Second Chance Friends

by Jennifer Scott

Genres: Family Life; Literary Fiction; Women's Fiction

Synopsis

The national bestselling author of The Sister Season shares a novel of four ordinary women at one extraordinary crossroads....
 
Karen, Melinda, and Joanna have never met until the morning they witness an accident outside a local diner—and rush to help.
 
As a single mom whose sweet-faced boy has become a misguided young man, Karen immediately sets aside her own concerns and moves into action. Emergency first responder Melinda also calmly steps up to the plate, as she does every day; no one would ever suspect the insecurity that threatens her marriage to the man she loves. And blond, beautiful, bohemian Joanna is hiding—from her friends, her family, and, most important, herself. Yet she’s first on the scene.
 
The accident leaves another, mother to be, Maddie, crushed by grief. But rather than retreat, Karen, Melinda, and Joanna open their arms and hearts. During the next nine months they’ll return to the diner over and over. They’ll come to find Maddie. They’ll end up finding themselves—learning what it means to be a mother, lover, wife, and friend. By reaching out and holding on, these four women will unite to show us life can be transformed at the most surprising moments.

Release date: May 5, 2015

Publisher: Berkley

Print pages: 368

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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

I’ve always been fascinated by the way the universe brings people into our lives. And when it comes to writing books, I am both fascinated and grateful for the people who’ve been brought into mine.

Thank you to Cori Deyoe for always trusting my vision and turning an open ear to my voice, and for never telling me not to pursue an idea. Thank you to everyone at 3 Seas Literary Agency for your unending support and for making me feel like a welcome family member. Huge thanks to Sandy Harding for loving the story and helping me make it the best it could possibly be. I’m overjoyed to add you to my “friend” list. Thank you to everyone at NAL for all you do to help bring my books to life—from reading to editing to sales to cover design, you are all awesome!

Thank you to the kid crew—Paige, Weston, and Rand—for your continued patience and love. And, Scott, you are my best friend for a lifetime. I love you all.

Finally, I want to thank you, my readers, for reading and sharing my books, and for e-mailing me with kudos, encouragement, questions, and story ideas. You are the best!

PROLOGUE

The breakfast rush at the Tea Rose Diner typically began at around 6:20 a.m., when the early risers came in for bagels and cream cheese to go, or English muffins and jam to go. And rivers of coffee, strong, to go. Then came the elderly, up before dawn and looking for a little social time, and the blue-collar guys—a legion of workers in flannel and steel-toed boots, toting scuffed plastic gas station mugs as big as their heads, hoping for refills after their hash browns and sausage links, requests that Annie, the owner of the Tea Rose, always obliged. It took most of a whole pot to fill up those monsters, but what Annie lost in coffee, she more than made up for in customer loyalty. Being the only traditional diner in sleepy suburban Caldwell, Missouri, had its advantages.

Sometimes the early risers were the white-collar guys, shirts starched and cologne heavy, spoons balanced over their pinkie rings as they dipped into bowls of oatmeal with raisins and read their newspapers or their laptops or their smartphones, always so busy, busy.

Often, due to the Tea Rose’s location, which just happened to sit at an intersection less than half a mile away from Caldwell High, the early risers were teenagers, stopping in for cinnamon rolls on their way to school, their parents waiting in the parking lot, checking their watches impatiently behind the wheels of their still-running cars.

Rush almost always ended at 8:47 a.m., precisely thirteen minutes before the first school bell rang, and then the diner would be ghost-town dead until dinnertime. Such was the rhythm of the suburbs.

But on September 2, the rush ended early. Probably because it was the Friday of Labor Day weekend. Probably because the kids had other things to do, such as wake up late and tie themselves into bikini tops that would get peeled off during pontoon parties later in the day as their wearers gave the official sayonara to summer. Probably because the Friday before the first day off of the school year just didn’t include early rising and cinnamon rolls.

September 2 was a slow morning. Only three customers were at the Tea Rose at 8:38 a.m.

A woman in a back booth, small, wearing an EMT uniform, just finishing up a plate so huge the cook wondered aloud where she was putting all that food.

A woman at a table by the door, mid-forties, listening intently to a long-winded caller on her cell phone, her free hand wrapped around a cup of coffee, which she had mentioned while ordering that she desperately needed, but had not yet touched.

And a young woman seated at the counter, effortless and beautiful, wrapped in a wrinkled long-sleeved button-down, even though it was already north of eighty degrees outside, with the promise to get hotter. She looked nervous, as if she was awaiting someone she didn’t want to meet. Or maybe as if she wanted to be anywhere but at the Tea Rose, yet had nowhere else to go. She fitfully shoveled bites of Boston cream pie into her mouth.

It was so slow, Annie had plenty of time to do a walk-in inventory and write up her produce order a full day early. Slow enough that the one waitress could duck out for a smoke break, sitting next to the cook on empty crates just outside the back door.

Forget slow—it was downright dead at the Tea Rose at 8:38 a.m. on September 2. Dead as it had been in a long time.

•   •   •

It was beautiful outside. September beautiful. Was there really anything more perfect than September in the glorious Midwest? Tina Shore didn’t think so. Especially when the September day in question also happened to be a Friday and the start of a long weekend. She should have been anxious about all these darned days off the school district gave their students—she and her husband were hardly Rockefellers. No work meant no pay, and after a whole summer with no pay, they were starting to feel the squeeze. Lester sure seemed to be concerned. No paycheck for three months and already a day off, he’d railed when she’d reminded him that Labor Day was coming up. We’ll starve to death with all these holidays!

But the holidays were so worth it to Tina. She had come back to work in August rested, sun-kissed, and skinny, just like she’d been when she and Lester had first met. She was convinced that moving to Missouri and taking the job driving the elementary school bus had been her best decision ever. If only Lester could relax about the money, like she did. Although she was willing to bet that as soon as he got his hands wrapped around a beer bottle on Monday afternoon, he’d become a fan of Labor Day real quick. She hoped to talk him into taking a quick camping trip up to Smithville. Nothing better than cold beer around a warm campfire in September, the noise and hustle of Kansas City shut out by twenty miles of sleepy small towns and trees. Nothing better at all.

Just one more day. Half a day, really. She’d already picked up everyone. She just needed to get them to the elementary school, and then she would be one afternoon route away from working on that campfire.

The kid at the last stop had forgotten something and darted back inside his house just as she’d pulled up. He’d taken his time, even though she honked and yelled out the window that she was going to have to leave him if he didn’t come quickly. She hated leaving behind a child, though. She always felt guilty when she had to do it. It was her job to get them to school just as much as it was theirs; at least that was the way she saw it. So, threats aside, she’d waited for him as the minutes ticked by. And now she was the late one. Late, but making up time on this beautiful September day.

Traffic was busy for Caldwell, and the kids were acting crazy. They felt anticipation, too. Only in school two weeks, and already they were salivating for a day off. Practically bouncing off the bus walls. Yelling, some of them singing, switching seats. It was as if they’d never ridden a bus before, as if they’d forgotten all the rules. She tried to ignore it, to give them a break. She tried to zone out on the beautiful weather, imagine herself sitting in a lawn chair with a fishing pole and a diet margarita with a colored straw, but the kids just got louder and louder.

Some kids had opened windows. The wind screaming in only added to the noise. And then, out of the corner of her eye, she saw something in her side mirror—a book flying through one of the windows and onto the street. She heard a “Give it back!” and then saw a fistful of pencils bounce on the pavement after the book. And then came laughter.

“Hey!” Tina shouted, her foot instinctively letting up on the gas. She flicked a glance at the clock on her dashboard—shit, they were really behind now—and pressed back into it. “Cut it out!” The kids at least had the decency to look caught. They stilled, big-eyed. Some of the girls used their hands to cover their giggles. “You can’t be throwing things out the window! Y’all know that!” she said, gazing at them in the mirror, trying to catch the eyes of the kids she guessed were the most likely culprits. “It’s Friday! You don’t want to end up at the bus barn on a Friday.”

Several of the kids scoffed. The bus barn hadn’t been a threat since Tina herself was a kid. Seemed nobody was afraid of authority anymore. And maybe they didn’t even call it that here in Missouri. Maybe they called it the garage or something else a little more official sounding. For all she knew, that was the case. She hadn’t been here long enough to learn much of anyth—

Tina turned her eyes back to the windshield and gasped, panic slamming into her. She’d misjudged where she was on the road, had thought she was much farther back than this. The stoplight ahead was red. There was a line of cars waiting. And she was going way too fast to stop in time.

The little girl in the seat right behind her shrieked—she heard that much as she stomped on the brake, pressing down as hard as she could, the bus jerking right and veering into the turn-only lane. But then she heard nothing but the hollow moan of tires trying to grip pavement and the shuddering of the bus around her.

And then she heard nothing at all.

•   •   •

Every stoplight seemed interminably long to Michael and Maddie Routh. They were nervous, jittery, but it was an excited kind of nervous. They couldn’t talk to each other. When they tried, all that came out were giggles, so they pumped up the radio volume and sat with their feet and thumbs keeping time to the beat. They were adorably matchy—faded jeans and Converse low-tops, his gray, hers pink—an accident they found themselves guilty of often. The stoplight seemed to go on forever.

They’d been trying ever since they got married. It had been so easy for all their friends. Most of them were already complaining about being up all night with newborns or choosing paint colors for their nurseries. Michael and Maddie had to sit through endless dinner parties that featured long name-choosing conversations, all the time Maddie pretending that seeing a friend rubbing a swollen belly didn’t make her so jealous she could spit. They’d brought flowers to hospitals and tiny pink and blue rattles decorated with celebratory ribbons. They’d held wiggling little ones in their inexperienced hands, trying not to let every crinkle of diaper stab them in their hearts. It had been so depressing, and they’d begun to talk about possibilities: fertility specialists, procedures, even adoption if it came down to it.

But it hadn’t come down to it. Maddie had the proof right there in her hand, her nails a pale pink that matched her shoes, and now it was just a matter of getting the test confirmed. How ironic, she’d thought, that this was Labor Day weekend. A good omen. If they ever got there, that was. They had a nine o’clock appointment, and this stoplight was really taking so long.

“Why are there so many stoplights in the world?” Maddie said, slouching down in her seat. “We’re going to be late. You think we’ll be late?”

Michael grinned. “You’re already late. That’s the good news,” he said, and there came the giggles again. He reached for her hand and squeezed it.

“That’s not what I—” But she never got to finish the sentence.

They never saw or heard the bus coming until it plowed into Michael’s door.

Suddenly everything seemed to explode around them. Glass flew, and there was noise, so much noise, and Maddie felt a sensation of moving, of jostling and tumbling and flying, and there was no time even to scream. It felt like being grabbed and shaken, eyes unable to focus on anything, mind unable to grab sense of what was happening. And then there was the horrific sound of hissing and creaking and thunking as their car settled into place. And then the awful silence. Only they weren’t in front of the stoplight anymore.

They were upside down. She could feel the seat belt digging into her shoulder, her hair sticking to one side of her face. She felt a tickle on her cheek and hastily swept at it. Her hand came away covered with blood, but she didn’t know where it had come from. There was no pain, only shock and confusion and deep, deep fear.

“Michael,” she croaked, surprised to hear that her voice worked. She fumbled, trying to orient herself, and reached for him with the hand that still held the positive test stick.

She knew. Right away, she knew it was bad. Blood, there was so much blood, and his eyes were open, but he wasn’t moving. His mouth worked, but he wasn’t saying anything.

“Michael!” she croaked again, only louder this time, and she shifted, grasping for the seat-belt buckle, but she couldn’t move. The door had caved toward her and the buckle was wedged into a tiny space that her hand couldn’t make sense of.

She looked around wildly. A school bus lay on its side about ten feet away, the back windows shattered, its front end rutted into the ground near the windows of a diner. As she watched, three people barreled through the diner door, racing toward the bus.

“No,” Maddie said, though she knew her voice wasn’t loud enough. “Over here. Help us over here.”

She watched as one of the people—a tall, slender woman—climbed the bus and stuck her head and arms through a window. A few seconds later, she came out with a child who was crying, holding one arm up against her tiny side, but otherwise unharmed.

“Come over here,” Maddie said, louder this time. She felt throbbing begin to set in. Her head, her shoulder, one trapped leg. “We need help.”

The woman passed the child to two other women, who took her and sat her gingerly on the ground. She dipped back into the window and came out with another. That child was fine, too. Blood ran into Maddie’s eyes.

“Help!” she cried, tears mingling with the blood. She felt panic rise as the woman extracted yet another child through the window, and one of the others managed to pull open the back emergency door to let more children stream out. “Oh, God, oh, God,” she said, breathing heavily. “Help us, please! Michael.” She turned toward him again. Reached for him, but her arm was so tired now, so heavy. “Michael, please talk to me.”

He continued to stare at her, his face pale as she’d ever seen it. He blinked, but it was lazy and far away, and that was all it took to unleash the panic full force.

“Help!” she screamed. “Help us, please! Over here! Look over here!” She thrashed with every ounce of energy that she had, bumping around in the cramped and crumpled space. “Help us! Help!” And then as quickly as it had come, the energy drained from her and her screams turned to sobs. “Please help,” she said. “He’s dying.”

She saw the woman who’d opened the bus door turn her head, and then say something to the other two, motioning toward Maddie’s car. The one standing on the overturned bus slid off. Together, they rushed to the car, a younger woman coming to Maddie’s side, and an older woman going to Michael’s.

“Sir?” she heard the older woman repeating. “Sir? Can you hear me?”

The younger woman was a flurry of activity, reaching in and trying to get to the seat-belt buckle, asking Maddie questions, saying things to her, but it was as if the world had ended. Maddie could feel herself talking, screaming, crying, but on the inside she was only watching as the older woman held Michael’s head in her hands, catching his blood as he drifted away from them.

ONE

Karen gazed through the plate-glass window, her eyes wandering over the divots in the ground where the bus had crashed a month ago. She rubbed the side of her cell phone absently, her fingers bumping over the volume buttons, her fingernail scratching up against the SILENCE switch. Oh, how she’d love to “accidentally” flip that switch. If she never heard the phone ring, she wouldn’t have to talk to anyone, right? She wouldn’t have to answer the next time Kendall called. But she knew even if she did silence it, the peace would be short-lived. Kendall would only show up at her house or, worse, at her job, expecting her to pull strings she didn’t have to make things easier for a son whose hide she wasn’t sure she wanted to save anymore.

The girl had been calling all morning, congested with tears, begging. Blaming. Always blaming. As if Karen didn’t do enough blaming for herself. You’d think, as a mother, Kendall would know that. Yet Karen had awakened to Kendall’s tears and blame at the most ungodly hour, had been ripped out of a dream with it.

“Mom?” the voice on the other end had said.

Karen’s heart had sunk. For one, she wasn’t Kendall’s mom. She was Travis’s mom, and Kendall just happened to be the girl he was living with at the moment. Just as with Jessilyn and Margarite and that trashy girl whom Karen only ever knew as “Tag,” Kendall’s calling Karen “Mom” wasn’t going to make her any more permanent in his life. Travis wasn’t the permanent-girl type of guy, as much as Karen wished he would be. For another, anytime Kendall was calling her “Mom” on the phone at—she had leaned over and checked—4:42 in the morning, it was not going to be good news.

“What’s going on?” Karen had asked, wiping her eyes with her free hand, then slipping on her glasses. The world had sprung into focus and, just like that, her day had started.

And now, an hour and a half later, she sat at the Tea Rose avoiding her not-daughter’s phone calls, because she knew what the calls were about. Travis was in jail. Again. Drunk and fighting. Again.

Only this time he did a real job on the guy. This time the guy might not pull through.

Dear God, would that make her son a murderer? Was that how it worked? Someone went from hothead to killer in the flip of a switch?

You’d think she would know. She’d worked at Sidwell, Cain, Smith & Smith for twenty years. Surely they’d defended drunk guys who had accidentally beat other guys to death in that amount of time. Kendall clearly thought Karen should know what to do. You’ve got to help him. You’ve got to get him out of jail. There’s the baby to think of, you know.

Oh, yes, that much Karen knew. Her one grandchild. Her grandson, to be exact. Sweet little Marcus, born approximately eight minutes after Travis dumped Tag, seemed to be one of the few good things to come from her son in years. But that also made Kendall more permanent than the others, a fact that Karen wasn’t ready to live with just yet. Kendall certainly wasn’t any worse than those girls, but she wasn’t any better than them, either. She hadn’t shown it full-on just yet, but Karen suspected the girl had a shifty side to her. And a vengeful one.

Yes, they had the baby to think of, and Karen had her own baby to think of. It didn’t matter if your child was two or twenty-two, she decided—you still hated to see him suffer, even if he brought it on himself. And if this man that Travis had beaten up was to die, Travis would be suffering for many years, she feared. She didn’t even want to think of what that road would look like for her. A son in prison for life? How would she ever admit that to anyone?

On cue, her phone rang, and even though she’d been expecting it, she still jumped when it vibrated in her palm, causing her to slosh a dime-sized dollop of coffee onto the table. Predictably, Kendall’s name flashed across the screen. For a moment, Karen considered upending the phone into her mug, letting French vanilla crème drown out Kendall.

But in the end, she couldn’t do it. Abandoning Kendall would mean abandoning her son. What kind of mother could do that? The kind whose son is in jail every other weekend could do that, her mind nagged her. The kind who should have toughened up on him long, long ago.

She held the phone to her ear. “Hello?”

“Mom? It’s me.” Karen could hear the baby crying in the background. She focused on it. Tried to conjure the scent of the top of Marcus’s head, the clench of his fist around her forefinger. Concentrating on Marcus helped calm her, helped remind her why she hadn’t already washed her hands of the whole Kendall situation. “You find out anything?”

“I haven’t even gone in yet.”

“But it’s a special circumstance.”

I wish, Karen almost said. I wish this was something that rarely happened. “Nobody will be there at this hour,” she said instead. Though that was a lie. As far as she could tell, Mr. Sidwell practically lived there. She’d found him sleeping on his office couch more than once.

“Well, will you call me after you’ve talked to them? Be sure to tell them Travis was in fear for his life. And he’s got witnesses, too. I can bring the witnesses right to you. Be sure to tell them that.”

Karen pushed her finger into the drop of coffee, let it sit there for a moment, and then swiped the stain away, wiping her thumb dry on her sensible—translation: law-firm stodgy—brown skirt. “Honey, I’ve told you. I’m a recruiter. Human resources. I don’t really work with the attorneys. I rarely talk to them. I don’t feel right asking for favors.”

“You work in the same office with them every day,” Kendall said.

“But it’s not like we’re on a first-name basis or anything. I don’t even work in the same hallway with the others.”

“Just ask,” Kendall said with finality. Karen heard the baby’s cry get closer to the phone, as if Kendall was picking him up, and then settle into sniffles and grow silent. “If Travis goes to prison, Marcus and I won’t be able to afford to live here. We’ll have to move, and who knows where we’ll end up?” Ah, there it was. The shifty, vengeful thing she’d suspected was lurking underneath.

Karen closed her eyes and pressed her thumb against one, and then the other, not even caring if she was smudging her eye shadow. She was already getting a headache and could feel the backs of her knees begin to sweat inside her panty hose. It was going to be a very long day. A long, stressful one at that. She let out a breath she hadn’t even been aware of holding. She understood the threat clearly. Pull some strings at work to get Travis off the hook, or never see sweet Marcus again. “I’ll ask,” she said.

But when she hung up, she wondered whom. Whom at Sidwell Cain would she feel comfortable asking for help in getting her son off on a potential manslaughter case? God, the humiliation. She could just throttle Travis for putting her in this position.

“Please don’t die, whoever you are,” she said, her eyes turning toward the window again. She could see a shadowy reflection of herself, the outline of her hair. She spent way too much time curling it every morning, but it was short and unremarkably grayish brown, and hairstyle was the only style she really had going on anymore. Even though she was trim, middle age was starting to take its wrinkly, saggy toll, and the dress code at Sidwell Cain could be described as “litigation drab.” She felt like she needed to make a daily effort of some sort, and if that effort was a curling iron and half a can of hair spray, so be it. Absently, she fluffed at a flat spot of her hair, her gaze shifting to the lawn on the other side of the window instead.

“Still doing okay over here? You haven’t even touched your coffee. I was going to top it off.” Sheila, the Tea Rose’s only waitress worth her salt, leaned a hip against the booth. She rested the coffee carafe on the table and followed Karen’s gaze out the front window.

“Hard to believe it was a month ago already,” Sheila said. “The grass is even starting to grow back.”

Karen nodded. This was where she’d been sitting when the crash had happened. She’d seen the whole thing as it unfolded one month ago—the bus screaming toward the intersection. She’d known it was going too fast. She could tell, even from her table, that it wasn’t going to be able to stop in time. She’d watched as it wobbled and jerked on its shocks. She’d watched as it hit the other car. She’d watched as both skidded into the grass, spraying chunks of sod onto the window right next to her. She’d watched without flinching. She’d been too rooted by horror to flinch. But she’d been flinching every day since.

“He died right there,” she whispered, and though she was sure Sheila had heard her, she wasn’t saying it for Sheila. She said it to herself every day as she revisited her booth, unable to scrub away the memory of what had happened. Unable to forget Michael and Maddie Routh, the sweet couple in the red car, on their way to an early-morning doctor appointment. Unable to forget holding Michael’s head in her palms as he died, catching his blood, catching his life.

“It seems so surreal,” Sheila said. But Sheila hadn’t been there that day. She’d been on vacation. The other waitress—what was her name? Indie? Andie? Karen couldn’t recall—had been there. She’d been out back smoking a cigarette, but had run inside upon hearing the noise and called 911 while Karen and the other two customers had rushed outside to help.

“Yeah,” Karen said. “‘Surreal’ is a good word for it.” She gathered her purse and pulled out a few dollars. “I should get to work. Can’t lollygag around all day.”

“A day off would be nice, though,” Sheila said.

“What are you talking about? You just got back from vacation,” Karen teased. “Some of us never went.”

In fact, Karen could barely even remember what a vacation felt like, it had been so long since she’d taken one. Raising Travis by herself, she had no extra money for travel. And then by the time he was raised and out of the house, she’d been too lonely to take one. The idea of sightseeing without someone to point out the landmarks to seemed so terribly sad.

Sheila rooted through her apron pockets until she found Karen’s check. “It’s a double-edged sword, though, you know? You get away, and by the end of your trip you start thinking about how good it’ll feel to get home again. And then you get home and all you can think about is how amazing it was while you were away. This diner seems extra dingy ever since I got back. I want to smell sunscreen again.”

“I’ll be sure to wear some next time I come in,” Karen said. She scooted out of the booth, then paused to offer Sheila a smile and a quick pat on the arm. “See you tomorrow. Try not to skip off to any tropical paradises while I’m gone.”

“You didn’t even touch your coffee today,” Sheila said. “You sure everything’s okay?”

Karen thought about Travis, tried to picture him in jail, his shaved, tattooed head gleaming under fluorescent jail lights. Miserable, in danger, but alive, breathing. She thought about the man whom Travis had beaten, hooked to tubes in a hospital bed. His family already grieving their loss.

No, things were not okay.

Her eyes roamed to the divots in the grass again. Things were not okay, but she wasn’t Maddie Routh, now, was she? And she wasn’t that poor bus driver, God rest her soul.

“Guess I was just in it for the company today,” Karen said. She waved and headed to her car.

TWO

Recently, Melinda had been particu