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After more than 10 years, Frances Pratt returns to Manchester-by-the-Sea, where she spent her childhood summers in the home of an aunt and uncle.
Release date: November 11, 2009
Publisher: Grand Central Publishing
Print pages: 346
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Redemption
Nancy Geary
I could not have found the strength to write this book without the constant support and encouragement of Nick Ellison. I cannot
imagine a better friend. His sage advice, constant empathy, and first-rate crisis management have guided me safely through
various minefields. For his exceptional work as my literary agent, I am in his debt. For his attentive ear when I needed someone
to listen, and his kindness and affection to my son, Harry, I am grateful beyond words. I thank everyone at Nicholas Ellison,
Inc., for their kindness, professionalism, and hard work on my behalf.
I don’t sit down at my computer without feeling thankful that my work has found a home at Warner Books. I thank Jamie Raab
for her patience, her encouragement, and her constructive suggestions. She has made my words and story far better than they
would otherwise be. I truly appreciate her brilliant editorial eye, her hard work, and her friendship. I thank Larry Kirshbaum
and Maureen Egen for believing in my work. Thanks to Tina
Andreadis for her tireless efforts and endless good cheer; Colin Fox and Sharon Krassney for their patience, kindness, and
attention to every detail; Sona Vogel for her meticulous copyediting; and Miriam Parker for her enthusiasm and dedication.
I also wish to thank Ulrich Genzler for his support of my work, his advice and encouragement, and for giving life to Frances
Pratt in Germany. Many thanks also to Anya Serota for her very thoughtful editorial help on the manuscript for publication
in the United Kingdom.
My two sisters help me in more ways than I can enumerate. I cherish their love and their loyalty, and hope they never doubt
that they have mine. A day doesn’t pass without Natalie Geary calling to share the details of my life, to lift my spirits,
and to remind me that I am not alone. Her insight and suggestions make seemingly insurmountable problems manageable. Her daughters,
Isabelle and Lily, are the most wonderful cousins Harry could have. Daphne Geary reminds me that chaos builds character, and
that we are happier because our homes are filled with Labrador retrievers and half-chewed furniture. I thank her and her children,
Christina, Natalie, and William, for evenings filled with much-needed laughter and shared Matchbox cars.
I have relied a great deal on my friends and I hope they all realize the depth of my appreciation. Thanks to Missy Smith for
her constant sense of celebration, her patience, and her trust; Amy Kellogg, Aliki Nichogiannopoulou, Christof Friedrich,
Juliana Hallowell, and Mark Phillips for their long-distance inspiration, humor, and love; Wing, Evan, Lucy, and Ella Pepper
for opening their hearts and their home to me, and for their enthusiastic support of my work; and Claire and Bart Johnston
for their loyalty and their warm welcome to Westchester County.
I thank the Reverend Lynn Harrington for helping me on my own spiritual journey. She infuses the entire parish community of
St. John’s Episcopal Church with a sense of compassion and awe. Her ministry, tolerance, guidance, and willingness to embark
on discussions of even the most difficult questions have renewed my faith.
I am deeply indebted to Ruby Londono. Her excitement and energy fill our home with happiness. She has treated Harry as her
own. Her loving care brings me tremendous security. Also many thanks to Ligia Betancourt for her hard work in keeping our
house in order. Mucho Gracias!
During the writing of this book, I have reflected at length on what it means to be a parent. I thank Diana Michener, my mother,
for the love that she knows she gives me regardless of where her travels take her. And most of all, I thank Harry. He brightens
every minute of my day. His great spirit and laughter, his songs, dances, and stories, and his big hugs are the joys of my
life. I feel blessed to be his mother.
You’re a saint.” Frances Pratt hung up the telephone still hearing Sam Guff’s amused chuckle. She absentmindedly twirled one
of her brown curls around her index finger. Sun poured through her office windows onto the plush navy carpet and upholstered
armchairs. She debated drawing the blinds but decided instead to enjoy the warmth. Summer was here. Finally.
Frances glanced at the cream invitation embossed with black script, the two envelopes, three pieces of tissue paper, and reply
card that lay scattered in front of her on the large walnut desk.
Mr. and Mrs. William Waller Lawrence
request the honor of your presence
at the marriage of their daughter,
Hope Alexandra,
to Mr. John James Cabot III
Saturday, the eighteenth of August
Four o’clock
The Church of the Holy Spirit, Manchester-by-the-Sea
She turned over the larger of the two envelopes and examined the calligraphy: Miss Frances Taylor Pratt and Guest, 1382 Plainview Road, Orient, New York. Even her address seemed formal.
Leaning back in her leather chair, she ran her finger over the raised lettering. Manchester. She could envision her aunt and
uncle’s sprawling white clapboard house on Smith’s Point, a small peninsula that jutted out into the harbor. The salty air
peeled the paint on the dozens of black shutters, and moss grew in the acidic soil between the flagstones of the patio. Although
her brief visits to the New England seaside town had become less frequent in recent years, in an odd way it felt like home—a
place infused with welcome. The mere sight of the oversize brass door knocker in the shape of a lion’s head gave her a sense
of belonging. It was a feeling she missed.
Aunt Adelaide, her father’s only sister, had moved to Manchester with her infant daughter, Penelope, when she married for
the second time. They’d moved into Bill Lawrence’s family home and stayed there ever since. “I’ve set down my roots,” she
used to say with a polite smile whenever anyone asked how she could have left her birthplace. “And trees don’t do well in
Manhattan.” Twenty-nine years later, the rambling house, its rooms full of faded chintz mismatched furniture, was filled with
her presence.
Summer “family reunions,” announced as if the weekend promised hordes of distant relatives rather than the small brood of
cousins that they were, had begun the year Frances turned nine. They’d offered the best of activities: camping on the private
beach, eating Cheerios out of a waxed paper–lined box in the early morning
while still in her sleeping bag; scavenger hunts that sent her scrambling across the rocky shore in search of a piece of blue
sea glass, a sea star, or a periwinkle shell; fishing expeditions in the canoe, dropping paper clip lines baited with raw
bacon overboard in hopes of snagging a flounder; late-night games of charades in the paneled library of the Lawrence home
with its sweet smell of bitter orange potpourri. Frances could still recall the taste of her aunt’s angel food cake, the sound
of the porch door as it slammed shut, the creak of the floorboards in the upstairs hall that always seemed louder at night
when she snuck in past her curfew. These were her happiest childhood memories.
Theodora Pratt, the family matriarch and Frances’s sole living grandparent, had become a permanent fixture in Manchester as
well. She’d moved from Ann Arbor, Michigan, after her husband died to the guest cottage at the edge of the property. Frances
remembered well the two frenzied days she’d spent listening to her grandmother bark directions as she’d helped to unpack her
eclectic possessions. Teddy’s collections of first editions and travel logs filled to overflowing the bookshelves in the sunken
sitting room, and her Matelasse bedspreads brightened the two mildewed bedrooms. She remembered the sunny afternoon after
they’d hung the last beveled mirror. They’d sat together in the screened-in porch, admiring the view of the harbor.
“I get my independence without any of the troubles of home maintenance,” Teddy had remarked. “And it works for them. They
get rent. Not much, but it’ll help with the taxes.” She’d raised her eyebrows and said nothing further. As Frances now reflected,
she realized it was
the only reference to money she’d ever heard made by any of her Manchester relatives.
It was hard to imagine that nearly five years had passed since that fall weekend. But hardly a Sunday came and went without
Frances picking up the telephone to listen to her grandmother’s stories, the words rattling in her two-pack-a-day throat.
At eighty-two, Teddy drove to lunch at the Singing Beach Club, played mah-jongg Tuesday afternoons, volunteered at the checkout
desk of the local library, and walked her three dogs every day. The sight of her with her silver-handled walking stick and
her pack of canines—an Irish terrier, a dachshund, and a one-eyed pit bull she’d adopted from the North Shore Animal Rescue
League after reading about its fighting injuries in a local paper—had to be a source of constant amusement to the residents
on her route. And she still gossiped. It hadn’t taken her long to know everything about everyone in Manchester-by-the-Sea.
She often spoke of raising her two children alone because their father had spent much of his career in the Far East and she
had refused to go. “I know my conduct was viewed as scandalous. My loyalty was questioned because I wouldn’t follow my husband
to some tsetse fly–infested country with primitive sewers, but I wasn’t about to have my children educated abroad. Generations
before me worked bloody hard to get to this country, and I intended to remain. Dick could do what he liked. He always did
anyway,” she said, referring to her late husband. Frances remembered the note of pride in Teddy’s voice as she relayed her
decision. An independent woman was a relatively rare commodity “in my day and age,” she liked to say.
Frances thought now of the last time she’d seen any
one from the paternal side of her family. She’d been sitting by her father’s bed at New York University Medical Center when
Adelaide entered the room unexpectedly, her hazel eyes and high cheekbones partially obscured by the oversize brim of a navy
hat. Frances had been startled by her frailty, her tiny waist cinched by a leather belt and thin ankles covered in sheer black
stockings. They’d embraced quickly, Adelaide gracing both her cheeks with the faintest of kisses. Then she’d removed her hat,
approached her brother, and perched gently on the edge of his bed. Under the fluorescent hospital lights, the crow’s-feet
surrounding her eyes and the deep lines in her forehead reflected her fifty-three years.
Adelaide had taken Richard Pratt’s limp hand in her bony fingers. “My dearest, dearest Richard, I’m so sorry this happened
to you,” she’d cooed with a particular emphasis on “you.” Frances thought she saw her father’s fingers move in response, a
feeble gesture meant to reflect the affection he felt for his younger sister, but she hadn’t been sure. “Tell me,” Adelaide
had continued without looking at Frances. “Tell me everything I need to know about what happened.”
Frances hadn’t known how to respond. An intercerebral hemorrhagic stroke on the left side of his brain, a ruptured blood vessel,
extensive bleeding in the brain tissue… The doctor’s words had echoed in her mind, but she’d had difficulty repeating them
aloud. Instead, she’d stared blankly ahead, wishing her aunt would read her thoughts so that she could avoid articulating
the diagnosis that condemned her father.
“Never mind. What happened isn’t important. What will happen now is all that matters. Please forgive me.
We must look to the future,” Adelaide had reassured her as she’d moved toward her and gently wiped tears from Frances’s face
with a slightly perfumed linen handkerchief. Frances hadn’t even realized she’d been crying, yet she could still remember
the faint smell of tuberose, the feel of the cloth on her face. The gesture had seemed maternal, a tenderness that was foreign
to Frances. She hadn’t wanted it to end.
Now Hope Alexandra Lawrence, the only child of Bill and Adelaide’s marriage, was getting married.
The telephone interrupted Frances’s reverie, and she reached to pick it up.
“Fanny, it’s me,” Sam said. “Give me the date of that wedding again. I want to be sure we get a ferry reservation.”
Typical Sam, Frances thought. Always efficient. The ferry from Orient Point to New London, Connecticut, the simplest way to
get to New England from the easternmost tip of Long Island, was packed during the summer months, and a coveted spot on any
weekend between Memorial and Labor Days had to be secured well in advance.
“I’ll deal with it. It’s enough that you’ve agreed to come. Standing around in jacket and tie making small talk on a summer
Saturday is not your idea of a great time.”
“I’m honored that you want to take me,” Sam said with his usual humility. “Really I am. I’m hardly the one you should have
on your arm for such an occasion.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You should be escorted by some guy who wears Porter’s lotion and suspenders, has two middle names,
and is a fourth-generation graduate of Groton. I’m just a potato farmer.” Sam paused. “But I’ll try to brush up on my stock
market lingo and pretend I have a portfolio.” He lowered his voice and affected a lockjawed manner of speech. “Yukon Golds
are my hot new commodity.”
“Don’t be absurd,” Frances replied. “This is my cousin.”
“That’s what I’m afraid of. Your family.”
Frances thought for a moment. She wished his words were true, that she had been part of the Lawrence household instead of
just a visiting relative, so distant that she’d needed a guest pass at the Manchester Field and Hunt Club in order to use
the swimming pool. As an adolescent, she’d spent many hours fantasizing that there had been a mistake, that she’d actually
been Adelaide’s daughter, or that her aunt would adopt her into the intact family. But fate had dealt her a different hand.
“Actually, it’ll just be us. Dad can’t go,” Frances remarked, thinking of her father’s ever worsening condition. Missing his
niece’s wedding wouldn’t help his already fragile emotional state. “And Blair’s baby is due the twenty-fifth. I doubt she’ll
be able to travel,” she said, referring to her younger sister.
“What about your mother?”
“No,” Frances responded too quickly. Her parents had been divorced for more than thirty years, but that wasn’t the real reason
her mother would stay away. She appreciated that Sam didn’t inquire further. He knew her well enough to know that if she wanted
to explain, she would without any prompting from him.
They were silent. Even so, Frances felt comfortable. They often spent time together without speaking. They
could read, sit in front of the fire with their own thoughts, or work in her garden without a word passing between them, but
she never felt isolated or alone. Sam managed to put her at ease with his ability to share in her privacy.
“How does vegetarian chili sound for dinner?”
“Is that my only choice?”
Sam laughed. “Aren’t we getting picky? I’ll see if I can come up with something else.”
“Thanks. See you tonight.”
“I love you,” Sam added just before the line went dead.
Frances smiled to herself as she caught his words. Her romance with her widower neighbor had evolved after seven years of
friendship, weekly Wednesday night bingo games, and many hours of gardening. Two misfits, perhaps, but they had a mutual adoration
and a shared affection for her two dogs and a reclusive life. The small-town quietness of Orient on the North Fork of Long
Island suited them both.
In the grocery store parking lot the previous fall, Sam had first told her he loved her. Why here? Why now? “I figured if
I could make a shopping plaza feel special, if you could feel swept away even amid bags of toilet paper and laundry detergent
and dog biscuits, you’d trust me to fill the other parts of your life with romance.” Since that first time, Frances craved
hearing him say the phrase, and he didn’t disappoint. He never ended a conversation or turned off the light at night without
washing her with those words.
She had assumed that the magnetism of his smile, his voice, and his touch would pass or that she’d discover a dark side, as
she had with past relationships. But it
hadn’t happened. There were days when Sam seemed so kind that she asked herself whether he was a figment of her imagination,
an idealized man whose sensitivity and insight she’d scripted in her mind. Wasn’t romance a predatory dance, a mixture of
hunting and mating, hurting and courting, until one creature emerged the stronger and the other was destroyed? It wasn’t supposed
to make you feel confident, was it? She wanted to relax, to feel safe in his embrace, to trust that nothing would change.
But at moments her nerves flared. Was Sam really different?
Frances checked the “will attend” line on the reply card, sealed it in its prestamped envelope, and tucked the various components
of the wedding invitation away in her desk drawer. Then she turned her attention to a legal pad covered in handwritten notes.
The almost illegible scrawl formed the outline for her lecture to area law enforcement on how to respond to, and handle, domestic
abuse cases. As president of the Long Island Coalition Against Domestic Violence, a job she had accepted shortly after leaving
the Suffolk County District Attorney’s Office, she regularly gave public awareness and educational seminars, and she could
recite her key points by rote: how to take a thorough history from the victim, document physical injuries, obtain temporary
restraining orders, and work through the morass of social services to determine what state-funded food, shelter, and other
aid could be available. Occasionally, especially when the administrative responsibilities of her new job seemed overwhelming
or she was forced to attend another fund-raising luncheon, she missed the adrenaline and excitement of constant court appearances,
presentations before the grand jury, all the stages of investigations
and prosecutions of criminal cases. But most of the time she was satisfied. Although her work consumed her week and a good
portion of her weekends as well, the coalition and its mission were causes she believed in. That made the bureaucratic headaches
and long hours worthwhile.
She made a note to herself in the margin: “Emphasize emotional abuse/psychological battery.” Police officers, prosecutors,
and even judges needed a black eye before they were willing to intervene in personal matters, to punish a husband or a boyfriend
for losing his temper, but there was more to domestic violence than bruises or blood. It was her job to explain that. Insults,
verbal abuse, and threats could be just as frightening as a broken bone.
The intercom buzzed and Frances heard her secretary’s nasal voice announce, “Kelly Slater is here to see you. She doesn’t
have an appointment, but she says she’ll only take a minute of your time.”
“Send her in,” Frances replied into the speaker box. She slipped her feet into the loafers under her desk, stood up, and tucked
her gray blouse back into her pleated pants.
The door opened slowly and Kelly stepped inside. Wearing tight mauve leggings, thin-soled canvas sneakers, and a T-shirt emblazoned
with the New York Giants logo, she stood in the threshold with her arms crossed over her chest. “I’m sorry to bother you,”
she said in a voice that was barely audible.
“It’s good to see you.” Frances extended a hand in greeting. Then she pushed a stack of coalition brochures onto the floor
and indicated a chair. “Please have a seat.”
“That’s okay. I can’t stay long.” Kelly averted her
gaze. Her stringy black hair, parted in the middle, looked wet, and her skin hung loose around her jaw.
“You’ve lost so much weight!” Frances said in surprise. Although she knew it was none of her business, the difference in Kelly’s
appearance was dramatic. “I hadn’t realized it had been so long since we’d seen each other.”
“Eight and a half months.” At that time, Kelly had been so heavy that, after one meeting, the folding armchair had stuck to
her hips when she stood up. Now her frame had shrunk beneath its dermal covering. “I’ve dropped over a hundred pounds. I didn’t
know there was a smaller me inside,” Kelly added.
“Smaller maybe. But no less courageous.”
Kelly forced a smile and then cleared her throat. “I thought I owed you an explanation,” she almost whispered.
“For what?”
She hesitated before answering. “I’ve gone home. Matt and I are back together.”
Frances barely contained her gasp. It wasn’t possible.
Kelly had been a client of the coalition’s for years before Frances ever met her. Her husband’s violence went unpunished because
she’d distrusted the young lawyer initially assigned to her case. Coalition lawyers fit a definite mold: fresh-faced women,
mostly graduates of Fordham or Brooklyn Law School, who were willing to work for a meager salary because they felt they could
make a difference but were naive about the workings of the courthouse and unable to withstand the aggressive persistence of
defense attorneys. Kelly’s lawyer had been no different. Without the constant buttressing she needed, each time the date came
for a hearing
on her application for a restraining order, Matt’s intimidation prevailed, Kelly backed down, and the case had been dropped.
As the new president of the coalition, Frances had intervened when Kelly’s husband broke her collarbone against a newel post
and pushed her down the stairs. Perhaps Kelly had been impressed by her twelve years of experience as a prosecutor. Or perhaps
it was the countless conversations over cups of coffee at a remote diner that finally won her confidence. But Frances had
attributed her willingness to proceed to the evening Matt’s temper turned on their daughter, Cordelia, a nine-year-old with
a heart-shaped face, auburn pigtails, and a bucktoothed smile.
“That was no spanking,” Kelly had whispered over the telephone. “I knew from the look in his eyes. He wanted to hurt her.
Hurt her bad. How could anyone do—” She’d broken off and started to cry. “Cordie’s just a little girl. Worst thing she’s ever
done is spill cranberry juice on the carpet. If you’d seen her face, her tears.” There was silence as she’d composed herself.
“She doesn’t deserve this.”
You don’t either, Frances had wanted to say, but she’d known the words were pointless. All the encouragement in the world couldn’t give Kelly
the self-esteem she lacked. As long as something finally mattered enough to compel her to leave, she’d be safe. And that was
the goal.
Several weeks and dozens of telephone calls later, she’d finally agreed to proceed. After obtaining the necessary restraining
order, Frances, Kelly, and a police escort had hurried to Kelly’s house in Riverhead. Frances remembered the apparent normalcy
of the ranch-style
home with its painted mailbox, automatic garage door opener, satellite dish, and balloon valences in every window. As Cordelia
waited in the back of the cruiser with a female officer who’d been dispatched to pick her up from school, Frances shoved toiletries,
clothes, photograph albums, toys, and, at Kelly’s insistence, her wedding dress into garbage bags while her husband stood
in the corner next to a framed embroidery of the Twenty-third Psalm. As Matt ranted, Frances couldn’t help but notice the
blue-scripted letters beside him: The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want…
“Who the fuck do you think you are?” he screamed. “You can’t even see your feet over that fat. You’ll never find anyone else.
No one wants a moose.” When he got no response, his tone softened momentarily, and he begged her to return.
“You’re doing the right thing,” Frances said under her breath to Kelly, who stood immobile beside her.
“Shut up, you bitch,” he snapped. “Stay out of my life.”
Looking at Kelly’s tearstained face and trembling body that day, Frances wanted to confront Matt, but she forced herself to
stay quiet. There was no point in arguing the merits of a wife’s departure with the husband who beat her.
The counselors and social workers got Kelly and her daughter settled in an apartment. Nothing fancy, but they were safe in
a one-room studio. Cordelia enrolled in a new school district, and Kelly got a job, an assistant at a day care center. She
had always loved children.
“I… I… we’re in counseling…,” Kelly stammered, now seeming anxious to avoid her gaze.
Frances knew from experience that battered women
often returned to the men who abused them. Despite her fear, the relationship was familiar, and the known held a powerful
attraction. Once the particular cranial paths got imprinted, the recurring behavior was reassuring, even if frightening. Such
relapses, the principal reason that many of the coalition lawyers and volunteers left in frustration for less emotional work,
enraged Frances and fueled her determination to broaden the coalition’s reach. But she had never expected Kelly to be one
of the many who went back. Not after all her struggles.
“Well… let’s just say there’s a lot I’m coming to learn about myself. I didn’t think I could make Matt happy, but I was wrong.
I was just going about it the wrong way. Things are better. Really. He’s changed.”
“I hope so. For your sake.” Her voice was flat. “And Cordelia’s, too.”
Kelly’s gaze seemed to stare past Frances and out the window beyond. “She’d surprise you, how grown-up she’s getting—almost
an adolescent. But she needs a daddy. And Matt loves her. He says that to me over and over, you know, that the hardest part
for him of my going away was not being able to be with her. He wants to take care of us both.”
“You can take care of yourself. You’ve got options, other possib—”
“I don’t want you to think it wasn’t my choice,” Kelly interrupted.
Frances rested a hand on her shoulder. She knew Kelly could sense her disapproval and wished she could be supportive, but
it was impossible under these circumstances. Kelly had a master’s in English literature, a family in Minnesota who would take
care of her and her daughter if she returned home. But that wasn’t enough
to offset Matt’s pleas, his promises. He had seduced her yet again, and Frances would have to steel herself for the call late
some Sunday night, a call that could be days or even years away, but one that would be inevitable: Kelly is hospitalized.
Or dead.
“Our door is always open if you need anything,” Frances said. “Just remember that. Anything at all.”
“I won’t need it. This time I’m sure.” She paused for a moment, seemingly uncertain whether to continue. “But thanks. I appreciate
all you’ve done.” She nodded quickly before turning to leave.
Frances watched the door shut. Please let her survive, she thought. And spare Cordelia, too.
Hope Lawrence poked at the mound of tunafish salad with one prong of her silver fork. The heavy sterling was Tiffany’s Hamilton,
the same pattern she had chosen for her bridal registry. “It’s important to pick something classic,” her mother, Adelaide,
had advised as they’d stood in front of the velvet-lined glass tables studying place settings. Although she rarely followed
maternal advice, Hamilton seemed a good choice.
She stared at the pinkish lump in the middle of the gold-rimmed plate. Rather than replace the more informal Spode
imagine a better friend. His sage advice, constant empathy, and first-rate crisis management have guided me safely through
various minefields. For his exceptional work as my literary agent, I am in his debt. For his attentive ear when I needed someone
to listen, and his kindness and affection to my son, Harry, I am grateful beyond words. I thank everyone at Nicholas Ellison,
Inc., for their kindness, professionalism, and hard work on my behalf.
I don’t sit down at my computer without feeling thankful that my work has found a home at Warner Books. I thank Jamie Raab
for her patience, her encouragement, and her constructive suggestions. She has made my words and story far better than they
would otherwise be. I truly appreciate her brilliant editorial eye, her hard work, and her friendship. I thank Larry Kirshbaum
and Maureen Egen for believing in my work. Thanks to Tina
Andreadis for her tireless efforts and endless good cheer; Colin Fox and Sharon Krassney for their patience, kindness, and
attention to every detail; Sona Vogel for her meticulous copyediting; and Miriam Parker for her enthusiasm and dedication.
I also wish to thank Ulrich Genzler for his support of my work, his advice and encouragement, and for giving life to Frances
Pratt in Germany. Many thanks also to Anya Serota for her very thoughtful editorial help on the manuscript for publication
in the United Kingdom.
My two sisters help me in more ways than I can enumerate. I cherish their love and their loyalty, and hope they never doubt
that they have mine. A day doesn’t pass without Natalie Geary calling to share the details of my life, to lift my spirits,
and to remind me that I am not alone. Her insight and suggestions make seemingly insurmountable problems manageable. Her daughters,
Isabelle and Lily, are the most wonderful cousins Harry could have. Daphne Geary reminds me that chaos builds character, and
that we are happier because our homes are filled with Labrador retrievers and half-chewed furniture. I thank her and her children,
Christina, Natalie, and William, for evenings filled with much-needed laughter and shared Matchbox cars.
I have relied a great deal on my friends and I hope they all realize the depth of my appreciation. Thanks to Missy Smith for
her constant sense of celebration, her patience, and her trust; Amy Kellogg, Aliki Nichogiannopoulou, Christof Friedrich,
Juliana Hallowell, and Mark Phillips for their long-distance inspiration, humor, and love; Wing, Evan, Lucy, and Ella Pepper
for opening their hearts and their home to me, and for their enthusiastic support of my work; and Claire and Bart Johnston
for their loyalty and their warm welcome to Westchester County.
I thank the Reverend Lynn Harrington for helping me on my own spiritual journey. She infuses the entire parish community of
St. John’s Episcopal Church with a sense of compassion and awe. Her ministry, tolerance, guidance, and willingness to embark
on discussions of even the most difficult questions have renewed my faith.
I am deeply indebted to Ruby Londono. Her excitement and energy fill our home with happiness. She has treated Harry as her
own. Her loving care brings me tremendous security. Also many thanks to Ligia Betancourt for her hard work in keeping our
house in order. Mucho Gracias!
During the writing of this book, I have reflected at length on what it means to be a parent. I thank Diana Michener, my mother,
for the love that she knows she gives me regardless of where her travels take her. And most of all, I thank Harry. He brightens
every minute of my day. His great spirit and laughter, his songs, dances, and stories, and his big hugs are the joys of my
life. I feel blessed to be his mother.
You’re a saint.” Frances Pratt hung up the telephone still hearing Sam Guff’s amused chuckle. She absentmindedly twirled one
of her brown curls around her index finger. Sun poured through her office windows onto the plush navy carpet and upholstered
armchairs. She debated drawing the blinds but decided instead to enjoy the warmth. Summer was here. Finally.
Frances glanced at the cream invitation embossed with black script, the two envelopes, three pieces of tissue paper, and reply
card that lay scattered in front of her on the large walnut desk.
Mr. and Mrs. William Waller Lawrence
request the honor of your presence
at the marriage of their daughter,
Hope Alexandra,
to Mr. John James Cabot III
Saturday, the eighteenth of August
Four o’clock
The Church of the Holy Spirit, Manchester-by-the-Sea
She turned over the larger of the two envelopes and examined the calligraphy: Miss Frances Taylor Pratt and Guest, 1382 Plainview Road, Orient, New York. Even her address seemed formal.
Leaning back in her leather chair, she ran her finger over the raised lettering. Manchester. She could envision her aunt and
uncle’s sprawling white clapboard house on Smith’s Point, a small peninsula that jutted out into the harbor. The salty air
peeled the paint on the dozens of black shutters, and moss grew in the acidic soil between the flagstones of the patio. Although
her brief visits to the New England seaside town had become less frequent in recent years, in an odd way it felt like home—a
place infused with welcome. The mere sight of the oversize brass door knocker in the shape of a lion’s head gave her a sense
of belonging. It was a feeling she missed.
Aunt Adelaide, her father’s only sister, had moved to Manchester with her infant daughter, Penelope, when she married for
the second time. They’d moved into Bill Lawrence’s family home and stayed there ever since. “I’ve set down my roots,” she
used to say with a polite smile whenever anyone asked how she could have left her birthplace. “And trees don’t do well in
Manhattan.” Twenty-nine years later, the rambling house, its rooms full of faded chintz mismatched furniture, was filled with
her presence.
Summer “family reunions,” announced as if the weekend promised hordes of distant relatives rather than the small brood of
cousins that they were, had begun the year Frances turned nine. They’d offered the best of activities: camping on the private
beach, eating Cheerios out of a waxed paper–lined box in the early morning
while still in her sleeping bag; scavenger hunts that sent her scrambling across the rocky shore in search of a piece of blue
sea glass, a sea star, or a periwinkle shell; fishing expeditions in the canoe, dropping paper clip lines baited with raw
bacon overboard in hopes of snagging a flounder; late-night games of charades in the paneled library of the Lawrence home
with its sweet smell of bitter orange potpourri. Frances could still recall the taste of her aunt’s angel food cake, the sound
of the porch door as it slammed shut, the creak of the floorboards in the upstairs hall that always seemed louder at night
when she snuck in past her curfew. These were her happiest childhood memories.
Theodora Pratt, the family matriarch and Frances’s sole living grandparent, had become a permanent fixture in Manchester as
well. She’d moved from Ann Arbor, Michigan, after her husband died to the guest cottage at the edge of the property. Frances
remembered well the two frenzied days she’d spent listening to her grandmother bark directions as she’d helped to unpack her
eclectic possessions. Teddy’s collections of first editions and travel logs filled to overflowing the bookshelves in the sunken
sitting room, and her Matelasse bedspreads brightened the two mildewed bedrooms. She remembered the sunny afternoon after
they’d hung the last beveled mirror. They’d sat together in the screened-in porch, admiring the view of the harbor.
“I get my independence without any of the troubles of home maintenance,” Teddy had remarked. “And it works for them. They
get rent. Not much, but it’ll help with the taxes.” She’d raised her eyebrows and said nothing further. As Frances now reflected,
she realized it was
the only reference to money she’d ever heard made by any of her Manchester relatives.
It was hard to imagine that nearly five years had passed since that fall weekend. But hardly a Sunday came and went without
Frances picking up the telephone to listen to her grandmother’s stories, the words rattling in her two-pack-a-day throat.
At eighty-two, Teddy drove to lunch at the Singing Beach Club, played mah-jongg Tuesday afternoons, volunteered at the checkout
desk of the local library, and walked her three dogs every day. The sight of her with her silver-handled walking stick and
her pack of canines—an Irish terrier, a dachshund, and a one-eyed pit bull she’d adopted from the North Shore Animal Rescue
League after reading about its fighting injuries in a local paper—had to be a source of constant amusement to the residents
on her route. And she still gossiped. It hadn’t taken her long to know everything about everyone in Manchester-by-the-Sea.
She often spoke of raising her two children alone because their father had spent much of his career in the Far East and she
had refused to go. “I know my conduct was viewed as scandalous. My loyalty was questioned because I wouldn’t follow my husband
to some tsetse fly–infested country with primitive sewers, but I wasn’t about to have my children educated abroad. Generations
before me worked bloody hard to get to this country, and I intended to remain. Dick could do what he liked. He always did
anyway,” she said, referring to her late husband. Frances remembered the note of pride in Teddy’s voice as she relayed her
decision. An independent woman was a relatively rare commodity “in my day and age,” she liked to say.
Frances thought now of the last time she’d seen any
one from the paternal side of her family. She’d been sitting by her father’s bed at New York University Medical Center when
Adelaide entered the room unexpectedly, her hazel eyes and high cheekbones partially obscured by the oversize brim of a navy
hat. Frances had been startled by her frailty, her tiny waist cinched by a leather belt and thin ankles covered in sheer black
stockings. They’d embraced quickly, Adelaide gracing both her cheeks with the faintest of kisses. Then she’d removed her hat,
approached her brother, and perched gently on the edge of his bed. Under the fluorescent hospital lights, the crow’s-feet
surrounding her eyes and the deep lines in her forehead reflected her fifty-three years.
Adelaide had taken Richard Pratt’s limp hand in her bony fingers. “My dearest, dearest Richard, I’m so sorry this happened
to you,” she’d cooed with a particular emphasis on “you.” Frances thought she saw her father’s fingers move in response, a
feeble gesture meant to reflect the affection he felt for his younger sister, but she hadn’t been sure. “Tell me,” Adelaide
had continued without looking at Frances. “Tell me everything I need to know about what happened.”
Frances hadn’t known how to respond. An intercerebral hemorrhagic stroke on the left side of his brain, a ruptured blood vessel,
extensive bleeding in the brain tissue… The doctor’s words had echoed in her mind, but she’d had difficulty repeating them
aloud. Instead, she’d stared blankly ahead, wishing her aunt would read her thoughts so that she could avoid articulating
the diagnosis that condemned her father.
“Never mind. What happened isn’t important. What will happen now is all that matters. Please forgive me.
We must look to the future,” Adelaide had reassured her as she’d moved toward her and gently wiped tears from Frances’s face
with a slightly perfumed linen handkerchief. Frances hadn’t even realized she’d been crying, yet she could still remember
the faint smell of tuberose, the feel of the cloth on her face. The gesture had seemed maternal, a tenderness that was foreign
to Frances. She hadn’t wanted it to end.
Now Hope Alexandra Lawrence, the only child of Bill and Adelaide’s marriage, was getting married.
The telephone interrupted Frances’s reverie, and she reached to pick it up.
“Fanny, it’s me,” Sam said. “Give me the date of that wedding again. I want to be sure we get a ferry reservation.”
Typical Sam, Frances thought. Always efficient. The ferry from Orient Point to New London, Connecticut, the simplest way to
get to New England from the easternmost tip of Long Island, was packed during the summer months, and a coveted spot on any
weekend between Memorial and Labor Days had to be secured well in advance.
“I’ll deal with it. It’s enough that you’ve agreed to come. Standing around in jacket and tie making small talk on a summer
Saturday is not your idea of a great time.”
“I’m honored that you want to take me,” Sam said with his usual humility. “Really I am. I’m hardly the one you should have
on your arm for such an occasion.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“You should be escorted by some guy who wears Porter’s lotion and suspenders, has two middle names,
and is a fourth-generation graduate of Groton. I’m just a potato farmer.” Sam paused. “But I’ll try to brush up on my stock
market lingo and pretend I have a portfolio.” He lowered his voice and affected a lockjawed manner of speech. “Yukon Golds
are my hot new commodity.”
“Don’t be absurd,” Frances replied. “This is my cousin.”
“That’s what I’m afraid of. Your family.”
Frances thought for a moment. She wished his words were true, that she had been part of the Lawrence household instead of
just a visiting relative, so distant that she’d needed a guest pass at the Manchester Field and Hunt Club in order to use
the swimming pool. As an adolescent, she’d spent many hours fantasizing that there had been a mistake, that she’d actually
been Adelaide’s daughter, or that her aunt would adopt her into the intact family. But fate had dealt her a different hand.
“Actually, it’ll just be us. Dad can’t go,” Frances remarked, thinking of her father’s ever worsening condition. Missing his
niece’s wedding wouldn’t help his already fragile emotional state. “And Blair’s baby is due the twenty-fifth. I doubt she’ll
be able to travel,” she said, referring to her younger sister.
“What about your mother?”
“No,” Frances responded too quickly. Her parents had been divorced for more than thirty years, but that wasn’t the real reason
her mother would stay away. She appreciated that Sam didn’t inquire further. He knew her well enough to know that if she wanted
to explain, she would without any prompting from him.
They were silent. Even so, Frances felt comfortable. They often spent time together without speaking. They
could read, sit in front of the fire with their own thoughts, or work in her garden without a word passing between them, but
she never felt isolated or alone. Sam managed to put her at ease with his ability to share in her privacy.
“How does vegetarian chili sound for dinner?”
“Is that my only choice?”
Sam laughed. “Aren’t we getting picky? I’ll see if I can come up with something else.”
“Thanks. See you tonight.”
“I love you,” Sam added just before the line went dead.
Frances smiled to herself as she caught his words. Her romance with her widower neighbor had evolved after seven years of
friendship, weekly Wednesday night bingo games, and many hours of gardening. Two misfits, perhaps, but they had a mutual adoration
and a shared affection for her two dogs and a reclusive life. The small-town quietness of Orient on the North Fork of Long
Island suited them both.
In the grocery store parking lot the previous fall, Sam had first told her he loved her. Why here? Why now? “I figured if
I could make a shopping plaza feel special, if you could feel swept away even amid bags of toilet paper and laundry detergent
and dog biscuits, you’d trust me to fill the other parts of your life with romance.” Since that first time, Frances craved
hearing him say the phrase, and he didn’t disappoint. He never ended a conversation or turned off the light at night without
washing her with those words.
She had assumed that the magnetism of his smile, his voice, and his touch would pass or that she’d discover a dark side, as
she had with past relationships. But it
hadn’t happened. There were days when Sam seemed so kind that she asked herself whether he was a figment of her imagination,
an idealized man whose sensitivity and insight she’d scripted in her mind. Wasn’t romance a predatory dance, a mixture of
hunting and mating, hurting and courting, until one creature emerged the stronger and the other was destroyed? It wasn’t supposed
to make you feel confident, was it? She wanted to relax, to feel safe in his embrace, to trust that nothing would change.
But at moments her nerves flared. Was Sam really different?
Frances checked the “will attend” line on the reply card, sealed it in its prestamped envelope, and tucked the various components
of the wedding invitation away in her desk drawer. Then she turned her attention to a legal pad covered in handwritten notes.
The almost illegible scrawl formed the outline for her lecture to area law enforcement on how to respond to, and handle, domestic
abuse cases. As president of the Long Island Coalition Against Domestic Violence, a job she had accepted shortly after leaving
the Suffolk County District Attorney’s Office, she regularly gave public awareness and educational seminars, and she could
recite her key points by rote: how to take a thorough history from the victim, document physical injuries, obtain temporary
restraining orders, and work through the morass of social services to determine what state-funded food, shelter, and other
aid could be available. Occasionally, especially when the administrative responsibilities of her new job seemed overwhelming
or she was forced to attend another fund-raising luncheon, she missed the adrenaline and excitement of constant court appearances,
presentations before the grand jury, all the stages of investigations
and prosecutions of criminal cases. But most of the time she was satisfied. Although her work consumed her week and a good
portion of her weekends as well, the coalition and its mission were causes she believed in. That made the bureaucratic headaches
and long hours worthwhile.
She made a note to herself in the margin: “Emphasize emotional abuse/psychological battery.” Police officers, prosecutors,
and even judges needed a black eye before they were willing to intervene in personal matters, to punish a husband or a boyfriend
for losing his temper, but there was more to domestic violence than bruises or blood. It was her job to explain that. Insults,
verbal abuse, and threats could be just as frightening as a broken bone.
The intercom buzzed and Frances heard her secretary’s nasal voice announce, “Kelly Slater is here to see you. She doesn’t
have an appointment, but she says she’ll only take a minute of your time.”
“Send her in,” Frances replied into the speaker box. She slipped her feet into the loafers under her desk, stood up, and tucked
her gray blouse back into her pleated pants.
The door opened slowly and Kelly stepped inside. Wearing tight mauve leggings, thin-soled canvas sneakers, and a T-shirt emblazoned
with the New York Giants logo, she stood in the threshold with her arms crossed over her chest. “I’m sorry to bother you,”
she said in a voice that was barely audible.
“It’s good to see you.” Frances extended a hand in greeting. Then she pushed a stack of coalition brochures onto the floor
and indicated a chair. “Please have a seat.”
“That’s okay. I can’t stay long.” Kelly averted her
gaze. Her stringy black hair, parted in the middle, looked wet, and her skin hung loose around her jaw.
“You’ve lost so much weight!” Frances said in surprise. Although she knew it was none of her business, the difference in Kelly’s
appearance was dramatic. “I hadn’t realized it had been so long since we’d seen each other.”
“Eight and a half months.” At that time, Kelly had been so heavy that, after one meeting, the folding armchair had stuck to
her hips when she stood up. Now her frame had shrunk beneath its dermal covering. “I’ve dropped over a hundred pounds. I didn’t
know there was a smaller me inside,” Kelly added.
“Smaller maybe. But no less courageous.”
Kelly forced a smile and then cleared her throat. “I thought I owed you an explanation,” she almost whispered.
“For what?”
She hesitated before answering. “I’ve gone home. Matt and I are back together.”
Frances barely contained her gasp. It wasn’t possible.
Kelly had been a client of the coalition’s for years before Frances ever met her. Her husband’s violence went unpunished because
she’d distrusted the young lawyer initially assigned to her case. Coalition lawyers fit a definite mold: fresh-faced women,
mostly graduates of Fordham or Brooklyn Law School, who were willing to work for a meager salary because they felt they could
make a difference but were naive about the workings of the courthouse and unable to withstand the aggressive persistence of
defense attorneys. Kelly’s lawyer had been no different. Without the constant buttressing she needed, each time the date came
for a hearing
on her application for a restraining order, Matt’s intimidation prevailed, Kelly backed down, and the case had been dropped.
As the new president of the coalition, Frances had intervened when Kelly’s husband broke her collarbone against a newel post
and pushed her down the stairs. Perhaps Kelly had been impressed by her twelve years of experience as a prosecutor. Or perhaps
it was the countless conversations over cups of coffee at a remote diner that finally won her confidence. But Frances had
attributed her willingness to proceed to the evening Matt’s temper turned on their daughter, Cordelia, a nine-year-old with
a heart-shaped face, auburn pigtails, and a bucktoothed smile.
“That was no spanking,” Kelly had whispered over the telephone. “I knew from the look in his eyes. He wanted to hurt her.
Hurt her bad. How could anyone do—” She’d broken off and started to cry. “Cordie’s just a little girl. Worst thing she’s ever
done is spill cranberry juice on the carpet. If you’d seen her face, her tears.” There was silence as she’d composed herself.
“She doesn’t deserve this.”
You don’t either, Frances had wanted to say, but she’d known the words were pointless. All the encouragement in the world couldn’t give Kelly
the self-esteem she lacked. As long as something finally mattered enough to compel her to leave, she’d be safe. And that was
the goal.
Several weeks and dozens of telephone calls later, she’d finally agreed to proceed. After obtaining the necessary restraining
order, Frances, Kelly, and a police escort had hurried to Kelly’s house in Riverhead. Frances remembered the apparent normalcy
of the ranch-style
home with its painted mailbox, automatic garage door opener, satellite dish, and balloon valences in every window. As Cordelia
waited in the back of the cruiser with a female officer who’d been dispatched to pick her up from school, Frances shoved toiletries,
clothes, photograph albums, toys, and, at Kelly’s insistence, her wedding dress into garbage bags while her husband stood
in the corner next to a framed embroidery of the Twenty-third Psalm. As Matt ranted, Frances couldn’t help but notice the
blue-scripted letters beside him: The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not want…
“Who the fuck do you think you are?” he screamed. “You can’t even see your feet over that fat. You’ll never find anyone else.
No one wants a moose.” When he got no response, his tone softened momentarily, and he begged her to return.
“You’re doing the right thing,” Frances said under her breath to Kelly, who stood immobile beside her.
“Shut up, you bitch,” he snapped. “Stay out of my life.”
Looking at Kelly’s tearstained face and trembling body that day, Frances wanted to confront Matt, but she forced herself to
stay quiet. There was no point in arguing the merits of a wife’s departure with the husband who beat her.
The counselors and social workers got Kelly and her daughter settled in an apartment. Nothing fancy, but they were safe in
a one-room studio. Cordelia enrolled in a new school district, and Kelly got a job, an assistant at a day care center. She
had always loved children.
“I… I… we’re in counseling…,” Kelly stammered, now seeming anxious to avoid her gaze.
Frances knew from experience that battered women
often returned to the men who abused them. Despite her fear, the relationship was familiar, and the known held a powerful
attraction. Once the particular cranial paths got imprinted, the recurring behavior was reassuring, even if frightening. Such
relapses, the principal reason that many of the coalition lawyers and volunteers left in frustration for less emotional work,
enraged Frances and fueled her determination to broaden the coalition’s reach. But she had never expected Kelly to be one
of the many who went back. Not after all her struggles.
“Well… let’s just say there’s a lot I’m coming to learn about myself. I didn’t think I could make Matt happy, but I was wrong.
I was just going about it the wrong way. Things are better. Really. He’s changed.”
“I hope so. For your sake.” Her voice was flat. “And Cordelia’s, too.”
Kelly’s gaze seemed to stare past Frances and out the window beyond. “She’d surprise you, how grown-up she’s getting—almost
an adolescent. But she needs a daddy. And Matt loves her. He says that to me over and over, you know, that the hardest part
for him of my going away was not being able to be with her. He wants to take care of us both.”
“You can take care of yourself. You’ve got options, other possib—”
“I don’t want you to think it wasn’t my choice,” Kelly interrupted.
Frances rested a hand on her shoulder. She knew Kelly could sense her disapproval and wished she could be supportive, but
it was impossible under these circumstances. Kelly had a master’s in English literature, a family in Minnesota who would take
care of her and her daughter if she returned home. But that wasn’t enough
to offset Matt’s pleas, his promises. He had seduced her yet again, and Frances would have to steel herself for the call late
some Sunday night, a call that could be days or even years away, but one that would be inevitable: Kelly is hospitalized.
Or dead.
“Our door is always open if you need anything,” Frances said. “Just remember that. Anything at all.”
“I won’t need it. This time I’m sure.” She paused for a moment, seemingly uncertain whether to continue. “But thanks. I appreciate
all you’ve done.” She nodded quickly before turning to leave.
Frances watched the door shut. Please let her survive, she thought. And spare Cordelia, too.
Hope Lawrence poked at the mound of tunafish salad with one prong of her silver fork. The heavy sterling was Tiffany’s Hamilton,
the same pattern she had chosen for her bridal registry. “It’s important to pick something classic,” her mother, Adelaide,
had advised as they’d stood in front of the velvet-lined glass tables studying place settings. Although she rarely followed
maternal advice, Hamilton seemed a good choice.
She stared at the pinkish lump in the middle of the gold-rimmed plate. Rather than replace the more informal Spode
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