back in the mine and the idea of it made him choke.
No. It wasn't that. He had a nose bleed, blood pouring backward down his throat because the man held his sinuses so tight.
He let go and Stuart slumped forward, spitting blood. He felt movement return.
Turned his head away from the man.
The man bent and helped him up. "Nose bleed, nose bleed, make a bit of room, I'll take him and clean him up. Nose bleed, he'll be fine."
Stuart tried to pull his arm away. His mouth was full of blood.
"Come on, Stuart, it'll be all right."
He led Stuart into the men's toilets. Propped him against the wall.
Stuart heard a skittering sound, like cockroaches across the kitchen bench at midnight. He thought he caught a whiff of them, that slightly plasticky smell. A smell of sour cherries.
"It won't hurt," the man said.
Stuart felt the creatures and, by straining his eyes, could watch them walking up his arm. The scream in his head deafened him.
Up his forearm, his biceps, over his shoulders and onto his neck, where he could feel them latching on.
"It's not your blood they're taking," the man said. His voice was soft and almost too broad to listen to. "It's something else. You won't miss it. It'll be like it was never there. You won't know."
He clicked his tongue and Stuart thought the sucking stopped. He felt light-headed and nauseous. The man plucked a beetle off Stuart's shoulder and ate it. Crunched it like it was a nut and took the next. Two more, and he was smacking his lips. Stuart couldn't move. He felt so cold he felt like he'd been buried in snow. Or was back in the cave. But it was light in here. Very bright.
"Look at me." The man's cheeks were pink, his eyes bright. He looked younger. Happy.
"Thank you, Stuart. Have a good life."
He tapped Stuart on the head and Stuart slept.
He awoke on the filthy toilet floor. Someone had dropped a wad of shitty toilet paper and he could smell that.
He felt little compunction to rise, to lift himself. It was like this was the only moment and there was nothing beyond.
Another man came in and helped him up. "Home time for you, mate? Wait here while I take a piss and I'll get you to a taxi."
"Do I know you?" Stuart said. Things seemed blurred and he couldn't remember much.
"Nah, but you'll always help someone in trouble, right? Specially a survivor like you."
I am a survivor, Stuart thought as the stranger helped him to a taxi. That's what I did.
But he felt as if he could never do it again.
* * *
He woke up on his lounge room floor, his shirt stiff with dried blood.
"Big night, was it?" Cheryl said, poking him with her toe.
Sarah stood over him, ready for school, her shoes all shined, her white socks folded neatly.
He shivered, feeling cold. "The long man pinched my nose." His face felt swollen and he knew he must look awful.
"Get off the floor," Sarah said. "You're shivering."
"I will soon." He felt a deep sense of pure lethargy.
Cheryl helped him up onto the couch and brought him a cup of tea. "You're too old to drink like that anymore."
"Wasn't the drink. Well, I did give it a bit of a hiding, but it was this guy. This long gray guy who gave me a bloody nose and then did something to me. I'm tired. I'm so tired. And cold."
She brought him a fluffy pink blanket and covered his knees with it. "The TV producers sent over a copy of your interview. Sarah and I have already watched it twice! Want to have a look? You come across really well."
She didn't wait for his answer but played the DVD anyway.
He watched the interview over and over that day, wondering at the person talking. "Jeez, I'm a smart-arse, aren't I?" he said, smiling at his Cheryl. She kissed his forehead.
"You always were." The lightness of her tone warmed him slightly. She had suffered post-natal depression and he was terrified every day it would come on again. He saw it behind her eyes sometimes, in the droop of her mouth. A wash of sadness. Those were the times he tried harder to lift her up. Out of the corner of his eye he thought he saw a bug climbing the wall and he curled up, pulling his blanket up over his eyes. "We need to get the rentokill guys in here. Get rid of the cockroaches," he said.
She nodded. "Ants, too. All over the kitchen, rotten little things." She sat beside him, laying her head on his shoulder. "I still can't believe you're back," she said. His little bird, his sparrow, but a tower of strength at the same time.
Usually sitting beside her he felt something. Irritation, often, when she went on about small domestic details, none of which interested him. Boredom, talking about her family. Affection, when they sat together watching TV. Love, when they laughed together at a joke he'd made, when her eyes crinkled up and little tears formed. He loved those little tears.
She held his hand. He let it lie loose.
"Are you okay?" she said.
"I just can't really feel anything. It's all gone numb."
She stared at him. "We have to tell the doctor. Something's wrong. You shouldn't feel like that."
"I don't feel anything, love. That's the thing. Nothing at all. Just cold. Like I've got an ice block inside my stomach." He didn't tell her he meant emotionally as well, that looking at her left him cold.
To cover it up, he kissed her. Usually they'd do this stuff at night, with the door closed, but he kissed her with passion and moved his hands around her body, touching all his favorite bits.
* * *
The weeks passed. He ate meals he had no real desire to eat, had conversations and many, many interviews. Sponsorships brought money in. Newspaper reports listed everything he'd eaten underground and those people approached him. It was Vegemite, Tip Top bread, Milo chocolate bars, apples (the local fruit shop took on that one), and the local butcher had a go, too. The watch company put him on TV, talking about how he'd never need another watch, that one was so good. So at least he didn't have to work. People kept asking him if he was going back underground and he'd bluff at them, give them the real man answer, the hero stuff, but he wasn't going back.
He spent a lot of time reading the paper. He started cutting out stories of other survivors, especially the ones who talked about the cold, about the deep bone chill they felt after a few days.
"Dad, let me hook you up with an online forum. You can meet other survivors. Talk to them. Most of them are probably feeling what you're feeling," Sarah said. He sat at the computer for a while but it only made sense when she talked him through it, and he didn't want her to know it all.
She asked him about the long man. "The one you said pinched your nose. We should try to track him down and make sure he doesn't do it again. People can't go round pinching my dad's nose like that."
"Willy-nilly," he said. It was an old joke. "I don't know if we'll find him. I don't think he's at the pub much, or if he's got a job. I saw him when I was buried, you know. He sent his ghost in to find me."
Others had talked about seeing visions. Buried in the snow, or caught in a car for two days on a country road. They said, more than one of them, that a long man had visited them. "It's not just me," he told Sarah. "No one knows why he doesn't help. He just looks."
"Did he pinch their noses? This is the stuff we can find online, Dad."
"Yeah, maybe. Maybe. What about stuff about cockroaches? How to get rid of them? I saw a huge one in the bathroom. They say they'll survive nuclear war. That's what they reckon." He shivered. "I hate them."
He felt like a fraud. Life exhausted him, all the people wanting what he had. And Cheryl and Sarah got nothing but harassment. "Lucky your dad's alive, your husband," people said to them. "Imagine what life would have been like without him, how sad, how hard." Making them think about it. All those people wanting to talk to him, but they paid him, at least, and it kept them in beer and roast beef. Always the same questions.
"What is it you think you were kept alive for?" they asked, putting the onus on him to make something of his life. As if he'd been given a second chance and he'd be a fool to waste it.
"Dunno what I was kept alive for, but mostly I'm enjoying every extra minute with my daughter and my wife," was his stock answer.
But he no longer really cared.
They asked him, "Are you scared of anything? Seems like you're not." It was a stupid question, he thought. Who wasn't scared?
"Cockroaches. I really hate cockroaches." The interviewer sighed in agreement.
Another question they always asked him was, "Put in the same situation, would or could you do it again?"
"Well, I won't, mate, will I? Just not going to happen."
They always ended with, "If only you could bottle it." His standard joke was to hold out his wrists.
"Ya wanna take a liter or two? Go for it! I can spare it!"
It was all an act and he was good at it.
* * *
He was waiting in the queue to buy fish-and-chips ("Aren't you that guy? That miner guy?") when he smelled sour cherries. It took him straight back to the cave and the smell of the long man. He felt cold through his layers of clothing and did not want to turn around. He felt someone behind him, close, but people did that. They seemed to think if they got physically close to him they could absorb some of him, that they could be like him.
He took his package of food and left the shop, eyes down. Climbed into the car some sponsor had given him, sat there to eat it.
The long man opened the passenger door and climbed in.
Stuart dropped the food on his lap where it sat, greasy and hot. He barely felt it. He scrabbled for the door handle but the long man took his wrist. Pressed hard and Stuart couldn't move. Just like last time.
"You seem to be enjoying that fish, Stuart. You know what that tells me? That I didn't take it all. The fact that you want to eat tells me that."
Stuart tried to shake his head, to say, "I'm faking it, it's all fake, I can't feel a fucking thing," but the cockroaches were out, skittering and sucking, and if he thought he was cold before, that was nothing. His eyelids felt frozen open, his nostrils frozen shut, breathing was so painful he wanted to stop doing it.
"That's it now," the long man said, picking cockroach feelers out of his teeth. "You're done."
Stuart sat slumped in the seat for a while, then started the car. A tape was playing; one of his interviews. He liked listening to himself, hearing his own voice.
"I'll do anything to stay alive, anything to keep my family alive," he heard himself say. "You know I got stuck in a pipe once when I was a kid. Fat kid, I was. I sang songs from TV shows to keep me occupied." Listening from his car, chilled to the bone and tired, Stuart wondered if he'd seen the long man then. If the long man had waited, and waited, until he was good and strong.
He pulled out of the car park. It was only his sense of duty making him do it, long-instilled. He had to go to a school visit someone had organized for him. Some school where there was a survivor kid, a young girl recently rescued. It took him a while to get there: wrong turns, bad traffic. Angry traffic. He thought there was more road rage than usual but then wondered if it was his driving. If all that stuff about driving carefully did make sense, because he didn't care now, didn't care how he drove or what he hit.
* * *
"We'd like to welcome Stuart Parker to the school. He's taken time out of his busy day to talk to us and to talk to Claire, our own hero."
The children clapped quietly. Stuart guessed they were tired of hearing about Claire.
She'd been trapped in the basement of a building. A game of hide-and-seek gone wrong; no one knew she was playing. No one knew where she was. It took six days for them to find her.
"Tell us how you coped, Claire," the teacher said.
"I pretended I was at school doing boring work and that's why it was so boring. Sometimes I thought about this nice man from the mine. He said he kept thinking of nice things and that's what I did, too."
The children shuffled, started to talk, bored. Claire looked at them wide-eyed. "I ate bugs. Lots of bugs. Like he did. And I had some chips I took from the cupboard but I didn't want to tell Mum and Dad cos I didn't want to get in trouble."
She had their attention, but not completely. "And then there was the creepy guy."
"You were alone in the basement, Claire, weren't you?" the teacher said, passive-aggressive. "No one there."
"Who did you see?" Stuart said. He hadn't had a chance to speak before then. "What did he look like?"
The audience were rapt. They didn't often get to see adults this way, all het up and loud.
"I was all by myself but then this creepy long guy was there. I never seen him before but I thought he might help me to get out. But he didn't, he just stared at me. I told him he should go away but the only thing I think he said was, ‘See you soon, Claire.' That's why I'm scared. I really don't want to see him again."
Stuart wanted to care. He wanted to save her but there was nothing left in him. Only the memory of the man who would have killed to save that girl. Would have ripped the arms off any man who tried to hurt her.
Just a memory, though.
"Stuart,