On Earth as It Is in Heaven

by Davide Enia

Genres: Family Life; Historical Fiction

Synopsis

A dark, gripping coming-of-age tale that explores violence, friendship, family, and what it means to be a man

Summer, Palermo, early 1980s. The air hangs hot and heavy. The Mafia-ruled city is a powder keg ready to ignite. In a boxing gym, a fatherless nine-year-old boy climbs into the ring to face his first opponent.
So begins On Earth as It Is in Heaven, a sweeping multigenerational saga that reaches back to the collapse of the Italian front in North Africa and forward to young Davidù's quest to become Italy's national boxing champion, a feat that has eluded the other men of his family.
But Davide Enia, whose layered, lyrical, nonchronological novel caused a sensation when it was published in Italy in 2012, has crafted an epic that soars in miniature as well. The brutal struggles for dominance among Davidù's all male circle of friends; his strict but devoted grandmother, whose literacy is a badge of honor; his charismatic and manipulative great-uncle, who will become his trainer—the vicious scenes and sometimes unsympathetic characters Enia sketches land hard and true.On Earth as It Is in Heaven is both firmly grounded in what Leonardo Sciascia liked to call "Sicilitude" - the language and mentality of that eternally perplexing island - and devastatingly universal. A meditation on physical violence, love and sex, friendship and betrayal, boxing and ambition, Enia's novel is also a coming-of-age tale that speaks - sometimes crudely, but always honestly - about the joys and terrors of becoming a man.

Release date: March 11, 2014

Publisher: Farrar, Straus and Giroux

Print pages: 320

Sample

PART ONE
THE SHARK FISH GOES TO WAR

"No, it's the way I say it is. The first time you fuck, the string tears off."
Nino Pullara was adamant. He was the oldest, the tallest, the strongest boy in our gang. He was bound to be right.
"That's how it is, my cousin Girolamo told me, he's already fucked twelve times, he's fifteen, and the first time the string on your cock always breaks."
"Does it hurt?" asked Lele Tranchina; he knew that asking if something hurts was a sign of weakness, but he didn't give a damn.
"Yeah, it hurts, it bleeds, but Girolamo says that if you fuck the way you oughta, it feels so good that the pain don't matter."
Rebellious teenagers with jackknives have carved slogans into the benches in the piazza.
THE POLICE SUCK
GOVERNMENT = MAFIA
LESS COPS, MORE HEROIN
Nino Pullara pulled out a pack of cigarettes, lit one, passed it around.
"Gerruso, you dickhead, when you inhale, you have to hold all the smoke in, otherwise you don't feel a thing, and there's no point to smoking."
"But it makes me want to cough."
"Because you're a total pussy."
As long as we let him stay in the gang, Gerruso would put up with anything: we could kick him, spit on him, scratch him. He was so resigned to the idea of being beaten to a pulp that he didn't even resist anymore. The fun of beating him up was starting to fade.
"When I grow up," Pullara continued, "there's two things I wanna do. The first is fuck Fabrizia."
"The one at the bakery?" asked Danilo Dominici, wide-eyed.
"That's her."
Fabrizia, seventeen and spectacular, a pair of firm tits. After she took a job there, the whole neighborhood started buying bread at that bakery.
"I've never seen so many men willing to do the shopping," my grandmother Provvidenza had quipped.
"I'm definitely going to fuck Fabrizia, but only after my string's torn off."
Pullara was boasting with the confidence of someone who'd already turned twelve.
"What's the second thing you wanna do?" asked Guido Castiglia.
Guido Castiglia never missed a trick. Guido Castiglia wasn't someone you wanted to cross. One time he asked Paolo Vizzini for a stick of chewing gum, and Vizzini said uh-uh, he wasn't giving him any of his gum. Castiglia didn't say a word, didn't blink an eye, just walked away. Two months later, Vizzini fell out of a carob tree and landed on his left leg. His flesh was all ripped up, and you could see clear through to the white of the bone.
"Help me! Help me!" he was shouting.
Guido Castiglia appeared on the dirt lane.
"You want me to go get help?"
Vizzini begged him.
"Hah, that'll teach you: next time give me the stick of gum."
And he left him there, his leg fractured, crying like a little girl.
"What I want is to have the same job as my dad: at a gas station."
Pullara's statement resounded like a decree. His voice rang with a tone that underscored the inexorable future awaiting him. No job could compare with working at a gas station: there you sat in the shade, immersed in the magical scent of gasoline; a dog tied to a chain to keep you company, and, if you got bored, you could always beat the dog with a stick; in the back pocket of your pants, a fat, impressive wad of cash.
"I want the same job as my dad, too," Danilo Dominici announced. "It's great, you're always outdoors."
His father paved streets.
"Me, too; I want the same job as my father. He's a traffic cop."
We all glared at Gerruso with hatred: being a traffic cop was pathetic, they didn't even have sidearms.
"Gerruso, look over there."
The minute he turned around, Pullara landed an open-handed slap on the back of his neck. Then he turned to look at me.
"What about you, Davidù? What kind of job you want?"
I spoke the first true words that came into my head, without stopping to think.
"Me? Oh, I don't know, I'm not like you guys, you all want the same jobs as your dads. Me, I can do whatever I want, I'm luckier than all of you: I'm pretty much an orphan."
* * *
In front of my house I saw my grandmother, seated on a bench in the shade of the jacaranda tree. She was smoking a cigarette, leaning comfortably against the rusty green backrest.
"Light of my life, come sit next to me, Grandpa's upstairs, he's cooking lunch for you."
"Mamma's not home from the hospital yet?"
"No. It looks like a bomb went off on top of your head."
She started laughing, between a hacking cough and a mouthful of smoke.
Grandma smelled of tobacco and chalk.
She was an elementary school teacher.
She taught me to read and write.
I was four years old.
She had pestered me.
"Davidù, shall we learn how to read and write?"
Every goddamned day.
She was relentless, and I finally gave in. In part because she promised that once I learned, she'd teach me how to burp on command.
She was as good as her word.
"What did you do today?"
"At school, nothing, the teacher let us draw because she's working on our report cards, then in the piazza me and my friends talked about when we would be grown up."
"When we will be grown up."
"Okay, but you knew what I meant."
"Davidù, it's not enough for someone to understand the things you say. Words need to be treated with care. What did Grandma teach you? What are words?"
"The expression of our thoughts."
"Why do we use the future tense?"
"To give a direction to our plans and hopes and all that kind of stuff."
"Bravo, light of my life, if you were a little older I'd offer you a nice cigarette."
"Why aren't you upstairs with Grandpa?"
"I wanted to smoke in blessed peace, as if it were six forty in the evening."
"What do you mean?"
"It's something I've done since I was a girl. Back then, the war was still going on and the Americans had reached Capaci. They were giving away chocolate bars and cigarettes. I met this soldier, Michael. He gave me my very first pack of cigarettes, in exchange for a dance."
"Did you kiss him?"
"No, silly. Back then I had a job, I'd already been working in Palermo for a few months, at the city library, and I was studying for the civil service exam."
"Because in those days, civil service exams were tough, you always tell me that, Grandma."
"I even know Ancient Greek."
"The story, Grandma."
"The library is next to the church of Casa Professa. Bombs hit them both during the famous raid of May 9, 1943. In the wing of the library that was still intact, I spent the day archiving books that had been dug out of the rubble. I wrote down title, author's name, missing pages. Bombs don't just sweep away people, houses, and hopes. Bombs erase memories, too. When the workday was over, I leaned against the sycamore tree in front of Casa Professa and lit my favorite cigarette, the six forty evening cigarette. I'd leave the workday and my job behind, savoring that nice pungent taste and relaxing, from the first puff to the last. While I smoked, the crowds streaming into and out of the Ballarò market kept swelling. Back then, the market was especially crowded at the end of the day. So crowded you had to hold your packages high over your head to get anywhere. The houses didn't have refrigerators back then, and they had to sell everything before it went bad, so they cut prices in the evening. The kids would stand in line to buy salt, playing rock, paper, scissors. The women gossiped about love affairs and girls who had eloped. Here and there, a man, scented with cologne, stood in line for potatoes, singing the first few notes of an aria and winking at anyone who met his gaze. I couldn't say how many cigarettes I smoke every day, twenty, maybe twenty-five, but the one I really enjoy, my favorite one, is the cigarette of six forty in the evening, and even when it's not six forty in the evening, say right now, I pretend it is, I stop whatever I'm doing, I walk away from everything and everyone, I savor my cigarette, and to hell with the world."
Grandma taught her pupils bad words, too, secretly; she said it helped prepare them for life. "Life is more than verbs and arithmetic, it's mud and dirty words, too, and knowledge is better than ignorance."
A police car came toward us, slowed down, looked us over, drove by, and went away.
* * *
On the bed, a note from my mother, in her distinctive nurse's handwriting.
"Your uncle wants you to go someplace with him at 4, he'll come by to pick you up, goodbye, light of my life."
In the kitchen, Grandpa was cooking lunch. Whenever there were strangers around, he was practically mute. Grandpa Rosario talked only to me and his old friend Randazzo. He worked as a cook.
"What are you cooking?"
"Pasta ch'i tenerumi."
He blanched and peeled a tomato, then sliced it. Grandpa's hands were lightning fast.
"How do you know how long to cook everything? Are there tables, like for multiplication?"
"You just have to learn to get the ingredients right."
"And how do you learn that?"
"By getting them wrong."
* * *
On the shelf in the dining room stood a photograph of my parents on their wedding day. My father's right arm protectively encircled my mother's shoulders, his hair was parted to one side, his suit was dark. He was smiling. In his blue eyes there was a fierce note of hope; he could hardly have known he'd be dead within the month. In the photograph, my father was as handsome as his nickname implied: the Paladin. Mamma wore a white dress and held a red rose. Her eyes were shut as she breathed in the scent of the flower: serene, a definitive serenity.
* * *
"So that's that: I'm bettin' on this fine trifecta: Pirollo, Little Frenchman, and Abracadabra. A fabulous combination. Let's go on home now."
"Aren't you going to watch the race, Uncle?"
"Why on earth would I wanna waste my time watching the race?"
"You made a bet."
"Davidù, get this into your head once and for all: once you've gone and made your bet, it's none of your business no more. It's even written in the Holy Scriptures: first you size things up, then you lay your bet, and after that, to hell with it."
The calm detachment with which my uncle had made his bet. That's what I was thinking about on the piazza, in the sweaty aftermath of lunch, while we subjected Gerruso to a firing squad of slaps and smacks.
Nino Pullara had issued the order: "Let's play neck-slap; Gerruso, you're it."
That pathetic loser, unaware that the game was nothing more than a pretext to beat him up, started over to the wall without a word. He dragged his feet as he walked. An inexorable march. He knew he was headed toward certain pain, but he was so stubbornly determined to be part of our gang that his sense of personal dignity had long ago lost its battle against his resignation. Why didn't Gerruso just look for other friends, friends who were as fat and worthless as he was? Why did he accept all this misery? I felt not a scrap of pity for him. He was a weakling. Weaklings deserve no respect.
Gerruso reached the wall, covered his eyes with his right hand, wedged his left hand under his armpit, and held it open, flat. He was ready to play the game. But Pullara had decided to twist the rules. Even if Gerruso did guess who'd slapped him, we'd say he was wrong, he'd have to turn back around, and he'd get another smack on the back of his neck and then another and another, over and over again.
The goal wasn't to play.
The goal was to slaughter him.
The first slap was thrown by Danilo Dominici.
Gerruso took it, suppressing a groan of pain, then turned and looked hard at us.
"Danilo Dominici."
"No."
Pullara had answered for the rest of us.
Gerruso wasn't cheating.
Pullara was.
Lele Tranchina took a running start and slapped with every muscle in his body. Gerruso throttled a cry of hurt deep in his throat. He turned around, without looking at anyone in particular.
"Tranchina."
"No."
Gerruso turned back to the wall without a word. He was a weakling. He deserved all the pain in the world.
I spat on the palm of one hand and rubbed it into the other, the way they did in the movies I'd watched at the theater with Umbertino, who would say after every killing: "Finally a movie the way they oughtta be made, not one of those French pieces of garbage for people who are sick of living. Look at that beautiful explosion! Now this is art."
The truth is, Gerruso, you were born for French movies.
I hit him with such extreme violence that I even surprised myself. The slap didn't erupt into the ringing sound of a smack; instead it was muffled at impact by his entire body into a single, cavernous moan.
Gerruso looked at me instantly, ignoring everyone else.
"Pullara."
Why, Gerruso? Why? What possible reason could you have for being such a loser? You'd guessed who it was that time, too; you should have said my name; that's not how the game is played.
"Wrong!"
Drops of saliva sprayed out of Pullara's mouth. His pupils gleamed with fire. He would be the next one to deliver a neck-slap—it was obvious.
"Turn around, you dumb baby. Now I'll bet we make you cry."
Pullara didn't state the challenge with detachment; he was ferociously committed. He was hopping in the air, waving his hand to warm it up. Once again he broke the rules, bringing his clenched fist down straight onto Gerruso's ear. Gerruso bent over like a snapped twig. Pullara burst into an animal howl, one finger pointing straight up at the sky. Gerruso stood back up, both arms dangling at his sides.
"Pullara," he said.
His eyes hadn't wept a single tear.
* * *
As I walked home, a powerful white Vespa roared past, cutting across my path. Two men, both wearing full-face helmets. I saw myself reflected in the visors. My expression was relaxed, even though both hands had leaped to cover my mouth. It was an instinctive movement. The body bent over in anticipation of danger, warning the senses to react. In Palermo, the defensive crouch is an art handed down from one generation to the next. It becomes more refined as you grow in the city's womb. It was the helmets that made me crouch. No one wore helmets in the city, especially in that heat. Grandma said that heat waves made people lose their minds.
"Have you ever wondered why people kill each other over a parking space in the summer? It's the heat."
"Does that worry you?"
"Not in the slightest, light of my life, nothing can happen to me, I don't even have a driver's license."
Uncle Umbertino was already waiting out front.
He was bouncing on his toes.
"You're late, I've already been standing here for a hell of a long time, two minutes at the very least."
"We were all smacking the fool out of Gerruso."
"Who's Gerruso?"
"Just a kid."
"You rough him up good, so he felt it?"
"Yes."
"Good, there's always some good reason to beat the fool out of a body. But listen, there's been all kinda uproar in this neighborhood: engines roaring and screeching tires, more'n I'm used to."
"What does it mean?"
"How the fuck do I know, I'm no mechanic."
"Isn't Mamma home yet?"
"Do you think for one second that if your mother was upstairs, I'd be waiting here in the middle of the street in all this heat?"
"But don't you have your own keys to our apartment?"
"Yes."
"So why didn't you use them?"
"For two reasons. First of all, I wanted to make sure you had your keys, like you oughtta."
"Here they are."
"Make sure you don't lose them."
"What's the second reason?"
"I left the keys to your house at my house, absurd, ain't it? Now, let's go to the barbershop."
"But I don't want to get my hair cut, Mamma cuts my hair for me."
"Davidù, what the hell do I care about your hair, you'll come to the barbershop with me because I'm asking you, nice and polite, to come with me. Now get moving, because I'm already sick and tired of waiting."
* * *
There was a sign in red paint on the front of the barbershop.
TONY: SHAVE and HAIRCUT
Inside, sitting in the revolving chair, was an old man, his face coated in white foam. Standing next to him, straight razor in hand, was the barber, Tony.
"Is there much of a wait?" my uncle asked.
"This shave, haircut for the gentleman, then you."
"Do you have a horse-racing sheet?"
"What do you think? Would it be a barbershop without it? Right over there."
Umbertino took a seat, began reading intently about the ponies. I sat down next to him, on a red chair that creaked all over. In the stack of newspapers, a glossy magazine. On the cover, it said ADULTS ONLY. The pages were wrinkled and torn.
"So you're telling the truth, Tony?" the old man asked the barber. It seemed as if the foam was talking.
Every movement of Tony's body spoke eloquently of his sincere concern.
"I swear it's true, he was a certified genuine faggot."
"But didn't you notice at first that he was queer?"
"Now to look at him, he looked normal, an upstanding citizen, I even talked to him about the game, you understand? We talked 'bout soccer together, that's what I'm telling you."
"Ridiculous."
"Exactly."
The customer whose turn came before ours was sitting to my left. He had curly hair and a bristly mustache. He felt called upon to break into the conversation at this point in the story.
"But Tony, are you sure he didn't infect you?"
"Right! That's exactly the problem. This momosexuality is one hell of a disease."
"The worst thing there is," the customer with the mustache agreed.
"No laughing matter, that's for sure," the barber reiterated.
Finally Umbertino's voice. He spoke without lowering the racing sheet.
"I hear that them as get infected wind up taking it straight up the ass."
The whole shop burst into laughter.
"Shit, I done picked the wrong trifecta yesterday, oh well, what the hell," my uncle observed without a hint of irritation.
Now that Tony had had a laugh, he seemed more relaxed. He began using the straight razor on the old man's face.
"Listen, you all want to know how I found out he was gay? I swear it's God's own truth, on my mother's sainted head: he told me himself. He said: Now, friend, I happen to like men."
"No!" exclaimed the customer with the mustache.
"Yes."
"This world is going to hell."
"Right."
"They're the curse of all creation," murmured the old man, but gently, because if he moved his jaw too much he might get a new crease in his face. A straight razor doesn't take indignation into account.
"But wait, it gets even worse. Then I realized that this monster had gone and offered me a drink from his bottle of beer. The selfsame bottle he'd been drinking from all this time with his diseased mouth, I mean."
"So then whaddya do, Tony?" the old man asked with vivid concern.
The barber faltered for a moment. He squinted, raised the razor, and decided to go ahead and confide in his little audience.
"From that infected bottle of his, I had gone and taken a drink."
"Fuck! Disaster."
"Fuck is right."
"Infection!" said the old man, in a shrill voice.
The straight razor hovered in midair, a warning.
"Listen, I'm gonna tell you the truth, I was terrified. That momosexuality of his might have infected me, an oral infection straight from the bottle. I was terrified."
"So what did you do, Tony?"
"What do you think? First things first: I broke that bottle right over his head, that piece-of-shit queer."
"Good work, Tony!"
The old man's voice had regained confidence; breaking bottles over the heads of faggots is the behavior of true men.
"I thought I was 'bout to lose my mind."
"I can imagine."
"I had to do something to cure myself, immediately. So I thought it over and…"
Tony looked around, as if he were taking care to shield the information from prying ears. He pronounced each syllable solemnly.
"… and I realized that I had to get cured, sooner than right this second, and so…"
Each person in the barbershop listened with a heightened intensity. Tony filled his lungs to give greater emphasis to the rest of the story: the old man's ears craned in the direction of the barber's mouth to capture the words of revelation at the earliest possible moment; the customer with the mustache stood up and began tapping his foot to an irregular beat. Only Uncle Umbertino remained unruffled. He read his racing sheet and blithely ignored everything and everyone. A burning curiosity to learn whether and how poor Tony had recovered from this momosexuality swept over me, just as it had all the others. I lowered my magazine.
Tony kept his eyes fixed elsewhere, staring out the shop window.
"I."
He reckoned the time needed for his words to clarify. Each time he sensed that the tension had become unbearable, he deigned to dole out another word or two.
"Done."
The old man's neck craned tautly; the mustachioed customer's foot trembled.
"Went to see."
Tony watched us. When the silence had grown deafening, he laid down his ace.
"Pina."
"The whore?" the old man and the man with the mustache cried in chorus.
"Yes."
"The whore in Vicolo Marotta?" they sang out in unison.
"Yes."
"One has the bedroom filled with mirrors?" they drove home the point.
"Yes."
At last Uncle Umbertino folded up his racing sheet and laid it on the pile with the others. Tony had one more spectator now. Flattered, he went on with renewed zeal.
"‘Pina,' I told her, ‘I gotta make love now, right this second, or else I'm in danger of catching a bad case of momosexuality, and that right there's a fate worse than death, iddnit?'"
"Blessed words of truth," the old man decreed.
"Luckily, I thought of the perfect remedy: get me a good fuck right then and there and get cured of that disgusting mess. These fucking queers, they all just need to be killed."
"Blessed words of truth," the old man seconded. Apparently, by the time you come to the end of your life, you're so tired that you have the same thoughts over and over again and you just go on repeating them.
"Boys, I look her straight in the eye and, 'fore we started to fucking, I said something to her that I never say to a whore: ‘Pina, go rinse out your mouth, 'cause that's where I gotta kiss you, it's out the mouth that a disease can get going, you get me? I took a drink of beer from the same bottle as that faggot, come on, hurry up.' And Pina did things right, boys, she rinsed her mouth, nice and clean, even used toothpaste, and the minute she came back I shoved seven feet of tongue down her throat, fuck, I'd never even kissed my wife that deep."
"And then?"
It was Umbertino who spoke. He'd gotten to his feet without my noticing. I never saw him move.
"And then, seeing as I'm a gentleman, I can't exactly go into details, let's just say that I cured myself by fucking her like heaven above, and I needn't say another word to you men of the world."
Tony the barber was chuckling complacently, unaware of something that had become clear to everyone else. My uncle was there, in his shop, because of what had happened, the subject of Tony's story. He moved toward Tony soundlessly, light-footed in a way that no one would have expected from a man of his bulk. Leaping, little steps, quick and silent. When he loomed up in front of him, Tony vanished, hidden from view by his shoulders.
"Listen up and listen good, you dickhead, I'll tell you exactly how the story ends: you tripped, you fell, and shitty luck that you were having, you broke your arm. Or you broke your leg. Take your pick."
"I don't understand."
A second later, Tony was on his knees, keening in pain. My uncle's right hand was crushing the fingers of his left hand.
"Tony, it's either you can't understand, or you won't understand, which is worse. You tripped and fell, now take your pick: an arm or a leg."
Tony was sobbing. The old man and the mustachioed customer said nothing and did nothing, it was all they could do just to breathe.
Umbertino raised his left fist.
"Uncle."
My voice was calm.
Tony managed to mumble a single word: "Stop."
"But when Pina told you to stop, whaddya do, Tony, did you stop?"
He snapped Tony's left forearm with a single motion: his left hand grabbed Tony's elbow, his right hand grabbed Tony's wrist, he twisted both hands, crack.
"Now you remember, Tony, you tripped and fell, uh-huh? You broke your arm. Someone call this boy an ambulance. Davidù, let's get out of here. This place stinks of shit."
I was so overwhelmed that I forgot to leave the magazine. I didn't know a forearm could snap like that.
"You didn't see nothin', right?"
"Right."
"Swear to it."
"I swear."
"What's that you're holding?"
"A magazine, it was in the barbershop."
My uncle leafed through it carefully.
"Good boy, nice stuff you read; just don't let your mother catch you."
"Why not?"
"What do you mean, why not? It's a dirty magazine, if your mother catches you, she'll yell. Listen, here's what we do, I'll hold on to it, and when you wanna look at it, you just come see me, we good?"
Without waiting for my reply, he folded it in half and stuck it in his back pocket.
"Uncle, who's Pina?"
"She's a sort of friend of mine."
"What's that mean?"
"Well, let's just say she's cooked me dinner, once or twice."
"She a good cook?"
"Not as good as she used to be."
The street was cordoned off by a line of police cars.
"Another killing?" Umbertino asked an officer. The policeman lowered his head without saying a word.
I spoke to my uncle under my breath. I didn't want a cop to hear what I was saying to him.
"Why'd you take me with you to see the barber?"
In his face, not even a speck of joy.
"You were the only one that could stop me."
"From doing what?"
"You want a delicious ice cream?"
"Yessss!"
I ordered a cone, with pistachio and mulberry gelato.
"You heard him," Umbertino told the ice cream man. "A nice big ice cream cone with pistachio, mulberry, and whipped cream. Lots of whipped cream."
"But Uncle, I don't want any whipped cream."
"It isn't for you."
He devoured the whipped cream in a single bite.
* * *
Outside the front door, unexpectedly, we ran into Grandpa. Umbertino lengthened his stride and approached him. I hung back, it was too hot to hurry. Cars went past, the passengers looked around, their faces sweaty behind the closed windows. Umbertino and my grandfather shook hands, in complete silence. Then Umbertino came back toward me at a dead run.
"Davidù, hurry, gimme the keys to your apartment."
"Ain't Mamma home yet?"
"No, and your grandpa is leaving, come on, let's git upstairs, hurry!"
"I don't want to, I'll stay down here with Grandpa, then I wanna play with my friends on the piazza."
"Gimme your keys, then, and on the double!"
"Why?"
"I gotta take an Olympic-size shit. Come on, the keys, I'll take you to the piazza afterward, gimme the keys now!"
And off he gallopped upstairs to our apartment. The minute the street door swung shut behind him, Grandpa started talking.
"I came by to bring you some dinner, at work we had leftovers: potato gateau with ground beef filling. Come on over here, now, your face is filthy with ice cream."
He pulled out his handkerchief, raised it to his mouth, dabbed a corner of it against his tongue, and used it to clean my chin.
"Grandpa, Pullara says that if you want to be a real man you have to get yourself dirty. The filthier someone is, the more of a man he is."
"Pullara must have his head full of filth."
"What do you mean?"
"Look out."
A sudden screeching of tires caught us off guard. Grandpa's hands were already around my shoulders. The car swerved quickly, vanishing down the first street on the left.
"Calm down, Davidù, you can put them down."
Both my hands had leaped up to cover my face, without my even noticing.
"There's a lot of uproar," Grandpa mused aloud.
"Uncle said the same thing, the exact same words."
In the distance, the sound of police sirens was incessant.
"Grandpa, I know what it is: Fabrizia!"
"Who?"
"Fabrizia, the girl with the huge tits, works at the bakery. Everyone's coming to the neighborhood to buy bread; I hear all my friends say that Fabrizia is a hot mama."
"Do you like her?"
"Fabrizia? Well, she's a girl, I don't know if I like girls, they're always crying, they can't throw a punch to save their lives, they see blood and start screaming, they're weak."
"They're not weak."
"No?"
"No. I have to go to the train station to meet my friend Randazzo, why don't you go upstairs?"
"No, I'm going to go play with my friends, ciao."
* * *
The first thing I saw when I got to the piazza was Pullara bent over Gerruso, forehead crammed against forehead. Why didn't Gerruso just stay home? Couldn't he see that Pullara hated him, that Pullara was bigger and stronger than him?
Lele Tranchina and Danilo Dominici had their asses planted on the backrest of the bench and their shoes on the seat. Standing in the sun, Guido Castiglia had both hands jammed into his pockets. His shadow merged into the larger shadow of the magnolia tree. He was observing the scene with the remote indifference of someone watching ants. A couple of yards behind him, a girl. She must have been more or less my age.
No one noticed I was there.
My legs decided not to take another step.
My body was assuming a defensive crouch.
The girl was wearing a light-colored dress with a hem that hung just below her knees.
Red hair.
Pullara was shouting.
"Pass the test!"
Gerruso was whimpering incomprehensibly. Pullara spat a single gob of spit into his face, a gob that clung to his skin without sliding off. Then he ground his forehead even harder, with greater determination, against Gerruso's, shoving him downward, forcing him to his knees. Pullara's voice was piercing and strident.
It was too hot to get as worked up as he was.
"You have to pass the test!"
Pullara pulled a jackknife out of his pocket, opened it, and placed it in Gerruso's hand. He was so sure of himself that it never crossed his mind for an instant that he might be stabbed. Lele Tranchina tried to say something. He couldn't get the words out. Danilo Dominici was white as a sheet. Guido Castiglia kept his arms folded across his chest. The only voice that could be heard in the piazza was t