A World Away

by Stewart O'Nan

Genres: Historical Fiction

Synopsis

A major novel by the award-winning author named by Granta as one of America's best young writers. Set at a remote beachfront cottage in the Hamptons one summer during the Second World War, A World Away follows the fortunes of the Langer family, whose oldest son, Rennie, is missing in action in the Pacific theater. As we are soon aware, there is another battle raging at the same time, this one on the domestic front, as Anne and James Langer's marriage begins to unravel. In part to repay her husband for his affair with a student, Anne begins a clandestine romance with a soldier stationed at a nearby base. Yet all the passion and tenderness she finds with her lover is unable to ease Anne's empty ache from having her family torn apart.

Thousands of miles away, Rennie is wounded in the effort to drive the Japanese from the island of Attu in the Aleutians, as Dorothy, his young wife, gives birth alone in San Diego. When Rennie comes home, his spirit as wounded as his body, it's clear that James and Anne must repair their own broken lives if they're going to help their son heal and bring their family back together. A World Away is a rich, romantic story that has all the depth and generosity of spirit Stewart O'Nan's work is known for.

Release date: April 1, 2010

Publisher: Henry Holt and Co.

Print pages: 352

Sample

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THEY DROVE THE NIGHT, through the blacked-out city and out along the Island. Fog stole in from the sea, lay heavy over inlets, white wooden bridges. The roads ran empty for miles, starlit, desolate. James had screwed louvers over the Buick's headlights, it was the law. He thought they'd be stopped, Anne roused, Jay shielding his eyes from some air raid warden's flashlight. For hours, whenever they slowed, the boy asked, "Are we there?" and now James couldn't get it out of his head.
They went on, there was no one. The woods, the marshes, the lines slipping under the car. He'd been born here, his father was dying. Coming back to the sea made him doubt the years in between, his life a great work one plans yet never begins. Rennie was still alive, a world away, the name of his ship snipped out of his letters. James thought the South Pacific; Anne said it didn't matter. They hadn't made love in weeks. Their bags whistled atop the car. Are we there? When are we going to be there?
It was the summer of trains. The war needed everything, all the time, like an infant. His son, his students. The filling stations along the shore were closed. He had gas because Anne's father had died, his Plymouth sitting beside the shuttered house, sucked dry, the seats gone brittle in the sun. James's father was beyond driving. His face slid over bone; when he talked he looked off to the sky, as if the enemy were gliding in behind you. At Amagansett four spies had run the night tide in a raft. In May James's sister had called and asked him to come.
"School doesn't end till June," he said.
"Then come in June," Sarah said. She'd been there since the last stroke, tending the peeling beachhouse, the rotting cottages. Their father had been recovering, she said, until this. They'd been on the porch, doing the Times crossword. James smelled the wet wicker chairs, their guests' gin breath. She'd just read him a clue. She looked over to find him asleep, nothing unusual.
"When he woke up," she said, "you know what he said? ‘Sten. S-T-E-N.' Then he couldn't stand up. The doctor said it's common."
Their father had never liked her, it was a mystery. She lived twenty miles west in Sayville, in another age. The three rarely spoke, their father shocked at the cost of the phone.
"We better hang up," James had said across the night, and went back to his chair, the light on the book he'd put down blinding.
"Another?" Anne said. She'd stopped racing James for the phone after the Kramers got their telegram. The new star bloomed gold in their window, a shrine, an omen. Rennie would have a messenger, like a prince; James and Anne would stand on the stoop and read it together, falling and falling. No, James thought, he wouldn't be home. They'd have to get him in class, a face in the door. He'd stop King Philip's War, the Panic of 1837, the Golden Spike. How far summer was, how soon.
"Sarah wants us to come down."
"What did you tell her?"
He saw no decision, though loading the car this morning he'd burned his hand pulling tight some twine and swore (as Anne had wanted to after his answer but didn't—good Anne, Saint Anne), hopping and holding his raw palm, cursing his luck, his incompetence, his mildness. They'd just come to Galesburg for her father. It was the third time in two years they'd moved.
Their catastrophes had all been expected. Her father died. Rennie resisted—against James's advice, with his hesitant blessing—and was shipped to a work camp, first in New York and then California. After four months, his roommate at Cornell was killed on his way to North Africa, and, shaken, he enlisted as a medic and was assigned to the Pacific, Dorothy following as far as San Diego. Now James's father's stroke, or his latest, for he'd withstood a string of them, none devastating. Since her father died—in front of her, calmly, barely there—Anne had been distant, resigned. She didn't have the energy to fight anymore. Together they were silent, alone spoke to themselves. Jay wandered beyond their orbit, confused, too old to be a boy but unwilling to give it up. It was a time James didn't want to remember from his own life, just as he couldn't imagine himself a few years older, having survived all this, somehow happy. It was like what had happened in Putney, though he couldn't deny that had been his fault. A student. Foolish. He'd been paying for his one slip so long, yet it hadn't lost the power to shame him. He could easily follow the whole chain of events back to that season of intimacy with Diane. His star player, sixteen and already as tall as he was. He'd been insane; it was the only explanation.
"Is it bad?" he'd asked Sarah that night on the phone.
"Yes."
"Can you put Dad on?"
"Not really."
"No?"
"Oh, Jimmy."
They wormed along Montauk Highway, through the strips of beach towns, awnings cranked up for the night, angled parking slots empty. Baskets of geraniums hung from lampposts, sand drifted over the road. People were leaving the late show, the marquee dark. The fog made everything gray and soggy. It was his childhood; he refused to look too closely. They were almost there. Center Moriches, Eastport, Quogue with a view of the bay, a dogleg of banned lights across the water. On shore his old house faced them now, invisible, miles away. He never remembered winter; there were no famous snows. It was cold into mid-July, scorching at noon then chilly under the covers. June had seemed far off once. This would be the last time he'd see the house.
As a child, the sea smashing at night woke him, and he cried. His mother stopped in his doorway in her robe, her candle shaking the walls. When she died, they boxed her clothes and shipped them to her sister in Wisconsin, land of black lakes. Her bureau still stood in his father's room, empty save sheets of newspaper full of wishful prices, going bad at the edges.
The last time he'd been back, three years ago, after his father's first stroke, James had wanted to tell him that he understood, but she never came up (never did, never would), and James didn't want to hurt the old man, suddenly vulnerable, his saint's rage softened to crotchetiness. It was true of himself, James thought, for while he'd been wronged, he couldn't stop loving his mother, his father, the life they'd had there. The boys went to bed, then Anne. The stroke was fresh and they had to sit with his father. In his sleep he whispered bits of scripture. Beside the bed, Sarah held her book at arm's length, squinting in the dim light.
"Sleep," she said.
"I can't."
He went downstairs to the pantry—where as children they'd hidden among the bins and barrels—and sipped his father's scotch in the moonlight by the open window, a connoisseur of night. Hours later when Sarah found him he hadn't finished the glass. He remembered to hide it from her.
"I can still smell," she said. "Don't worry. If I was, there wouldn't have been any left."
"I'm glad."
"And how are you and Anne getting along?"
"Splendid," he said, and thinking back now couldn't remember if he'd actually meant it. There were days, seasons of Anne he kept like treasure, secretly peeked at to make sure they'd been real. Her hands now, clasped even in sleep. Her father's long jaw.
They slipped over the town line into Hampton Bays. It had been his home; he knew it as he knew the boy he'd been, recollected hopefully, forgiven, thanked. Anne slept against the door, turned to him as if to argue. Jay lay across her lap, half under his jacket. In Galesburg, Anne thought they shouldn't tell him about Rennie, when everyone at school knew. James opened his classroom one morning—the door was locked, the key in his hand—and saw on the board a parody of hangman, the word TRAITOR a foot high. There'd been boys from Galesburg on Bataan, men missing at sea. Saturdays Jay came home from the movies and had fiery nightmares. He'd never had his own room before, and woke alone, sobbing in the dark.
Each waited for the other to go comfort him, as if he were a baby, their sleep hard-won. It was her house; he was always smashing his toes. "You're okay," he said, and clicked on the light to find Jay sniffling, ashamed. Spring had been long, breakfast full of silences, the nights partitioned. He was unprepared for class and rambled at the board, punned, the boys in the back grim, impatient. It was a town of stone bridges, mills falling into a cold river. And still he thought of Diane, her long arms, her strong back, though all of that seemed—like their house in Putney—long gone. Galesburg knew only their latest shame. On the sidewalks, women steered around him, spat at his heels. Anne had grown up there; she'd been ready to leave at thirteen. Then in May, on the brink of leaving, she said she didn't mean that, that everyone said that.
"So now you like it here," he asked.
"I have a choice?"
"I don't know," he said, reckless, "do you?"
"We come back. Fall, no matter what."
It was enough, it was all he wanted.
"You tell him," Anne said. "I refuse to."
Jay hadn't left friends, hadn't made new ones. Winter he'd spent in the town library or in his room, Anne's old one, the flocked wallpaper sullied above the baseboards. He read on the floor between his bed and the window, invisible from the hall, the curtains jerking as he kicked his feet. In the fields, crows picked over last year's stubble. Rain in black trees. Anne was always turning a light on for him. The house darkened, the windows glowed. For every book he read, James gave him a nickel. He was going through the Tarzan series—Tarzan and the Golden Lion, Tarzan and the Ant Men—the library had a whole shelf. With the money he bought comic books, the worst kind of trash. James had a drawerful at school, all muscles, guns and breasts. He was too old to be a father now, had been too old with Rennie. He'd made a pact with himself this year not to talk to Jay in school. Anne said it was hard enough for him as it was.
"I remember the beach," Jay said. It was night, the boy had to have a light on. "There's a lighthouse at the end of the rocks."
"Your grandfather's very sick."
"Will Mom have to take care of him?"
"We're all going to help a little. That's what he needs right now, little things." His sons had never known his mother. She'd gone the summer James turned ten. Her death was lost in his father's grief, the last war, Anne, the wash of odd jobs, rented bungalows and impossible cars. Then Putney, then Diane. It seemed now that he hadn't worried about Rennie at Jay's age, but was that really true?
It was the war, on the radio like a show, London crackling with static. Anne didn't like Jay to hear. James tried to reason with her but she was always right, always questioning his motives when he had none. Nightly he leaned closer to the Pacific, the ozone of warm tubes, listening for the thrum of his son's ship. The Japanese had just given up one of the Aleutians.
"What is it now?" Anne asked.
"More Alaska."
"There's nothing there, don't they know that? Is any of this supposed to make sense to me?"
She read and drank tea, sometimes knitted under the lamp in the corner. She'd only taken it up, and he didn't see what it was supposed to be. At each missed stitch, she swore and threw her head back as if to howl. She hadn't expected Rennie would go, and hadn't forgiven him. Wednesdays after supper James gathered everyone and put down what they wanted to say to him. Jay liked to snip out the comics, the batting averages, the local crimes. He had his own section, like a columnist, half slang. James didn't know what to write, but went on, gossiping. Anne added nothing; at school he typed a section and signed her name to it.
As if to spite him, she wrote Dorothy every week, composing in snatches as she cooked. Anne had never liked her, though, to James, Dorothy seemed the same Galesburg girl his wife had shed over the years. Her family had liked Rennie until he was arrested. Since the marriage, they no longer spoke with the Langers, their younger boy shrinking from James in the hallways. In the lunchroom, James ate, aware of Jay several tables over, like himself, alone. Later, driving home, he passed Jay, and though he had a mile to walk and the other children were nowhere near him, the boy looked down at his boots, or away, across the snowy fields, and James drove on. He'd promised.
Home. His father's study looked out on the ocean. It was half their attic, the sill of the gable window flush with his father's desktop. For years, by candlelight, after the guests had gone to bed and again before they woke, his father fretted over the books and wrote to his mother care of whatever hospital she was in. In the dark, James heard him haul the ladder down and yank it up after him. His father didn't pace, but sat and wrote, then at a quarter to six lowered the ladder, crept downstairs and started the water for baths. Sarah wasn't allowed up there. On the desk a telescope tilted in a turned brass stand. "What do you see?" his father asked James. "Tell me what you see."
The waves. Green, blue, glittering, heavy. His father's hand rested gently on the back of James's neck, steering him. The moon drew up huge, beneath it, sharply drawn, the silhouetted stacks of a great oceangoing liner.
"Do you see it?"
"Yes," James said. His father had taught him wonder and its complement, responsibility; now his father slurred his words, had to ask Sarah to come by and light the pilot.
"I'm not a doctor," Sarah had said that night on the phone.
"I don't want this to hurt Jay. He's been through enough."
"It's never convenient, is it?"
The lower end of Hampton Bays was empty, the bars open but no cars outside, beer signs hooded. In his absence a crop of fried clam and ice-cream stands had sprung up and died. The road curved with the thrust of bay, the berm sandy, telephone poles a-lean. A cinder-block garage stood in one corner of the McCauffeys' field, its whitewash an explosion in the dark. He turned onto the path he'd walked home over, winging buckeyes at the old man's cows. The Buick rocked in the ruts. Scrub pine scoured the fenders, waking Anne.
"See any cows out?" James said.
"What?"
He'd forgotten; the field was overgrown, the McCauffeys gone.
They cleared a rise and the stars dropped, the sea a void. The house stood black against the moon, one downstairs curtain edged with light. Sarah's Hudson jumped in his headlights, the wicker rockers lining the porch.
"Don't tell me we're here," Anne said.
When he stopped the car a wave of dust rolled over them. He turned everything off. Anne waited for him to get out, Jay slumped against her, still asleep.
"It's past somebody's bedtime."
"Just go," she said.
His legs wouldn't straighten all the way. The night was much colder than he'd thought, the sea louder. The moon was new; with the house blacked out, he couldn't see the walk. The front door opened and Sarah appeared; it closed and she disappeared, her flashlight picking out the porch stairs, her feet, the wet grass as she made her way across the lawn.
"James," she said, and kissed him, the flashlight hard on his back. She was always thinner, dwindling. "Dad's asleep. He's been good."
"How about you?"
"Not a drop."
"Honest," he asked, as if it were a joke. He relied on her too much. There was no more younger or older, yet they kept it up.
Everyone kissed in the cold, groggy from the car. Anne had her purse, Jay his cigar box and Rennie's old suitcase. Sarah guided them inside while James unloaded, fighting the twine. Above, a flag flapped, a halyard rang against the invisible pole. One knot was giving him trouble, and he stopped, his arms propped against the car, and looked up at the house. It seemed smaller each time, yet that was little comfort. He liked to sneak up on his mother in the kitchen. She stood at the stove, and when he was halfway across the tiles—beyond the cover of the chopping block, the help's table—without turning from her work, she said, "I see you, James," and he backed out as if he hadn't been caught. The guests were on the lawn playing croquet with their children, dressed for supper.
Behind him, the sea broke and rolled, broke and rolled. Upstairs a light came on, eclipsed by a shade. He found Rennie's old Boy Scout knife in the glove compartment, tore through the knot and took the two heaviest bags down, swearing at Anne for jamming them full, just as she had scourged him for having to pack them all by herself.
The wallpaper stopped him a foot in the door. The blemished mirror, the banister ending in a polished curl. He was always coming back, always stunned at his guilt, the tenderness his mother's lamps filled him with. The light made him realize he was still moving from the car. They were upstairs, he could hear water. He put the bags down, and before the house could claim him, went back out, glad for the dark.
When he came in with the next set, Anne and Sarah were waiting. Sarah's hair was between blond and gray, ashes mixed with dough. Her face looked worse in the light, her lipstick too young.
"Jay's down," Anne said. "I'm going up if you don't mind."
"No, go ahead. I should see Dad."
"He can wait," Sarah said.
"Do what you want," Anne said, "I'm going to sleep. Which bed do you want?"
"I don't care. Whichever."
Sarah helped him bring the rest of the bags in. "Should I ask?" she said in the kitchen.
"Oh, you know how we are."
"It must be awful."
"No," James said, as if he were going to explain, but, tired, let it go. He noticed he still had his coat on and draped it over a chair. "Don't worry," he said. "How are you?"
"Rich. I'm working over at Grumman's where Terry used to, making airplanes. I've got muscles. I'll get you in. They're hiring all the time."
"Sure."
"I've got my bus at six. Did you want to see Dad?"
She led, as if he'd forgotten the way. The back staircase turned, a tunnel of matchboard lit by a single frosted fixture. She'd lost weight while he'd thickened, and he wondered if she had a man again. Terry had been her one love. James had liked him, though ten years ago he could see he wouldn't survive the drinking. He wanted to ask Sarah how she'd come through all that to be here now. He never thought of losing Anne, only leaving her. He never saw beyond his wishes to the truth of his sister's apartment, the weekends of rain, the bait store below open at four in the morning. In his daydreams, he'd designed the bright, airy house he and Diane would live in, the friendly town around them, the constant, perfect weather. Now, without her, he felt dull and incomplete, unable to explain to himself what had happened, let alone to those he was supposed to love. It was as if his heart kept its secrets even from him, and he was terrified he would become resigned to life as a baffled and sad old man. She was a beautiful girl and he had loved her. Was it really that simple? Then when would the merest thought of it not sting him?
Upstairs he was suddenly hot. The doors in the hallway were closed, the window at the end sealed with a blackout curtain. Distant, the sea rained down.
"You have to be quiet," Sarah said, and, like a safecracker, palmed the doorknob, but once in he saw their father was awake, staring off into the dark. His distance was habitual, the strokes only widened his silence. The room smelled like a closet, a hint of moth crystals and belt leather. Their father was propped up with his nightcap half fallen off, his cheek sloping to jowl, gray in the light of the hall. His hands were crossed atop the covers. On the night table stood a glass of water, a splayed Bible, its silk string kinked and hanging off the back, holding no place. James knelt and touched his arm.
"Jimmy came." His voice was thick, as if he'd been chewing a huge mouthful. "I guess I have to die now."
"Dad," Sarah scolded.
"What did you tell him?"
"Nothing," James said. "She said you needed someone to look after you."
"I pee the bed, Jimmy. Imagine that. They never tell you."
"Isn't he great?" Sarah said. "Are you ready for a whole summer of this?"
"Your sister's run out of patience. It's not her fault."
"You're very welcome. You hear this? This is what it's like."
"Your brother's here now. You've done your duty."
"Why do you have to be like this?" she said, suddenly vicious, near tears. "Why can't you just thank me?"
"I'm tired," he said, and closed his eyes. "Go. Both of you."
James took his hand back and stood. Everything seemed smaller this time, oddly wrong, as in a dream. He might brush the door-frame and knock out the wall.
"He's a little better in the morning," Sarah said on the porch, "but not much."
"Why do you let him get to you?"
"I know I shouldn't. God, the bastard. And you just sit there and let it happen. I guess I shouldn't expect anything different."
"Why is it me?" James said.
"Why isn't it you, you mean. It's always me because I'm the girl. It's always been me, and it's always going to be me. I guess I ought to be used to it by now."
"No," he said, but had nothing to follow it with.
She knotted her scarf under her chin and kissed him and got in the Hudson. Her headlights leapt off the cottages, flew over the dunes. He watched her away, then stood in the black, listening to the sea. Across the water came the sweet clank of a buoy; far out, lost in the dark, a troop ship mooed. I see you, James, I see you. At his back, the house creaked in its sleep.
"We're here," he said.




BLUE, OCEAN DAYS. Anne had become accustomed to her father's hours, the restless schedule of the ill. She was up at five, dressing in the white dawn before James's father got out of bed. She bowed her head in the back stairwell, kept a hand on the wall going down. The steel tables in the kitchen gave back the sky filling with light. The sun came here first; in Galesburg it was still dark, their house a target.
The stove lit with a hushed whump. She closed the doors to the pantry, the stairs, the back hall, and waited for the room to warm. The house seemed smaller before dawn, the gray hiding its size. The sun broke over the sea, reached in the high windows, long splinters of light. She squinted at its brilliance, bathed in its favor. She felt entitled to these moments alone, their quenching endlessness. Some days she never had to wake, kept her life inside, quiet as a patient. Flour, powdermilk, oleo.
At the hospital in Putney they made her serve breakfast before going home, and once on the empty bus—finding a blob of egg gone cold on her arm—she'd gotten sick, coughing into the dust under the seat. She was young then, and loved everyone she tended, torn by each bedsore, every child bled white. The confessions of the dying seemed precious, a validation of her father's faith. She didn't have the patience now, the infinite wisdom they needed. She hadn't followed her father's God, remembered flicking the purple hymnal ribbons and playing connect-the-dots while he preached, yet she'd never questioned his certainty. Mondays he drove all over the county, ministering to the sick. "Oh, you missed it," he told them, sitting on the edge of the bed, and when they were well again, they made the trip to town to see him Sunday so they could groan at the new joke and, in the notes before the sermon, wait for him to say their names. After, being received, they held on to his hands. How tiring it must have been for him to bear their desires. The years, the dead. And what of his own? That last morning, she'd gone to her knees beside his bed and meant it, while he lay moaning, telling her why, on his own terms, he was unworthy. His confession was relentless, rending, his self-accusations hateful. "You must never blame your mother." Each morning now she thought she wouldn't recover from it, when she knew it was a matter of days, work, the right light. She didn't want to give up this wistfulness. It was useless, stupid.
The griddle was big enough to do everything at once. James liked his bacon doled out a strip a day, while Jay feasted, willing to wait the week. She ate little, his father nothing, and they had enough. Tuesdays she biked to town to trade her red points for cheap meat. Mothers left their daughters to stand in line. She was the only adult; they called her Mrs. Langer, though she'd never offered her name. They waited for the grocer to open, sullen and dull, fishermen's children, then, when he showed his face at the door, clamored. They all bought horsemeat, lean and gamy, their fathers sick of fish. The eggs were from the great duck farms to the west, reasonable, even cheap. The bacon was strictly illegal. She felt, in the crush, surrounded by bounty, that she didn't need much.
"Thank you," she said, "goodbye," and the girls in line turned to watch her. Pedaling away, Anne laughed at her mystery. She imagined living here alone, a romantic, through the gray, gray days.
But she was, wasn't she? A mystery, a romantic, alone. James was gone all day, Jay off on the marsh crabbing, terrified of his grandfather. On the porch Mr. Langer drifted in and out like fog. Only the gulls kept her company. They stood on the lawn in flocks, shedding feathers and fluff, their droppings caked like spilled paint. His father talked about fried gull, fishhead stew; hers never liked food, came to the table sated with the day, his parishioners, and barely ate. She could see him in Jay, had seen him in James. They had the same dream, to save everyone and owe the world nothing. Her men. Winter she had given too much.
His father came down first, dressed for hard weather, as if the chill might linger into midday. He had tomato juice in the same tumbler, the last of a matched set. She had to walk it out to the porch for him. He sat in a wicker rocker, a blanket over his knees, waiting for the paper. Every morning a thick boy delivered it by bike, shuddering down the sandy drive and across the gravel, then, at the edge of the lot, slamming into a skid and tomahawking it over the porch rail so the paper hopped across the floorboards and slid to rest inches from Mr. Langer's old brogans. To Anne it seemed a miracle—reckless, headlong—yet the old man said nothing, merely reached down, didn't even watch the boy, mortal again, push his bike back up the hill. By then he had the paper open.
She made James's lunch while he ate his breakfast. He'd put on so much weight since Putney that she couldn't watch him eat. Everything went back to that; he was so transparent. He had to bike to town to catch a bus to the plant. He wasn't supposed to say what he made, though they knew it was planes. The night before Rennie had been taken away, James gave him a speech on how he believed in him, in the country, in history, as if he were teaching. Now he came home with grease on his sleeves, bits of metal set in his shoes, and after supper fetched his binoculars and headed out to the lighthouse—extinguished for the duration—and sat until dusk under the dead lens, peering out to sea for waves of invaders. Wednesdays he wrote Rennie letters that opened, Our dear son.
It wasn't James who'd changed. She needed to believe; he still did. His optimism was a gamble she'd already lost. It was unfair, the little bitch had ruined not him but her. Anne was supposed to forgive him. The bitch, the bitch. Sixteen years old, her love bloody and pure, girlish. How could she compete? He came to her at night but, rebuffed, tried nothing. They didn't fight: she fought while he fought for compromise, moderation. He no longer asked what was wrong, but went on, tolerant, even gentle, as if she were sick again. She had to cry sometimes, and this he didn't understand, coming to hold her, stroke her. "Don't touch me!" she screamed, "leave me alone!" and he stood back as if she'd caught on fire. She despised him most then, watching her cry, and chased him from whatever room they were in. She didn't care if he was afraid of her or for her. She didn't care about the wasted days.
"Thank you," he said as she gave him his lunch pail, and set off through the gulls, wobbling. The birds stepped aside, then closed over his wake. His attempts at the hill maddened her, and once when he fell she let herself laugh, only to find Jay behind her.
She and Jay ate at the help's table, facing each other over the brushed steel. She couldn't explain her distance to him now, even if he did listen. Though she scolded James for it, she couldn't stop weighing Jay against Rennie. Often she caught herself growing tender when he told her what he planned to do that day.
"I'm going to fish off the bridge," he said, and she wanted to crush him against her. To be that happy, gulping in the thrill of summer.
They ate, then he was off to the salt marsh, biking east along the beach, and the day lay before her like the sea, flat as a table and shimmering, the horizon a line miles out, seemingly reachable. She washed the dishes, dried the dishes, put the dishes away. There were fifteen full sets—water glass, juice cup, salad bowl, soup bowl—yet she stayed with the same four at the top of the stacks. On the porch Mr. Langer grappled with the paper.
She was surprised she liked sitting with him. "Charlatans," he accused the people in the news. "That Churchill is a pisscutter." He could get in and out with little trouble, but sometimes came back from the bathroom downcast. "It's no picnic," he said. "Don't let anyone tell you different." Where James was apologetic, his father was gruff. It was mostly frustration, though sometimes he could be hard on Jay. The sun came all day; they had to move to new chairs just once, after lunch.
"There's the prince," Mr. Langer said, when she could barely pick out Jay coming up the beach. "Two o'clock," he said, pointing to the invisible plane. She peered out over the sea. Blue, blue. In town the noon horn sounded, a distant ship. "On the nose," he said, and ta