A Heart Too Proud
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From the author of the beloved romance classic The Windflower comes a novel of seductive games, simple pleasures, and a scandalous love that breaks all the rules. Country bred and city green, Elizabeth Cordell lives a quiet life with her sisters in a humble cottage in Kent. But upon the death of their kindly guardian, the orphaned girl discovers that her happy home is now the property of a surprising new owner: the notorious Lord Nicholas Dearborne . . . Devilishly rich, diabolically handsome-and rumored to be a despicable cad-Dearborne arrives in a grand carriage with a wicked woman and a wanton smirk. Elizabeth can't help but be flattered by Dearborne's bold flirtations, and can't refuse his offer to stay as a companion to his young ward. But how long can she resist his masterful seductions-when she craves his kiss as much as he craves hers?
Release date: April 1, 2014
Publisher: Forever Yours
Print pages: 288
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A Heart Too Proud
Laura London
And play had been the order of the day. Mrs. Goodbody had shoved the children and me firmly out the door that morning, baskets and wrapped lunches under our arms, telling us to rush and get the mayberries before the birds had them, just as she had every year since I can remember. As always, too, we had eaten as many as we had picked, or so it seemed, then spent the rest of the day wading in the stream, hunting for lucky clovers, or lying in the grass feeling the sun burn warmly through our now stained muslin gowns. At such times I would think, Who could ask life for more? Then I would think of my uncertain future and a slight shiver of fear would pass through me; I would quickly force the unwelcome thought from my mind. Much better, it was, to think of the past, of my childhood filled with security and simple pleasures.
It may surprise you that one left an orphan at the age of eight could honestly say that she had passed a happy childhood, yet such a person am I. My parents died as they had lived, with calm dignity and faith, laying no burdens on the living. For all that I had loved them, they did not carry part of me with them to the grave. Do not think me heartless, for they would never have wished it. In fact, my twin sisters, now thirteen years old, cannot remember either parent; for their arrival in the world had been the occasion of my mother’s departure from it and my father had outlived her by only two years.
Before his death, Father had been private secretary to Admiral Barfreston and we had lived in a cottage on the admiral’s estate, Barfrestly. After Father’s death, Admiral Barfreston had continued to let us remain in the cottage, even sending his own housekeeper, Mrs. Goodbody, to live with us, providing her with a modest portion of the estate’s revenue for our care.
Admiral Barfreston had been a kind though absentminded guardian. When we did attract his occasional notice, he would toss us a sixpence and tell us to be good children. Unfortunately, we must have slipped from his erratic memory at the crucial moment when he made his will. Thus we had been left unprovided for when he died that September. This time I was old enough to understand the implications of being left penniless and unprotected and I’m afraid that I embarrassed Admiral Barfreston’s austere lawyer with a hug of gratitude upon learning that we could remain on at Barfrestly, at least temporarily. “Temporarily” had slipped into weeks and weeks into months and it seemed that we would go on forever just as we always had.
On the admiral’s death, the estate had passed on to a distant cousin, the notorious Lord Nicholas Dearborne, Marquis of Lorne; Admiral Barfreston had never married and had not even a nephew to receive his property. And as for Lord Dearborne, they said he was so wealthy that his tenant farmers lived in houses as big as Barfrestly Manor. A gentleman of Lord Dearborne’s exalted degree was hardly likely to visit a small and ramshackle estate like Barfrestly, the admiral’s lawyer had told us. He would probably leave the whole affair to his man of business, who would eventually sell the place. Dearborne himself was a leader in London society, a close personal friend of the Prince Regent, and “indifferent, arrogant, and dangerous.” So Mrs. Goodbody said, and she had that personally from the innkeeper’s wife, who had it from Lady Peterby’s maid, who had spent one whole season in London attending to her mistress.
There were other things said of Lord Dearborne, too. Once I overheard Squire Macready’s stableboys in whispered gossip, and went to Mrs. Goodbody for an explanation. What was a Paphian? She had stiffened like a fence post and snapped that the evil goings-on of London dandies were not for the innocent ears of young maidens.
When other sources failed, my sisters Caroline and Christa were there to provide enlightenment. They are inveterate eavesdroppers and often have the gossip. Lord Dearborne, they pronounced, spent time with wicked women. When I questioned them further I was relieved to discover that they were mercifully in ignorance of exactly what it was that he did with the wicked women. If truth be told, I had somewhat of a confused idea myself. Even though I am six years older than the twins, I don’t often play big sister to them; our relationship is more that of beloved playmates.
And so it had been on this warm June day as we returned home from the orchard, our hearts full of goodwill and our baskets brimming with berries, little dreaming that today something would happen to interrupt forever our present peaceful lives.
Once through the orchard you can look across the now tangled jungle of a garden that Admiral Barfreston’s mother had lavished such care upon and see, rising above our cottage and other outbuildings, a large timber-framed mansion set between rows of chestnut and silver birch trees. It had been closed up since the death of Admiral Barfreston, and even before that only a few of its many rooms were in use.
The tireless twins raced up the weedy path to the cottage, eager to show off our harvest of fruit just as I noticed Cleo disappearing around the corner of the mansion. Cleo was the twins’ spaniel pup and unfortunately, we’ve not yet been able to convince her that chickens are not placed on earth for the sole purpose of being chased around for the entertainment of wiry young dogs. As there were almost certain to be hens scratching about in front of the house at this time of the afternoon, I decided to make haste to the front yard to insure that no damage was done to the estate’s prime egg producers. As I rounded the corner of the house I stopped short in astonishment.
There, in the driveway, was the most magnificent carriage that I had ever seen. Up until then I had thought Mrs. Macready’s shiny barouche the height of elegance, but now I saw there was a level beyond. Beneath a fine coat of recently acquired travel silt, the carriage’s satin-smooth sides gleamed and sparkled with colorful inlay. An elaborate crest in black and red was emblazoned on its door and it was drawn by a perfectly matched team-of-six in a silver-studded harness. Several bewigged liverymen, formally garbed in matching red and black uniforms, were standing at attention. Not being one to call a pigeon a peacock, I must admit that I gaped like a yokel. I was so engrossed in gawking at this equipage, which compared favorably with my imaginings of Cinderella’s coach, that until he spoke I didn’t even notice the stylishly dressed young man standing not four yards from me.
“Sweet Jesus, Nicky, will you look at that? I swear I’d have spent less time in London lately if I’d known the Kentish milkmaids had become so devilishly beautiful.”
Startled, I looked around me for the beautiful milkmaid, then gasped as the young man walked over to me and slid an arm firmly about my waist, pulling me close against his chest. Looking into the hard features above me, I recognized Lord Lesley Peterby from Petersperch; the Peterbys’ acres marched with the squire’s. I had not had any social intercourse with the Peterby family, for I’d as likely chat with the Archangel Gabriel, but I had several times seen Lord Peterby riding through the countryside on his visits to Petersperch. If the Marquis of Lorne was notorious, Lord Peterby was so disreputable that his name wasn’t even mentioned (at least it wasn’t supposed to be). He was, as they say, not received locally, and spent most of his time in London where they are more broadminded. Lord Peterby was reputedly the despair of his well-liked and respectable mama, and was popularly credited with having driven his long-suffering papa to death with his dueling, gambling, and preoccupation with low company.
Before I had time to collect my scattered wits, Lord Peterby had reached his other hand up to the collar of my gown, pulling it carefully aside to caress the base of my neck.
I heard the twins come racing into the yard, their voices shrill with excitement. “Mrs. Goodbody, come quick! There’s a London dandy in the yard and he’s trying to steal Lizzie’s virtue!”
At that Lord Peterby let out what in a less elegant person would have been a yelp, and released me with such suddenness that I fell back to sit down hard on the drive. I saw then that my release was not due to the twins, but to Cleo, who had rushed across the yard to sink her sharp teeth firmly into His Lordship’s ankle in a gallant effort in my defense. Of course, I should have done then what any other girl with the least pretension to gentility would have done: fainted. Regrettably, one’s spur-of-the-moment responses are not so easily controlled, and it was not my gentility that won the day, but my sense of humor. Lord Peterby’s unsuccessful attempts to free his polished Hessians from Cleo’s determined attack brought my choked laughter bubbling to the surface. Once, when the sexton’s wife had reproved me for laughing during choir practice, the vicar had told her to let me laugh, “for Elizabeth’s laughter charms like moonbeams on water.” But Lord Peterby certainly looked in no mood to appreciate its charm. Caro scooped the wriggling Cleo into her arms where she barked indignantly at being snatched from the best sport she had seen all week. Her excited little face made me laugh all the harder. So there I sat—a crumpled heap in the dirt, shouting with laughter as Mrs. Goodbody came running across the yard. Jolly tears streaming down my face, I looked, I fear, as vulgar as a barmaid in a Rowlandson etching.
Though Mrs. Goodbody could see that I had not been hurt, there was no diminution of her white-hot wrath. “How dare you, young good-for-naught?” she rounded on Lord Lesley Peterby. “Do you think this is London? No doubt there are the sort of women there who would welcome your insulting advances, but this is Kent, my lad. Decent women live here. If you ever so much as touch my lamb again, I will take a full account of your actions to your mama—who is a fine woman, well you know it, and would never sanction such rakings in her own village.” I’ll bet it’s been a while since someone threatened to tell his mother on Lord Peterby, I thought to myself. “And what’s more, I will bring an account of your behavior to the Marquis of Lorne,” continued Mrs. Goodbody, obviously determined to brazen it out in fine style, “who now owns this estate!”
Whatever Mrs. Goodbody had planned to say next was interrupted by a titter from inside the coach. There was a movement of one of the satin window curtains and then it was pulled aside to reveal a previously hidden occupant.
If this carriage was Cinderella’s coach, the feminine occupant could easily have passed for Cinderella herself. Her smartly coiffed blond hair cascaded onto a slender, creamy neck which shone with jewels. And her gown! The neckline was so low that it later led Christa to remark, to Mrs. Goodbody’s horror, that she’d been afraid “they” would fall out. Dragging my eyes away from the amazing décolletage, I saw that it would be impossible, as well, to find fault with her face. Long and surprisingly dark-lashed brown eyes, wonderfully pink cheeks, and bright red lips combined to make her look rather like an exquisite china-head doll. Mrs. Goodbody can snort and say “pretty is as pretty does” but to me, uninitiated into the mysteries of rouge pots and mascara, she was unquestionably lovely.
The vision shook a ringed finger at Lord Peterby and gurglingly reproved:
“Here now, Lesley, don’t be handling Nicky’s inheritance before he has had a chance to examine it himself.”
Lord Lesley began shaking the country dust off his trousers, and flicked an imaginary speck from his embroidered waistcoat. Mrs. Goodbody was still drawn up like a bow ready to be sprung, the light of battle in her eye.
“Now don’t go aiming at me again, my good woman. You can see the chit is none the worse off,” observed Lord Peterby drily, glancing at my laughing countenance.
“No thanks to you!” snapped Mrs. Goodbody. “Now take yourself and your… lady friend off before I take it upon myself to inform His Lordship of your conduct here. He would welcome no debaucher on his lands!”
The lady in the carriage tittered again, then said:
“A-ha, Lesley, that you cannot deny. Nicky has never liked another man poaching on his preserve. Have you, Nicky?” She leaned even further out of the coach as she spoke and fluttered the sooty lashes at another man, who had been leaning his long, graceful body against the shadowed side of the coach, his arms folded negligently before him. I had not noticed him in all the excitement; he stood in a shadowed position; but as he straightened and stepped into the sun I saw immediately that he was not a man who could go long unnoticed in any company.
He could have posed for a Greek god in a Botticelli painting. The sun shafted off his red-gold hair, which fell in shining curls to brush his broad shoulders. His beautifully molded features were set in an expression of sardonic indifference, and the clear blue eyes that swept briefly over us were the coldest I’d ever seen. Instead of being robed in classical tradition, the Botticelli god wore riding clothes so expertly fitted to his slender, powerful frame that even my inexperienced eye could judge them as having been made by no provincial tailor. Even his name was Greek; “Nicky,” the lady in the carriage had called him. I think it means something to do with victory.
“You are Mrs. Goodbody?” asked the stranger curtly.
“Aye, ’tis,” assented Mrs. Goodbody warily.
“I wasn’t aware that you had any daughters.” He was frowning slightly.
“Daughters? To be sure, I have not—the Good Lord didn’t see fit to bless Joe and me with youngsters of our own and Joe’s been gone these fifteen years now… Daughters—you think Miss Elizabeth here…? I should say not! Why the very idea! Miss Elizabeth is quality! She’s here under the protection of Admiral Barfreston, sir.” Mrs. Goodbody spoke with such conviction that I half expected the admiral’s shade to appear forthwith, rapier in hand, to offer me protection. The thought made me giggle.
The golden-haired man raised his eyebrows slightly and came over to stand above me. Reaching out one long, shapely hand, he grasped my elbow and dragged me easily to my feet. I flushed under his insolent gaze, which played over my body with the dispassionate appraisal of a cattle judge on fair day.
“She’s quality, I agree,” sneered the hateful stranger. He turned to Mrs. Goodbody. “But I was under the impression that Admiral Barfreston was a man in his eighties…?”
For a moment I was afraid that Mrs. Goodbody would pop out the buttons of her dress, with such rage did her bosom swell.
“Nothing of the sort, sir! The admiral was a fine Christian gentleman, and Miss Elizabeth’s father was employed by him as a secretary. When he died, orphans they were left—poor little Elizabeth only eight years old, and Caroline and Christa not out of nappies. And the admiral supported the dears like his own. These are good, innocent children, sir, and know naught of evil.” Mrs. Goodbody stopped, as though a thought had suddenly occurred to her. “Might I ask your name, sir?”
“Nicholas Dearborne,” he said shortly.
Poor Mrs. Goodbody. To say that she was dismayed would much understate the case. My sister Christa, who was supposed to know naught of evil, didn’t help matters by pointing at the lady in the carriage and piping:
“Then that must be a wicked woman.”
Mrs. Goodbody shot her a look that boded ill for the miscreant twin, though I saw Lord Dearborne’s lips twitch in spite of himself. You had to admit that the man had presence, but I cared not for his arrogant, commanding air. I imagined he would throw the lot of us off what was now his property with no further ado. He certainly looked capable of doing so. If that was intended, however, he gave no sign of it but calmly began to question Mrs. Goodbody about the condition of the manor house. How long since it had been in use? How much work was necessary to make it habitable? How many servants were needed to operate it? Could she acquire servants from the village? It seemed Milord was coming to stay for a time!
When he announced that he was bringing along his ward, it was too much for Christa. She had obviously decided that since she was already in trouble, there was nothing to lose by questioning the marquis further.
“Mr. Marquis, sir? Is your ward a boy or a girl?”
“He’s a boy,” said the marquis, indifferently.
“Is he an orphan?” she pursued.
“Yes.”
I’m sure she would have asked more if the more cautious Caro hadn’t dug her elbow into her sister’s ribs and told her to hush.
The lady in the carriage again leaned out and said petulantly:
“Do hurry and complete your domestic business, Nicky darling. I vow I’m eager to relax and refresh myself in that excellent inn Lesley has been promising us.”
“One moment more, Cat,” said Lord Dearborne, over his shoulder. “Mrs. Goodbody, Lord Barfreston’s solicitor will call on you this evening and he has been instructed to advance you whatever sums you need to make the manor livable. Hire whatever help you find necessary. Just don’t economize. The place looks half eaten by dry rot and I’ve no desire to wake one morning with the ceiling collapsed.”
“Oh… Your Lordship, the girls here…,” began Mrs. Goodbody.
“I’ll discuss that with you when I return next week. In the meantime you may continue as you see fit.” One of the marquis’s grooms brought up a handsome Arabian stallion and the marquis swung himself lightly into the saddle. To my surprise, he brought the mincing stallion alongside me. He reached down and carelessly flicked my cheek with one long finger.
“Don’t look so dismayed, sweetheart,” he drawled. “I daresay something can be arranged.”
I felt Mrs. Goodbody place a protective arm around my shoulder as we watched the visitors depart. Somehow I knew that I would dream that night of cold blue eyes.
It may surprise you to learn that I, dependent upon charity as any pauper in the workhouse, am actually the granddaughter of a duke. But I am more fortunate than my grandfather was, for it is better to be poor and face that honestly than to be poor and grow monstrously in debt pretending to the life-style of a feudal baron. Grandfather was too encased in pride to admit that the revenues of his lands could no longer support him in the luxury that had been the lot of his family for generations. It must be from him that I inherit my ability to view the future with tranquil optimism. This characteristic gives my nature a buoyancy welcome in stressful times, but can as easily become a weakness. And so it was with Grandfather. He ignored the rapidly worsening state of his finances until his creditors lost patience and announced that he must bring his ship about or sail no more upon the River Tick. Grandfather panicked and fled the country, abandoning not only his debts but also his sixteen-year-old son, who later became my father. The moneylenders, taking revenge through the only avenue open to them, threw my father into debtor’s prison. I can only imagine what he suffered there because he discussed those days with no one. I knew only that he contracted jail fever, leaving him with the damaged heart that finally caused his death.
It is to Admiral Barfreston that Father owed his last happy years. The admiral, the duke’s last loyal friend, convinced the duke’s creditors to drop the charges against my father. He then brought my father to Barfrestly and employed him as his secretary, a post that was never more than a polite fiction.
My mother was a governess on the Peterby estate when she met my father. She taught French to Lord Peterby’s older sisters—Lord Lesley was only in the nursery at the time. The vicar, who prides himself on having introduced my parents, says that my mother reanimated the gentle shell my father had become. Her gifts of joy and laughter were a healing balm to my father’s broken spirit. That is the way I remember her, laughing with such delight that all the world rejoiced with her. I love to watch the twins at play, for they are so like her they bring her back to me. She was French, and had borne her own measure of grief. Though she had been sent from France before the Terror reached its peak, her own parents’ heads had been part of the gruesome feast of Madame Guillotine.
Nevertheless, it was my own trials that beset me as I walked to the church the next morning. We’d had little enough claim on the admiral, and we had none at all on the Marquis of Lorne. News has wings and the whole parish knew every detail of Dearborne’s visit before we had even entered the churchyard. Mrs. Blakslee, the innkeeper’s wife, was the first to identify my Cinderella as Lady Catherine Doran. She was the marquis’s current mistress, as Mrs. Blakslee, who hadn’t been born yesterday, could judge from the sleeping arrangements.
“My Fine Lady made sure that her bedchamber was right next to Lord Dearborne’s. Shameful, I call it! The very name of womanhood dragged through the dirt! And my John was the one to see that hussy sneak into His Lordship’s room, bold as a mare in season!”
Mrs. Plumford, the sexton’s wife, gave a snort. “Possibly, but I fear we must ask ourselves if these are meet matters to discuss on the threshold of the Lord’s house, and in hearing of such tender ears as well.” That last was said with a significant glance in my direction.
“Oh, Amelia, you and your prudish pecking. Do tell, Mrs. Goodbody, have you seen the solicitor yet?” queried Mrs. Coleman, the apothecary’s lively wife.
“To be sure. Last evening he called at the cottage. The purse isn’t skimpy for fixing up the estate, and that house is going to get the cleaning I’ve been itching to give it all these years. Can you spare Jane to give a hand?”
“We’d do well to have the extra shillings. But understand that when that rakish Lord Dearborne arrives I want her straight home. My Jane’s virtue is worth more than all the money in the Bank of England.” She leaned closer to Mrs. Goodbody. “Has mention been made of providing for your three dear lambs?”
I broke gaily into the conversation: “I don’t care if he tosses me off his lands on my ear. I’ve an education, thanks to the kind offices of the vicar, and I’ll become a governess like my mother was.” This show of bravado was as much to convince myself as my listeners. I longed to chase away the apprehension that tapped at my shoulder like an unwelcome stranger.
“I’d like to know what matron would put a gal your age in a responsible position like the care of children?” sniffed Mrs. Plumford.
Privately, I wondered the same thing. But I said, “Oh, the mysterious ways of the adult world. They won’t hire yo. . .
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