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The final book in Stacy Henrie's sweeping Of Love and War trilogy brings to life the drama of battle torn Europe with emotion, faith, and of course, romance. As the war ends, love begins . . . Nora Lewis just wants an escape after losing her fiancé in the Great War. When she inherits property in England, she boldly packs up and leaves America for a fresh start. But if not for her dashing new neighbor, Colin Ashby, she'd be lost. Even as their friendship deepens, Nora knows a British aristocrat would never be free to love an American orphan, no matter how much the war has changed the world . . . After his brother's death in the war and his own experiences as a pilot at the front, Colin returns home broken, only to discover his family's estate is also in ruin. The pressure is now on him to save his home and the Ashbys' place in society with a well-bred match to a wealthy heiress. Too bad he finds more of a kindred spirit in Nora, the beautiful American next door. She, too, has faced the rigors of war and survived. Now the ex-soldier will have one more battle to fight-this time for love.
Release date: March 31, 2015
Publisher: Forever
Print pages: 384
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A Hope Remembered
Stacy Henrie
Prologue
France, August 1917
Are you the Ashby brothers?”
Colin stopped wiping the already gleaming biplane and glanced over his shoulder at the tiny man standing just outside the shadow of the Sopwith Camel. “We might be. Who’s asking?”
A look of excitement lit the man’s angular features. “Charles Rushford from the Daily Mail.”
A journalist? Colin tucked his damp rag into the pocket of his trousers and shot Christian a grin. “Our fame precedes us.”
Christian shook his head as though he weren’t amused and climbed to his feet, the book he’d been reading tucked beneath his arm. But Colin didn’t miss the glint of laughter in his older brother’s blue eyes.
“Nice to make your acquaintance, Mr. Rushford.” Christian extended his hand to the journalist. “I’m Christian Ashby and this is my brother, Colin.”
“The pleasure’s mine,” the man said, pumping Christian’s hand. “I’ve been following the flying careers of you and your brother for some time now.” His gaze lingered over the aeroplanes lined up outside the hangar as if they were Christmas gifts.
Colin could easily relate. The moment he’d first placed his hand against the hardened cloth body of an Avro 504 he’d been rocked with the sensation of coming home.
“Mind if I ask you a few questions?” Mr. Rushford asked, shaking Colin’s hand next. He waved a small notebook and pencil at the hangar.
Christian threw a glance at Colin. No words were necessary to guess his brother’s unspoken question. Would talking to this journalist be something their father approved of or not? Colin gave a decisive nod. No harm could come from simply talking to the man. Maybe an article about the two of them would convince Sir Edward Ashby that both his sons were worthy of his name.
“All right, Mr. Rushford.” Christian motioned for the man to follow them into the hangar, away from the rays of the afternoon sun.
Colin located two chairs and brought them over for Christian and the journalist. When he didn’t spy a third, he chose the edge of the nearby table for his own seat.
“Tell me first what you like about flying aeroplanes.” Mr. Rushford balanced his notebook on his knee, his expression expectant.
“Freedom.” The word burst from Colin’s mouth before he’d even finished thinking it.
“Freedom?” Mr. Rushford dipped his head in a thoughtful nod. “How so?”
Colin hid his embarrassment with a shrug, though he knew the reasons he’d spoken the word aloud. Ironically, it was only in this hellish world, where he’d defied death more times than he could count, that he’d found true freedom and purpose. Freedom from his father’s disapproval or the constant pressures to be more like his reserved older brother. He’d found freedom in discovering he could do something better than Christian, too. While his brother was an excellent pilot, even Christian himself had conceded early on that Colin was the one with real talent when it came to handling an aeroplane.
“There’s a sense of liberation that comes with being in the sky,” Colin said quietly. He kept his eyes focused on Mr. Rushford’s rapidly moving pencil instead of on his brother. Would Christian find his response foolish? “It’s a place far removed from the earth and its human struggles.” He crossed his arms over his chest and gave a rueful laugh. “At least until you spy a German Fokker diving straight for you.”
Christian’s approving smile eased the tension pinching at Colin’s shoulders. He hadn’t embarrassed his lifelong hero with his spontaneous answer. “I agree with Colin.”
His older brother launched into a short but heartfelt speech about honor and doing one’s duty as a pilot. Colin had to bite back a chuckle at how much Christian sounded like their father. No wonder he’d been born the oldest, the one to inherit Sir Edward’s title of baronet and the family estate back home in England.
“I understand you two hail from the Lake District?” Mr. Rushford said.
“Elmthwaite Hall, near the tiny village of Larksbeck.” Christian’s tone was colored with pride.
“So that’s where you’ll return after the war?”
Colin answered “no” at the same moment Christian gave a resounding “yes.”
The surprise on Christian’s face brought the sting of regret to Colin. He hadn’t yet voiced to his brother the idea he’d been contemplating of traveling, once the war was over, and seeing more of the world, hopefully from his own aeroplane.
“You’re not?” Christian asked. Mr. Rushford looked at both brothers in turn. He clearly sniffed a story, but Colin didn’t want something leaking to their father before he’d had time to explain.
“Right afterward, yes,” Colin amended. “But I’d love to see more of the world, too. Maybe even purchase my own plane.”
His answer seemed to satisfy the journalist, though Christian still appeared troubled as they finished up the interview with a few more questions about life in the Lake District and their experience in France.
Colin noticed none of the man’s inquiries delved into the ugly parts of flying in the war. The constant possibility of injury, burns, or death; the loss of friends and those he’d only known a few days; the revolver in the plane intended for ending life instead of having it taken involuntarily. Apparently the people back home didn’t want an accurate portrayal of a pilot’s life. Only the perceived glamour and adventure.
At last Mr. Rushford stood and pocketed his notebook and pencil. “Would you mind posing for a photograph?”
Nodding his head, Christian rose to his feet as well. “That would be fine.”
The man went in search of his photographer, who’d apparently been taking pictures of the aeroplanes and some of the other Royal Flying Corps pilots.
“Did you mean that?” Christian demanded, the moment Mr. Rushford was out of earshot. “About not coming back to Elmthwaite?” He stared hard at Colin. The look was so like their father’s that Colin began to squirm. “Mother and Father would be crushed. Especially having us gone so long already.”
“Please,” Colin said, shoving his hands into his pockets. “Mother may be a bit heartbroken, but Father will be relieved to have me off somewhere else.”
Christian’s jaw tightened. “That isn’t true, Colin. He cares about you, as much as Mother. We need you at home.”
“What for?” The question came out harsher than Colin had intended and he hurried to temper his tone with a light laugh. “Without me, there’ll be one more place setting for dinner parties and an extra room for house guests.”
“Is that all Elmthwaite is to you?”
Colin couldn’t meet his brother’s intense gaze. “Come on, Christian. You know I’m only jesting. I love the house and the lake and the summers up in Scotland. But I wasn’t born and bred to take over that sort of regimented life.”
Christian raked a hand through his sandy brown hair, his agitation evident. But Colin couldn’t place its source. Why should Christian care if he chose a different path? While they’d experienced a far better childhood than many of the men they flew with, Colin had also dreamt of the day he would be free to choose the course of his life, unlike Christian.
“You must promise me something.” Christian gripped Colin’s shoulder, his voice full of gravity, his hand heavy.
“What is it?”
“If something should happen to me…”
Colin brushed off Christian’s hand and stalked away from the table. “Don’t talk like that. We’ve made it this far; we’ll make it till the end of the war. You’ll see.” His brusqueness hid the coil of panic unraveling inside him. He couldn’t imagine a world without Christian in it. Their bond ran as deep as brothers’ could—sometimes Colin felt as if they were different sides of the same coin. Who else had looked out for him, championed him, from his earliest moments on earth? “Besides, I’m not baronet material, Christian. We both know that.”
“Promise me,” his brother went on with equal resolve, “that you won’t ever turn your back on Elmthwaite Hall.”
“But I want to travel—”
“You can still do that. Only I want you to promise me you will always find your way back.”
Colin gritted his teeth, even as his determination to permanently stay away began to crumble. “Why?”
“Because it’s our life’s blood, Colin.” He stepped closer and placed his hand against Colin’s heart. “Our heritage. Our home. Promise me you’ll keep it as such?”
Blowing out his breath, Colin lifted his eyes to Christian’s. He’d never been able to refuse a request from his brother. He would do anything for him. “I promise.”
The relieved smile on Christian’s face succeeded in cutting away the last of Colin’s resolution to avoid home. “Thank you.” He lowered his hand and cocked his head toward the hangar opening. “What do you say we pretend we’re Charlie Chaplin for this photograph?”
Colin laughed at the rare showing of Christian’s teasing and exited the hangar at his brother’s side. The photographer insisted on their being in full flight gear—trousers, helmet, leather coat, boots, scarf—everything but their goggles. Since it was nearly time for patrol anyway, Colin and Christian complied.
Once the photographer was finished, Colin checked every inch of his plane and climbed aboard. He scanned the small cockpit: stick, rudder pedals, throttle. Using all three in concert to control the plane felt as familiar as breathing.
Please let this work out, Lord, according to Your will. It was the same earnest prayer he made each time he flew, the one brief moment he and God acknowledged each other.
With the engine started, Colin throttled up and guided his plane down the grassy runaway, knowing Christian was right behind him. In this one facet of their lives, Christian let him take the lead.
His plane rose into the sky, leaving the airfield and the warmer temperature far below. Adjusting his goggles, he scanned the air for German planes. Nothing marred the peace of the late afternoon, though, except the roar of the other planes in his and Christian’s squadron.
The promise Christian had elicited from him repeated in Colin’s mind. Could he fulfill it? Would stopping off at Elmthwaite several times a year meet his brother’s request? He hoped so. Although the idea of being home never sounded so bleak at the thought of Christian being there, too.
The sudden cacophony of machine gun fire rang above the noise of the engine in Colin’s ears. Coming out of the sun, six German aeroplanes dove steeply through the sky toward the Camels.
Instinct from days and months of flying took over, calming Colin’s mind and guiding his hands through the turns, climbs, and descents of another dogfight. While it might appear from below to be an elaborate sort of dance, he knew it was anything but beautiful. This way of fighting was every bit as deadly, if not more so, than the battles on the ground.
Some of the chaps he’d talked with today about England and the girls they might want to marry would likely not be flying back with him tonight. He counted himself lucky every time he made it through another two weeks at the front lines. A few of the chaps he’d flown with early on in the RFC hadn’t made it through even one set of fourteen days.
Bullets strafed the side of his plane, and Colin jerked the stick back to climb out of the line of fire. It was time to take down this German before the German took him down.
He maneuvered the plane upward, looping over to come behind the German plane, then opened fire on his machine gun. Riddled with bullet holes, the plane began smoking, its nose dropping lower and lower. Colin closed his mind to the guilt, to the flicker of thought about who this other man might be. If he didn’t, he’d freeze up, and that meant certain death.
When the enemy aircraft plummeted toward the earth, he jerked his gaze away, unable to watch the crippled plane strike the ground, the pilot still inside.
At a hand signal from his squad leader, Colin banked his plane around and followed the lead Camel back toward the airfield. He looked for Christian on his left and right, but he wasn’t concerned when he didn’t see him. His brother was most likely behind him.
Colin landed his aeroplane and quickly did an assessment of the damage. More holes, but nothing to keep him from flying again. Goggles in hand, he strode toward the others, looking for Christian.
Another pilot and his good friend, Andrew Lyle, climbed off the wing of his Camel. When he removed his goggles, his face appeared unusually white.
“One get a little too close that time, Lyle?” Colin joked as he approached.
Lyle flinched and shook his head.
“Where’s Christian? He’s flying slow today, the old man.”
“You didn’t see…” Lyle rubbed a hand over his ashen face, his next words barely a whisper. “I’m so sorry, Colin.”
“Sorry?” Shards of fear sliced through Colin, cold and ominous. “What are you talking about?”
“It’s Christian. He…he was shot down.”
Colin fell back a step. “No. He’s only slow. I was right there, Lyle. I didn’t see him fall.”
“I barely saw him.” Lyle’s voice was too calm, too devoid of emotion now.
Fury ripped through Colin’s denial. He fisted Lyle’s coat and glared at his friend. “Are you joking with me? What happened to my brother?”
Lyle hardly blinked, his gaze full of pity. “Gunfire ate up his plane. He was dead before he hit the ground.”
Christian dead?
Colin scanned the nearby planes, hoping, praying, Lyle was wrong. He’d see his older brother striding toward him, that disgruntled frown on his face before he reprimanded Colin for his risky flying. But no one appeared except the other members of their squadron. Colin read the truth of Lyle’s words in the way none of them would meet his eye, the way their heads hung low with suppressed grief. Slowly he released his hold on Lyle.
“Can we get another picture, chaps?” Mr. Rushford said, hurrying toward them. “Group you up around one of the planes there?” He stopped his frenzied steps and frowned. “Where’s your brother, Mr. Ashby? We need him in the picture, too.”
“He’s dead.”
The voice sounded so unlike his that Colin wondered for a moment who’d spoken. But the searing pain in his throat and the horrified look on Mr. Rushford’s face as the man stared openmouthed were proof enough that Colin had said the words himself. Words that sank deep like a knife wound through his chest, cutting and tearing his world into irreparable pieces.
“If it’s all the same to you, Mr. Rushford, I’ll sit this photograph out.” He didn’t wait for the journalist’s reply. Instead Colin marched away from the group as fast as he could walk, his goggles strangled between his hands, his heart and mind wrapped in shock.
His brother was gone and nothing would ever be the same again.
Chapter 1
Iowa, May 1920
Nora led the strangers into the parlor, their footsteps sounding unusually loud against the polished wood floor. Her gaze swept the tidy room with theirs and settled on the upright piano. How forlorn it looked stripped of its usual sheet music and family photos. The latter she could take with her, but her courage fractured a bit at the thought of someone else playing the instrument that had soothed her loneliness more times than she could count. The piano would be too costly to cart to England, though, and so like many other things, it would have to be left behind.
“What a spacious room,” the woman said, her hand resting on her protruding belly. Her husband draped an arm around her shoulders, the other hanging lifeless at his side. Wounded in France, he’d informed Nora in his letter of inquiry about the farm she was sellling.
“Perfect for all those children we’re going to have.” He pressed a kiss to his wife’s forehead.
Nora folded her arms and looked away, the sting of resentment piercing her at their happiness. She didn’t need further reminders, however unintentional, that her life had been—and was about to be again—irrevocably changed.
Nothing about the last two years matched her girlhood dreams, dreams that had included a husband and family. If Tom Campbell had survived the Great War, all those hopes would have been realized. He would be standing here now, instead of two strangers. It would be his arms holding her close, his lips kissing her, and she wouldn’t be trying to sell the only home she’d ever known.
“The kitchen is through there.” Nora forced a friendly tone to her words. The more they liked the place and her, the less likelihood of having to endure more people she didn’t know traipsing all over the farm.
The couple moved past her and stepped into the large, sunny kitchen. Nora followed. She rested her hands on the back of one of the chairs. How many times had she sat here rolling dough for her mother or eating meals with her parents? They’d been gone more than a year, but the memories entrenched in every space of the farm kept them close, as well as increased the pain of missing them.
“The house comes with all the furnishings?” The young man’s eyes were trained on the icebox.
“Yes.” Nora recalled the day her father had brought the icebox home in the wagon—a birthday gift for her mother. Grace Lewis had been so happy she’d cried. It was one of many surprises, big and small, her father had delighted in giving “his girls.”
“You don’t want to take any of it with you?”
Wanted to, yes. The piano, her bed, her father’s rocker, her mother’s gramophone. “It might be rather difficult to get an icebox all the way to England.”
The young man chuckled, bringing Nora instant relief that she hadn’t offended him. “England, huh? Heard things aren’t going so well there right now. I would’ve thought more of them would be coming here, than anyone going there.”
Nora had read something similar in the newspaper, but she wasn’t concerned. Caring for the farm alone since her parents’ deaths, she’d learned how to stretch her nickels and dimes and how little she and her dog, Oscar, could subside on. “Actually, I inherited some property there.”
“A big manor house, huh?” He laughed at his own joke. “I met some of those rich Brits overseas. Decent guys, though most of them never worked a day in their lives before the war.”
There likely wouldn’t be any rich Brits where she was going, Nora thought as she watched the man’s wife fingering the red-checked curtains over the window. She fought the urge to ask her to stop. She’d helped her mother sew those curtains one blizzardy day years ago. The bright color had brought instant cheer to the room and made the winter weather more bearable.
“It isn’t really a house,” she replied, trying to focus on the conversation and not the way the woman continued to run her hands over the kitchen furniture. “It’s a cottage—on a sheep farm.”
“A sheep farm?” The woman didn’t bother to hide her incredulous tone. “That’s a rather unusual occupation for a woman on her own.”
Nora swallowed hard, hating the way the woman’s words stirred up her deepest fears. Could she really give up the only life she’d ever known to do something she’d never done before? In a place so vastly different from hers here in Iowa? Like her parents, the farthest she’d ever traveled was Minnesota.
Clearly not expecting a reply to her candid remark, the woman asked eagerly, “Can we see the upstairs?”
“Of course.” Nora bottled up her uncertainty and motioned them ahead of her, back into the parlor. “There are three bedrooms up there.”
The couple exchanged a smile and started up the stairs, but Nora paused with her foot on the first step. Did she want to stand by while the two of them, nice as they were, looked at and touched more of her things? Things she’d be forced to leave behind because they wouldn’t fit into her suitcase?
“Take all the time you need,” she called up to them. “I’ll be outside.”
She slipped on a sweater to guard against the spring chill and let herself out the front door. The sound of the screen slamming shut behind her was both comforting and familiar. Nora moved down the porch steps and across the yard. Oscar trotted up to her side, his tail wagging. She stopped to rub the soft, brown fur between his ears, wishing again that she could take him with her. The old hound dog would detest being cooped up on a ship, though, and Tom’s younger brothers had already consented to permanently caring for him.
Nora crossed the road running in front of the farm and slipped beneath the leafy limbs of the giant oak tree that stood like a sentinel before the fields. Oscar moved off to explore.
For the first time since the couple had arrived, Nora managed a full breath of air. She circled the trunk to peer at the carving Tom had cut into the bark years earlier. Lifting her finger, she traced the worn outlines of the heart and the letters whittled inside: TC + NL.
Tom had kissed her for the first time under these branches. She’d bade him good-bye in the same place, the night before he and his brother Joel had left to fight in the war. This tree had also been privy to Tom’s promise to marry her when he came back and Nora’s anguish when she’d received word he wasn’t returning.
She shut her eyes and leaned back against the rough bark. Memories of Tom washed over her with such intensity she could almost believe when she opened her eyes she’d see him walking up the road, ready to pull her into his strong arms, as he’d done countless times before the war. His teasing manner and quick smile had been the perfect complement to her more serious nature.
A tangible ache throbbed in her chest and Nora pressed her hand against it. It had been two years since Tom had been killed. When would missing him hurt less? When would she stop feeling bound to a promise neither one of them could fulfill anymore? The life they’d hoped and planned for might be gone, but she still had to move forward. She had to stop dwelling on the past. Maybe then she’d find peace from the pain.
Opening her eyes, she pushed away from the tree and removed the wrinkled envelope from her skirt pocket. She’d memorized every word of the letter—about her being the next of kin to inherit Henry Lewis’s sheep farm in England’s Lake District. Letters had arrived sporadically through the years from her father’s uncle, but Nora was still surprised to learn the man had died. And that like her father and grandfather, the man had so few living relatives.
She’d nearly written her great-uncle’s solicitor back and declined the offer of the sheep farm. She had a home and a life here. Yet the prospect of a fresh start, in the land of her heritage, took hold in her mind and wouldn’t leave her alone.
For the next week as she milked the cow, fed the animals, and tended the farm, the idea consumed her every waking thought until she finally relented and wrote a letter of acceptance. Even after posting it, though, she couldn’t say why she’d agreed to go. Tom’s sister Livy, and Nora’s best friend, had certainly questioned her reasons for leaving. But the only thing Nora could say was “I have to.”
She smoothed the envelope as she admitted in a whisper, “I don’t know anything about sheep, Tom. But this is my chance to leave, like you did.” She splayed her free hand against his carving. “I don’t want to leave behind the life we dreamed of here…” Her voice hitched with a swallowed sob. “And yet I have to learn to live without you. Don’t I?”
A movement across the street caught her eye. The couple was exiting the house. Nora pocketed the letter, eyed the carved heart once more, and stepped from the shade of the tree.
“Everything’s just lovely,” the young woman said as Nora came to a stop below the porch.
“We’ll take it,” her husband added. “How soon can we move in?”
Nora cleared the tug of sorrow from her throat and managed a tight smile. “You can move in next Thursday. I’ll leave the key under the mat.”
They settled on a price, which was a few hundred dollars less than what Nora had asked for, but she’d expected that. After all, she could only do so much running the place alone. The young man promised to bring the money over tomorrow morning.
“Do you have family there?” The woman asked the question in a gentle voice. Had she sensed the heavy finality settling like a rock in the pit of Nora’s stomach? “In England, I mean?”
Nora shook her head. “Not anymore.”
“Then why go?” Genuine concern shone on the other woman’s face as she allowed her husband to help her down the stairs. “If I had this place, I don’t think I could leave it for the unknown.”
Nora let her eyes wander over the house, the yard, the barn, the old oak tree. This had been her home for twenty-three years. So many dreams and hopes had been sown and shattered here. But now it was time to pick up the pieces. To leave what felt comfortable and familiar and hopefully find the peace that had eluded her the last few years.
When she turned her attention back to the couple, she didn’t need to infuse her response with feigned confidence. “I believe I’m ready for an adventure.” The words sank deeply into her soul, and a tingle of excitement eased the knot of regret in her stomach.
“Judging by the state of things here, Miss Lewis, I think you’ll do well on your sheep farm.” The young man extended his hand toward her. Nora shook it firmly and offered the two of them the first genuine smile she’d been able to muster all morning. “We wish you all the best across the Pond.”
Lake District, England, June 1920
The wheels of the Avro 504 biplane caressed the grassy runway. Colin Ashby cut the engine, and the plane coasted toward the far end of the lawn, where his valet stood at attention, waiting. What did Gibson want with him now?
Before he could strike the line of trees bordering the grass, Colin turned the vehicle to face south, toward the lake. The plane rolled to a final stop, its left wing a mere two feet from the chest of the expressionless and unmoving Gibson. Colin bit back a laugh. Apparently ev. . .
France, August 1917
Are you the Ashby brothers?”
Colin stopped wiping the already gleaming biplane and glanced over his shoulder at the tiny man standing just outside the shadow of the Sopwith Camel. “We might be. Who’s asking?”
A look of excitement lit the man’s angular features. “Charles Rushford from the Daily Mail.”
A journalist? Colin tucked his damp rag into the pocket of his trousers and shot Christian a grin. “Our fame precedes us.”
Christian shook his head as though he weren’t amused and climbed to his feet, the book he’d been reading tucked beneath his arm. But Colin didn’t miss the glint of laughter in his older brother’s blue eyes.
“Nice to make your acquaintance, Mr. Rushford.” Christian extended his hand to the journalist. “I’m Christian Ashby and this is my brother, Colin.”
“The pleasure’s mine,” the man said, pumping Christian’s hand. “I’ve been following the flying careers of you and your brother for some time now.” His gaze lingered over the aeroplanes lined up outside the hangar as if they were Christmas gifts.
Colin could easily relate. The moment he’d first placed his hand against the hardened cloth body of an Avro 504 he’d been rocked with the sensation of coming home.
“Mind if I ask you a few questions?” Mr. Rushford asked, shaking Colin’s hand next. He waved a small notebook and pencil at the hangar.
Christian threw a glance at Colin. No words were necessary to guess his brother’s unspoken question. Would talking to this journalist be something their father approved of or not? Colin gave a decisive nod. No harm could come from simply talking to the man. Maybe an article about the two of them would convince Sir Edward Ashby that both his sons were worthy of his name.
“All right, Mr. Rushford.” Christian motioned for the man to follow them into the hangar, away from the rays of the afternoon sun.
Colin located two chairs and brought them over for Christian and the journalist. When he didn’t spy a third, he chose the edge of the nearby table for his own seat.
“Tell me first what you like about flying aeroplanes.” Mr. Rushford balanced his notebook on his knee, his expression expectant.
“Freedom.” The word burst from Colin’s mouth before he’d even finished thinking it.
“Freedom?” Mr. Rushford dipped his head in a thoughtful nod. “How so?”
Colin hid his embarrassment with a shrug, though he knew the reasons he’d spoken the word aloud. Ironically, it was only in this hellish world, where he’d defied death more times than he could count, that he’d found true freedom and purpose. Freedom from his father’s disapproval or the constant pressures to be more like his reserved older brother. He’d found freedom in discovering he could do something better than Christian, too. While his brother was an excellent pilot, even Christian himself had conceded early on that Colin was the one with real talent when it came to handling an aeroplane.
“There’s a sense of liberation that comes with being in the sky,” Colin said quietly. He kept his eyes focused on Mr. Rushford’s rapidly moving pencil instead of on his brother. Would Christian find his response foolish? “It’s a place far removed from the earth and its human struggles.” He crossed his arms over his chest and gave a rueful laugh. “At least until you spy a German Fokker diving straight for you.”
Christian’s approving smile eased the tension pinching at Colin’s shoulders. He hadn’t embarrassed his lifelong hero with his spontaneous answer. “I agree with Colin.”
His older brother launched into a short but heartfelt speech about honor and doing one’s duty as a pilot. Colin had to bite back a chuckle at how much Christian sounded like their father. No wonder he’d been born the oldest, the one to inherit Sir Edward’s title of baronet and the family estate back home in England.
“I understand you two hail from the Lake District?” Mr. Rushford said.
“Elmthwaite Hall, near the tiny village of Larksbeck.” Christian’s tone was colored with pride.
“So that’s where you’ll return after the war?”
Colin answered “no” at the same moment Christian gave a resounding “yes.”
The surprise on Christian’s face brought the sting of regret to Colin. He hadn’t yet voiced to his brother the idea he’d been contemplating of traveling, once the war was over, and seeing more of the world, hopefully from his own aeroplane.
“You’re not?” Christian asked. Mr. Rushford looked at both brothers in turn. He clearly sniffed a story, but Colin didn’t want something leaking to their father before he’d had time to explain.
“Right afterward, yes,” Colin amended. “But I’d love to see more of the world, too. Maybe even purchase my own plane.”
His answer seemed to satisfy the journalist, though Christian still appeared troubled as they finished up the interview with a few more questions about life in the Lake District and their experience in France.
Colin noticed none of the man’s inquiries delved into the ugly parts of flying in the war. The constant possibility of injury, burns, or death; the loss of friends and those he’d only known a few days; the revolver in the plane intended for ending life instead of having it taken involuntarily. Apparently the people back home didn’t want an accurate portrayal of a pilot’s life. Only the perceived glamour and adventure.
At last Mr. Rushford stood and pocketed his notebook and pencil. “Would you mind posing for a photograph?”
Nodding his head, Christian rose to his feet as well. “That would be fine.”
The man went in search of his photographer, who’d apparently been taking pictures of the aeroplanes and some of the other Royal Flying Corps pilots.
“Did you mean that?” Christian demanded, the moment Mr. Rushford was out of earshot. “About not coming back to Elmthwaite?” He stared hard at Colin. The look was so like their father’s that Colin began to squirm. “Mother and Father would be crushed. Especially having us gone so long already.”
“Please,” Colin said, shoving his hands into his pockets. “Mother may be a bit heartbroken, but Father will be relieved to have me off somewhere else.”
Christian’s jaw tightened. “That isn’t true, Colin. He cares about you, as much as Mother. We need you at home.”
“What for?” The question came out harsher than Colin had intended and he hurried to temper his tone with a light laugh. “Without me, there’ll be one more place setting for dinner parties and an extra room for house guests.”
“Is that all Elmthwaite is to you?”
Colin couldn’t meet his brother’s intense gaze. “Come on, Christian. You know I’m only jesting. I love the house and the lake and the summers up in Scotland. But I wasn’t born and bred to take over that sort of regimented life.”
Christian raked a hand through his sandy brown hair, his agitation evident. But Colin couldn’t place its source. Why should Christian care if he chose a different path? While they’d experienced a far better childhood than many of the men they flew with, Colin had also dreamt of the day he would be free to choose the course of his life, unlike Christian.
“You must promise me something.” Christian gripped Colin’s shoulder, his voice full of gravity, his hand heavy.
“What is it?”
“If something should happen to me…”
Colin brushed off Christian’s hand and stalked away from the table. “Don’t talk like that. We’ve made it this far; we’ll make it till the end of the war. You’ll see.” His brusqueness hid the coil of panic unraveling inside him. He couldn’t imagine a world without Christian in it. Their bond ran as deep as brothers’ could—sometimes Colin felt as if they were different sides of the same coin. Who else had looked out for him, championed him, from his earliest moments on earth? “Besides, I’m not baronet material, Christian. We both know that.”
“Promise me,” his brother went on with equal resolve, “that you won’t ever turn your back on Elmthwaite Hall.”
“But I want to travel—”
“You can still do that. Only I want you to promise me you will always find your way back.”
Colin gritted his teeth, even as his determination to permanently stay away began to crumble. “Why?”
“Because it’s our life’s blood, Colin.” He stepped closer and placed his hand against Colin’s heart. “Our heritage. Our home. Promise me you’ll keep it as such?”
Blowing out his breath, Colin lifted his eyes to Christian’s. He’d never been able to refuse a request from his brother. He would do anything for him. “I promise.”
The relieved smile on Christian’s face succeeded in cutting away the last of Colin’s resolution to avoid home. “Thank you.” He lowered his hand and cocked his head toward the hangar opening. “What do you say we pretend we’re Charlie Chaplin for this photograph?”
Colin laughed at the rare showing of Christian’s teasing and exited the hangar at his brother’s side. The photographer insisted on their being in full flight gear—trousers, helmet, leather coat, boots, scarf—everything but their goggles. Since it was nearly time for patrol anyway, Colin and Christian complied.
Once the photographer was finished, Colin checked every inch of his plane and climbed aboard. He scanned the small cockpit: stick, rudder pedals, throttle. Using all three in concert to control the plane felt as familiar as breathing.
Please let this work out, Lord, according to Your will. It was the same earnest prayer he made each time he flew, the one brief moment he and God acknowledged each other.
With the engine started, Colin throttled up and guided his plane down the grassy runaway, knowing Christian was right behind him. In this one facet of their lives, Christian let him take the lead.
His plane rose into the sky, leaving the airfield and the warmer temperature far below. Adjusting his goggles, he scanned the air for German planes. Nothing marred the peace of the late afternoon, though, except the roar of the other planes in his and Christian’s squadron.
The promise Christian had elicited from him repeated in Colin’s mind. Could he fulfill it? Would stopping off at Elmthwaite several times a year meet his brother’s request? He hoped so. Although the idea of being home never sounded so bleak at the thought of Christian being there, too.
The sudden cacophony of machine gun fire rang above the noise of the engine in Colin’s ears. Coming out of the sun, six German aeroplanes dove steeply through the sky toward the Camels.
Instinct from days and months of flying took over, calming Colin’s mind and guiding his hands through the turns, climbs, and descents of another dogfight. While it might appear from below to be an elaborate sort of dance, he knew it was anything but beautiful. This way of fighting was every bit as deadly, if not more so, than the battles on the ground.
Some of the chaps he’d talked with today about England and the girls they might want to marry would likely not be flying back with him tonight. He counted himself lucky every time he made it through another two weeks at the front lines. A few of the chaps he’d flown with early on in the RFC hadn’t made it through even one set of fourteen days.
Bullets strafed the side of his plane, and Colin jerked the stick back to climb out of the line of fire. It was time to take down this German before the German took him down.
He maneuvered the plane upward, looping over to come behind the German plane, then opened fire on his machine gun. Riddled with bullet holes, the plane began smoking, its nose dropping lower and lower. Colin closed his mind to the guilt, to the flicker of thought about who this other man might be. If he didn’t, he’d freeze up, and that meant certain death.
When the enemy aircraft plummeted toward the earth, he jerked his gaze away, unable to watch the crippled plane strike the ground, the pilot still inside.
At a hand signal from his squad leader, Colin banked his plane around and followed the lead Camel back toward the airfield. He looked for Christian on his left and right, but he wasn’t concerned when he didn’t see him. His brother was most likely behind him.
Colin landed his aeroplane and quickly did an assessment of the damage. More holes, but nothing to keep him from flying again. Goggles in hand, he strode toward the others, looking for Christian.
Another pilot and his good friend, Andrew Lyle, climbed off the wing of his Camel. When he removed his goggles, his face appeared unusually white.
“One get a little too close that time, Lyle?” Colin joked as he approached.
Lyle flinched and shook his head.
“Where’s Christian? He’s flying slow today, the old man.”
“You didn’t see…” Lyle rubbed a hand over his ashen face, his next words barely a whisper. “I’m so sorry, Colin.”
“Sorry?” Shards of fear sliced through Colin, cold and ominous. “What are you talking about?”
“It’s Christian. He…he was shot down.”
Colin fell back a step. “No. He’s only slow. I was right there, Lyle. I didn’t see him fall.”
“I barely saw him.” Lyle’s voice was too calm, too devoid of emotion now.
Fury ripped through Colin’s denial. He fisted Lyle’s coat and glared at his friend. “Are you joking with me? What happened to my brother?”
Lyle hardly blinked, his gaze full of pity. “Gunfire ate up his plane. He was dead before he hit the ground.”
Christian dead?
Colin scanned the nearby planes, hoping, praying, Lyle was wrong. He’d see his older brother striding toward him, that disgruntled frown on his face before he reprimanded Colin for his risky flying. But no one appeared except the other members of their squadron. Colin read the truth of Lyle’s words in the way none of them would meet his eye, the way their heads hung low with suppressed grief. Slowly he released his hold on Lyle.
“Can we get another picture, chaps?” Mr. Rushford said, hurrying toward them. “Group you up around one of the planes there?” He stopped his frenzied steps and frowned. “Where’s your brother, Mr. Ashby? We need him in the picture, too.”
“He’s dead.”
The voice sounded so unlike his that Colin wondered for a moment who’d spoken. But the searing pain in his throat and the horrified look on Mr. Rushford’s face as the man stared openmouthed were proof enough that Colin had said the words himself. Words that sank deep like a knife wound through his chest, cutting and tearing his world into irreparable pieces.
“If it’s all the same to you, Mr. Rushford, I’ll sit this photograph out.” He didn’t wait for the journalist’s reply. Instead Colin marched away from the group as fast as he could walk, his goggles strangled between his hands, his heart and mind wrapped in shock.
His brother was gone and nothing would ever be the same again.
Chapter 1
Iowa, May 1920
Nora led the strangers into the parlor, their footsteps sounding unusually loud against the polished wood floor. Her gaze swept the tidy room with theirs and settled on the upright piano. How forlorn it looked stripped of its usual sheet music and family photos. The latter she could take with her, but her courage fractured a bit at the thought of someone else playing the instrument that had soothed her loneliness more times than she could count. The piano would be too costly to cart to England, though, and so like many other things, it would have to be left behind.
“What a spacious room,” the woman said, her hand resting on her protruding belly. Her husband draped an arm around her shoulders, the other hanging lifeless at his side. Wounded in France, he’d informed Nora in his letter of inquiry about the farm she was sellling.
“Perfect for all those children we’re going to have.” He pressed a kiss to his wife’s forehead.
Nora folded her arms and looked away, the sting of resentment piercing her at their happiness. She didn’t need further reminders, however unintentional, that her life had been—and was about to be again—irrevocably changed.
Nothing about the last two years matched her girlhood dreams, dreams that had included a husband and family. If Tom Campbell had survived the Great War, all those hopes would have been realized. He would be standing here now, instead of two strangers. It would be his arms holding her close, his lips kissing her, and she wouldn’t be trying to sell the only home she’d ever known.
“The kitchen is through there.” Nora forced a friendly tone to her words. The more they liked the place and her, the less likelihood of having to endure more people she didn’t know traipsing all over the farm.
The couple moved past her and stepped into the large, sunny kitchen. Nora followed. She rested her hands on the back of one of the chairs. How many times had she sat here rolling dough for her mother or eating meals with her parents? They’d been gone more than a year, but the memories entrenched in every space of the farm kept them close, as well as increased the pain of missing them.
“The house comes with all the furnishings?” The young man’s eyes were trained on the icebox.
“Yes.” Nora recalled the day her father had brought the icebox home in the wagon—a birthday gift for her mother. Grace Lewis had been so happy she’d cried. It was one of many surprises, big and small, her father had delighted in giving “his girls.”
“You don’t want to take any of it with you?”
Wanted to, yes. The piano, her bed, her father’s rocker, her mother’s gramophone. “It might be rather difficult to get an icebox all the way to England.”
The young man chuckled, bringing Nora instant relief that she hadn’t offended him. “England, huh? Heard things aren’t going so well there right now. I would’ve thought more of them would be coming here, than anyone going there.”
Nora had read something similar in the newspaper, but she wasn’t concerned. Caring for the farm alone since her parents’ deaths, she’d learned how to stretch her nickels and dimes and how little she and her dog, Oscar, could subside on. “Actually, I inherited some property there.”
“A big manor house, huh?” He laughed at his own joke. “I met some of those rich Brits overseas. Decent guys, though most of them never worked a day in their lives before the war.”
There likely wouldn’t be any rich Brits where she was going, Nora thought as she watched the man’s wife fingering the red-checked curtains over the window. She fought the urge to ask her to stop. She’d helped her mother sew those curtains one blizzardy day years ago. The bright color had brought instant cheer to the room and made the winter weather more bearable.
“It isn’t really a house,” she replied, trying to focus on the conversation and not the way the woman continued to run her hands over the kitchen furniture. “It’s a cottage—on a sheep farm.”
“A sheep farm?” The woman didn’t bother to hide her incredulous tone. “That’s a rather unusual occupation for a woman on her own.”
Nora swallowed hard, hating the way the woman’s words stirred up her deepest fears. Could she really give up the only life she’d ever known to do something she’d never done before? In a place so vastly different from hers here in Iowa? Like her parents, the farthest she’d ever traveled was Minnesota.
Clearly not expecting a reply to her candid remark, the woman asked eagerly, “Can we see the upstairs?”
“Of course.” Nora bottled up her uncertainty and motioned them ahead of her, back into the parlor. “There are three bedrooms up there.”
The couple exchanged a smile and started up the stairs, but Nora paused with her foot on the first step. Did she want to stand by while the two of them, nice as they were, looked at and touched more of her things? Things she’d be forced to leave behind because they wouldn’t fit into her suitcase?
“Take all the time you need,” she called up to them. “I’ll be outside.”
She slipped on a sweater to guard against the spring chill and let herself out the front door. The sound of the screen slamming shut behind her was both comforting and familiar. Nora moved down the porch steps and across the yard. Oscar trotted up to her side, his tail wagging. She stopped to rub the soft, brown fur between his ears, wishing again that she could take him with her. The old hound dog would detest being cooped up on a ship, though, and Tom’s younger brothers had already consented to permanently caring for him.
Nora crossed the road running in front of the farm and slipped beneath the leafy limbs of the giant oak tree that stood like a sentinel before the fields. Oscar moved off to explore.
For the first time since the couple had arrived, Nora managed a full breath of air. She circled the trunk to peer at the carving Tom had cut into the bark years earlier. Lifting her finger, she traced the worn outlines of the heart and the letters whittled inside: TC + NL.
Tom had kissed her for the first time under these branches. She’d bade him good-bye in the same place, the night before he and his brother Joel had left to fight in the war. This tree had also been privy to Tom’s promise to marry her when he came back and Nora’s anguish when she’d received word he wasn’t returning.
She shut her eyes and leaned back against the rough bark. Memories of Tom washed over her with such intensity she could almost believe when she opened her eyes she’d see him walking up the road, ready to pull her into his strong arms, as he’d done countless times before the war. His teasing manner and quick smile had been the perfect complement to her more serious nature.
A tangible ache throbbed in her chest and Nora pressed her hand against it. It had been two years since Tom had been killed. When would missing him hurt less? When would she stop feeling bound to a promise neither one of them could fulfill anymore? The life they’d hoped and planned for might be gone, but she still had to move forward. She had to stop dwelling on the past. Maybe then she’d find peace from the pain.
Opening her eyes, she pushed away from the tree and removed the wrinkled envelope from her skirt pocket. She’d memorized every word of the letter—about her being the next of kin to inherit Henry Lewis’s sheep farm in England’s Lake District. Letters had arrived sporadically through the years from her father’s uncle, but Nora was still surprised to learn the man had died. And that like her father and grandfather, the man had so few living relatives.
She’d nearly written her great-uncle’s solicitor back and declined the offer of the sheep farm. She had a home and a life here. Yet the prospect of a fresh start, in the land of her heritage, took hold in her mind and wouldn’t leave her alone.
For the next week as she milked the cow, fed the animals, and tended the farm, the idea consumed her every waking thought until she finally relented and wrote a letter of acceptance. Even after posting it, though, she couldn’t say why she’d agreed to go. Tom’s sister Livy, and Nora’s best friend, had certainly questioned her reasons for leaving. But the only thing Nora could say was “I have to.”
She smoothed the envelope as she admitted in a whisper, “I don’t know anything about sheep, Tom. But this is my chance to leave, like you did.” She splayed her free hand against his carving. “I don’t want to leave behind the life we dreamed of here…” Her voice hitched with a swallowed sob. “And yet I have to learn to live without you. Don’t I?”
A movement across the street caught her eye. The couple was exiting the house. Nora pocketed the letter, eyed the carved heart once more, and stepped from the shade of the tree.
“Everything’s just lovely,” the young woman said as Nora came to a stop below the porch.
“We’ll take it,” her husband added. “How soon can we move in?”
Nora cleared the tug of sorrow from her throat and managed a tight smile. “You can move in next Thursday. I’ll leave the key under the mat.”
They settled on a price, which was a few hundred dollars less than what Nora had asked for, but she’d expected that. After all, she could only do so much running the place alone. The young man promised to bring the money over tomorrow morning.
“Do you have family there?” The woman asked the question in a gentle voice. Had she sensed the heavy finality settling like a rock in the pit of Nora’s stomach? “In England, I mean?”
Nora shook her head. “Not anymore.”
“Then why go?” Genuine concern shone on the other woman’s face as she allowed her husband to help her down the stairs. “If I had this place, I don’t think I could leave it for the unknown.”
Nora let her eyes wander over the house, the yard, the barn, the old oak tree. This had been her home for twenty-three years. So many dreams and hopes had been sown and shattered here. But now it was time to pick up the pieces. To leave what felt comfortable and familiar and hopefully find the peace that had eluded her the last few years.
When she turned her attention back to the couple, she didn’t need to infuse her response with feigned confidence. “I believe I’m ready for an adventure.” The words sank deeply into her soul, and a tingle of excitement eased the knot of regret in her stomach.
“Judging by the state of things here, Miss Lewis, I think you’ll do well on your sheep farm.” The young man extended his hand toward her. Nora shook it firmly and offered the two of them the first genuine smile she’d been able to muster all morning. “We wish you all the best across the Pond.”
Lake District, England, June 1920
The wheels of the Avro 504 biplane caressed the grassy runway. Colin Ashby cut the engine, and the plane coasted toward the far end of the lawn, where his valet stood at attention, waiting. What did Gibson want with him now?
Before he could strike the line of trees bordering the grass, Colin turned the vehicle to face south, toward the lake. The plane rolled to a final stop, its left wing a mere two feet from the chest of the expressionless and unmoving Gibson. Colin bit back a laugh. Apparently ev. . .
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